I pointed to my clothes: "It's all like moldy vegetables, how can I get there?"

Although the clothes are not dirty, whether it is me or Sister Feng in the past, I have never tried to change my clothes for so long, of course, I can't think about this in the dark room for a few days, and now when I am free, I feel that the smell on my body is really unbearable. If nothing else, it's just the smell of oily hair that is not fresh......

Just now I actually stood so close to Shen Tian and talked for so long, now I think about it, my face is really embarrassed.

Besides, although I have been absent-minded these days, I still pay attention to my personal hygiene.

"Grandma, what do you want?"

I came back to my senses: "It's okay......"

There was a light knock on the door twice, and Sister-in-law Fu's voice said outside, "Madam, Miss Ping, I have sent washing water." ”

We glanced at each other, and Ping'er walked over and opened the door. Sister-in-law Fu was wearing a blue dress and a white belt around her waist and standing at the door, with Qi Rong on her face, and she was obviously crying when she looked at her eyes. She said hello to Ping'er first, and then came to say hello to me. The four maid rings behind her were holding copper basins, scarves, and hairpins for clothes. Ping'er only said, "You're tired, it's too polite", but Sister-in-law Fu said that the greeting was not thoughtful, on the surface, it was really kind, and the host was attentive and the guests were interested.

Sister-in-law Fu pointed to the clothes and said that the house used to be made for the eldest lady who did not go out of the pavilion, and they were all new and had not been put on. I looked at the clothes I was holding, I didn't think it was prepared in a hurry, the material was indeed very new, the silk clothes were left for a few years, even if they were not worn, the gold and silver threads on them should be a little dull, and now I saw that it was still shining brightly and knew that it could not be old clothes.

But I don't have to worry about this at this time, I changed my clothes with Ping'er, I thought that there was a funeral in their house today, so I picked out a jade-colored dress with dark gold bamboo leaf pattern from the neat stack of clothes, and below it was a plain white cotton silk skirt, washed my face, lightly put on a layer of fat powder, and then combed my hair. I didn't touch the few golden hairpins that my sister-in-law brought to shake the phoenix bead flowers, or I used my original small silver phoenix with a double-bit chicken heart to insert it in the sideburns, and my sister-in-law Fu also praised me: "Mrs. looks better in such plain clothes." ”

Sister Qiao also woke up, and Ping'er also cleaned her up. Sister Qiao just woke up, a little confused, but when she saw me, she showed a heartfelt smile of joy. I smiled and comforted her a few words, and for a while breakfast was also served, four-color side dishes, fine points, steamed buns, and japonica rice porridge. Sister Qiao had a very appetizing appetite, ate two small buns, two pieces of dim sum, and drank a bowl and a half of porridge. Ping'er and I didn't have much appetite, and although we didn't show sadness on our faces, we knew from the look on her face when she chewed something that she didn't put her mind on eating at all.

After breakfast, I told my sister-in-law Fu that I didn't know where Mrs. Mei's mourning hall was located, and I wanted to go over to put on a pillar of incense, and Sister-in-law Fu hurriedly said, "Then I'll accompany Mrs. Fu." ”

Sister Qiao hadn't seen me for a few days, and when she saw that I was leaving, she hurriedly reached out and grabbed my sleeve: "Where is my mother going?

I touched her hair: "Mother go to the front yard, come when you go, your sister peace will stay here and talk for a while." ”

She was a little reluctant, but let go of her hand. I nodded to Ping'er, and she willingly coaxed Sister Qiao aside.

Sister-in-law Fu led me through the courtyard, and the people who came and went were all filial, without smiling faces or superfluous words. Although the rain in the morning was thinner, the cold and bleak feeling became heavier.

The mourning hall was solemn and not too pompous, Shen Tian had already changed into a plain blue robe, and a white filial piety belt was tied around his waist.

I looked at his expression, though ...... Although his expression was as calm and indifferent, it could be seen that it was different from before......

The shell that had been wrapped around him in the past seemed to have been lifted and no longer existed.

I just feel that his whole person is open, obviously I don't know him, I don't know him, I don't know him, but I think he ...... It's very kind, and the feeling is strange and fresh, I can't tell.

"Excuse me," I whispered, "if Mrs. May had a spirit in heaven, she would have hoped for your well." ”

"I know. He paused, his voice like a low west wind blowing on an autumn night: "Thank you." ”

When he stood up straight, the feeling of grandeur was as majestic as if he could hold up a piece of heaven and earth.

I thought it ridiculous and angry when Mrs. May made that suggestion, but when he said that to me in the morning, I felt in my heart...... It's not the same at all.

In my heart, he was an attractive man.

There is status, there is power, and ...... As far as I can see, although he is rigorous, he also knows how to enjoy life. When I was recuperating from my injury, I could see a lot of things from the green leaf he brought.

For such a man, there must be a lot of beautiful girls waiting in line to marry him.

And me?

It was as if I had no advantages, so his respectful care and just the right amount of gentleness made me feel ...... There was a feeling of embarrassment.

I shouldn't accept it, but I don't want to reject it completely.

I saw my appearance in the mirror when I was doing makeup just now, she was not old, Sister Feng turned out to be a beauty, but she was a little out of recuperation. And I have lived a really comfortable life in the last few days, without hard work or effort, even if I live in a dark room for a few days, only the cheeks are slightly reduced, but there is more delicate charm that I couldn't see before.

Stop! Stop! What do I want to do? The more I think about it, the more I don't know the edge.

"Aunt Mei's coffin, I will transport it back to the northwest for another burial...... The day after tomorrow, we will set off. He said, "You and your family should clean up too...... Come with me. ”

The last sentence he said was very soft, but I heard it clearly.

It turned out that I was thinking about the first half of his sentence - at this time, the weather is getting warmer, and the coffin is transported, I am afraid that Mrs. Mei's body will be decomposed, and it will be inconvenient, and I don't know if he plans to take some precautions or plan to transport the ashes. But I didn't expect his next sentence to suddenly turn to this, I looked at him in a daze, he did not avoid my gaze, that gaze was gentle and calm, with a bit of melancholy and sadness on his face, but there was also a faint hope and expectation.

I was stunned and couldn't make a sound, and the rain outside was tightened again, and the dripping people's hearts were even more messy.

I forgot where I read such a sentence, a person's life is one non-stop adventure after another. Most of the time, we don't know where we are going to get to a decision before we make it.

The same goes for me......

Coming to this strange world that is both real and fantasy is an adventure of life that is not free to be. Leaving Jiafu was another adventure of my own choosing.

The choice I am facing in front of me......

If you ask me, do you want to live in a small courtyard for the rest of your life?

No, I don't want to.

If you ask me if I don't have the slightest affection and affection for the man in front of me?

I can't say I don't.

However, this is a time when women can't make mistakes, and this era is too harsh and cruel to women......

What should we do and where should we take this step? The meaning of his words is very clear.

I was confused and dazed.