Xu Zeyuan's resignation letter was finally approved, the company did not pursue Xu Zeyuan's criminal responsibility for public and private interests, on the surface, evenly matched, no winner or loser, in fact, Xu Zeyuan ended miserably, waiting for him will be no longer a foothold in the industry, he calculated that Xingke's project cycle in T province is one year, if there is no follow-up project, Xu Zeyuan will become a member of the unemployed group. 32 years old, unemployed, single, not needed, no one is cute. Like a hero who has fallen from the altar, he has lost his direction, lost his love, and lost his fighting spirit.

The buds of the willow branches showed a little new green, Xu Zeyuan walked down the street in despair, holding the personal belongings retrieved from the company with one hand, and tightening the single coat on his body with the other, and his hand holding the corner of the coat was injured. Yes, alcohol can make people lose their minds, just when he was about to leave the company, Li Cheng stopped him, Xu Zeyuan knew that Li Cheng was promoted, and took over Xu Zeyuan's position - acting technical manager. Long before the incident, Xu Zeyuan often saw Li Cheng and Vice President Li talking happily, they were very close, Li Cheng was also Xu Zeyuan's very trusted brother, and Xu Zeyuan worked all night with programming, and received the unknown bonus given to him by Xu Zeyuan himself, and was scolded by Xu Zeyuan for missing the bidding project, and now he finally seized the opportunity, and was happy to be ashamed of his revenge and replace Xu Zeyuan. He stopped Xu Zeyuan's way and said, Old Xu, let's talk. And Xu Zeyuan replied to him with a fist and a nosebleed all over his face. Xu Zeyuan hated, as for what he hated and who he hated, he didn't know very well, he just needed to use alcohol to play on the topic and be violent, but it happened that it was Li Cheng who appeared at this time. Colleagues came around, and the security guards also came, Li Cheng covered his nose and said vaguely, let him go, let him go. Xu Zeyuan smiled, he was laughing at Li Cheng's weakness, timidity, and cautious face.

Except for the chill of early spring, Xu Zeyuan couldn't experience the spring and vitality. He was drunk and dreamed of death all day long, his blood flowed with the depraved gene of vice addiction, Lin Jinxi was his only antidote, but even she left him, no explanation, no farewell, no openness, and walked quietly, leaving him with nothing, making him unclear, making him ruthless, but ruthless and unwilling.

Xu Zeyuan packed his clothes, he planned to go back to his hometown to visit his mother, who had urged him to go back to the town to burn Qingming paper for his grandfather at the beginning of the month, when he was busy with the project in T Province and coping with the company's final judgment. The branches and leaves of Yueji and Mandala on the balcony withered, in addition to his own clothes, there were also Lin Jinxi's, he folded them one by one and sealed them in cardboard boxes, planning to send them to Lin Jinxi's parents' home. He remembered the address, even though Lin Jinxi had only told him once, and even though he had driven her back to her parents' house twice, he had only waited for her outside the community. Perhaps, he could also send Lin Jinxi's clothes to her house in person, he could question her face to face, but he didn't dare, he didn't want to hear the news that she had another love, and he was sure that Lin Jinxi was not at home, if Lin Jinxi's parents asked him who he was? How would he answer? Lin Jinxi's ex-boyfriend who said goodbye without saying goodbye? The ill-intentioned guy they had invited twice but was politely rejected? Or claiming to be Lin Jinxi's colleague, maybe Lin Jinxi's parents will tell him that Jinxi is on a business trip, or Jinxi is married, no matter what, Lin Jinxi is now by the other man's side and has become the only one for another man.

Xu Zeyuan took a salute to look around this once extremely warm home for the last time, and he tried his best to restore it to the way it was when Lin Jinxi first moved in, a little empty, cold, just to be rented, and the appearance of complete household appliances. He was reluctant but had to turn off the button of the electric light next to the door, just like the switch in the middle of a four-act drama, it was dark all of a sudden, and Xu Zeyuan seemed to have a hasty curtain call in the first half of his life, leaving the scene with a sunset hero. Who is he, where is he, where is he going?

There are still sporadic people in the ancestral grave of the Xu family, Xu Zeyuan cleaned up the weeds on his grandfather's grave, wiped the tombstone with a paper towel, lit a cigarette and put it in front of the tomb, opened it for ten miles, poured three cups in a row, and sprinkled three cups in a row. Then he sat on the edge of the grave and poured himself a drink with his grandfather.

Grandpa, my grandma is very good, her body is tough, since you left, she changed to fasting, saying that she asked you to wait for her, and I will find you in the future? My dad is retired, my mom's illness has improved, I go to the provincial hospital for two rounds of radiotherapy and chemotherapy a month, and recently I go to accompany my mother whenever I have time, my mother is afraid that I will affect my work. Master, I have nothing, I have lost your adult.

Xu Zeyuan poured himself with a wine glass at first, and after three glasses and two glasses, he held the wine bottle and drank it.

Master, what did I do wrong? I haven't done anything bad. Didn't I just take the money I was supposed to take? But I didn't do anything sorry to my brothers, I didn't treat them badly, and I didn't give them a penny of what they deserved. There is also Lin Jinxi, who said that change will change, and he will leave.

He wiped the wine that flowed to his chin with his hand, his index finger slid from his mouth, and he added a lower lip, which was not only spicy but also a little salty.

I smiled at the sky with my horizontal knife, and went to leave the liver and gallbladder two Kunlun. People are not afraid of death, so I fell and could still get up, master, can I? Do you say I can still stand up?

Xu Zeyuan drank in and out of his tongue, sighed, took a nap, and when he woke up, he was already annoyed. The setting sun is only close to dusk. He got up and got drunk after an unsuccessful wine attempt, remembering that there was something he hadn't done, and walked in the direction of the Seifu Temple in the West Mountain with staggering steps.

The road is rugged and winding, the road is getting narrower, the sky is getting darker, and the cliffs and steep peaks are not a good time to climb. Xu Zeyuan carefully groped the rock wall, with his toes kept probing, step by step, he was confident in his memory, the mountain road on the edge of the cliff was about 60 meters long, because he walked 40 steps last time, and then he needed to walk 28 more steps around the rock wall. After all, it is difficult to walk at night, and he has not woken up from the slight smoke, and his feet are already in chaos. He took out his mobile phone, with the faint light of the mobile phone screen (a M brand of the latest flip phone), walking on thin ice over the rock wall that can be climbed, it seems that it is difficult to step into an arc, he calculates the cautious gait, about 70 steps to embark on the smooth road down the mountain, he mentally silently counts the steps, but the more the pace is more messy, the more messy it is, even the most basic number is not clear, 44 steps, no, the two steps just now are a temptation, still in place, so it is 42 steps. Xu Zeyuan wiped the sweat from the corners of his forehead, the mobile phone accidentally slipped from his fingers, he chased the light of the green to pick it up, his body lost his balance and rolled down from the mountain road, Xu Zeyuan's panic dissipated instantly, he was about to die in the night of this dark scenery, sliding into the bottomless abyss, maybe this is the best destination, but in a trance he seemed to be able to see a little light, he thought, very good, the place he went to was not too bad.

A clear sound lingered in the center of his eyebrows, Xu Zeyuan opened his eyes hard, the walls were white, and the ceiling was hung with minimalist light bulbs, he slept on the kang bunk woven by the old reed mat, and touched the head and tail - all beards and all tails. He lifted the quilt and got up, wearing a clean slash trousers, and his dirt clothes were neatly folded on one side. The door creaked and was pushed open, and a sharp-faced little monk entered the door with clear porridge and side dishes, and looked at Xu Zeyuan.

Amitabha, donor, please have breakfast.

Is this Seifuji Temple?

Be.

Xu Zeyuan looked at the little monk,

Master, but Master Daoyi?

The little monk put away the dishes and chopsticks, and carefully looked at Xu Zeyuan,

Have you ever been to the temple?

Xu Zeyuan got up to reach for clothes, broke his ankle, and fell to the ground.

Amitabha, donor, your foot is twisted, and my master gave you herbs last night. As he spoke, Dao Yi went to help Xu Zeyuan.

Your master doesn't understand?

Precisely.

Please help me hand over my clothes.

Dao Yi responded and handed over Xu Zeyuan's pants and clothes.

Xu Zeyuan took out three photos from his jacket pocket, one for Dao Yi, one for the master, and one for the master and apprentice, and handed them to Dao Yi.

Xu Zeyuan remembered that Dao Yi was the little monk who wore an apron and let him get acquainted with the mandala flowers.

Dao Yi looked at Zhao Sheng, with a happy face, and then looked at Xu Zeyuan,

Donor, I remember the photo, you and I don't remember, hundreds of people come to us every year. But I remember the one who took a picture of us with a camera.

She was here last year. When it comes to Lin Jinxi, Xu Zeyuan is inexplicably bitter.

She had only been here since the beginning of the month.

Which month?

At the beginning of this month, during the 21-day puja in the monastery, the benefactor stayed from the first day to the last day before coming down last week.

Who is she with?

Came alone.

No way.

How is it impossible? 21 days to be satisfied.

What did she tell you?

The puja stopped, didn't say anything?

No way.

She only sighed twice, and said that the relationship was the saddest.

With whom do you have a relationship?

Dao Yi touched his head, in fact, it was the most confusing thing to fall in love with him.

Donor, she didn't say it, and I don't understand what she said. Did the donor give me this photo?

Yes, she said she sent it, and I thought she had forgotten.

She also brought three sheets, I can accept this, I want to keep one of Master's.

Random. Master, how did I get here, and when can I leave?

Yesterday after the evening class, the senior brother said that there was a flickering fire on the mountain, the master looked at it, and said that he was afraid that someone was rushing to the night road, so let the senior brother check it, and it would be better to be lucky than lucky. Sure enough, when we arrived, we saw you rolling down the slope from the road, but luckily you fell down the broad road that went around the slope, and the trees on the slope stopped you sideways.

Your master is really amazing!

That is, my master, who has received the three great precepts, has obtained the true transmission of my master, has gone to a Buddhist college, walked through the jungle, read countless scriptures, became the first seat at the age of 26, and is the abbot of this Qingfeng Temple at the age of 30.

Buddhism is no different from Hongchen, and the age of 30 is indeed a watershed in his career.

Although I don't understand the things of the red dust, Master often tells us that we all have Buddha nature, and that we must have a true heart that is not polluted by the world, whether we are monks at home. But in the world, the pursuit of fame and fortune is inseparable from the words greed, hatred, and stupidity, how can it be the same?

Xu Zeyuan was speechless for a while, never thought that a young monk who was less than 20 years old would use three words to explain the source of the world's suffering, and couldn't help but recall that he had gone through all kinds of things, not because of greed, knowing that he couldn't do it, because of prudence and hatred, he was angry with others, because he was ignorant of right and wrong, and he didn't feel a little ashamed, and he lived in vain for more than 30 years.

I didn't expect you to be so insightful at such a young age.

Dao Yi can't hide the joy of being praised,

Thanksgiving and good knowledge are all taught well by my master.

Who is your master? Xu Zeyuan wanted to be unenlightened for a while, and even more wanted to thank him in person.

Dao Yi can guess what Xu Zeyuan is thinking,

Donor, please drink this bowl of porridge and follow me to see the master, my master will say thank you, so you don't need to, just meet the deceased for a while.

Porridge finished. Dao Yi gave Buwu a laundry face, water and laundry.

Xu Zeyuan followed Dao Yi out of the squatter, Dao Yi handed him the wooden hand standing by the door, the two of them one after the other, from the west door straight through to the last courtyard to the Tibetan hall, a monk dressed in Ming Huang Haiqing held the scriptures and recited. When Dao Yi and Xu Zeyuan stopped outside the hall, the monks got up and poured incense and bowed respectfully.

Dao Yi explained to Xu Zeyuan in a low voice,

After the morning class, the Master recited the Dizang Sutra every day for the devout Dharma laymen.

Xu Zeyuan looked around, the wall on the right side was full of names and names, and the top one was very old, and the handwriting was not clear.

Xu Jiasi, the fifth grandfather.

The deceased Tanyue in the town is all on it. A lot of it is my master's old knowledge.

Xu Zeyuan was looking for something,

Xu Shenghui, my grandfather. Xu Zeyuan couldn't help but raise his voice a few decibels.

At this time, Buwuli turned around and faced Xu Zeyuan, his eyes were only inches away, and his eyelids drooped slightly.

Amitabha, Qingfeng Temple has risen and fallen for several years, and finally the incense can be extended to thank the ancestors of the Xu family.

Xu Zeyuan didn't understand, he was taller and burlier than in the past, but the dignified and heavy that did not match his age had never changed, and he was peerless, when he saw a black mole the size of half a mung bean in the corner of his left eye, Xu Zeyuan confirmed that this unenlightened master was the 'little monk' who fought with him on the Flying Flower Order.

Unenlightened Zen master. Xu Zeyuan tried to salute with his palms together, but his movements were rusty but humble.

In the past, because of the fruits of today, we meet again.

I was too young and vigorous to understand a lot of things.

I want to thank you for that.

What are you grateful for?

At that time, my master and Venerable Shengru of the Three Pure Nunnery were invited by the town purlin to do things, and I didn't want to be scolded by a child and say that we were gods of chaos, so I knew that there are people in the world who don't believe in Buddhism, and there are also bhikshus who are chaotic.

Buwu said as he led Xu Zeyuan to a small tea room in the side courtyard, Dao Yi followed behind him, took boiling water and served the tea before retreating and leaving, there were only Xu Zeyuan and Buwu in the tea room.

At that time, I was young and frivolous, so there was a comparison, the bright moon was shining in the sky, and the yellow dog was lying in the shade of flowers. obviously doesn't understand, and acts arbitrarily, and now I think back to the fifth grandfather, grandfather's sour rot is not all wrong.

Philosophy explores the self, the id, and the superego, and the practice of Buddhism is separated from the separation of the true self and the dusty phase, the true self and the ignorance.

Xu Zeyuan unexpectedly heard the word philosophy, and underestimated it, he just two sentences let Xu Zeyuan understand the general meaning of Buddhism, people must at least find yourself throughout your life, understand yourself, and be yourself. He took advantage of the tea to look at him again, he still blindly drooped his eyelids, neither humble nor arrogant, Xu Zeyuan was not ashamed, along the way, his most failure was to overestimate himself and underestimate others,

What is the meaning of life? Xu Zeyuan asked, hoping to get a signature.

It is said that when you are born, your hands are grasped. When you die, your hand is free. Ask for it but can't, abandon it and give it up, so it's troubled. What you have is just what you borrow, not really owned, mistaking the use for possession, and then losing it will be painful, but what people learn throughout their lives is to let go. I don't understand it.

Xu Zeyuan listened attentively, and the words that he didn't understand were imprinted on his heart, just like a dying person seeing a ray of light, being watched by a god whose face he couldn't see clearly and handing him a life-saving straw. Xu Zeyuan's heart gradually quieted down, fragments of memories flowed in his mind, if time could be turned back, he would not just be with Meng Chen because of habit, he would not make an alliance with Jia because of a trace of greed and selfishness, and he would not be honest with Lin Jinxi in the name of love. It's a pity that time can't be turned back, but at least he still has enough time to reinvent himself.

Can dust refer to hue, and ignorance can refer to delusion? Xu Zeyuan asked.

Unenlightened lowered his eyelids and closed, pausing for a moment,

Where does this question come from?

In the Heart Sutra, the clouds, relics, are the emptiness of all laws, which are neither born nor destroyed, neither dirty nor pure, neither increased nor decreased. The empty phase is the phase of the vacuum. Later, he said that there is no color, no feeling, no thought, no action, no cognition, no eyes, no ears, no nose, no tongue, no body, no mind, no color, no sound, no fragrance, no taste, no touch, no dharma, no vision, no consciousness, no ignorance, no end of ignorance, no old age, no suffering, no gathering, no extinction, no way, no wisdom and no gain. Then the dust item is the hue of the six dusts. Ignorance is about upside-down dreams. Xu Zeyuan still remembers the "Heart Sutra" taught by the old man, and today he has the opportunity to be enlightened.

I didn't understand what I heard, I didn't speak, Shaoqing only held up the teacup and took a sip of tea, and praised,

Today's tea is made from pine needles picked in the mountains in winter, so what's the difference?

Xu Zeyuan took a sip and replied, his lips and teeth were sweet, which was a little different.