"Don't mention these things again, I was actually quite panicked when I was suspected by the police, disguise is not my specialty, I haven't used it for a long time, I'm really ashamed that there are so many mistakes. Yu Zhe shook his head with an embarrassed smile, and continued, "You haven't answered my question yet. ”

"Because...... You exist to make up for my shortcomings. Shi Duluo hit the nail on the head and told the truth, "Since you want to kill Lu Ren, then the killers under him are nothing more than going their separate ways, and Mo Lin just sees you as a resource that can be used, completely replaceable, so his trust in you is not enough." ”

"This is really ......" Yu Zhe thought for a while, and couldn't find the right words to describe it.

"Ruthless. ”

Shi Duluo completed Yu Zhe's words and continued,

“…… To put it mildly, Morin has always only wanted to protect my safety, your life or death is not important to him, so he can't let you know too much, and then because he successfully received you to his subordinates, he wanted me to keep my distance from you, but after being followed by the police, the two of us inexplicably confirmed the relationship, disrupting all his plans. ”

"Then why did you keep the lie for a few more months? You could have found a reason to end this relationship, which was wrong from the beginning. ”

"That's what I thought...... But then you went on a transnational mission, and I was kidnapped, and you took my name to save me, which is a life-saving grace, and I will definitely repay it, so I decided to continue to maintain the ...... you want to see. Illusion ......"

"I saved you is my voluntary act, I won't regret it, even if you tell me on the spot that you are the sniper, it doesn't matter, why do you have such a big burden in your heart. ”

“…… Because that's my principle...... All kindness, double the ......"

Twilight's mind began to flash back to images that she didn't want to be recalled, and she had been devastated by these memories all the time for so many years.

"What kind of principle is this?" Yu Zhe felt that this was inexplicable, "Then what is your definition of 'kindness'?"

"Help without any purpose can be called grace. Twilight replied.

"That's weird, what about using relationships?" Yu Zhe retorted by seizing the strange point in Shi Duluo's words, "Since you can quickly capture a person's heart, then when you use others to achieve your goals, that person will not help you for any purpose, is this also En?"

"It's not the same ......"

"It's no different. Yu Zhe retorted directly, "Isn't I a good example? You approached me because you wanted to use me, and when I went to try to save you, the use relationship had already taken effect, so what is this?"

Twilight was silent, the first time in her ten years that she had been asked in a real sense.

"You see, you can't justify yourself. Yu Zhe said with a smile, "So, you don't need to care so much about this, if you are with me, I hope it is true love, not the so-called kindness, you don't have to lie to me, and you don't need to practice your own feelings." ”

"No...... I have to pay it back, or I'll ......" Twilight suddenly stopped talking as she spoke, this is the reason she has recognized for ten years, and she never thought that one day she would be refuted by others.

"Trust me, it's not going to be okay. Yu Zhe glanced at Shi Duluo, his eyes were full of tenderness, and he was like the two of them when they first met, "Who made you have such an idea?"

"Morin ......"

Yu Zhe was obviously surprised: "He?!"

"He's right...... It's just that I ...... "I don't know if it's because I'm too tired, but my thinking is gradually confused, and my thinking speed is getting slower and slower, and my head is dizzy, and I can't tell what to say and what not to say."

"What the hell happened to you......" Yu Zhe just muttered to himself, not hoping to get an answer at all, he understood that as a companion, Shi Duluo must be wary, even if he didn't mention the past before, he won't mention it now.

"Before I was sixteen, I couldn't see the light...... "Twilight said slowly, "...... bastard who trained me"

Twilight's eyes became even more cloudy, and if it weren't for the fact that her chest was still heaving, it would have been almost impossible to tell that she was still alive.

"That bastard controlled my mind little by little, and he made me feel that the reason why I was alive and had a bite to eat was all because of his kindness to me, and made me feel that I had to obey his orders unconditionally, or he would kill me......"

Yu Zhe didn't interject, looked at Shi Duluo's lifeless face with his spare eyes, and watched her turn her head faintly and continued,

"In order to survive, I can only be obedient, at the beginning he just asked me to do some small things, and gradually began to let me hunt animals, every time he lowered my bottom line, and I just compromised again and again...... In the end he told me to kill people......"

"You...... Did it?"

"Killing and being killed, I naturally chose the former...... But when I killed the first person, he didn't choose to let me carry out the commission directly, he felt that it was not enough, and that I had to further eliminate my guilt for the murder......"

"Kill more?"

"No...... For every person I killed, I was rewarded, and if I stopped being submissive, I was whipped and punished...... Over time, I even began to want to take the initiative to kill people to avoid suffering......

"But what about Maureen...... He's supposed to be the contact for the bastard you said, right......? Didn't stop it......"

"He never gave up trying to save me, but at that time I didn't dare to leave him even if I had the chance, I felt like I owed that bastard...... Let me live, and I will be grateful. ”

"Yourself...... Didn't you think about resisting......" Yu Zhe listened, feeling incredible and feeling pity for what happened to her.

"You haven't experienced anything like this. Twilight shook her head, her expression looking a little painful, "At that time, I couldn't tell the difference between good and evil, right and wrong, as long as I could avoid being scolded, I would try my best to please that bastard, you know...... Man can be domesticated......."

“…… At least you look good right now. Yu Zhe wanted to comfort Shi Dusk, he thought that his life experience was tortuous enough, and now it seems that it will not be in time.

"But in the end, it was Morin who saved me...... He began to influence me subtly, and he knew that I couldn't erase my 'gratitude' for that bastard, so he asked me to try to 'repay', and every time I listened to him, even if I paid it back, I would be free. ”

"Obedient?"

"It's nothing more than killing ......people," Shi Duluo said very indifferently, and then the corners of his mouth hooked upward, "As long as you are not a 'model worker' who entrusts hundreds of orders a year, I have definitely killed more people than you...... At least I'm not like you, only killing the target......"

Yu Zhe can see the loneliness of the twilight, maybe she is also suffering in her heart, and she is no longer struggling all the time.

"That's in the past, and I can't remember how many people I've killed after all these days. ”

"How does it feel?"

"Too bad......" This is indeed Yu Zhe's true feeling when he recalls these things he has experienced, the previous principles are indeed too cumbersome for him, but after he really gave up, he found that the beast that has been suppressed in his heart will not be controlled in any way, he looked at his behavior, and there was a trace of fear, afraid that when he really killed anyone, his heart would be indifferent.

"I think it's also ......" Twilight continued to lose her mind, as if to say to herself, and as if to say to Yu Zhe, "But you shouldn't be like this, or I hurt you." ”

"Why do you say that?" Yu Zhe chuckled, not understanding what he meant.

"Don't you think it's wrong to kill someone?" Twilight seemed to suddenly jump to another topic and asked rhetorically.

"No, of course it's wrong to kill someone, but one misstep becomes a thousand years of hatred, and now no matter how you say it, you are here to eat. ”

"That's the problem. "If you're not mistaken, the first time you killed someone you weren't aiming for was when you went to save me, and I bet you must have felt guilty and upset afterwards, but at this time, no one came out to accuse you of your actions, and you began to question whether your actions were really 'heinous'." ”

Twilight said endlessly, her eyes glazed over, and she was afraid that even she didn't realize what she was talking about at this time.

"Imagine how an ordinary girl would react when she saw you kill someone, shocked, frightened, cursed for your behavior, but think about what I did at the time? I affirmed your behavior, and I told you when you were most wavering, and I often made you think this way, consciously or unconsciously, and you will one day give up your principles. ”

Yu Zhe didn't know what to say, and after thinking about it carefully, what Shi Duluo said did make sense, but he had never thought about it in this direction before.

"Sometimes the words that come out can really change a person, and in a way, I was also controlled by this kind of mind. ”

Shi Duluo is indeed not conscious now, just like she is in a drunken state, she has always kept nothing to mention her life experience, but now under the catalysis of drugs, she begins to think of something, and she will say anything.

"Don't mention it......" Yu Zhe still didn't want to attribute his current changes to external reasons, but he still needed time to consume this huge amount of information in his head, "Tell me about what happened to you, you...... How did you finally get out of control? ”

"I killed the man. Twilight said lightly.

"Huh?"

"I did what Maureen said, and I repaid what I thought he had done to me, and I didn't owe each other, and it was reasonable for me to kill him. ”

Shi Duluo suddenly paused, seemed to make a thinking look, turned his head, and said to Yu Zhe,

"Strange...... How do I vaguely remember...... I told you about it......"