I will definitely be able to come out, I will definitely be able to, Zhang Yang kept saying. But the pain in my heart is unbearable, and evil thoughts come to my heart from time to time, and I go to Bo to fill this hole.

Ahh

The people around were startled by the sudden cry, and looked at it like this. People who are close to each other quickly walk into the distance until they keep an absolutely safe distance. The corners of his mouth bulged out, shouting neurosis.

After the frenzy, Zhang Yang finally calmed down, and the demon in his heart was temporarily suppressed. But man is like a soulless, walking corpse. A kind of despair instantly filled the whole person, and death hung over the head, constantly circling.

Zhang Yang was very scared, afraid that something would really happen to him. took out his mobile phone to his eldest brother, and Zhang Min pulled out the phone.

Zhang Min was about to take a shower after work, when he saw the caller ID, he hurriedly put down his change of clothes. Hey, third brother, what's wrong?

Big brother, I'm really tired, so tired. It's painful!

Listening to Zhang Yang's words, Zhang Min's heart was also twitching, when the third brother was not in contact with gambling, he had never heard him say that he was bitter and tired, and now seeing him so hurt, it seems that gambling is really like poison, it is a terrible thing.

Third brother, this is nothing, think about someone who loses millions, don't you live like this, insist on not touching it again, and a few years will pass.

Zhang Yang listened to his eldest brother's words and was silent.

If you make mistakes, you have to be able to bear them, and who is free from worries in life.

Do you think that those who are limb are still alive and strong? You have to remember the pain of today, when you have survived. In the years to come, you will know how to cherish it even more.

"Big brother," but my heart is really tired, and I can't breathe under the pressure.

Don't think about it, live the day now. When you let go of that pressure, it's not so scary. Think about it, even if you don't lose money now, you're still living like this. You should be, the life you yearn for has been postponed for two years.

You have to remember that there is no one but you who can help you through this. Don't touch it again, if you touch it again, you'll really kill yourself.

I knew the eldest brother, Zhang Yang hung up the phone.

The eldest brother is right, just think of the life you yearn for being pushed back for two years, and you always have to pay some price for doing it yourself. Life has to be the same, and there are still people at home who are looking forward to it, so go back and wash and sleep.

Walking on the hustle and bustle of the road, drunk and hazy, the moon hangs high, he is a happy person, but he feels lonely at this time.

The tired heart made Zhang Yang look like a terminally ill person, and he walked for half an hour for a short distance.

Aren't you going today? Zhang Jiabao asked when he saw Zhang Yang come back.

Well, after Zhang Yang answered, he washed and went to sleep.

......

Before the alarm clock rang in the morning, Zhang Yang woke up, looked at the time of half past seven, almost the alarm clock time when he didn't gamble before, and woke up when he woke up.

There is plenty of time, Zhang Yang doesn't need to be in a hurry, everything can be carried out naturally, it is so comfortable.

Zhang Yang went to the bathroom to go to the toilet first, and he didn't have to be like before, brushing his teeth while relieving, which was really cool. After going to the toilet and washing up, the time is still eight o'clock. Zhang Yang put on his clothes, took his things and went out.

Yes, the weather is exceptionally good today. The breeze blows the green from time to time.

If you don't know the wind, you might think that trees are alive and can dance on their own.

The sunlight sprinkled on Zhang Yang's body with the gap between the leaves, and the air was filled with infinite freshness, which made people feel very comfortable. But no matter how comfortable the body is, it can't heal the devastated heart.

I don't know how many people will dig deep like themselves and put themselves on the brink of life and death. Thinking of this, Zhang Yang opened the browser with his mobile phone and typed "How many people have been hurt by gambling".

Countless pages popped up, I didn't know if I didn't check it, and I was shocked when I saw it. There are countless posts, none of which are the worst, only worse. The posts are full of regrets, despair. There are even people who are counting down the time and ending their own lives.

This is really my own sorrow, and it is also the sorrow of this era. The rapid development of the social Internet and the popularization of intelligent technology have brought benefits to the public, but they have also ignored too much. Telecom fraud, online gambling, online loans, I don't know how many people have been harmed.

What's the use of thinking about this, what is the miserable situation now, insist on going out step by step, and only then can you do something in the future. Come on, Zhang Yang!

It's so early today, leader. Wang Qiang was playing the work card and said.

I drank too much yesterday and went to bed early, so I came early today. Why are you here so early?

After punching the card, seeing that the time was still early, Zhang Yang and Wang Qiang came to the shade of the tree opposite the factory, that place was already everyone's default, chatting and bragging about Hu Dashankan's camp.

As long as there is no traffic jam, I don't have much to do every day. You also know that if you live far away, you don't have to be late, if you run into a traffic jam, you have to be late. Wang Qiang said with a cup of millet porridge of "stomach (feed), I will raise you" in his hand.

Zhao Zijing, who has always liked to joke, asked the single dog Lao Wang, let's go to the alley last night, when will I take a few brothers to play.

Lao Wang still showed a mouthful, his yellow teeth were smoked for many years, grinned, and said with a smile, Pull it, you want me to take it, this is a radius of fifty miles, which small alley is unknown to you Lao Zhao.

Shhhhhhh It's good if you know, don't make it all over the world know whether it's good or not.

Young people should be preferred, be careful of poisoning, and find a girlfriend to be the right way. Wang Qiang looked at Lao Wang pretending to be old-fashioned, and said forcefully.

How do you make it as if you have a girlfriend, Lao Wang replied with a smile.

The more lively the scene, the more sad it is. So Zhang Yang didn't join their Hu Kan and entered the company to prepare for a day's work.

Walking into the company, the once ordinary life will come to mind, although I have no money before, but I have a healthy body and a harmonious family. When I'm idle, I'm just as nonsense as they are. Now only the sad man with the mask remains.

A day at work, everything went relatively smoothly. I don't know if it's because of my mentality, or because I'm not tired from work, Zhang Yang feels that his work is still relatively easy. Compared with the part-time job at night, it is obviously much easier, but it is several times more than that.

Alas, what's the use of thinking about this, if you don't do it, why do you need to work part-time? You have to thank people for giving you this opportunity to work part-time now. Let's boil it slowly...

Zhang Yang, it's time to eat. Engineer Jack Lian shouted.

Zhang Yang was fluted, and when he heard him scream, he realized that he was already hungry, and he was really hungry if he didn't eat breakfast. Okay, you go first.

When I came to the dining hall and smelled the food, I felt that it was very fragrant. I can't help but think of the last time, I also died like this, and I lost to the bottom of the mountains and rivers. I knew that some people were happy when they ate, but how long has it been, how did I step into this ghost gate again, I don't know if I am sick or stupid.

After queuing up to make a meal, Zhang Yang said, Auntie will add some food to me.

The people in the back looked at an alternative person, and everyone couldn't finish this meal.

Zhang Yang could feel that abnormal vision, but who knew that he hadn't eaten breakfast in the morning, no matter what, wasn't he just an alternative now.

Wang Qiang looked at Zhang Yang and motioned for him to come over and sit together.

Zhang Yang just smiled and didn't go over to sit with everyone. I found a place where there were few people. Because I am afraid of their abnormal eyes and words.

Lao Liu's words yesterday have always been imprinted in his heart. "You've eaten too cleanly, as if you haven't eaten breakfast, and you can eat such unpalatable meat. ”

Zhang Yang knew that they had no malicious intent, and if he had seen this situation before, he should have the same reaction. Because everyone often improves their food outside, and now they are poor, not to mention improving their food, even if they have no money to eat breakfast, they feel happy when they can eat, and they naturally eat more fragrantly.

After eating the last piece of meat on the plate, no one's plate in the entire canteen was so clean, and Zhang Yang was full.

The eyes of the people nearby were about to fall out. It's been a long time since eating, a fat man said to his companion.

Zhang Yang listened to the gossip, did not refute, and did not get angry. I just feel like I'm really a fool. I made myself die like this, as if I had eaten this meal without a meal, and I felt like I had lived to the seventies and eighties.

Do you remember the lesson? Zhang Yang? Remember the dignity of this loss, fool?

Come on, come to gamble, how can you return to the original trajectory without betting, come on, come on, come to gamble, come to win back your dignity?