"Lin Qin, there is a city marathon tomorrow morning, your face has been a little bad lately, let's exercise together?"

At seven o'clock on Friday night, my colleague typed down the last text, saved it, kicked his legs, and the work chair slid backwards, and arrived at Lin Qin's desk, discussing with Lin Qin about going out to play together tomorrow.

"Can he go to run a marathon? This flowery radish is not like you, you are a single dog, but you are a single noble~ Some of the little sisters accompany him to fight until dawn, you don't want to think about it, people are comfortable lying on the bed with a white and clean, fragrant girl? Or is it comfortable to run a marathon with you and are tired of running a marathon under the sun?"

The female colleague Xiaomei interjected, grinned, and her tone was a little yin and yang, pulled out the USB flash drive, and carried her bag to get ready to clock out of work.

"Hey, Xiaomei, do you understand that people are hard, I'm single, I'm proud!"

"Xiaomei is right, I really can't go, I don't jump on weekends, and I become garbage on Mondays, understand? Why don't you have a good time with me? and then bring you a beautiful woman home to warm the bed?"

Lin Qin stood up, carrying his briefcase, laughing like a ruffian, lightly hammered his chest at the same time, and raised an eyebrow at him.

"Forget it, I don't like that kind of place, and you're twenty-seven years old, you're still a moonlight clan, and you opened more than 30,000 last month, and you still don't have a penny left, what kind of business. ”

"Yes, yes, what you always say, but it doesn't conform to my concept of consumption, money is a bastard, let's make money if it's gone, and I'm not saving money. ”

"How much money have you saved?"

As soon as the weekend came, Lin Qin became energetic, jumped to the door of the office, leaned against the door frame, shook the car keys, and thought for a while.

"It's not going to be spent....... One Thousand Five~"

.......

Ran into the elevator, to the underground parking lot, pressed the car key, the modified Camaro lights flashed, and then the roar of the engine came from the underground parking lot, and the yellow lightning rushed out of the underground parking lot and drove towards home.

When I got home, I immediately took off the suit that bound my body, went into the bathroom to take a shower, sang a light song with a toothbrush, changed into a beige shirt, a white T-shirt underneath, a pair of black overalls and a pair of skateboard shoes, styled my hair, looked at the handsome face in the mirror, and nodded with satisfaction.

"Boom~Smack!"

Flicked his tongue, his hands were applauded, the sensor light on the mirror turned off automatically, he opened the wall cabinet above the sink, took out a box of ten Durex, tore off one, thought about it and felt that it was not enough, tore off two more and put them in his wallet, he went out again with his car keys.

The atmosphere in the bar has already started to liven up, park the car, say hello to the reservation manager you know, go to his fixed booth every weekend, open a bottle of drink, and look for today's prey.

At eleven o'clock, the DJ officially came on stage, the bar was filled with deafening drumbeats, men and women began to secrete hormones, Lin Qin walked onto the dance floor and struck up a conversation with the girl who was alone tonight, she seemed to be with her friends.

After looking at the three girls sitting on the platform not far away, Lin Qin did not hesitate to put his arm around her shoulders and took her back to his booth, and then the three girls were also hooked up with him, the four girls shouted to drink, Lin Qin did not refuse, under the influence of alcohol, he rubbed a lot of oil on the four girls, and was easily let go.

At one o'clock in the middle of the night, he left the bar with the girl and arrived at a nearby hotel, where the two looked like a loving couple, but in fact, they didn't even know each other's real names.

After swiping the room card, there was no power supply in the house, Lin Qin pulled her into the house, and pressed the girl against the door in the dark, and there was only the gasp of two people with alcohol in the room.

"You ....... first Take a bath?"

"Whoever comes first, let's it together!

He often came to this hotel, inserted the room card in the card slot, pressed the light, carried the girl and rushed to the bathroom, the girl screamed, followed by a string of silver bell-like laughter, and after entering the bathroom for a while, the glass was steaming and fogging, accompanied by the heavy gasping of the two, only the figure of a woman leaning down on the glass could be seen......

.......

As the old saying goes, the plan of the day lies in the morning, but when the two woke up, it was already more than 11 o'clock in the morning, and they looked at each other after waking up, and the result was a burst of thunder and fire.

Afterwards, Lin Qin gasped and leaned against the head of the bed, the girl intimately helped him wipe the sweat on his forehead, snuggled in his arms, saw him smoke afterwards, and also took one in his mouth, and before he could light it, he was stunned for a moment and pointed to Lin Qin's nose.

"You're getting a nosebleed. ”

"Oh, yes, maybe I can't stand you because I'm too beautiful, my blood pressure is a little high, it's okay, I'll go to the bathroom, I'll be ...... Again?"

"Hate ......."

Dragged a few pieces of bedside paper into his nostrils, put on a bathrobe and smiled at the girl, walked leisurely towards the bathroom, turned on the light, the bathroom was still quite interesting, through the glass and the girl raised his eyebrows, he bent down to turn on the faucet, took some cold water and patted his forehead, and the moment he pulled down the paper, the blood seemed to be poured out, and the splashed sink was full of blood spots.

I didn't expect his bleeding to be so large, Lin Qin was stunned for a moment, took another handful of water and wiped his nose, but the blood still didn't stop falling, like a faucet that was not turned off, ticking and ticking fast.

He was a little panicked, no matter who was in this situation, he would be in a hurry, the mobile phone in the pocket of the bathrobe rang, he took it out and took a look, it was a colleague who asked him to run a marathon yesterday, he didn't answer, he just hung up and threw it aside.

When he bent down again, a feeling of dizziness came up, not like the feeling of a fragment, but it became difficult to breathe, and the scenery in his eyes lost color, and then his vision began to shrink, and the small ones were like pinnoses, and finally there was a complete darkness in front of him, and he breathed heavily and quickly, and then ...... He fell headlong to the ground.

The girl was playing with her mobile phone, chatting with her little sister last night about whether Lin Qin's kung fu was good, and occasionally turned her head to look at the bathroom, and saw him swaying and falling to the ground.

"Ah!!!h

.......

"Tick....... Backbite....... Tick ......."

Slowly opened his eyes, the ceiling had no ceiling, it was snow-white, Lin Qin glanced sideways at the surrounding environment, and instantly he understood where he was, he was in a large ward, and there were people lying on the beds next to him, and there were family members around him.

At the head of the bed, there was an instrument that measured heartbeat and blood pressure, and there was an infusion bag hanging on the pole next to the bed, and he didn't know what was inside, but his hand was cold and sore from the infusion, and the whole blood vessel was tense and painful when he moved.

What's worse is that he was fixed on the bed sideways, and this part of his back and spine hurt terribly, as long as he moved slightly, it was like a needle pricking in the seam of the bone joint.

As soon as he woke up, Lin Qin sweated in pain, and when he saw the nurse prick the old lady in the next bed, he hurriedly asked as if he had seen a life-saving straw.

"Nurse, Miss Nurse, may I ask me...... What's wrong with me?"

"I don't know yet, I need to wait for the results of the examination to come out, I will stay in the hospital for observation for the next few days, and then I will see the pathology two days later. ”

"What hospital is this?"

"Army General Hospital. ”

Pulled out the needle and threw it into the trash can of the medicine cart, didn't look at Lin Qin, pushed the cart and turned away, leaving Lin Qin very uneasy lying on the bed waiting.

He asked the family member in the next bed to help him bring his clothes, and he didn't lose his mobile phone wallet, but some of the money was missing.

He didn't complain that the girl just left, after all, the two just met in Pingshui, but they just spent a night together, and it was already benevolent and righteous to send him to the hospital, and the money in the wallet was probably also paid for registration fees, hospitalization fees, ambulance commuting fees and other expenses, the girl should not have taken a penny, for a woman who was just a one-night stand, what could he find fault with?

made a phone call to his leader to ask for leave, and the leader heard that he had a cold and readily approved the vacation, after all, Lin Qin was his right-hand man, and his relationship with him was also very close, so he couldn't make trouble with Lin Qin.

This time was destined to be torturous, and the next day Lin Qin was able to walk on the ground, although his back was still in severe pain, but at least he was able to move on his own, walking back and forth in the corridor in a hospital gown.

On the third day, the results of the examination came down, Lin Qin walked to the outpatient clinic nervously, knocked on the door, and heard that the doctor in charge of him inside allowed him to come in, he pushed the door and walked in slowly, nodding politely to the doctor.

The doctor looked to be about fifty years old, looked up at Lin Qin, asked him to sit on the stool, and then paid attention to the computer monitor, probably looking at Lin Qin's examination results.

"What about your family?"

"I....... No dependents. ”

"Then on the day you were admitted to the hospital, who was the girl who accompanied you?"

Lin Qin remained silent, and the doctor was not surprised, and did not continue to ask, people engaged in certain professions have been experiencing all kinds of things that ruin the three views, if they really mention it to others, they know that they can't finish talking about it for three days and three nights, and everything is exciting.

One is the staff of the entertainment venue, the second is the front desk of the hotel, and the third is the doctor, so the topic stopped here, the doctor took out a medical record from the folder and put it on the desk, and took a sip of tea in silence.

Lin Qin picked it up and looked at it, he knew both the words and the English alphabet when he took it out, but after combining and arranging, it really made his eyes darken, until the summary of the medical records at the end was like a train whistling through his mind.......

"Leukemia? isn't it....... How is this possible? I have never lived in Dalian since I was a child, and I have never even had chickenpox except for a cold...... This is impossible! It must have been misdiagnosed!"

seems to feel that Lin Qin's age is about the same size as his own child, and he is a tall man, a talent, it is a pity to suffer from this disease, so for Lin Qin's questioning, the doctor is not displeased, it is normal for the patient to be difficult to accept for a while when he gets the news, it is really angry that it is not nothing, Lin Qin's questioning is quite reasonable.

"Theoretically, there is a possibility of misdiagnosis, after all, no hospital dares to say that the diagnosis is 100% correct, but the possibility of misdiagnosis is ...... It is really not big, from the diagnosis of bone marrow aspirate, plus the auxiliary confirmation of blood routine, your spleen organ is indeed enlarged, and you can basically be diagnosed with chronic myeloid leukemia, and you have been sick for a period of time, and it is about to enter the accelerated period, you can go to other hospitals for a second examination, but now you do need to take medication to control the condition. ”

"Impossible! I'll go for a test now, it's definitely a misdiagnosis, you wait for me to sue your hospital!"

Out of the hospital, Lin Qin took a taxi to the 102 Hospital, which is famous for cancer, and in the car, the shaking right leg could see how tormented he was, but he may have believed it, because ...... He was carrying three boxes of imatinib mesylate.

When he came to the 102 Hospital, which is famous for treating cancer diseases, he did a comprehensive examination, and he had already emptied all his cash, and as for the medical insurance, he had to wait for time to report.

With the pain after the anesthetic, Lin Qin took the last dozens of dollars on his body and took a taxi back home, unscrewed the door, the room was dark, only the pain can make people remember the lesson, and the same is true for Lin Qin at this moment, he regrets why he didn't save some money, so that he can only rely on credit cards to do physical examinations now.

The results of the examination in 102 Hospital were taken in seven working days, so he still had to come to work as usual, but the original chic and uninhibited spirit was replaced by the fear of disease, so that the efficiency of his work decreased significantly.

The people in the office are very well-informed, and Lin Qin's personality likes clubbing, so much so that the grapevine news that Lin Qin has AIDS or syphilis and other flower willow diseases, although he did not mention it in front of Lin Qin, but the eyes behind his back and the figure that gradually moved away made it very difficult for Lin Qin, who has always been a good person, to accept.

The side effects of taking imatinib were a loss of appetite, he hadn't eaten a good meal for several days, and chronic myelogenous leukemia would also cause inexplicable night sweats and weight loss, which made his colleagues even more sure that Lin Qin had that disease.

Seven working days later, he took leave again and went to the hospital, and the results were supposed to come after 2 p.m., but he waited anxiously in the hospital early in the morning, and then ...... There were no errors in the results given by the army hospital.

"Pack up your things and go to the hospital tomorrow. ”

The doctor in the well-known clinic is always more indifferent than the doctor in the cold outpatient room, in the face of this doctor in his forties, Lin Qin was completely stupid, opened his mouth to say something, opened and closed silently, and finally just pinched the examination results tightly, full of wrinkles, and slowly got up and left.

There are always people crying silently in the corner of the hospital, and some people crying with joy at the door of the operating room...... recorded everything here, and in the end, the clouds were light and the wind was light, and there was no sorrow or joy.

"You don't have long eyes, can you step on me?"

A young man was sitting on the ground in the corridor eating a boxed lunch, it seemed that someone in the family was seriously ill and in a very bad mood, Lin Qin was numb and stepped on the young man's seemingly expensive shoes.

The young man instantly threw the lunch box on the ground, got up and grabbed Lin Qin's collar, and pressed him against the wall, looking at Lin Qin's unfocused eyes fiercely.

The people around came to dissuade them, but they didn't take the initiative to pull them away, just around the two of them and said "forget it", "no", "this is in the hospital", but it didn't have much effect.

"Are you fucking blind? You can't see me as big a person? Believe it or not, I smoked you?"

"I'm sorry. ”

"Your uncle, say I'm sorry now? What the fuck are you doing? I'm in a bad mood now, do you come to the door by yourself?"

"I'm going to die. ”

"What .......?"

"I'm going to die. ”

Lin Qin stared at the young man's eyes, and said numbly, the young man was also stunned for a moment, thinking about what kind of place this is, it is normal to meet a person who is dying, the original anger became a little overwhelmed in Lin Qin's desperate words, his tongue licked around his teeth, and then easily opened the hand that grabbed Lin Qin's collar.

"Do you know how to look at it next time you walk? Not everyone is as good-tempered as me, hurry up!

He pushed Lin Qin, Lin Qin nodded at him blankly, turned around and left silently, the people around him made way and let Lin Qin go out, there was pity and indifference in his eyes, but all this had nothing to do with Lin Qin.

The young man put his hands in his pockets, turned around in place, the corners of his mouth went up to the left, revealing a gap, and he inhaled hard before he shouted hesitantly.

"Hey!"

Lin Qin turned his head and looked at him......

"There is no obstacle in life that cannot be overcome!Live well! Definitely! it! Live well! Come on buddy!"

Licking his lips, Lin Qin wanted to say something, but blocked his throat, and finally only held back a thank you the size of a mosquito, bowed lightly to the young man, and then turned to leave.

He swayed all the way to the parking lot, and was tripped by the green belt and almost fell, he opened the car door, just sat down, a drop of blood fell on the back of his hand, he panicked, opened the drawer and took out a tissue to wipe the blood, but still wiped more, dripping on the body and in the car, looking at the continuous loss of blood, and finally made him wake up numb, tears continued to flow, in the reversing mirror looked particularly terrifying.

In the end, the paper ran out, and his hands were already stained with blood, and he realized that the paper could not block the blood at all, and the only thing that could really save him was the hospital that had just come out not far away.

He got out of the car, covered his nose with his palms, blood was still dripping in the cracks, and he didn't even close the car door, and ran towards the hospital, passers-by looked at him in horror, and kept backing down, and finally he arrived at the door of the hospital, shouting hoarsely, with two words of deep despair.

"Save Me !!"

.......

The next day, he packed his bags and came to the company, he came to resign and ask for the salary he hadn't received this month, and now he knows to cherish money because it's life-saving.

Before the leader came, he sat in front of the computer in a daze, but soon after, the leader came to the office, saw Lin Qin looking at the computer in a daze, frowned and walked over and patted Lin Qin's shoulder.

"Lin Qin, what are you thinking? Didn't you sleep well last night?"

"I didn't have a good rest last night, I'm sorry Brother Zhang. ”

"Hurry up and cheer up, check the report of Mr. Zhang in your hand to me in a while, okay, you, it's another big list, do it well." ”

After the leader left, Xiao Chen, a single dog colleague, moved his office chair and sat next to Lin Qin, or how to say that a high-paid person who is not ugly can't find a girlfriend? The key factor is low emotional intelligence.

"Went to the hospital yesterday?"

"Hmm. ”

"How's it going?"

"It's fine. ”

"That's okay, I told you a long time ago that you don't have a good face, and it's okay to ask a few girls in the future, be careful of Ai. ”

"What the are you talking about?"

Seeing Lin Qin's hair, the office was silent, only occasionally colleagues looked at each other, glanced at Lin Qin with a mocking face, and then snickered with other colleagues.

On the surface, no matter how popular Lin Qin is, he is also the most profitable in the entire office, who can not be blushing? It's just that he also has a fear of Lin Qin, for fear that he will also be infected.

All living beings are hostile and wary of things that threaten them, and of course, human beings, as higher beings, are more cautious, and they also know that it is not only swords and guns that can threaten them, but also their fellow human beings.

Lin Qin came to resign, but after all, the leader treated him well, even if he resigned, he couldn't just pick and choose, and after checking the report, he got up and walked towards the leader's office with the documents.

"Enter. ”

"Brother Zhang, the report has been checked, and I will put it here for you. ”

"Lin Qin, I didn't ask you just now that there were a lot of people, how was the result of the examination......?

An AIDS patient can bring panic to everyone, even if he knows how to pat Lin Qin's shoulder will not be infected, but he still went to the bathroom to wash his hands well, now that Lin Qin is here, he has to ask, if it is true, then even if Lin Qin has a good relationship with him, he can only say sorry.

"The purpose of my visit is to resign, and the handover has been done and placed on the USB flash drive on my desk. ”

"So you really ......"

"No, I'm leukemia. ”

Just heard the denial, Brother Zhang was quite happy, but when Lin Qin said the real disease, his heart suddenly fell to the bottom, and he didn't know what to say, so he thought silently for a while before nodding.

"That's good, but don't resign, it's a dismissal, you will be given a subsidized salary according to your length of service, my brother can only help you get here, after all, I'm just an ordinary family, and your sister-in-law and your nephew have to support, don't blame brother, I'll contact finance later, and urge me to fight for your salary card within three days, although this disease is very serious....... But there is still a possibility of cure, don't despair, live well. ”

Lin Qin suddenly wanted to cry, his mood swings became bigger and bigger, and within two days, two people encouraged him and let him live, which was like a warm light for him who was extremely depressed, he didn't know what to say, he just resisted the urge to cry, bit his lip and bowed to the leader who took care of him very much, and then left the leader's office, ready to pack his things.

It was just that as soon as he entered the office, he smelled the pasteurized water.......

"That...... It's not influenza recently, and the air in our office is not circulating, Lin Qin, don't mind. ”

A married female colleague smiled awkwardly and told a lie that could be easily debunked, hoping that Lin Qin would not hold a grudge against herself.

These people are already alive and full of oil, even if she thinks that Lin Qin will not live long, she doesn't want to offend people, at least Lin Qin is still alive now, if she really uses violence to retaliate and get herself injured, how worthless it is.

Glancing at his female colleague indifferently, he walked back to his desk and packed up his things, because the working environment was good, and he really put a lot of things, and he really couldn't take them away in one trip.

After getting off the elevator and coming up again, I saw that the female colleague was still spraying disinfectant on the ground, everyone was wearing masks, or waiting in the corridor.

"Don't spray it! I'm not AIDS! I'm not! I'm leukemia! I'm not contagious! I won't infect you! Don't spray! I'm not AIDS! I'm leukemia! I'm really leukemia! Here's my test result! Look at it! It's really leukemia! I'm going to die! But I can't infect you! I'm really leukemia! Look at it!"

Is there anything more ironic, disgusting, and fucked up than letting a terminally ill person have to prove to others that he really has a terminal illness? At least Lin Qin can't think of it now.

He could only burst into tears, walked up to them with the test results, and shouted in a broken voice, showing the test results to everyone present, he was really leukemia, really not contagious!

But what do you get in exchange....... It's just that everyone's panicked evasion, and the indifference and even disgusted eyes after they have already dodged, except for these, it doesn't have any effect.

No....... It can do something, but it happens off screen.

Lu Ze looked behind him, sobbing could be heard in his ears, and he could see that people were tearing and not wiping them, and the pair of red and swollen eyes that were always staring at the screen were not wiped away.

......

Lin Qin was hospitalized, but he didn't stay for a few days, because the high hospitalization fees made him unable to afford it, a box of domestically produced imatinib is 2,030, 75% of the reimbursement is made, the bed fee is nearly 90 a day, the subsidy is 42, the chemotherapy uses domestic drugs, more than 8,000 at a time, and it is expected that the chemotherapy will be eight times, plus infusions and other drugs, almost about 100,000, and the reimbursement will be 35%.

He could only sell the car to a second-hand car dealership, but although Camaro is famous, not many people will buy it, so that even if he even spent more than 500,000 yuan on car belt modification, the money he got was only more than 300,000 yuan, plus selling some bits and pieces, he raised a total of 350,000 yuan for medical treatment.

More than 300,000 yuan is a drop in the bucket for this disease, and now he has no job, he must be able to save it, he is not hoping that he can live longer, but hoping to cure this disease.

But he asked about the cost of bone marrow transplant and surgery, but the amount that the doctor said made him desperate, he had only worked for five years, and it was a lot to have more than 300,000 yuan left, but he really couldn't fill this big hole.

He also thought about turning to the Red Cross, but there were too many leukemia patients, and the child was still in the period of high leukemia, so his application was quickly rejected.

Naturally, it is impossible to renew the lease of the house, and he can't afford to pay the rent of more than 10,000 yuan a month, and the furniture he bought can only be moved to the second-hand market for sale, and in the end there is only a suitcase left, which contains a few clothes, a pair of shoes, and a laptop.

.......

"Hah...... Ha...... Ha ......"

More than a month has passed, late autumn is coming, Lin Qin walked into the alley near the 102 Hospital with his suitcase, he lost a lot of weight, wore a mask, panted and stood in a small hotel in the alley, looked down at the simple paper business card, and carried the suitcase into the hotel.

This place is very shabby, so dilapidated that the original Lin Qin will not come here at all, push open the door, there is a board hanging on the wall facing the infectious disease patients will not be accepted, an old man sat on a chair in the reception room, listened to a little song, heard the bell hanging on the door ring, turned his head to look at Lin Qin.

"What for?"

"Stay. ”

"What disease?"

"Leukemia. ”

"Show me the case, fill in the identity registration by yourself, and give you the book, how long will you live? Pay the money every month, 300 a month. ”

"Stay for a month, fill it out, give me the case. ”

Lin Qin put the pen in the notebook and threw it on the desk in the reception room, the old man took off his reading glasses and returned Lin Qin's medical records to him, took three hundred yuan, held it up in the sun and looked at it, confirmed that it was real money, and threw Lin Qin a string of keys marked 217.

Compared with the downstairs, the upstairs is even more old, the cement floor has been potholed, the wall has been scraped white, the height of about one meter and a half from the ground has been painted with cyan paint, the lighting facility is a twenty-watt light bulb, dark like a haunted house, and with a musty smell.

Open the room, it's better than expected, the window is sunny, the lighting is very good, the room is not as big as the musty smell of the corridor, but the area is not large, only three or four square meters, there is a bed against the wall, there is a cabinet at the head of the bed, there is a desk by the door, there is a ninety-year-old style lamp on it, the clock on the wall is no longer out of words, the only household appliance is a big ass TV about eighteen inches.

The suitcase was tucked under the table, he took the medicine and water out of his backpack, ate it, plugged it in, and got to work.

Now he is doing online English translation orders, but due to his physical condition, he does not allow him to do high-intensity work, so he can only pick some orders that are not so urgent, and the income is about three or four thousand yuan, which is enough to buy medicine a month, and if he saves for a few months, it is also enough for a physical examination.

The side effects of imatinib came up, and after an hour he started to feel dizzy, turned off the computer, lay down in bed, felt a whirlwind, and finally fell asleep.

I don't know how long I slept, in a trance, Lin Qin felt that there was someone in the room, hurriedly sat up and opened his eyes, pulled the lamp rope next to the bed, and in the dim light, Lin Qin saw a man quietly rummaging through his bag and taking out his wallet from it.

"Fuck you, you put it down!"

Daring to live in this kind of place, he was already mentally prepared, took out the throwing stick hidden under the pillow, and whipped the stick hard according to the man's back, it seemed that the man's body was also very weak, and he was directly smashed by Lin Qin, lying on the ground and humming.

Pulled off the man's hat, he was bald, obviously undergoing chemotherapy, he couldn't see his face clearly with his back to Lin Qin, Lin Qin didn't have any mercy, he had seen too many patients these days, even he himself was a patient, everyone was dying, who the was used to whom?

Touched the man's pocket, pulled out about five hundred yuan, glanced at his empty wallet, counted it, put it back in the wallet, checked the bag again, and didn't lose anything else, he turned his attention back to the man.

"Steal my money, right? How did you get in?"

Carrying this man's collar, he slapped him hard, he was beaten and held his head, but he didn't say a word, letting Lin Qin continue to beat him.

But then, Lin Qin couldn't do it anymore, and under the light of the table lamp, he found that the person who was beaten by him had blood coming out of his nose, and judging from his face, he was about twenty years old.

"Get out!"

There were a lot of people standing outside the door, men, women and children, all came out to see the excitement, Lin Qin kicked the boy, the boy still didn't say a word, it seemed that Lin Qin just hit him twice and let him go, pursed his lips, bowed to Lin Qin, and then turned around and entered the next room next to Lu Ze.

.......

Early the next morning, Lin Qin locked the door with a basin, went to the public bathroom to wash, endured the pungent smell, carefully brushed his teeth, approached the mirror full of toothpaste spots, carefully looked at the corners of his eyes that had been yellowed, spit out a mouthful of toothpaste foam, the toothbrush stirred quickly in the tooth jar, and then poured it out, turned his head, only to find that the boy was standing behind him, seemed to be startled by Lin Qin, and took a step back.

Lin Qin glanced at him suspiciously, touched his trouser pocket, there was no money in it, and then turned around and left with a strange face, just about to open the door, but heard a man's scream.

"Ah!! old Mrs. Shen is dead!!"

As soon as I heard that someone was dead, the cat was waiting for death in the room, and all the people walked out of the room, wearing masks, and walking towards Mrs. Shen's room, a skinny man sat on the ground, watching in horror at the old man lying motionless on the bed after the door opened.

She has a big mouth, her eyes are not closed, her expression is very painful, she is not covered with a quilt, she is wearing a shabby shirt and pants, in a large font, everyone can feel the despair she experienced before she died, which makes many soft-hearted people no longer bear to look at it.

The innkeeper, the old man, carried a green one-shoulder military bag with a shiny five-colored five-pointed star on it, and carried an incense burner and a basin in his hand, and slowly walked up to the second floor.

"Chickens and horses go back to the house! Don't look at them! Get out of the way, I'll go in." ”

Pull over the bench in front of the desk, put the incense burner on it, take out the incense wrapped in plastic cloth from the bag, put it on the stool, put the basin behind the incense burner, take out two sticks of wax from the bag again, light them and put them on both sides of the incense burner, and then light the incense with a candle and insert it in the incense burner.

Opening the window to freshen up the air, the old man took out a stack of white paper money from his bag again, threw it into the sky, and then scattered it in all corners of the room, took out the walkman in his pocket, changed the tape, pressed the button and put it on the desk, and there was a small mournful sound.

"Xiao Guo, take the dishes downstairs and put them on the table, as well as the paper money and shroud in my cabinet, all bring it up, and the rest of the people who are forty years old and below, those who have birthdays before September, tie up the filial piety belt, keep the spirit, burn less paper, and change people when you are tired, the tall man who came yesterday, born in March at the age of twenty-seven, you wear a birthday dress for the old lady. ”

"I ......."

"Don't talk nonsense, you don't do it, do you think that when you die, no one will even help you wear a shroud? ”

Hearing this, what else could Lin Qin say, and waited silently until the person named Xiao Guo brought the filial piety belt, and the tail was still tied with a red rope, which means that this is the filial piety belt of the grandchildren, and the sons are not tied to the red rope at the tail.

Picking up the navy blue shroud, Lin Qin swallowed and spit, glanced at the old man, and put it on the old lady in fear, this was the first time he had done this, to be honest, he was quite scared.

When the old lady's hat was put on, she saw the old man holding a piece of yellow paper, squinting at his reading glasses, reading the words on it, and reading aloud.

"Shen Xiumei! A native of Dujiangyan, Sichuan Province, passed away on 17 September 2016! At the age of 73! Before his death, he paid me 2,800 yuan for the fare! 200 yuan for wine and food! 500 yuan for relatives and friends! 200 yuan for his relatives! A total of 3,700 yuan! It was fixed on Shen Xiumei! He did not dare to hide it privately! When the deceased returned to his hometown, wild ghosts on the roadside must not interfere with it! Otherwise, he would break his yin virtue and bring disaster to his family and have nothing to do with my Wang Shucai!

After reading it, the old man threw the paper into the brazier, the boy who was beaten by Lin Qin last night, pulled Lin Qin's arm, and dragged him over, a total of three women, four men knelt on the ground and kowtowed three times, accompanied by mourning, the oldest man lit the paper money, threw it into the brazier, and watched the paper money quickly turn black and turn into ashes.

"You ....... Do it all the time?"

Other people in their forties and above came over and bowed to Mrs. Shen, or kowtowed, and when everything was done, Lin Qin stuck to the kid he beat last night and asked.

"Hmm...... If you feel that you can't do it anymore, you can give the old man money, which can be brought home for you, or you can help you get into the ground, he will not hide it privately, and use it on you. ”

Looking at these people and thinking about himself, Lin Qin suddenly felt very ridiculous, dying in another country, even having to arrange the funeral by himself, and having no relatives around, he found a patient who lived in a hotel to pretend, and his whole life ended like this, this kind of taste...... I can't tell, I can't tell.

"Dude, you burn, I can't do it, I have liver cancer, and it hurts badly. ”

The man who burned the paper handed the wooden stick to Lin Qin, his head was sweaty, his face was very pale, Lin Qin did not refuse, took the wooden stick and knelt in front of the brazier, and threw the paper money in the brazier.

The old lady's funeral in the inn did not last long, and as soon as it was dark at night, an old Wuling Hongguang drove to the door of the hotel, and the black shroud was tied to the old lady, and put it in the back row that had been demolished, and the old man's money was taken, and the forty or fifty-year-old man who pulled the corpse drove away.

"The old lady is very generous, 200 yuan for relatives, you seven points, all go back to rest, come down at seven o'clock to have dinner, the old lady thanks you, don't come, no. ”

The group of people nodded, and went back to the room to rest for a while, but Lin Qin's heart was heavy, and he felt very chaotic, he felt ...... It seems that when he is sick, he sees something different, not sunny, but cold and full of decay, maybe in the near future, he will also lie here, and he will also find someone to recognize his relatives, so that these people who have no blood relationship with him can wear linen and filial piety.

At seven o'clock, Lin Qin went downstairs, there were two tables of meals at the door, two tables of five hundred yuan, if you do it yourself, the food is really good, this meal is not good for chickens and horses, their seven "sons and grandsons" sat at a table with Old Man Wang, because Lin Qin is a newcomer, so he has to introduce himself again, and let Lin Qin know these patients.

"Ermao, did you go to Lin Qin's house last night?"

Old man Wang asked the child who was beaten by Lin Qin, making him scratch his head embarrassedly, but he also nodded in acknowledgement.

"If you know each other this time, don't do it, steal anyone's, you can't steal the sick, not to mention a family, you just came, I won't talk about you, apologize to Lin Qin, even if he killed you last night, you will die, at most take it away with Mrs. Shen, no one cares about you." ”

"Brother Lin, I'm sorry, I was wrong, thank you for letting me go yesterday, I actually just wanted to get some cash, bank cards, and computers, and I didn't move it, but if I took it, I took it, I was wrong, I kowtowed to you." ”

The child got up and pushed away the plastic stool, knelt in front of Lin Qin and kowtowed to Lin Qin three times, Lin Qin wanted to get up to stop him, but was stopped by Old Man Wang.

"If you steal the patient's money and die, you will be struck by lightning, you can afford to kowtow to apologize, but you don't have to worry about it in the future, this matter is over, come, you can drink a glass to the glass, and if you can't eat, go back to lie down." ”

Lin Qin took a sip of beer, looked at these people who were still very strange, but unconsciously felt kind, and smiled from the bottom of his heart, since the death of his parents, he no longer had a sense of belonging, so he was so indulgent, just to find that sense of belonging, but after wandering for so many years, he still didn't find it.

It's funny and sad that he has found it now, like falling into a pile of dead people, a bunch of dying people, giving him the feeling of home.

"I think which of us will die first, and it will be my father who will die first! If I die earlier than you, you will have to kowtow to me and call me Dad! Do you dare?"

"Damn, who's afraid of whom! Whoever dies first is the father, right? I'm going to die here now, okay, good son? ha. ”

The people at the next table started a joke, two men in their thirties and the other in their forties, regardless of age and inferiority, joking with assholes.

I said...... What did you want to do with the money yesterday?"

"Brother Lin, are you still not satisfied? Then I'll give you three more ......."

"Stop, stop, I'm not still holding grudges, I'm not that kind of person, I just want to ask, what are your difficulties. ”

Ermao glanced at Lin Qin with some twist, pursed his lips, and said it in a voice the size of a mosquito.

"I want to ...... Buy a wig, and then take a posthumous photo, my photo is too ugly, I want to take a handsome photo, a photo of me fifteen years old...... It looks like a monkey. ”

"Hahaha, how old are you?"

"Eighteen ....... this year"

"Ah...... Change the photo, is 500 enough? Brother gave it to you, this guy, it's a pity that he doesn't dress up and is handsome. ”

Lin Qin smiled and smiled, his eyes turned red, and he began to prepare a posthumous photo for himself at the age of eighteen, what kind of day is this! He is only eighteen! This is how much evil he has done in his previous life to end up now?

At the age of twenty-seven, he felt sorry for himself, hating God for letting him get leukemia, but what about this child? He had just come of age, and he hadn't even seen the outside world of flowers, so he waited to die in a moldy place, and he didn't say a word when he was beaten like this for stealing money, just so that he could take a handsome posthumous photo....... Really, Lin Qin wants to kowtow to Ermao now, maybe the more than 500 yuan last night will be taken by him.

took out five hundred and stuffed it into his pocket, but the kid was embarrassed to take it now, and hurriedly took it out and returned it to Lin Qin.

"Brother Lin, I can't ask for this money, I was really wrong, I couldn't hold back last night, it doesn't matter if I want to open it now, I can't see anything when I'm dead, why do I want to leave a photo." ”

"Ermao! Listen, take it! Is handsome a thing for his life! Your brother and I are like this, I care about my face! You also learn from me, take it!"

The originally lively atmosphere suddenly quieted down, this was the only person they had ever seen who was terminally ill and gave money to others, Lin Qin seemed to them....... It's special.

"Yes! Ermao takes it! Is it his life's business! Is the money enough? Your brother Guo doesn't have much money, at most he will give you a hundred. ”

"Auntie will also give you a hundred, dress up beautifully!

"And me! Take it and buy beautiful clothes! We're old, it's good to wear shrouds, you young people wear fashion!"

"I'm ....... too"

The scene is quite touching, at least whether it is someone else who impresses themselves or themselves, everyone is crying, no one understands how desperate they are, but we have to be sunny ourselves!

.......

"I can't stand it anymore! No, do you have any paper? Dude, give me two, what am I going to do...... I'm so uncomfortable! I shouldn't be here for this premiere!"

"Who's to say it's not! The key is that I'm still working, I can't even if I don't want to see it, I'm really ....... I might as well tell the editor-in-chief that I should go to the premiere of "Happy Events in the Flower Field 2020", hey, I'm so unbearable. ”

Don't talk about others, just the group of people who are the main creators of the movie are crying like their grandson, Wang Zhen is crying, there is no image, and even Zhuang Yu himself is wiping tears when he sees it.

Lu Ze wiped his eyes with a tissue, he really didn't expect this movie to be edited like this, the quarrel between the two directors in the crew did not affect the quality of the work at all, but the two combined their respective excellence, so that the work has the thought and soul that Zhuang Yu has always emphasized, and it is also full of Guo Mingde's crisp and neat editing, without any mud and water.

Everyone in this movie plays too well, Ermao is only sixteen years old in this life, because the children who are not present at school are really very spiritual, much stronger than the children advocated by the news.

So, with everyone in the audience in tears, the story continued......

.......

In the next few days, Ermao's relationship with Lin Qin also became much closer, the child often ran to Lin Qin's room, and played stand-alone games with his computer when Lin Qin was resting, and occasionally Lin Qin would take out some money to buy some delicious food for the child, but overall, he was still saving money, trying to scrape together enough money for a bone marrow transplant, and waiting for a bone marrow that could be matched with him to appear.

"Ringo...... Do you like it?"

On this day, Ermao knocked on the door, Lin Qin was stunned for a moment after opening it, and then laughed, Ermao's originally bare head had long hair, and the hairstyle was quite handsome, he reached out and touched it, it looked like the real thing, and he was carrying several bags with clothes inside, and it seemed that he had gone to buy a lot.

"That's really good, this wig, where did I buy it, I also do chemotherapy, and I'll buy one when I don't have my hair." ”

"It's a short walk west from the bus stop on Erdao Street, one hundred and fifty yuan, that's good! By the way, Brother Lin, can you look at my clothes? Eighty coats, thirty vests, one hundred pants, I like these shoes, eighty dollars, and this...... Can you take care of it?"

A box wrapped in black cloth was handed to Lin Qin, Lin Qin opened it and saw that there were obvious traces of P pictures, much more handsome than Ermao in reality, this child is really good at making trouble, and there is no one left with the P picture of his posthumous photo.

But it's good to be happy....... Even if the photo is with an explosive head, as long as you are happy.

"Look at you, do you play games? If you don't play, I'll turn off the computer. ”

"Fighting...... Hit the ......"

This kid smiled, sitting in front of the computer, Lin Qin shook his head with a smile, pushed the door and prepared to go to the toilet, recently he began to have blood in his stool, and his condition was getting worse and worse, but he still firmly believed that he could live, and his attitude was very optimistic.

After peeing out, he didn't lift his pants yet, and he was suddenly stunned, and then quickly put on his pants and nodded to the person in front of him.

He had never seen this person before, it was estimated that he had just come today, as for why Lin Qin was stunned, because this woman was very beautiful and had a very good figure, and it was estimated that anyone would be stunned if he could see such a beautiful woman in this kind of place.

She glanced at Lin Qin, nodded in response to Lin Qin, and then twisted the key hard, but couldn't open the door, she was a little distressed for a while, and lifted the long hair on her forehead, maybe there are too many bald people around her now, Lin Qin began to pay attention to the hair of the people around her, this woman's hair is real.

"I'll help you. ”

Coincidentally, she lived in Mrs. Shen's room, Lin Qin knew what was going on with this door, pulled the doorknob hard, then turned the key, kicked the door, and the door was opened.

"Thank you......"

"It's okay, living here, it's all a family, my name is Lin Qin, I live in 217, call me if you have something." ”

Do you say that Lin Qin is not lustful now? Obviously not, Jiangshan is easy to change, and his hobby of sleeping with girls cannot be changed even if he has a terminal illness.

In addition, he is thin and out of shape, and his face is very unhealthy, but the bottom is here, he is still handsome, and he is clean up, and the girl can't hate it.

She nodded and responded politely: "My name is Shen Mengxi, it's a pleasure to meet you." ”

"See you then, see you later. ”

Today's day is good, the weather is neither hot nor cold, Lin Qin planned to bask in the sun, and came downstairs to sit at the door with Old Man Wang and play chess.

"Hey, my lord, the woman who just moved in today...... What's the disease?"

Lao Wang Tou held a chess piece in his hand, took out one from the middle, covered it on top, made a popping sound, played the ash of the old man's cigarette, and made a sound to Lin Qin.

"Stomach cancer, it's still quite mild, it's also a sinful disease, I said you're going to die, and you're still thinking about women? Cure the disease, what do you want to do in the future? Besides, people are married, you can't do this. ”

"Oh, get married? What about her husband? It's really interesting, she has a husband and she can live here? Her husband doesn't show up and lets her come by himself? It's funny, after becoming a frequent visitor to the hospital, what kind of person has she never seen? It's unlucky for her to encounter such a damaged species. ”

"You see a doctor and you see the truth of life? We understand this truth, we understand, but you can't do this when she gets married, it's a matter of human conduct. ”

"Forget it, I'm not sick, I've seen a lot of disharmony in the life of husband and wife, women come out to drink, play, and play, now in this era, to put it bluntly, the marriage contract between husband and wife can't be limited at all. ”

"Then you can't think badly about other people's daughters-in-law......."

"Hey, don't lie to me, I haven't slept with other people's wives, and I'm afraid that my husband will find me and hack me to death, I'm cowardly, and I regret my life...... Brother Zhou, what's the matter?"

After having a sense of belonging, he also became a lot more cheerful, and became uninhibited again, as if he was not sick, when he was talking to Lao Wangtou about the mountains, but when he saw Mrs. Shen die, Lao Zhou, who raised the bar with Lao Zhao and said who died first was his father, came over.

"Lord Wang, Brother Zhao...... No, he said that he had to leave tonight, so he asked me to send you money to send him back to He Nan's hometown, two thousand yuan for the fare, one hundred for the paper vegetables, two hundred for thanks, and two hundred for the gods...... He asked me to tell you that he had no money, and he didn't invite you to a good meal when he died, right...... I'm sorry for you. ”

Lao Wangtou took Lao Zhou's money, spit out his cigarette, threw the cigarette butt on the ground and stepped on it, and threw the chess pieces on the chessboard.

"Then I'll get ready to go. ”

Lin Qin also got up silently and helped to fold the ingots, and another family member was leaving, so he could stack more and spend it on the road.

Last time, Mrs. Shen left suddenly, she was still conscious yesterday, and when she was brought food to her the next morning, she found that she was already cold.

This time, Lao Zhao had a hunch that he was going to die tonight, so everyone also wanted to accompany him and send him on his last journey.

"Lao Zhao, this time you are a father, it's okay, you are twelve years older than me, and you are a little older, so you won't suffer a loss if you call your father, you say....... You're a bastard, it's only been a few days. ”

Lao Zhou and Lao Zhao were originally patients in the same ward, and the two went to the Ping An Hotel together, and their relationship can be said to be very deep, how could they not be sad when they saw him like this.

"Hmm....... Hmmm......."

Lao Zhao couldn't say a word, so he could only lie sideways on the bed and hum, everyone who could still get up waited at the door to watch, listening to the two joking, laughing with tears, and echoing.

"Let's get dressed......"

At eight o'clock in the evening, Lao Zhao, who could only hum, said this sentence clearly, everyone had accepted this fact, Lao Zhou got up and took out the shroud in the cabinet and put it on for him quietly.

In the dim light, a person whose eyes are not open sits up and asks someone else to put on his shroud is indeed a bit infiltrating, especially for newcomers.

Shen Mengxi naturally stood with Lin Qin, who was still well known, and was a little afraid to look inside, so he grabbed Lin Qin's clothes in fear.

"Here, tie the filial piety belt. ”

"Huh, I ...... I won't, I haven't tied it. ”

"Come here, I'll tie it to you. ”

She brought a white cloth ignorantly, and Lin Qin looked in again, Lao Zhao had already put on his longevity clothes, was supported and lying on the bed, and then his half-open eyes began to close gradually......

Except for Lao Zhou, thirty years old and onwards came in. ”

Lin Qin pulled Shen Mengxi, who looked scared, Ermao followed behind him, and the three of them were the only ones from the age of thirty, and the moment the mourning music sounded, the cry came out.

"You've won! You're my father! Your son has kowtowed to you! The Western Road! Go all the way!"

"Zhao Fenghai! A native of Zhoukou, Honan Province! He passed away on 29 September 2016! At the age of 44! Before his death, he paid me 2,000 yuan for the fare! 100 yuan for the paper wine and food! Promised to send 200 yuan to relatives and friends! 200 yuan for his relatives! A total of 2,500 yuan! It was fixed on Zhao Fenghai! He did not dare to hide it privately! When the deceased returned to his hometown, the wild ghosts on the roadside must not interfere with it! Otherwise, he would break his yin virtue and bring disaster to his family and have nothing to do with my Wang Shucai! Bow to his relatives! Send Zhao Fenghai off!"

Lao Zhao was on the road much earlier than Mrs. Shen, half an hour later, the driver arrived, everyone sent Lao Zhao to the car, tossed for so long, suffered such a big crime, and now he can go home.

The beginning of a relationship must be caused by one party's covetousness of the other's body, if two people have no desire for each other, there is no beginning at all.

Lin Qin is like this, she has already sensed Shen Mengxi's fear, but because she is a stomach cancer patient, Lin Qin did not dare to put food on her, and her words comforted her...... This kind of thing can be comforted with words, and if it works, there will be ghosts.

But in the end, she was still scared and cried, no matter how she said it, she was only twenty-five years old, and today she saw Lao Zhao pass away, and then thought about her condition, can she not be afraid?

It's normal for newcomers to be scared, Lin Qin's performance is different, and Shen Mengxi's behavior is normal, because Lao Zhao's popularity is good, and because Shen Mengxi cried too sadly, everyone didn't have the heart to eat anymore, so they went back to their rooms to rest.

Lying on the bed and brushing the leukemia patient group, Lin Qin has never seen the people in this group in reality, and everyone's greeting is not the same as the ordinary group, ordinary people say "morning" in the group, and when these people chat in the morning, they are all talking......

"I'm alive. ”

There are already more than 500 people in the group, and there are hundreds of people who used to be "diving monsters", and even the group leader has changed three, and the vice president of imatinib came up again, glanced at Ermao, who was still playing games, and beckoned him to hurry back to rest, and soon he also fell asleep.

Later, Shen Mengxi got very close to Lin Qin and Ermao, because the three of them were not even thirty years old, and they could still talk, especially with Lin Qin, the age difference between the two was only two years, and there was basically no generation gap.

Often the three of them will come to Lin Qin's house to fight the landlord, or watch the gun version of the movie downloaded by the hospital together, and even Lin Qin and her chemotherapy time are scheduled together, the two do chemotherapy together, hospitalized together, lose hair together, vomit together, with this company, the difficult chemotherapy process is also much easier.

Looking at each other's bare heads, they will also laugh at each other, the two have no hair, the man is actually not too handsome, and the woman is not too beautiful.

Just wait until you are discharged...... Another resident passed away and didn't see her for the last time, Lin Qin still regretted it.

Until.......

"A four, I'm done. ”

"Ermao, you care about him, he can't get out of a seven, this is a very good card for me, I will definitely be able to come out if you pad it..... Go...... Ermao: What's wrong with you? Are you feeling unwell?"

Ermao and Shen Mengxi's relationship is also very good, after all, women's hearts are soft, and they have maternal love for this eighteen-year-old boy, and when they saw his face being particularly ugly, their hearts hung violently.

"I'm uncomfortable...... I....... Gross!"

As soon as Ermao turned over and began to vomit, Lin Qin and Shen Mengxi hurriedly got up, and immediately panicked when they saw that he was vomiting a large pool of blood on the ground.

"Go to the hospital!Hurry up!!And the one who can move!! Ermao is sick!!"

The group quickly sent Ermao to the hospital, and this group of people who were treated to baldness by chemotherapy naturally attracted the attention of many people, and because everyone's health was not good, Lin Qin let them go back first, leaving only Shen Mengxi, who was reluctant to leave, and he waited before the operation.

On the way to the hospital, Shen Mengxi kept crying, and he couldn't wipe away his tears, Lin Qin sat on the chair, his face was also sinking like water.

He had already expected this day, but it came much earlier than he imagined, Ermao, a child who was unwilling to drag his parents out of the house, what money did he have for treatment!

"Where is Mao Shengjun's family?"

"Here, doctor, how is he?"

"You are ......."

"I'm his brother. ”

"Immediate family?"

Lin Qin was stunned, his clenched hand hung down weakly, and he had to tell a lie that was not a lie: "He has no parents and grew up with me." ”

"Advanced rectal cancer, conservative treatment, I don't recommend continuing surgery, there is no immediate family signature, and your signature has no legal effect. ”

This sentence translates to be, don't have surgery, it's easy to die on the operating table after surgery, Shen Mengxi and Lin Qin both understood, and their faces began to turn pale.

Lin Qin grinned, wanting to say something not to give up on treating Ermao, but in the end, he just nodded.

"I see, thank you, doctor. ”

“.......”

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