The road is still the road, the building is still the building, but the people are not people......

Walking on the empty path, the dim street lamps stretched our backs so long and long, that there was no end in sight.

"Come in. Lin Hui opened the door and turned sideways to signal me to enter.

Watching Lin Hui open the door, I couldn't help but ask, "How do you have the key to Lelejia?" The room was pitch black, I walked into the door in the dark, and found the switch of the ceiling light in the living room with my vague memory from the past.

"This is normal, Lele always forgets to bring the key when she goes out, so her father specially equipped an extra pair of keys and stored them with me in case of emergency. Lin Hui said lightly, I couldn't see any joy or sorrow on her face.

I don't know how many times I've come to Lelejia, but this time, I suddenly had a slightly strange feeling. Although the furnishings in the room are still the same as before, each piece of furniture is covered with a large white cloth. Confused, I stepped forward and gently touched one of the white cloths covering the sofa with my fingers.

There was only a thin layer of dust on the cloth, which must have been laid on not long ago.

It stands to reason that just going out to travel, there is no need to make the home look like you will never come again! Thinking of this, I have a faint doubt in my heart, is Lele really going to Jiuzhaigou for a tour?

After the accident, my grandmother was picked up by relatives, and the family naturally became what it is now. Lin Hui seemed to see my thoughts, "Xiaobei, don't think about it so much, no one wants this kind of thing to happen......"

I gently lifted the layer of white cloth covering the sofa, and then looked back at Lin Hui: "Okay?"

Lin Hui nodded slightly, didn't say anything, and I sat down quietly on the sofa. The moment my body touched the sofa, a memory that had been gone for a long time suddenly came to my mind.

"Shellfish, I'm so hot. ”

"You've drunk so much wine, of course you're burning. ”

"I was very uncomfortable. ”

"Lele!"

"Xiaobei, you are the love of my life, I know you like Chu Chu, but ...... But I really ......."

"Lele, let go of me. ”

"Whether you like me or not, stay with me tonight, okay?"

......

The voice is still in the ear, where are you?

I tried to suppress the urge to cry, got up and walked slowly to the windowsill of the living room.

Taking a deep breath of the fresh air outside the window, my previous depressed mood seemed to have improved a lot, and it was such a night breeze that night, probably I never forgot the girl who once stood here, her hair fluttering like a light dance.

Turning my head, the refrigerator was still in place at the door of the kitchen, and my mind was taken back to the past.

"Lele, I'll help you. ”

"Don't, you help, that's more and more help, or I'll do it myself!"

"Dead pig, let go, you're blocking the refrigerator. ”

"Uh...... Don't you really need me as a housewife?"

"Beizi Pig, watch your TV obediently. Don't mess with my sister. ”

"Ah...... Sister...... Death is happy, I'm better than you! And I'm your father-in-law......"

"You...... Why don't you stay here and go to the chopping board for me......"

......

Maybe I will never be able to eat Lele's food again in this life, and when I think of this, my heart feels like it has been pricked by something.

It turns out that the heart can hurt so much......

From beginning to end, Lin Hui leaned against the wall in the corner of the living room, staring at me thoughtfully.

"Can you go in and have a look?" I gestured in the direction of Lele's room.

"The door is unlocked, you can do whatever you want. Lin Hui seemed to be deliberately trying to avoid my eyes, she smiled wryly, then buried her head and turned her gaze to the floor.

Biting my lip, I pushed the door in, and the room was eerily quiet. Turning on the light and looking around, Lele's photo of riding a bumper car with his mother when he was a child was still placed at the head of the bed. So I sat down along the edge of the bed, cautious, for fear that I would wake up "Lele" in my sleep if I was not careful.

Hold up the frame and hold it tightly to your chest. Suddenly, I just wanted to cry heartily, perhaps only in this way could I completely release the pain that had been suppressed in my heart.

I sat motionless, letting my tears spill down the glass of the frame.

The bits and pieces of five years, the ups and downs of five years, the joys and pains of five years, all melted into the cold air with tears at this moment.

"Beizi pig, ...... in the future Will you be with me forever?"

"Yes, if I can't give you happiness, I'd rather die. ”

......

The promises I once made were still ringing in my ears, but I could no longer keep them. A lot of things, maybe we're too young.

In front of the dresser by the window, there is a small bottle of freshly used lip oil upside down, still the familiar green apple flavor, just like our young love. I got up and walked to the dresser, picked up the lip oil, and gently unscrewed the cap, and a faint fragrance came to my nose, which was only the smell of Lele.

I greedily sucked the scent that remained in the air, not letting go of the slightest bit, and then screwed the cap tightly again and quietly stuffed it into my pocket, probably only in this way can I keep the taste of Lele with me forever and forever.

Lying on the bed weakly, not wanting to move. I don't know how long I lay down, but I turned my head dimly and saw the empty corner next to the bookshelf. In fact, from the moment I walked into the room, I vaguely felt as if something was missing, but I couldn't remember anything. It turned out that what I had been looking for was the Snoopy doll with my name on it. I still remember the last time I saw it, it was in the dormitory of Lele School.

Probably Lele didn't bring it back, I said to myself.

Lying flat again, looking up, I stared at the ceiling in a daze, maybe one day in a certain year and month, Lele also lay on the bed like me, like me......

"Lele, I really want to accompany you!" An inexplicable impulse instantly surged through his body.

The blade swiped back and forth on the inside of the wrist, but it was always only a shallow trail of blood. It wasn't until then that I realized that I didn't even have the courage to die. Lele, you should laugh at me again! laugh at my incompetence......

The blood finally flowed out, only a few drops, faintly, slowly sliding down the straight arm, and then landing on the white sheets. A faint red flush stabbed my eyes slightly.

At this moment, Lin Hui pushed the door and walked in.

(2010.10.10 This chapter has been revised)