There is a saying, "At what age do you have to do what you should do at this age, and after this village, I am afraid that there will be no more such shops." "It's a very common sentence, but after going through a lot of things, it will be a painful realization, but many things have already been completed, and you will not be given any chance to repent, you can only regret this life, whether there is a next life, only the next life will know.

In this system, I fully enjoy the relaxation, the workload is very small, most of the young people, everyone often has dinner, go to the entertainment city at night happy, I think for me, it is not a warm boiled frog at all, I myself instantly adapted to this comfortable environment, and everyone lived a leisurely life, enjoying the world of two people in marriage.

Relaxed days will always pass quickly, in a blink of an eye I will be married for half a year, every morning to get up too lazy to eat early to go to the unit, in the unit to deal with something, no matter a few people on the start of the chat mode, noon if there is no entertainment on the simple to eat something, in the afternoon before the end of work someone began to make an appointment, a few people began to eat, drinking is even less, with the strength of the wine everyone began to the south of the sea and north of the Kan Mountain, until late at night. There are always a few days a month when people go to the casino to watch the show, drink beer, sing and shout for most of the night, and then go home drunk. At that time, someone always paid for it, I was not an eventful person, and I never asked about the outside business, I just enjoyed relaxation and happiness, it was normal to go home at night, and it was a common thing for me to sleep at two or three o'clock in the middle of the night.

Easy days always pass quickly, in a blink of an eye I have been married for almost 4 months, one day I got up early and suddenly nausea and dizziness, can barely stand firm, I thought I had a bad stomach, I quickly went to a nearby clinic to check it, the doctor asked me to go for a urine test, and then told me that I was pregnant, I was a little blind, this is a little too fast. I took the test sheet, thinking that I had only been married for a short time, and I had only been working in the unit for a little more than a year, and that it was too early to get pregnant and give birth, and I hadn't had enough of it. I immediately took the test sheet and ran to the hospital to find a good friend of mine, who was three years older than me, and told me that I didn't want to be simple, just do it, I could have surgery or medical abortion, but you have to think about it. Without thinking about it, she said no, she looked at me and shook her head, and said with a smile You are responsible for your own actions! After speaking, she took me to the obstetrics and gynecology department, and the doctor carefully examined me, saying that everything is normal, have you thought about it, you are also 24 years old, it is time to consider having a baby? I said for sure that I thought about it. I was afraid of pain and wanted to have a medical abortion. The doctor prescribed me medicine for abortion, and told me to take the medicine according to the doctor's instructions, observe the discharged things in detail, and go to the hospital for examination after the discharge, and if the discharge is not clean, the uterus must be cleared. I said I got it.

My husband came home in the evening, and I asked him to take leave to stay at home with me the next day, and he was a little worried, saying that it would be better to be in the hospital, and I said no.

In this way, I started to take the medicine strictly according to the doctor's instructions, I was very nauseous when I took the first medicine, I felt a feeling of distension in my lower abdomen when I took the medicine the second time, and there was a significant feeling of falling in my lower abdomen when I took the medicine for the third time. After that, I didn't feel unwell, I slept at home for two days and went to the hospital for a check-up, and everything was normal. I'm glad that everything is OK and I can continue my happy life.

I didn't even think to discuss these things with my mother, because I didn't have this habit since I was a child, and I have been in charge of my own affairs for a long time. Before marriage, my mother didn't give me any warnings or remind me not to be careless about loving myself. What's more, I don't have a complete life plan, so I will have this kind of accident if I am too careless. If I could travel to me now, I would slap me at that time, how ignorant and superficial I was, how big a pit of sin I had dug for myself, and I would have suffered so much in my future life and not filled this pit of sin.

In a life without pursuit, I continued to be drunk and obsessed with money for half a year, and my nightmare began.

I had a problem with my body, and if I ate something greasy during the day, I started to have a stomach ache at three o'clock in the middle of the night, and that discomfort would spread in my back. I would always make three or four mistakes a week, and my husband was very worried at first, and every time I had a seizure, I was sent to a nearby hospital, and I was busy for most of the night, and finally I prescribed some Chinese medicine to regulate the stomach. Half a year after this symptom appeared, I got pregnant again, and I had enough time to play, and I wanted this child. But since I found out that I was pregnant, I had a low-grade fever that did not go away, and the doctor recommended that I do a full body examination, and affirmed that this reaction must not be normal, reminding me that this child is not allowed because of your body problems.

I said that my symptoms in the past six months, and the doctor said that this is the symptom of gallstones, eating greasy things, feeling stomach discomfort, and the back pain in the corresponding area is also divergent. You're still pregnant, and you can't have this baby.

The doctor told me with a blank face: I must have an abortion first, and then gallbladder surgery.

After listening to the doctor's diagnosis, I was like five thunderbolts, quack doctors mistook people, I was treated for stomach disease for half a year, drank so many stomach medicines, but the result was gallstones. And this gallstone is also caused by my own making, long-term irregular life and diet, especially not eating breakfast, eating too much fish and meat at night, and drinking too much alcohol.

In the face of such a result, I want to cry without tears, and I have to bear it myself.

After a few days of anti-inflammatory injections, I had an abortion operation, and the pain of the machine churning in ** made me cry, and a life was conceived there and destroyed there. I refused to use anesthesia, I had to be punished, I had to suffer this physical pain, my child had been cut off by my own ignorance, and I had to go with it.

After a few days of trimming I was scheduled for laparoscopic surgery on gallstones, this time under general anesthesia, and I was in despair as I lay in the empty operating room. When the anesthetic mask was pressed onto my mouth, my brain came to a halt.

The surgery started at 4 p.m., and by the time I woke up, it was already past 9 p.m. the next day.

When I opened my eyes, my mother stood in front of me with a bouquet of flowers, this scene was very warm, because my relationship with my mother has not been so close, my vision went from hazy to clear, my mother seemed to have crossed our barrier, walked thousands of miles and finally stood in front of me, I smiled at my mother, I never felt that my mother was so close.

The head nurse came in and changed my dressing, and I found that his arm was full of scratches, and when I asked her what was wrong, she smiled and said, "You scratched it." I was stunned, she smiled and said: You are about to scare people to death, after the operation, according to the time you should wake up but can't wake you up, all the doctors are in a hurry, if you can't wake you up, the consequences will be very scared. Later, you woke up for a short time, but you were delirious, you spoke English, Mandarin, dialect, and you beat and arrested people, and you caught Dr. Gao in the face. I'm very embarrassed to hear it,

Eventually, the doctor told me that I was very sensitive to anesthetics, and that all the same amount of anesthetics would cause me to have an overdose of symptoms. And an overdose of anesthetic is dangerous. I have a feeling of the aftermath of the disaster.

I was lying on my hospital bed, the sun was shining on me, the ceiling was white, the sheets were white, and my heart was blank......