Chapter 40: You Can Go Out
Silly 13, fuck off, this is a point of no return. Even if I die, I will never repeat the same mistakes. Zhang Yang shouted angrily at the hideous-looking devil.
Don't be so absolute, you'll be back. Ahaha...
The devil's dark and strange laughter kept echoing in Zhang Yang's ears.
Zhang Yang squatted down on the side of a road where no one was around, like a soulless and homeless person, quietly out of his mind.
No one knows what's wrong with him, and no one cares what's wrong with him.
Pedestrians are busy on the road, and shopkeepers are busy with their careers. Zhang Damei is also very busy, and with one less person, she is really too busy. Zhang Damei asked the proprietress with doubts, why didn't Zhang Yang come today?
Zhang Yang asked for leave today, and the proprietress replied.
I'll go, it won't be two days, I'll stop doing it, sister, I'll just stop for two days. Alas, let's get to work! There are already two tables waiting to be cleaned up.
Chen Yu looked at the cooked meat skewers, which had already been loaded with a few plates, and no one had come over to serve them, so he shouted outside, pretty boy, give the skewers to you.
Wang Damei was cleaning up the table, so naturally she didn't have time to serve it, so she turned around and said, you can serve it yourself, Zhang Yang didn't come today.
Chen Yu had no choice but to serve it to the guests himself. It seems that without Zhang Yang, it is really much more troublesome.
There is one less person, everyone is busy, no one helps Wang Damei clean up the table, and no one helps Chen Yu and Chen Fei serve dishes.
Busy time always passes very quickly, and Chen Yu doesn't have time to play with the black color of his mobile phone, but only occasionally looks at it twice.
People who lose themselves are destined to have thousands of knots in their hearts. Zhang Yang's heart was very depressed, and there were countless remorsefuls in his heart, but he found that he couldn't find anyone to talk to.
The person you once liked will also become someone else's bride tomorrow. I still remember a few months ago, Xiaofan asked himself, if I get married one day, will you come to the scene to bless me?
I was stunned for a moment, and then I promised her that I would, I would definitely come.
Until now, I know that she is going to be someone else's bride, and her heart is like being hollowed out all at once, which is very uncomfortable. Even though I didn't have it, it felt like I had lost something forever. It turned out that she had been with her in her heart, and she could come to her at any time to talk about the bitterness in her heart.
Now she will be someone else's bride, she will no longer be her, she will be someone else's other half, and she may still have half of her former self, or maybe only a quarter, or she will no longer be her.
Thinking of this, Zhang Yang didn't sneer, I finally lost you. I also lost myself. Maybe it's time to put an end to it.
Zhang Yang took out his mobile phone, gritted his teeth, and sent a text message to Xiao Fan, "Xiao Fan, I'm sorry, I finally pushed myself to a dead end." I promised you a promise, I'm going to break my promise, and I'm going to run away from even that basic courtesy, I'm really sorry. Don't expect your forgiveness. I sincerely wish you happiness and happiness forever in the future. Don't ask me why? Don't ask anything? Just when you know an abusive person. ”
What's wrong, what's going on? Xiao Fan replied angrily.
Although Zhang Yang didn't want Xiao Fan to reply to the message, he had some expectations in his heart. A heart that is so hurt and lonely really needs a little forgiveness and care. When looking at the strings of questions, Zhang Yang's heart was extremely warm, like an ice arrow piercing through, ice and fire.
After looking at the message for a long time, Zhang Yang still didn't reply after all. He sat on the rocks on the edge of the road.
"What's wrong with you? If you don't want to come, I didn't say I wanted you to give you the money? ”
Xiaofan was really angry, he really hoped that he could attend his wedding, he liked him so much at the beginning, but he didn't have the courage to confess, and he always maintained a friend relationship. It wasn't until later that he wanted to speak, but found out that he was already a husband.
Later, I also fantasized about snatching him one day, but found that he was already a father. I don't know if it's my cowardice or fate playing tricks on people, seeing him happy, I am willing to bless him silently.
Fate sometimes loves to play tricks on people, and once joked, I used to like you so much, why didn't you take a fancy to me.
He said stupidly, how is it possible, you can take a fancy to me, I had a crush on you for a long time, and I wanted to confess to you that time, but I found that you were walking with someone else.
"When did you find out that I was with someone else. ”
"It was your birthday five years ago, I went to celebrate your birthday with a bear doll, but I found someone holding your hand. ”
"Didn't you come that time? I still remember that you forgot my birthday and didn't even call me, and I was angry for a long time. ”
"It's not that I forgot, I just want to surprise and confess to you. Just seeing that scene, I went to the door and left, I couldn't accept that you became someone else's person. ”
"Oh, I remember!!Hmph, what took my hand, it wasn't my birthday, my cousin bought me a watch, he had to take it down for me, see how it was. You may be mistaken.
Maybe it's fate, the two chatted for a long time that day, and they were full of emotion, but everything was already in the boat.
Zhang Yang is already a husband and a father. It is impossible to be a third party and break up other people's homes.
Alas, time flies so fast, five or six years pass like this. I am not too young, and I can't stand the urging of my parents to get married, so I should be relieved.
This year, I finally met a person who looked at the right eye and was very good to himself. Get ready to get married and start your own life.
looked at him who he once liked, lived happily, and promised to send blessings to himself on the wedding day. I finally felt a little relieved, and today I inexplicably sent such a message. It's really heartbreaking.
Zhang Yang, what's wrong with you? Can you say something? Can you not die like this?
Looking at the messages one by one, a familiar face flashed in front of Zhang Yang's eyes, she opened a pair of big eyes, and she looked angry. Zhang Yang smiled, he couldn't forget the appearance in his heart, in the eyes of outsiders, it was not beautiful, but he felt very beautiful.
It's not a couple, but it seems to go beyond friendship. Is it a confidant? Maybe I just treat her as emotional garbage, and I'm a selfish person.
"Yes, I just killed myself, I am an abusive person, you should stay away from me, I am a selfish person, and I have always been a self-righteous person. Give me a few years, and I'll give you an explanation, Xiaofan."
"Are you gambling again, or are you taking drugs?"
"Don't ask, I made it myself, just let me carry it slowly, don't worry, I will definitely try to live, you don't have to send it, I won't go back." Finally, I sincerely wish you happiness and happiness. ”
Zhang Yang really wanted to cry without tears, how could he die like this.
"Anyway, don't push yourself so hard. Xiaofan probably estimated that Zhang Yang had re-gambled again.
"Money, if you lose, you can earn it slowly, make mistakes and remember the lesson. There is nothing that cannot be passed, and you must not do anything illegal or criminal. After sending the message, Xiaofan sighed, alas, how could it be like this. A person who used to be so sunny is now like this. It should be the harm of online gambling that he said last time.
Hopefully he'll really come out this time. I guess he must have died of regret and despair now, the second time he touched this thing, he should also know that no one can forgive him, it's really a death, Xiaoyang. Maybe I should give him some hope!
"Xiaoyang, I know you're having a hard time now, no matter what mistakes you make, I believe you can definitely come out, since you don't want to say it now, then don't say it. ”
"If you feel uncomfortable, I want to say, I am always willing to be your listener, no one's life is smooth sailing, there will always be some ups and downs, so that you can not be surprised in the future.
"You'll give me an explanation later, I'll wait! But don't be in a hurry, go forward step by step. You can, I believe in you. ”