120. Resolutely give up
Xiao Wenwen is in Panjun's house, everything around her is so familiar, she looks at the interior, all according to the layout of Jin Yiyuan, the next time she comes back, maybe she won't be so lonely.
There's nothing to take away, packed up a few sets of her usual clothes and Panpan's clothes, the only thing that can't leave her is her diary, bit by bit, firewood, rice, oil and salt are all her once, and it is close to a whole book, no one has seen her inner world and her childhood to adulthood, at this time, she recorded her experience at the moment:
Tonight, I am reminded of a quote by Zhang Ailing, love is like a luxurious feast, every time you dress up, you always end up with a full cup of wolf, and the next feast comes, you still have to dress up to attend.
Brother Xiao, please believe me.
Write down two lines and close them, and more and more words can be replaced by three words and two words, and the charm is still there, but it is more unfathomable.
Accompanied Panpan to sleep until dawn, until early in the morning, it was said that the early birds had worms to eat, Panpan's injury had healed, sent Panpan to school, and kept telling the school that this kind of stranger to be taken away can not have a second time, and must wait until she herself or the designated person can take it away, and the school also promised to do it, and came to her former home with two bags of clothes with peace of mind, the door was closed, and she got out of the car to breathe fresh air.
The locks had been replaced, and the surroundings seemed to have been cleaned, and I thought: Is he already ready?
Rang the doorbell, dingdong dingdong, no response, but his car was still parked in the parking lot, and he decisively thought that he was at home and did not give up and continued to ring the doorbell.
I plucked up the courage to pick up my phone and dial the number, and it was through, "Hey... Brother Xiao. ”
Xi Junxiao said coldly: "Is there something wrong?"
He already knew that she was wandering outside the door, but he didn't want to open the door, and when he saw her, he would lose his mind and be restless.
She said excitedly, "Well, something's wrong. I'm moving in with you. ”
Xi Junxiao thought she was just here to hand in the drawings, but she didn't expect her to move all the big bags and small bags, I don't know why, "Did I let you move over?"
She pursed her lips, "I... Can you open the door? I'll tell you face to face, there's something very important for you to see. ”
He decisively refused, not knowing what she was having, "If I have something to say now, my time is precious." ”
After a while, Xiao Wenwen didn't say a word, and Xi Junxiao extinguished the phone.
She continued to bang on the door, "I... I've got something to show you, can you open the door?"
I didn't see any reaction, I sat on the ground all the time, the breeze blew and blew away her ponytail, making people feel fluttering, time was ticking and ticking, in the blink of an eye to the afternoon, I looked at my watch, and when I reached the point where I could take Panpan, I glanced at the door with resentment, and said to myself: "A big man is so stingy, bull temper, hum." ”
No matter how good his temper was, he couldn't help but complain and drove away.
Xi Junxiao walked out of the balcony, he heard what he said just now, looking at her big bags and small bags on the ground, he was puzzled, this is left here like this?
Driven by curiosity, he went downstairs and opened her package, which was all women's clothes and children's clothes, and directly zipped them up, muttering to himself: "What do you mean? Just let him see this?
He took a long vacation, there was nothing to worry about, he stayed at home all the time, searching for information about Xi Junxiao's three words, it seems that they are all gone, who can be so capable and erase his past?
The sound of the car coming again in the distance, he stood at the door and looked, it was still the car that had just driven away, Xiao Wenwen was glad that he came down, immediately parked the car, hugged Panpan and got off the safety seat, one big and one small, and walked towards him with a smile, Panpan hurriedly shouted: "Dad!"
Xi Junxiao hesitated, not knowing whether to agree or not, until Panpan hugged his thigh, "Dad, Dad, Dad!"
After screaming three times in a row, the bones were almost soft.
Xi Junxiao squatted down and asked him, "Isn't your father Lezun?"
Panpan's mind turned, "That's the ex-father." ”
Tong Yan Wuji's words made Xiao Wenwen's face stiffen, her son really couldn't open which pot, she hurriedly explained to Xi Junxiao, "Brother Xiao, don't be listened to Pan Pan's nonsense, I have always taught him to call Uncle Lezun, he wants to call it like this, and then he will get used to it." ”
Xi Junxiao raised his head, "What are you doing explaining this to me?"
Xiao Wenwen couldn't help but want to tell the truth and tell the truth, because the child was there, and she didn't want to quarrel in front of the child. Panpan sounded weird and awkward, and it was not Xi Junxiao who accused him, "Dad, you can't be so fierce to Mommy, the parents of the children in the school are very affectionate." ”
Xiao Wenwen comforted: "Pan Pan is good, my parents didn't quarrel, but they just had a little difference of opinion." ”
Xiao Wenwen walked in with Panpan, swaggering like the owner of the house, and found that everything had changed, she was surprised and a little lonely, it was far from what she imagined, and she could do everything well in one day, which was also very expensive and laborious.
Panpan applauded happily, "Mommy, it's so big and beautiful here, can I invite my little friends over in the future?"
Xiao Wenwen's nasal voice dragged long, "Hmm...... Absolutely. ”
Xi Junxiao couldn't help but spray people, and shouted through gritted teeth: "Xiao Wenwen!"
Pan Pan shrank her neck in fright, and after a while, she mustered up her courage again, stretched out her chubby little hand in front of Xiao Wenwen, and responded to him with the same volume: "Xi Junxiao!"
Xi Junxiao was speechless, the little one was so loyal, and he was angry, "If you don't like us, we'll leave." ”
Xi Junxiao ignored this little point and said to Xiao Wenwen: "I just want to know, what does it mean for you to live in such an open and honest way? ”
Xiao Wenwen suddenly realized, and took out a document from her bag, "This is a divorce certificate." ”
Xi Junxiao glanced at it, felt very ridiculous, and said sneeringly: "Why do you think I want a divorced woman." ”
A word struck mercilessly in Xiao Wenwen's heart, and she resolutely turned around, "Panpan, let's go." ”
Panpan pouted and kicked the sofa angrily, "Bad Dad, you're not a hero, we're out of this gate, don't regret it." ”
This time, Xiao Wenwen didn't shed a single tear, he cried and cried, he was sarcastic, he didn't miss the old love, even if he got his memory back, the person changed, and he left without any nostalgia.
Panpan followed Xiao Wenwen into the car, Panpan cried so much that the pear blossoms brought rain, "Wow wow, Mommy, it's so heartbroken, Dad doesn't want us anymore." ”
Xiao Wenwen drove the car, listening to him crying and complaining along the way, "I obviously said that I could live with my father, but my father is so fierce, I don't like him at all, Mommy, I don't like him anymore." ”
Xiao Wenwen stopped on the side, crying so sadly, she gave him a tight hug and comforted him: "Panpan, I'm sorry, I was too obsessed, only to find out that I was wrong, I waited for him for so long, but the one who came back was treated coldly, I will take you to live with Dad Le." ”
The temporary decision made her change her previous style, and maybe start over, to give herself a chance to give others a chance.
Panpan didn't quite understand what Mommy meant, but his heart was touched, and he felt sorry for such a strong Mommy, and he was willing to share the ups and downs with her.
Came to Shu Leju, where she once lived, inexplicably touched, tried her best to leave, but went around and around to come in, Xiao Wenwen picked up Panpan's body, knocked on the door, and it was Lao Liu who opened the door, and was surprised when she opened the door, "Young grandmother, little young master." ”
Panpan shouted milkily: "Grandpa Liu is good." ”
Le Zun was just about to go out, his eyes met, he didn't have time to react, and it was the first time he looked at each other for so long, and he said awkwardly: "You guys are here?"
Xiao Wenwen said calmly, "Well, I'm here to disturb you." ”
Le Zun smiled, his face was happy with joy, walked into her, hugged Panpan, "It's a blessing." ”
Panpan called sweetly: "Le Dad." ”
Le Zun immediately led Xiao Wenwen into the room, the first time he dared to touch her hand, but Xiao Wenwen began to feel a little uncomfortable, and forced herself to adapt, she told herself that this was the path she chose, and she had to go on no matter what.
On Xi Junxiao's side, the big bags and small bags left on the ground were still there, they didn't take them away, and the back of leaving, in the big room, only his lonely figure was left, and he was ashamed, he didn't understand how he could have such an abnormal reaction.
Picked up the bag on the ground, there were neat clothes inside, he was about to zip it up, a heavy book fell out of the clothes, a black book with a lock, a key attached to it, a piece of paper seemed to beckon to him, beckoning him to open, he couldn't help but be curious in his heart, he opened one of the papers, four big words 'paternity test', and saw Panpan's full name called: Xi Yichu, his surname is Xi?
Feeling that he was struck by lightning, his fists clenched unconsciously, and then picked up the key to unlock the lock, the beautiful and neat words in front of him made him look very comfortable, since she can remember, she has been using it, and she has seen it from the beginning, her joys and sorrows are like a roller coaster that makes people feel ups and downs, and the little innocence in her heart is very transparent, making him cry and laugh for a while, and making him feel sorry for a while.
It wasn't until he turned to his own existence that the words revealed her love, and the dense words began to increase after he left, and he saw:
No. 1 - Brother Xiao, because you are missing, I can't find someone to talk to, and I'm looking for Mr. Note again, don't be jealous, because I love you the most, and after I am pregnant with a baby, force myself not to be so lazy, because my time is spent thinking about you.
Number 15 - I'm sorry Brother Xiao, I'm afraid that someone will hurt the baby, it just so happens that Lezun's father can save my father, and he is an unmarried, he can protect us honorably, I will marry in such a short time after you are gone, I hate my powerlessness, but you have to believe that I am loyal to you, because Junman will come and watch me.