Japanese writer Murakami Muraki once said: "I always thought that people grow old slowly, but in fact they are not, people grow old in an instant." Tranquility has always been unimpressed by this sentence, until today, she listened to some things about Han Xu, and suddenly had a new understanding of this sentence, and felt that it had a certain truth, or it could not only be used to talk about people, but also suitable for understanding many things in life.

Han Xu has always thought that some things in the past need to be digested slowly, and it will take a long process to figure it out. But then she finally discovered that sometimes it only takes a moment to figure out something.

For the past few years, she has been deeply trapped in her moral bottom line and cannot extricate herself.

How many times did she dream back in the middle of the night, tossing and turning, thinking about the person who should have belonged to someone else, and she couldn't sleep anymore.

I also tried to numb myself with alcohol for a while, but after a while, I did respond to the sentence "borrowing wine to eliminate sorrow and sorrow". also many times in the dead of night or when no one is around, secretly wipe away sad tears.

When she was in high school, she almost turned herself into a delinquent teenager because of her adolescence and 'rebellion'.

Smoking, drinking, skipping school, playing cards, fighting......

She did all the things that the school asked her not to do, and she did not do it once or twice.

Every time she smoked and drank, she let the school teachers know openly, and she didn't know if she didn't do it.

Knowing that one day, she was expelled from school for beating, and she saw her mother who had been working outside coming back, and when she first saw her mother arrive at school, she was quite proud, thinking, you finally haven't fought me, or I got it back.

Because of being expelled from school, she made her grandmother, who had been raising her, faint, and finally disappeared because of high blood pressure.

Her grandmother left like this, leaving her alone and helpless, and later her mother found a person with good economic conditions outside and remarried, and she was the only one left in the family.

As for her father, when she was very young, she went to work in the coal yard, because of the gas explosion, she died when she was very young, and she can't remember what he looked like until now.

Since her mother remarried, she has had little energy to care about her, and she is free and arrogant after being expelled from school, and she can do whatever she wants, and she doesn't care about her existence.

Until one day, she knew that her mother had given birth to another child for another man, and her daughter, who should have been loved by her mother, had not yet enjoyed it.

So she tried hard to come to Guiyang, because her mother was here, but when she arrived in Guiyang, she found that the place was too big, and she couldn't find where her mother was.

At that time, she was still very young, and soon the dozens of dollars on her body were used up, and she decided to settle down in this city with no money, so she began to frantically look for a job, looking for a day after day, but still did not find it, all the stores disliked her for not doing well, and she would not do it.

Until one day, she fainted on the road because she was too hungry, and when she woke up, she found herself in a very luxurious home, and when she opened her eyes, she saw a good decoration picture, so she had already woken up, but she was greedy for such luxury, greedy for the comfortable bed, and she didn't want to open her eyes.

In pretending to be asleep, she could hear everyone in the family talking and discussing.

Until late in the day, when it was already dark, the mistress of the house went out for a walk with her son, and there was no sound in the house, and she thought that everyone was gone, so she prepared to get up secretly to find food.

When she walked outside, she found a middle-aged man sitting on the sofa reading a newspaper, and she was stupidly watched by him as soon as she went out.

At that time, she didn't feel scared, and she couldn't take her eyes off the middle-aged man in front of her.

"Are you awake, is there anything uncomfortable?" he asked with a smile as he looked at Han Xu.

Han Xu touched her stomach, this man saw that she was hungry, so he went to the kitchen and brought her a lot of delicious things, and told her that the doctor had seen it, and she fainted because she was tired, just sleep, but she didn't expect that she had slept for a long time.

Han Xu devoured a lot of things, her stomach was finally full, and she was ready to say goodbye to this life-saving benefactor, but he kept her and enthusiastically agreed to find her a job.

The next day, this life-saving benefactor found her a job, just to open her eyes, but she didn't expect that she almost lost her life and couldn't find a job, in this man's body, it was so simple, it was a sentence to solve all the problems.

Not only did she find a job, but she also rented a house, everything was arranged properly, and even the toiletries were prepared for her before leaving.

In this way, she admired this person more and more, and slowly she fell in love with this man at the beginning of her love.

Maybe it's because she cares about her too much, maybe it's because she needs a warm care and love too much at this time, and this person happens to have everything, and he is by his side, which is good for her.

At first, she thought that she couldn't like him, because she knew that he had a wife, children, and a very happy family.

Until one day, on the way to work, she ran into the person she knew and couldn't be more familiar with, the mother she was looking for.

She led a little girl into the cake shop where she worked.

"What do you want to eat? strawberry or blueberry?" she asked the little girl she was holding very softly.

"I don't want it, I don't want it, I want a matcha flavor. "The child is very willful in front of her.

And she doted on her like a princess, and she bought her a matcha-flavored one when she said she ate matcha-flavored.

In the end, she took two more flavors, saying that they were for her, afraid that she would want to eat them at night.

The little girl looked very satisfied, and took her hand with a smile and left.

And this woman who is in love with her own daughter, but she doesn't know that her other biological daughter is secretly wiping tears in the corner.

Han Xu had been secretly following her, walked to a high-end community, and saw her walk in.

When she returned to the cake shop in despair, the old staff in the store told her that this woman was the wife, rich and powerful, and lived happily, and often came here to buy cakes, and every time she would buy them it was very painful.

Han Xu listened to how well she lived and how she lived a preferential life, while she lived an indifferent life here.

One day she went to the gate of the community to block her and attacked her biological mother in the most vicious language in the world, something she would never believe.