Chapter 15: Grief

At night, the bustle of the city never ends. The snack street is lined with all kinds of cars.

Every time Zhang Yang passed by a car, his heart was cut. If you don't gamble, the money you lose is enough to buy a small luxury car.

A gust of wind swept by, and Zhang Yang shivered coldly.

Zhang Yang hurriedly pulled his thoughts back, thinking about whether this is still useful? The money has already been lost by you, even if you have 10,000 regrets, it is useless. The more you think about it, the more you lose your will, so let's think about how to fill this hole.

There is no hope for begging anymore, how about singing, so that it can attract everyone's attention, maybe there is still a glimmer of hope. Thinking of this, Zhang Yang became more energetic, and his steps became lighter. I quickly rushed back to the dormitory to plan for a new hope.

Liu Huanhuan looked at Zhang Zixiang in his sleep, and he didn't know what happy things he dreamed of, and he smiled sweetly.

It's a month older, and if you wait a year old, you can take it. Liu Huanhuan kissed the little guy gently.

Yes, just prepare a stereo. If you think of it, you have to do it, Zhang Yang told himself not to care about his success or failure first.

Zhang Yang quickly searched for stereos with his mobile phone, and finally bought the most ordinary and cheap device. Looking forward to the holidays...

Liu Huanhuan looked at the little baby who was growing up day by day, and was in a good mood. The gambling on Zhang Yang in the past has gradually dissipated, thinking that he will never dare to touch it again, and he only leaves him living expenses every month. Don't ask for wealth, just want a healthy family. Zhang Yang can work hard.

Zhang Yang is copying the lyrics of "Bright", when the ashes seal the eaves of the frost, when the chrysanthemum grass turns into late autumn dew, I make a bag out of stubborn dead vines. Walked to the thorny land, when the earth is paved with weeping leaves, when the azaleas turn into the mist of the distant sky, bless me The relatives I miss the most, that is the figure of my farewell to you, maybe the melancholy of being lost, will tear my footsteps, but I believe that the future will give me a pair, the wings of dreams, although the pain of failure, has made me bruised, but I firmly believe that the light is in the distance......... My heart is full of hopes and dreams.

What are you writing, Zhang Jiabao asked, go, run!

I'm not running anymore, I've been a little tired lately...

What's the matter, I've been running for a few months, and I won't give up!

Zhang Yang didn't dare to say about his gambling losses this time, a few months ago, he also told Zhang Jiabao that he was embarrassed in the past, saying that he would not touch it again in the future, and now he is shooting himself in the foot. It's really shameful, it's really shameless!

I have to make an excuse, I'm too tired from work lately!

Zhang Jiabao always felt that something was wrong, but he didn't ask too much, so he changed into a sportswear and went out.

Alas! Zhang Yang sighed, he fucking did it a little dead this time, thinking back to the past, I really wanted to cry. When I didn't lose this money, I could run with Zhang Jiabao and them every day after work, barbecue supper, and how happy my days were.

Zhang Zixiang drank milk, his eyes closed slightly and opened gently, and he fell asleep after drinking a bottle of milk, but his small mouth was still tightly holding the pacifier.

Liu Huanhuan slowly took the bottle from his mouth, for fear of accidentally waking him up.

Zhang Xinyu came over and took the bottle to wash.

Zhang Xinyu was watching the anime, and reluctantly moved her feet, her eyes still staring straight at the TV.

If you hear no, hurry up and take the bottle to wash it. Liu Huanhuan shouted

Zhang Xinyu hurriedly ran over.

Liu Huanhuan hugged Zhang Zixiang, got up and shook gently, to see if he could put him on the bed, to see that he was not sleeping very well, and walked around twice with him. It wasn't until he slept soundly that he was put to bed.

Liu Huanhuan let out a long breath, and finally could rest.

Zhang Xinyu, have you washed your face and feet, what time is it, and you don't have to go to school tomorrow?

Wow, the teacher didn't say it was a holiday.

I haven't washed it yet, so I thought you shouldn't go to school and help me take my little brother at home?

I'm not, Zhang Xinyu is coquettish, hum! hum, I'll go after watching this episode.

Hurry up and see again tomorrow. Liu Huan said angrily

Zhang Xinyu saw that her mother was about to get angry, so she had to obediently wash her feet.

Liu Huanhuan was half-lying on the sofa and looked at her phone, Zhang Yang didn't chat with me today, is it very busy at work, but he used to make video calls to me every day.

Zhang Yang watched Liu Huanhuan send a call, and was entangled for a long time, he really didn't want to answer, he was obviously very uncomfortable, but he still had to pretend to be casual, this scene, he was really afraid that he would not act well, and let this ending end now become a tragedy.

Alas, if he doesn't answer, Liu Huanhuan won't worry about himself.

Hey, Zhang Yang pretended to be very happy, did the baby sleep?

Well, I just slept for a while, and I was exhausted.

Oh, that Zhang Xinyu is gone, did she sleep too?

Not yet, just went to ask her to wash her face and feet. As soon as Liu Huanhuan finished speaking, Zhang Xinyu came over.

Daddy, Daddy, when are you coming back? Zhang Meng's dad is back.

Dad came home for the New Year, Zhang Yang said guiltily.

Hurry up and go to sleep, or you won't be able to get up from school tomorrow or tomorrow. Zhang Yang couldn't face the person closest to him, he felt like a sinner, and quickly found an excuse to avoid Zhang Xinyu.

Hurry up and go to sleep, otherwise you won't be able to get up tomorrow, Liu Huanhuan said.

I want to chat with my father, Zhang Xinyu said mischievously.

Hurry up and go to bed, and talk about it when the holidays are over.

Zhang Yang just wants to hide and slowly work hard to pay off the debt, hurry up and go to sleep, and wait for the holiday dad to talk to you.

Zhang Xinyu reluctantly went to sleep.

Zhang Yang hurriedly said, while they are all asleep, you should rest early!

I haven't chatted with you for a long time at night, I'll sleep later, Liu Huan said with a smile, I haven't seen you for so long, do you miss me.

Zhang Yang really misses her in his heart, really wants to hug her, he used to think that she was not good here or there, and felt that he was not good enough, but today I understand, everything is just my own doing, and life is not so perfect. In the past, I always liked to say that she didn't tidy up her home enough, and she didn't pay attention to her clothes. In fact, she is the most beautiful, she doesn't need to live for others, dress as comfortable and like, and don't live for herself in the eyes of others, this is what life looks like. As long as it does not affect life, why talk about so many rules and regulations.

Zhang Yang was really afraid of hurting her, afraid that she would find out all this, and he promised her last time that he would never gamble again, and he really wouldn't mess around. Because I can't forgive myself for everything I have done. I feel that I am too bastard, I don't believe in my words, even if I say anything, I am not trustworthy. Now this kind of pain can only be borne by oneself, and you can't say it, you can't say it, you don't dare to say it.

Looking at Liu Huanhuan on the other end of the video, Zhang Yangqiang squeezed and smiled, of course he wanted to, his heart was more than a hundred times more than his mouth. But now he has to lie and deceive her.

Go to sleep, you see that your dark circles are so big, if Zhang Zixiang wakes up, you won't have to sleep again. Zhang Yang lied again, you go to sleep, I'm going to go for a run too.

Okay, then I'll go to sleep, you finish your run, take a shower and go to bed early.

Zhang Yang hurriedly hung up the phone, he wanted to cry, I really hope that the front is just a nightmare...