Chen Xi recovered from her injuries, and after returning to school from the hospital, she also found out that I was not in a good state.

She said to me with some concern: "Li Juan, what's wrong with you, you seem to be a little out of mind?"

She said this because she was worried about me, but I didn't want to say it.

It's just that the things that are weighing down on my heart are so heavy that I don't know how to speak for a while.

Shaking my head, I lowered my eyelashes and whispered, "It's okay, it'll be fine in a while." ”

Chen Xi saw my embarrassment, and then he opened the topic and talked to me about some light things.

When it came to the interesting part, I barely pulled the corners of my mouth, but my heart was full of discomfort.

In the days when Zheng Xinguang was not at school, I had a very hard time every day.

Not only Chen Yueru's ridicule, classmates' discussions, but also Zhang Xueqin's scolding Huai, these words seemed to be overwhelming.

Faintly, in the gossip, it seems that Zheng Xinguang's glorious images in the past are slowly disappearing.

Every time I think about this, I can't help but shudder with fear.

I don't know if the decision I made was the right one.

In a trance, I heard Chen Yueru even make a malicious joke about Zheng Xinguang with her former friends in the class.

"Zheng Xinguang really lost his wife and soldiers this time, it's not worth it. ”

I was so enthusiastic that I rushed forward to argue with them, but suddenly I realized that I didn't have the qualifications, because Zheng Xinguang didn't come to school because of me.

Chen Xi also noticed the truth at this time, and she comforted me helplessly beside her: "Is it because of that little gangster that Zheng Xinguang suspended school? Don't take it to heart, the teacher will definitely find out the truth, and he won't be blamed like that, Zheng Xinguang will definitely come back to class." ”

I just laughed helplessly when I heard her words, in fact, where Zheng Xinguang couldn't come to school, it was that he didn't want to come to school. He fled the Zheng family with me, working to support me and provide for my schooling. These words are too heavy for me to utter.

So I just forced myself to smile and thank Chen Xi for his comfort.

My daily life is very tormenting, but after school, Zheng Xinguang will come to pick me up on his bicycle.

It seemed that he could still carry me back on his bike, as he had done before.

Seeing that his face was covered with sweat and his eyes seemed to have a hint of tiredness, I felt a little distressed.

If it weren't for my accident, Zheng Xinguang would have been admitted to a good university with excellent results. Unfortunately...... Because of me, he had to terminate his studies.

On the way back, I tried to tell him as easy as possible about the interesting things that happened at school.

But gradually, because I was absent-minded at school, the interesting things I noticed gradually decreased.

When I went back, I could only cling to Zheng Xinguang's back, wrapping around his waist, and was speechless all the way.

The money Xu Nuan gave was only enough to last for a week, and Zheng Xinguang worked every day, and he couldn't earn much. I felt sorry for him, so I didn't let him come and pick me up.

Every day when I come home, I can feel that he is very tired.

Every time I tried to say something, I couldn't say anything, and he was a little tired, and he looked at me quietly, and became relatively speechless.

At this time, I can only consciously avoid and cook for him.

At night, we'll lie down together.

At the beginning, they would talk about their respective lives, which was a little sweetness in the bitter days.

But gradually, because Zheng Xinguang became more and more tired every day, he almost slept when he returned home, and I looked at his broad back, which was both distressed and bitter helplessness for a while.

As the days passed, I became more and more skeptical that my decision to come out with Zheng Xinguang in the first place was wrong.

Because Zheng Xinguang is visibly mature and silent, I want to ask him if he is tired from working, but I know so clearly that the reason why he is tired is because of me.

I blame myself in my heart, but I selfishly want to run away from it all.

One day, when I was doing my homework in class, a classmate came over and said to me, "Li Juan, your mother is in the hospital." ”

I was stunned for a long time when I heard this, and my mind went blank at that moment.

I didn't realize for a moment what he was saying, or what he said, and it was automatically blocked in my mind as I passed it into my head, and it took a while to translate it into a language I could understand.

Chen Xi looked at me worriedly at this time and gently pushed me.

I woke up like a dream, glanced at Chen Xi, and immediately stood up and ran to Zhang Xueqin's office to ask her for leave to go to the hospital.

Along the way, I couldn't stop panicking.

When I was leaving, I would think of my mom from time to time and wonder if she would be angry about me.

At that time, I was already worried about whether my mother would get sick again because of my business.

But every time I consoled myself and hypnotized myself: my mom wouldn't care.

But when I heard the news that my mother was in the hospital, my hands and feet were cold, and it seemed that all the blood became cold in an instant, I don't know if it was telepathy between mother and daughter, but at this time I just felt deep fear.

When I got to the hospital, my mom was in the ward and saw that I didn't have a good face.

I was secretly relieved to see her still in good spirits, and just quietly did what I had to do.

I fetched food and came over, holding a spoon and preparing to serve my mother to eat and drink.

But as soon as she put the spoon to her mouth, my mother pushed me, threw the dishes and chopsticks to the ground, and said angrily: "I don't need you to care about me, get out of here!"

When I saw her like this, I knew that it hurt my mother's heart to leave with Zheng Xinguang.

I intuitively felt that my mother's anger was not mainly because I was with Zheng Xinguang, but because I left her at home.

Although I know that this is the case, I really can't give up Zheng Xinguang.

So I told my mom about my thoughts: "Mom, I really like Zheng Xinguang. I want to stay with him all the time, so I hope you can understand me. I didn't mean to leave, but I knew there was no room for me and him in that home. Therefore, I was relieved that Zheng Xinguang would leave alone, so I left with him. But I really don't want to make you sick because of me. Mom, I'm sorry. ”

My mother was still blushing when she heard this, and it seemed that she didn't agree with me and Zheng Xinguang from the bottom of her heart.

But at the same time, maybe because of my confession, my mother was a little moved by the love I showed for her.

When I said this, I looked at my mother's face, and I didn't know how to continue talking, and my mother didn't know how to treat me, and the atmosphere between the two of us was indescribably strange.