Now I don't particularly want to write, or have such an impulse to drive myself to write, more often it has really become a habit, which is not important anymore, I originally wanted to make this a habit, form a habit, it is my own desire, and if I succeed, then I can't give up, unless I feel that this habit is not good and needs to be changed. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

The miscellaneous essays here, if there is a chance in the future, will be changed to a holy place record, so that after changing the polish, these will be integrated into the book, now it is really a bit messy, the connection, there are many expressions, these expressions can be extracted and placed here, and then the story will be perfected, polished, it will become another book, currently written, I still seem to be able to read it, but I think it is good, others will not think it is satisfactory, good.

Time is getting less and less, squeezed by other more important things, at that time I thought that I should have time to write a lot in the future, but now I find that the time can't be arranged, and I don't know how long this state will last, if it is arranged like this, then the writing time is really not guaranteed.

There is still time to think, this will not change, but the time for writing records does not seem to be arranged, and it is not entangled, since I like it, I always have to arrange time to come out, and I must adjust the time, saying so, I really have no bottom in my heart, for me, this is one of the conflicts, I hope it can be properly resolved by myself, this is an increase in age, and the troubles and contradictions of the life process that must be experienced must be experienced, and the contradiction is the conflict between the habits of the past and the habits of the present.

I thought about it in the morning, I came back in the evening, I basically forgot it, I couldn't remember it, I really thought about it for a long time, and then I remembered that it was about old clothes, and I was reluctant to throw it away, but I was reluctant to throw it away, even if it was broken and said, but I still didn't want to throw it away.

I always look for a possible reason, or a reason, to convince myself, to know myself, and I don't know why, because when I see these old things, I will be touched by the memories of the past, which is a reason for the past, just like some photos of the past.

Because of this, maybe I'm always behind the times, stubborn, maybe I'm right, if I really want to keep it, it's okay to put it in the box, but if I don't use it like this, it's really lost in my memory, and even if I put it away, I don't often appear in my heart, maybe I will really forget it.

Without these memories of the past, I feel like I'm floating in the real world, maybe this fear and worry is unnecessary, after all, many other people have lived like this, and they don't see anything wrong, it's just a feeling of fear in their hearts that is affecting them.

In addition, I also said that in the past, I may be distressed about money, or I may be really lazy, or I have a fear of shopping, I am afraid of being slaughtered, maybe I don't trust the world, there are really many reasons, it seems that there is a little bit, a little much, what is that?

I don't want to do this, maybe it's more realistic to deal with the current reality, update a batch, keep a batch, compromise, and then take it slowly, you can't change it too much at once, that will make you a little lost, the occurrence of conflict, sometimes it will not be the situation in front of you, but because the current situation foresees the situation that you may face in the future, and there is an inexplicable uncomfortable, conflict with others, in fact, the future does not happen, people prevent the future from happening in their own thoughts and imagination, so as to act and struggle against it, this behavior is more interesting。

There's another realization.,I haven't recalled it yet.,But it's good that I seem to have recorded it in the morning.,I have time to flip it out and see.,What the hell is.,It feels more interesting.。 What you get says you should cherish it, but even if the reality always describes such a phenomenon, you don't cherish it, you have lost your feelings, you don't care, the feeling is indeed like this, if you don't have a feeling, you won't particularly want it, and you won't cherish it very much, this is a bad characteristic of people, people have to overcome these bad characteristics, these feelings, which proves that people's feelings are not always correct, but many are wrong.

You can organize a lot of sentences, some of which you may not believe, but since you don't believe it, how can it be written, like you would rather fall in chasing the melody of the rules than rest in peace, does this sentence feel anything?

Many of them are indeed feeling sentences written under mood fluctuations, expressing a kind of imposing feeling state of their own, but at that time, some of them were read later, and they felt faint, as if they were no longer related to themselves, but I knew very well that these sentences were written by myself.

The feeling of being instantaneous and then feeling like a kind of chicken soup sentence is like reading like this, is this a human being? Verses, or these sentences created by instantaneous emotion, are very precious and cannot be repeated, which feels strange to me, but it is indeed such a phenomenon.

These beautiful feelings, I seem to want and need very much, why? Isn't it useless? It's just an expression of a momentary feeling of myself, maybe many times I am at peace, and these momentary feelings become rare, and for myself, I especially want to get it, and I have this feeling.

Just like pictures, the text attracts and stimulates ourselves, after the real experience, after the experience is not so good, we will have disappointment, these are all a kind of human phenomenon, and the people who have experienced and experienced will summarize and recognize this phenomenon, but how did these happen.

If you chase and look for the essence of these phenomena, it feels meaningless, for ordinary people, this is the case, they would rather live in these phenomena than live in the understanding of everything, this is the dilemma that human beings may face, then only a limited number of people will look for the cause, these people are called scientists, researchers.

The results of these studies are to be used by human beings, people do not want to understand the specific development process of this phenomenon, they just want to use it comfortably, this is the same thing, and for some people who use it, the essence may not be important, it is good to be able to use it for themselves, do it, and get good results.

People seem to need emotional support, as if the other half is missing, they must find emotional support, these support may be beliefs, it may be books, it may be things, it may be people, a lot, if it is strong, it will become flooded.

This characteristic of emotion has become very interesting, as if it was done on purpose, what happened at that time, let the emotion appear, and let the emotion induce splitting, the emotion was split, so that the emotion was missing the other half, these mysteries can not be recognized by me, but they have a fatal ** force on me, I just want to figure it out, but obviously I still don't know.

It's like inducing the substance to exist in another place, strongly attracting the emotions in my body to want to obtain, so that I feel that I am complete, the most fatal wound, why do I believe in this induced thing recently, if this continues, I will become paranoid, because I believe, and fully believe, then I will fall into a kind of melody of death, I am not the kind of researcher, but a person who is chasing wisdom.

Along the way, each section of the journey will have different scenery, don't think about going back to the past, don't think that there are a lot of understandings in the past, now there is none, don't be afraid, keep going, don't stagnate, thinking will take you to appreciate the scenery behind, what can you be afraid of.

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