Hiding in the quilt, Lu Ze kept swinging, his eyes kept staring at the bedroom door, just staring at it all night, he wanted to see Lu Weiguo, but he didn't dare to see him.

He was already frightened crazy from the first time he saw Lu Weiguo return home covered in blood and looked at him with one eye from the door, until now, he can often see his father, but he still feels afraid.

But yesterday, Lu Weiguo grabbed his hand for the first time and stopped him from killing, and for the first time, he had an intersection with his dead father, and he had already begun to affect Lu Ze's life.

Suddenly...... He heard the entrance door being pushed open, and a footstep came towards him, his heart fluttering and began to beat, and then Li Yumei entered the bedroom.

"Mom......"

"It's too cold in this house, I'll light a fire for you, mom look at your face. ”

Li Yumei's rough hand touched Lu Ze's face, there was an obvious handprint on his face, and he didn't go down all night, which made her very distressed.

"I'm fine, I'm going to make a fire......"

It had been a long time since his mother had touched his face, which made him very uncomfortable, so he quickly put on his shoes and went outside to get firewood, and sat silently on the pony to light the stove.

She brought food, in fact, that man is still very good on weekdays, but when he is upset, he will scold Li Yumei, and he rarely beats her, but it happened that he beat her yesterday, and let Lu Ze bump into her.

She brought rice, braised saury, which was brought by Li Yumei after the man sobered up, because he also knew that Lu Ze only had a few thousand yuan of farming income a year, and he usually couldn't eat it at all.

Lu Ze accepted the man's apology, otherwise Li Yumei was caught in the middle, he sat on the edge of the stove, lit the pure copper cigarette pouch left by the old lady of the Lu family, and smoked silently.

"Let's eat. ”

What can a widowed second-married woman do? Even if she is beaten, she can only accept it silently, as a traditional woman, widowhood is not a shameful thing, but the second marriage and divorce is, in the village will be gossiped, not to mention that her income is not high, the man provides Lu Nan to go to school, if divorced...... Lu Nan has no money to go to school.

She felt that she was not sorry for Lu Weiguo, she was not sorry for that man, she was not sorry for Lu Nan, but it was this son who owed the most.

For a while, she was a little choked, Lu Ze didn't speak, just knocked the cigarette pouch and picked up the chopsticks.

While he was eating, Li Yumei looked at it, and reached out to touch Lu Ze's old hair, but Lu Ze avoided it a little, he was not used to Li Yumei touching him.

"I want to get out. ”

Li Yumei didn't understand Lu Ze's words, and was stunned for a moment: "Where are you going?"

"I want to go out, I'm no longer in the village, I want to go out to work. ”

This is what Lu Ze thought about this morning, he can't be in the village anymore, he can often see Lu Weiguo appear in all corners of the village now, which makes Lu Ze even want to die for a while, he thinks, maybe change the environment, change a place that Lu Weiguo has not been, maybe he will not appear.

"No, I don't feel at ease when you go out, what can you do when you go out? Listen to me, stay in the village honestly. ”

She is a ruthless mother, but she is not a mother with a big heart, and it is a question of whether he can survive outside in his mental state.

"Do you want to see me hang myself in the house tomorrow?"

That's what he thinks, if he continues like this, it's better to die happily, although he wants to live, but it's really better to die than to live, go outside, see the outside world, maybe there will be a reason to live.

"But what can you do out there? I'm afraid ......."

"At least I can live, I can't starve, I want to find a reason for me to live, now like this, there is no point in living. ”

Lu Ze had already made up his mind, he wanted to leave, he finally had the courage to look his mother's eyes squarely, and he spoke categorically, he had to go.

Li Yumei couldn't refuse, because she was really scared, when she saw her son again, he was hanging on the beam of the house, and he was no longer breathing, she didn't dare to bet on this kind of thing, because she also knew that her son had a mental problem.

"Then mom will buy you a mobile phone another day, and when you want to come back outside, call mom, mom will pick you up, do you think it's okay?"

Lu Ze didn't speak, just put the empty bowl on the stove, went back to the house and hid in the futon, he became a shrunken turtle, hiding from all his mother's care, he couldn't accept it.

Li Yumei took the empty bowl and glanced at him lying on the kang, sighed, and left, she was going to go to the town to buy a mobile phone for Lu Ze in a while, and use the money she earned not to spend on others.

......

It snowed in the afternoon, and when Li Yumei came back from the town, it was already dark, and she was holding the mobile phone left for Lu Ze to buy, which was not expensive, more than 600 yuan, the cheapest one in the mobile phone store.

"Son, son?"

There is no light in the house, because Lu Ze never turns on the light, which will waste electricity, his income is not high, and the poor even feel distressed about the electricity bill.

called twice, no one in the house answered, Li Yumei trembled her hands, pushed open the door, still unlocked, this house that carries the memories of the Lu family of four is no longer worth the thief's patronage.

"Pop ....."

A tear fell to the ground, because Lu Ze was not in the house, although the futon was dirty, it was neatly folded, and when he opened the drawer, there was not a single piece of clothing inside.

Li Yumei has never regretted it so much today, her only son is gone, she knows that her son hates her, but she didn't expect that he didn't even say hello to her the day he left.

The moment she gave up on Lu Ze, she had already expected this day, but it came so suddenly...... She still couldn't accept it.

Sitting in the chair, she wailed and cried, from today on, she has no son, no more......

At this time, Lu Ze had already gotten on the bus to Fengtian, and his future, just like this bus, was running in the dark road, and he couldn't see the road ahead.

.......

When he arrived in Mukden, it was already past ten o'clock in the evening, and he did not have the tools to see the time on him, which he knew when he walked on the street and saw the bell tower.

He was carrying a big snakeskin bag, and people passing by walked around him, because looking at Lu Ze like this, he didn't look like a normal person.

After finding a small hotel, thirty nights and thirty nights, he plans to sleep here for one night now, and start looking for a job tomorrow.

"Give me the money, register it in this notebook, and write it as it says. ”

The fat innkeeper threw the registration book on the table and waited for Lu Ze to pay for it, but when he touched the bag, Lu Ze panicked.

"I ..... What about my money, what about my money, ...... The money is gone......"

Lu Ze rummaged through his bag in a panic, and then he saw a cut on the bag, it was obvious that he had saved more than 4,000 yuan in five years, and it was gone!

"I ......"

"If you lose the money, go to the police, and turn left diagonally opposite when you go out. ”

The proprietress has been running a hotel for more than 20 years, this kind of thing is not uncommon, and she has lost her sympathy in the years, she just pointed the way to Lu Ze, put away the registration book and continued to watch TV and eat melon seeds.

"Thank you!

Lu Ze picked up his bag and ran towards the police station with his lap open, hoping that he could find it back now while he had lost it for a short time.

“.......”