After Feng Ranran listened to Dr. Hong's words and went to buy various fashion design books, she found a design job, she just did a miscellaneous job in the company, because she didn't have any design-related experience, and the secretary she studied in college had nothing to do with this. She started from a novice in the workplace, studying while working, and it took her 3 years to finally get to the position of designer. It took another two years for her to make a name for herself, most of her lists are children's clothing designs, and each of her works is a tribute to the child who has not yet had time to see this flowery world. She has relied on medicine to control her emotions for 3 of the past 5 years, since she couldn't see blood after the miscarriage, she couldn't control herself with a big pool of blood, and began to become fearful and irritable and began to vent by self-harm.

I only remember that once I made an appointment with Li Mei to go to the restaurant after work, and then I happened to see a car accident at the intersection, a pedestrian crossed the road, a small car did not brake and hit the pedestrian, and the pedestrian fell to the ground on the spot. When she saw the big pool of blood under that person, she was immediately frightened, she changed unconsciously, and finally Li Mei took her to the hospital, she only knew that when she woke up, she had scratches all over her arms, and finally went to Dr. Hong's." This is the last time that incident gave you too much stimulation, so that as long as you touch the same place as the last time, you will be afraid in your heart, rejection, I prescribed you the medicine you have to take on time, and then prescribe another medicine for you, if you see the same time again, you will take one when you feel uncomfortable, but I suggest that you can overcome it slowly, come out and don't always rely on the medicine to maintain, so that you will have patience. ”

Feng Ranran knew very well that she really had a problem, she used to think that her depression was just a normal phenomenon after a miscarriage, and since then she knows very well that she also has mental problems, she must be strong, otherwise there are parents at home and her brother who loves her. Later, she often went to the vegetable market to watch people kill fish, and she almost didn't enter the slaughterhouse, from the initial fright to the final indifference, she spent two years, she felt better, but still unhappy, she remembered that Dr. Hong and Li Mei both said, "Go and untie your heart knot, so that you can really live a good life, a normal life, we all hope that you can live a happy life." In the past 4 years, because of their illness, Li Mei and Hong Yusen have also been in contact more and more, from the beginning of each other's disgust, to now they have some sympathy for each other, and they are about to get married.

"Okay, then I'll go, come back and wait to drink your wedding wine" Ji Fengran, who came to S City, looked at the two people who had been with him for more than 4 years with a smile.

"Okay, we'll wait for you to come back as a bridesmaid. He smiled happily with his fingers interlocked, but Li Mei's eyes revealed worry, and Feng Ranran didn't think much about it.

Lying on the big bed in the hotel, Feng Ranran thought about the past few years, if she hadn't come here, she wouldn't have known that Lin Chen was her own demon, she had only mentioned it to Li Mei and Hong Yusen once over the years, and then never mentioned it again, Lin Chen was her taboo, presumably it was Dr. Hong who told Li Mei that she would be so worried at the airport.

"It's just because I took a look at you in the crowd that I never forgot your face again" A phone ringtone made Feng Ranran sober up

"Eldest sister, why don't you do something meaningful with your dear to disturb me so late?" said Feng Ran lazily on the other end of the phone

"I'm here to check the gang to see if our beautiful maple designer has an affair when he goes out"

"There are sexual encounters, but they can't be eaten"

"It's really an affair, it seems that I don't always have to think about whether you've fallen in love with me in the past few years. ”

The two chatted with each other for a while before hanging up the phone, and as soon as they hung up the phone, another phone call came in and saw that it was Xiao Liu, who was the agent today, and made an appointment with the landlord to meet at 10 o'clock tomorrow morning.

The next day was sunny, and the morning in April was still a little cool, Feng Ranran wore a mid-length trench coat with a slip dress to look mature and elegant. I saw the landlord and the old uncle sitting in the intermediary's lounge chair reading the newspaper.

"Uncle Qin, are you okay?" Feng Ranran stepped forward and stood in front of Uncle Qin, looking at his somewhat gray hair, feeling that time was really slipping away like flowing water.

Uncle Qin didn't see who it was for a while, and he hesitated for a long time before asking, "Are you Xiao Ran?"

"Uncle Qin still remembers me," Feng Ranran said as he sat down and drank water.

"I remember that you came with Xiao Chen 6 years ago, and the image you two gave me at that time was very profound. ”

Feng Ranran's body stiffened, pulled a far-fetched smile, and did not speak. When Uncle Qin saw Feng Ranran's appearance, he thought of Lin Chen when he retired from the house 5 years ago, so he cleverly changed the topic.

"Xiao Ran is here today?"

"Uncle Qin, I'm here to continue renting your house today. ”

"Okay, if you want to rent me a hundred, don't worry. ”

"Uncle Qin, I still have one more thing today, which is that you can keep a key, and then please come to visit the house once a week, I won't live here for the time being." ”

"Those who say that I also go out for a walk every day, and I live not far from here, so I should exercise. So where do you live now?"

"I don't live here in City E right now. ”

"Then what 、、、 you rent this house" Uncle Qin asked very suspiciously, he really couldn't understand how two people who loved each other so much came to this situation today.

"It's to avoid staying in a hotel when I go on a business trip here in the future. Feng Ranran's eyes flashed

The contract was quickly drawn, and Feng Ranran also left a phone call for Uncle Qin. Feng Ranran removed all the later furniture in the room, and bought some furniture similar to that back then to find someone to put it in the same position as back then, she wanted to stimulate herself like when she went to the vegetable market to watch the killing of fish for fear of seeing blood in the early treatment, she needed to become normal, she didn't want to have an irregular ** in her body. Besides, she also hopes that she can settle everything here.