Preface, you're gone, though I'm heavy. The pen & fun & pavilion www.biquge.info so heavy that I can't look at you, but I still know that your clear pupils are infused with the process of suffering. Although it is brief for only a moment, the sea has already submerged your footprints. Really, really how to capture it, the sorrow of life seems to be eternal. You are the torch of the night, igniting the lovely city of the morning sun, but you are gone, this madness, this rain echoes with the mountains, a shocking power, sweep away this filth, sink. The living mourn for you, and how do you know all about it?

A small road along the river, leading to Gudu Town in the east and the county seat in the west. Qin Rusong is a native of Gudu Town, after graduating from middle school in 94, he entrusted his relatives and became a worker in the county iron and steel plant. Qin Rusong finished dinner early every day, rode the newly bought Long March bicycle, and went straight to the county seat from the small road by the river, a distance of more than ten kilometers and more than half an hour. The wind is galloping, day after day.

To the south of the road is the mighty Yangtze River, but to the north is barren beaches, woods, fields and hills. The sparse graves, hidden from time to time, Qin Rusong is naturally bold, does not do bad things, is not afraid of ghosts knocking on the door, and never takes ghosts and gods to heart. The small road winds gracefully and circles, like a long snake and the crisscrossed river network next to it, contrasting with each other. During the day, there are few people, and at night, it is even more solemn and dark, and a little scary.

Qin Rusong's mood these days is a little strange, he ate dinner early, changed into a pair of jeans and a new shirt, deliberately combed his hair, looked in the mirror several times, and then rode a Long March bicycle, leisurely, leisurely to the factory, the mood was not urgent, but looked around, left and right. I got on the bike and passed the first corner, and I started to feel a little anxious. The sky gradually darkened, and the woods next to it were rustling by the wind, and it seemed that autumn was about to begin, and the fallen leaves on the ground were flying, and the geese were about to fly south. This inch Hou floated a little red shadow from the front, Qin Rusong was excited, the red shadow turned into a ball, a girl in a red dress floated over like a butterfly, Qin Rusong slowed down the car, these days I always met this girl like a flower butterfly in the first corner, beautiful big eyes, arrogant figure, duck egg-shaped face with a casual smile. Qin Rusong was deeply attracted, the girl rode a flying pigeon brand bicycle, and the car drove in front of Qin Rusong, Qin Rusong watched quietly, fascinated. The girl didn't seem to notice him, and she flew by. Qin Rusong paid attention to the salute, looking at the girl's graceful back warmly, and a beautiful imagination rose in her heart, until the girl disappeared at the end of the road. Qin Rusong woke up like a dream, as if he had changed people.

For more than a month, Qin Rusong met the girl every day in the bend, the girl's casual smile, always lit the torch in Qin Rusong's heart, Qin Rusong knew that the girl was working in Gudu Town, and every time he wanted to speak, he was afraid that his reckless behavior would scare the girl, and finally he didn't dare to talk casually, until one day the girl passed by his side and came with a gentle cough. Autumn is getting stronger, and the cold air in the evening is beating on the face. Qin Rusong realized that the girl was still wearing a thin skirt, and he couldn't help shouting at her back, 'It's cold, wear more clothes' The girl didn't look back, and I don't know if I heard it, Qin Rusong sighed and went straight to his factory.

After getting off work in the early morning, Qin Rusong came home, picked up two boxes of cold medicine for cough, and then went to sleep. The girl came flutteringly, and Qin Rusong repeatedly taught herself to practice a few words. The girl walked in front of her, obviously noticed him, smiled at him, Qin Rusong's heart was intoxicated, but she couldn't remember a few words that she had already practiced, she felt a little bit of sven for the girl, bowed deeply, and suddenly remembered that she had two boxes of cold medicine in her arms, and hurriedly shouted, "Eldest sister, no, little sister is not right, Miss is not good" What should I call it, I am in trouble in my heart' Comrade, I have two boxes of cold medicine, give it to you'The girl was stunned for a moment and waved her hand again and again'Thank you, I have already taken the medicine'' Is it, let's eat a little more' Qin Rusong felt that it was inappropriate after speaking, and saw the girl drifting away, shouting at her back, 'Move in the cold, be careful of your body' The girl sneered, 'It's too exaggerated, it's just autumn.' Qin Rusong was a little embarrassed. The girl turned around and shouted, "My name is Du, I'll talk again when I have time", "chat" Qin Rusong was happy in her heart, and she said "Du, Du" and ran to the factory beautifully

In the evening of the next day, Qin Rusong came to the corner in advance, Du seemed to have a heart, the two parked the car on the side of the road, Du Xiao was wearing black loose pants, red skirt, Qin Rusong was extremely intoxicated, his eyes were reluctant to blink, Du Wan smiled, and asked generously, "Comrade, your surname" Qin Rusong hurriedly replied, "Villain rabbit Gui Qin Rusong" "Oh, Comrade Qin" Qin Rusong listened to her as a comrade, as if returning to the sixties and seventies, and hurriedly corrected and said, "Call me Xiao Qin," "Don't you call me comrade?" Is it the same as the underground party joint' The two laughed, Qin Rusong realized something, "You seem to have been speaking Mandarin, isn't it our Jiangsu people" Du sang and said, "My home is on the Songhua River in the Northeast, where there are countless soybeans and sorghum" 'Northeast, Jilin' Qin Rusong was a little excited, Du saw that he was a little out of shape, and hurriedly asked him, 'What's wrong with you' Qin Rusong suppressed his mood and explained slowly; 'When I was young, my family was poor, there were always one or two months a year, I ate a meal and a sad meal, the family could not open the pot, as the saying goes, poor couples mourn, parents often quarreled, my father had strong self-esteem, consciously took responsibility, became more and more silent, eight years later, I heard that the Changbai Mountain Xiaoxinganling area is rich in Chinese medicinal materials, ginseng, deer antler, eleutherococcus senticosus, transfer to Jiangsu, you can make a fortune, my father is extremely excited, regardless of my mother's dissuasion, hurriedly packed up and went straight to the northeast, since then, year after year but there is no news, I don't know life and death, it has been more than ten years now, my mother since then, tea and rice do not think, blame yourself all day long, and become older and older in a blink of an eye, I've been waiting for the opportunity to save some money and go to the Northeast to visit', Du listened silently, his eyes lit up, 'If you go to the Northeast, tell me, my dad was a worker in the Changbai Mountain Forest Farm when he was young, although he is retired, but he is very familiar with that area, let my dad help you then', Qin Rusong was very excited 'Really, then thank you', 'Okay, come on' I'll support you', Du cheered him on.

Raindrops drifted in the wind, hitting the two of them, the sky had darkened, the rustling of the groves next to him, the air was foggy, filled with the chill of autumn, Qin Rusong looked at his watch, there was plenty of time, locked his bicycle on the branches, pushed over Du's bicycle, he took off his coat, draped it on his body, and said, 'I'll send you', looked at him in surprise, smiled and said, 'You send me, I'll send you back', Qin Rusong laughed and said, 'I won the long-distance running championship when I was in school, once chased the thief, dozens of people chased, I was the first to catch up, the thief was not convinced and said to me, he is the city sports running champion, want to retry with me, I said, Brother has to convince you, the thief said, if you win, change your evil and return to the right in the future, call you an uncle, I said, a word is a certainty, let's start, I threw the thief a few streets in a fit of anger, look back, the thief has long been gone, wait for a long time and don't see the thief, I will be bored, why is it so dishonest, from now on to be a man to pay more attention to the 'Du eat and laugh 'The cow is flying in the sky' Qin Rusong pretended to be stupid and asked, 'I don't understand', Du pinched him and said, 'Really stupid or pretending to be stupid,' was blown up to the sky by you', Qin Rusong laughed, put on Du Feige's bicycle, Du sat on the back seat obediently, Qin Rusong teased and said, 'Please fasten your seat belt, Mercedes-Benz is about to start' Du Zheng responded with a positive posture 'Boss, driving without a license, pay attention to the traffic police, prevent fines', Qin Rusong smiled faintly, 'The boss is not bad for money, I want to drag race with the police, it's really not good, with your eyes that flattering all beings, electric them, to ensure that they turn on their backs', Du Meng pinched his waist.

Du works in a shoe factory, there are still two or three hundred meters away from the factory, Du shouted to stop, Qin Rusong jumped out of the car to see Du, Du took off his coat and handed it to him, Qin Rusong carried it in his hand, Du pushed him and said, "It's often not early, or it's not late, or I'll send you again", Qin Rusong held her a glance and "just kidding", Du smiled sly, "Take out your spirit of chasing thieves, go quickly", Qin Rusong stood up and saluted, "Yes, chief, this time you must catch the thief", after speaking, he turned around and walked like a fly, and ran away, like a fire burning his eyebrows, ran for more than ten or twenty minutes in one breath, ran to the corner, took his bicycle, and went straight to the factory.

In a blink of an eye, the National Day arrived, the factory was on holiday, Qin Rusong asked Du to go to the county seat to watch a movie, at that time, the film of the national star, truant Weilong, made an appointment at two o'clock in the afternoon, the two had dinner, and then walked around the street for a while, at one o'clock, walked to the door of the theater, a ragged child held a burst of flowers in his hand, and ran over, "Sir, buy flowers and give them to the girlfriend" Qin Rusong looked at it, did not squeak, the child saw the situation and hugged Qin Rusong's leg, Qin Rusong handed the child ten yuan, the child pulled a rose to him, turned around and left, Qin Rusong was stunned, "I thought that I picked up a bundle, and it was a branch", Du ate and laughed, "Uncle Chong." , being slaughtered', Qin Rusong was speechless, the two walked into the cinema, found their own place to sit down, with the screening of the movie, the environment in the venue became relaxed and pleasant, Qin Rusong held Du's hand, groped for the waist that moved to, there was a sense of security in the dark environment, just when the two were immersed in a cheerful, nonsensical, glue-like atmosphere, a middle-aged woman in the front row, long-winded in the explanation, people couldn't help but be a little irritable, Qin Rusong shouted, 'Auntie, don't make noise', the woman turned around and apologized and said, 'I'm sorry, I'm sorry', turned around and stopped for a few minutes and muttered to explain, Qin Rusong couldn't help but shout, 'Auntie, What do you mean, I'm coming to see the movie, are you watching it', the woman suddenly said nothing, whimpering as if she was sobbing, only to see the young man next to her comforting her, 'Mom, go home and talk about it, it affects others, I feel pretty good to listen to it' Qin Rusong saw that the young man was wearing a pair of sunglasses, and he was actually blind, Qin Rusong was speechless in an instant, pulled the corner of his clothes, and smiled at the woman, "Auntie, you can talk about it, don't get in the way, don't get in the way", the woman said "Thank you, thank you".

A movie is down, it's almost dusk, the sun is setting, the sky is dyed golden, Qin Rusong wants to go back after dinner in a small restaurant, Du Fei wants to buy vegetables and go back to cook, Qin Rusong can't help her, riding a bicycle to her rental house, the sunset lengthens their figures, their long hair flows in the wind, like a fairy who is not dusty, intoxicating, Qin Rusong let out a long breath, his eyes are full of fascination, Du sat in the back seat, his eyes were blurred, and his face was dyed with a wisp of red.

Du cooks rice, stir-frying, Qin Rusong took his hand, and soon the steaming meal was served on the table, Qin Rusong was not polite to taste them one by one, full of praise, and dragged the text to say, "Yu'er, wonderful hands rejuvenation, this dish should only be in the sky, even if there are a few times in the world", after speaking, he took the hand, chewed the text and said, "Yu'er is plain hand, wonderful and unique, fair and beautiful, in my heart", Du withdrew his hand and said, "Sie, spit, look at your sour appearance, I want to be disgusted to the New Year", Qin Rusong smiled, looked up at the roof, and was full of spirit, like a poet and immortal.

The Spring Festival is approaching, Du is ready to go back to her hometown to see her father, Qin Rusong thought for a long time, and finally made up his mind to go to the Northeast to see together, to visit his father, the two booked a train ticket to Changchun, Jilin, Qin Rusong said goodbye to his mother, and embarked on the train to the Northeast, the train galloped over, plains, mountains, rivers, the next evening into the Northeast Plain, the endless fields, the vast straight to the sky, the blue sky is like washing, Qin Rusong and got off the train, from Changchun to Jilin by bus, along the way the vision is transparent, the singing is loud, several Northeast girls sing in the car, the vast world, give birth to a heroic characterQin Rusong and Du beat the slap, accompanied by them, the car finally arrived in Jilin City, they took a taxi to the home to rush, it was already night, the cold hit people, the air became ice, the temperature of more than 20 degrees below zero, so that Qin Rusong realized what is winter, the taxi drove up the river embankment, rows of pine trees on both sides, it was full of ice crystals, crystal clear under the illumination of the street lamp, and said, "That is Jilin fog pine", Qin Rusong looked at it stupidly, the crystal fog was reflected in the water, sparkling, like a crystal palace, which made people feel in the painting.

The two walked into a community, all of which were six or seven storey buildings, neatly aligned, vertical and horizontal, and walked to Building No. 7, and saw an old man wearing a yellow coat, staggering over, 'yes', the voice was trembling, 'It's me, it's me, Dad, I'm ah', and greeted it excitedly, the old man grabbed his hand, and was reluctant to let go of the old tears for a long time, 'Dad, what's wrong with you' looked at her dad in surprise.'It's nothing, it's nothing, Dad knows that you're back, and I've been standing downstairs every day to look at you every day', raised his head and looked at her dad seriously, 'Dad, your face is frosty', and dusted her dad's head with his hand, the frost on his face, and his voice was a little whimpering, 'It's good to come back.' , It's good to come back, you are safe and healthy, I am happier than anything else, come home with me', 'Dad, wait, I still have a friend', shouted to her father.Qin Rusong, who was standing on the side, hurriedly stepped forward, 'Uncle Du, call me Xiao Qin', 'Xiao Qin, hello', the hands of the two were clasped together, Uncle Du looked at him carefully, 'Welcome, welcome,' stopped halfway through the words, and his hand subconsciously pulled back, as if he had been bitten by a centipede, and said in a panic, 'You are a human, a ghost' Qin Rusong was stunned, and held her father, 'Dad, he is Xiao Qin, have you hit the evil spirit', Uncle Du breathed a sigh of relief, and felt that he was out of shape, 'It's okay, it's okay, go back to the house first, go back to the house first', the group entered the house, and after eating supper, they arranged for them to rest.

After the Spring Festival, Qin Rusong couldn't wait, pack up and go to Changbai Mountain, but he couldn't resist him, and begged Uncle Du to accompany him, Uncle Du already knew Qin Rusong's situation, and he couldn't shirk it, and explained a few words, so he and Qin Rusong took the bus to Erdaohe Town, the two got off in Erdaohe Town, and headed for the hinterland of Changbai MountainStanding on the high post, see the canyon in front of you like an axe split, the surrounding mountains are stacked on top of each other, the snow on the mountain has accumulated for many years, it is noon at this time, the blue sky, the bright sun shines on the snow, reflecting the light blue light, the crystal pine trees are like pagodas, extraordinarily delicateSuddenly a rabbit rushed out of the grass and fled, the surrounding sound of squirming animals running, the birds in the forest rushed to the sky, the snow fell, a brown bear man stood on the mountainside in front of him, Qin Rusong turned around and wanted to run, Uncle Du pressed him, the two leaned behind the tree, motionless, the brown bear glanced lazily, the empty dense forest made it tasteless, turned back to the back of the mountain, The afterglow of the setting sun shone on the reckless forest, shooting a ray of golden light from the gap in the leaves, the two suddenly saw the sun again, and their bodies were full of vitality, the two walked back to the edge of the hills, Uncle Du took Qin Rusong's hand, and said with tears in his eyes, "Child, I know you have a lot to say to me, I have been entangled for a long time, as the so-called let go is to get rid of it, be a man and have the courage to take responsibility, I have also figured it out, let's talk to you slowly today."

'About fourteen or fifteen years ago, in the late autumn, when your father and you looked more similar, so that the last time I saw you, I thought that your father had come to ask for the soul, fifteen years ago in the first forest, I patrolled the mountains and passed by, and found a person dressed in the south, scarred, dying in the grass and moaning, he looked at me with tired and godless eyes begging, at that time the management of the Changbai Mountain Forest Management Office was lax, many southerners were stealing, stealing, trying to get rich, we hated these mercenary people very much, but I couldn't see death without help, but when I saw two bulging snakeskin bags next to your father, which were full of mountain ginseng and deer antler velvet, Eleutherococcus senticosus, rich in Chinese herbal medicines, I think of my wife who is all day long, very material and vain, always ridicule me, poor and down, I think so many Chinese herbal medicines, enough to change my image and status, the more I think about it, the more excited I am, I can't care about saving people, I picked up two snakeskin bags and ran away, I looked back when I left, your father complained, desperate eyes have been deeply imprinted in my brain since then, tormented me for fifteen years, fifteen years of life has not changed much, after being squandered by my wife, my wife still hooked up with a so-called boss, ran away, I didn't repay, I will die soon, I have pancreatic cancer, the king of cancer, I'm afraid that retribution is coming'.

Uncle Du couldn't cry, Qin Rusong was indignant, and he grabbed the medicinal materials, so that his father's corpse was in the wilderness, which was really outrageous, Qin Rusong was angry, desperate, and felt helpless, night fell, Qin Rusong staggered back to Erdaohe Town, stayed in a small hotel for one night, and went straight to Changchun the next day and returned to his hometown in Jiangsu.

Qin Rusong returned to his hometown, his will was depressed, he didn't say a word, his mother read everything from his eyes, more than ten years of hope and perseverance collapsed instantly, the body of the long-term illness completely fell, the body weakened day by day, and finally one day, Qin's mother died suddenly in her sleep, Qin Rusong cried bitterly, hoarse, the only relative traveled westward by crane, and this world was even more clear and lonely.

Unconsciously, after a few months, everything returned to normal, the two of them re-covered many times on the curve, each other felt embarrassed, like strangers, red crisp hands, yellow vine wine, the city full of spring palace wall willows, spring as old, people are empty, tears are red and silky, peach blossoms fall, idle pond pavilion, although the mountain league is in, the brocade book is difficult to support, Mo, Mo, Mo.

It lasted until the summer, on this day Qin Rusong suddenly felt unbearable pain in his abdomen, he forcibly endured the pain and went to the town hospital to hang up the rash, a middle-aged doctor examined, complained that he had appendicitis, it is best to treat it surgically, Qin Rusong nodded, the doctor asked him if he had any family to take care of, Qin Rusong said truthfully, there was only one person in the family, the doctor had to say, find a nurse, more use, admitted to the hospital on the same day, operated on the next day, a male nurse sent him to the ward after the operation, Qin Rusong sat on the hospital bed alone in a daze, on the bed next to him, a young man, with a plaster on his legs, the old mother asked for warmth, the young man was very impatient, Qin Rusong remembered his motherTears welled up in her eyes.

There was a rush of footsteps at the door, a girl in a red skirt, standing at the door, carrying a thermos pot in her hand, 'Du' Qin Rusong was stunned 'How do you know I'm here', Du glanced at him hatefully, 'I pinched my fingers, I knew that someone was in trouble these two days' Qin Rusong was dumbfounded, Du walked into Qin Rusong's bedside, opened the thermos pot, and took out a small bowl, 'Drink some pigeon soup, raise the knife', Qin Rusong 'um' agreed, his voice was a little whimpering, his scalp was a little numb, 'don't move, don't move', Du didn't let him move spoonful by spoonful to feed him, and then deboned, put the pigeon meat into his mouth, and finally waited for him to sleep, and went to pour the spittoon, garbage, busy until dark, saw that he spit, then looked at him on the side, quietly to the middle of the night, finally couldn't stay up and fell asleep on the side of the bed, in the early morning, the moonlight outside the window is like water, the cries of frogs come and go, Qin Rusong woke up from a dream, saw Du sleeping by the bedside, gently stroked Du's face, the mountain is the eyebrow peak, the water is the eye ripples.

Du suddenly stood up, watched Qin Rusong move to the other side of the bed, and asked, 'What are you going to do', Qin Rusong was a little embarrassed, 'I want to pee', 'Then let me raise', Du picked up the spittoon and waited for Qin Rusong's pants, and the other hand went to untie Qin Rusong's pants, Qin Rusong struggled 'I'll come by myself, come by myself' Du angrily said, 'I don't look at anything, what are you afraid of', turned his head angrily, Qin Rusong was flustered, it was difficult to finish the stool, the underwear was wet, Du took off his underwear, and put it on carefully, the flagpole was quite in the way, the little hand that kept hitting was panicked, his face was red, and he was in a hurry, and he helped him wash his clothes.

A few days are fleeting, tomorrow can be removed from the hospital, Du went back to work, turned back to take care of him 'tomorrow to pick him up', Qin Rusong was happy to reply 'see or leave', the next day after the stitches were removed, packed up the luggage, supplies, waited for a long time and did not see, long past the appointed time, Qin Rusong himself went through the discharge procedures and walked to the door of the hospital, the door is a four-way intersection, Qin Rusong stood at the door, watching Du ride a bicycle far away, a car from north to south, from west to east, only to hear the screech of the brakes, and then bang on the bicycle, Du rolled down on the road, Qin Rusong 'ah', luggage fell to the ground, ran to the middle of the road like crazy, hugged tightly, ', wake up, it's okay, I'll take you to the hospital, hold on', Qin Rusong ran to the hospital with his arms, opened his heavy eyes, 'Brother Qin, I want to wear a wedding dress, are you willing to marry me' After speaking, the corners of his mouth bleed, and he hit the ground with a trickle, Qin Rusong cried "Don't say it, don't say it, I know, you hold on", "Don't blame you, it's me who was careless, Du's voice was inaudible, Qin Rusong shouted frantically, 'Please stop talking, hold on' Qin Rusong interrupted her and quickly sent her to the emergency room of the hospital, Qin Rusong turned his head and ran down the streetA few minutes later, there was a white wedding dress on his hand, and at this time, the doctor walked out of the emergency room, looked at Qin Rusong, and left without saying a word.

Qin Rusong's tears couldn't stop flowing, and he hurriedly rushed into the operating room, he hugged him tightly, put the wedding dress on her heart, and the corners of his mouth moved lightly a few times, "Don't hate my father, I'm afraid I won't be your bride", Qin Rusong roared "No, you will always be my bride, I don't hate your father, if I forgive and let go earlier, why live so painfully, I hate myself, we will get married now", Qin Rusong held the hand, his head was on the edge of the bed, to the sky, to the ground, to the ground, and then leaned on the head, the husband and wife worshipped, Qin Rusong looked up to the sky and laughed, his eyes were paralyzed and blank, and Du Xin's blood stained the wedding dress red, you must cherish the 'play like a loose wry smile' once the sea was difficult for water, except for Wushan is not a cloud 'The world without you is gray, what nostalgia is there in this world, there is no nostalgia for the world, what do you do in the world, I will go with you, I will die head-on', Qin Rusong turned around and was about to hit the wall and die, a pair of gentle little hands tightly hugged his waist, and whimpered, "Brother Qin, I lied to you, who told you to be lukewarm to me" Qin Rusong was like a dream, and said in surprise, "Is so much blood fake?" Du timidly said, "Are women ridiculous for true love, those are all ketchup, do you smell blood", Qin Rusong didn't dare to believe it, added, 'It's my cousin-in-law who is driving, my cousin and I designed it, braked early, and slashed it gently', Qin Rusong suddenly realized, 'This liar, play this dangerous game, see how I clean you up' The two laughed wildly, and there was warm applause at the door, doctors, nurses, cousins, and cousin-in-laws kept clapping their hands.

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