Is the path of love a loveless carnal desire?

Probably more than one person who knows tanks will think so.

At night, the exhausted tank in Ah Bao's rental house, slumped on the bed, looking at the woman next to him who didn't even know his name, he looked out the window, and suddenly remembered Xiao Ji, and the one not long ago, looking at Xiao Ji smiling, he could be full of joy......

And then, the tank cried......

He didn't let himself make a sound, he just covered his mouth, opened his mouth silently, dumbfounded, and tears welled up......

This is not the reality that tanks once envisioned, this is not ......

He once firmly believed that he could always love Xiao Ji, even if Xiao Ji always didn't like him and was just a friend, he could see that she was happy, and he himself would be very satisfied and happy.

But why did this happen?

How did he become like this?

How did he become the kind of person he had always despised and disdained?

The woman woke up, and the tank busily covered her face, quickly wiping tears from her face.

The woman's eyes were full of pity and sympathy, and she said softly: "If there are any unhappy things to talk about, it's not good to talk to people you know, we can talk about it." There's nothing embarrassing, crying alone in bed Many people have tried, I often did this when I first came to Pengshi, and I did it every day when I first did this business. ”

Tank wiped away his tears, turned his back to the woman, and listened to this sympathetic soft voice, but he remembered Dahua, who used to be so impressed by him, but it was a complete mistake, so he said coldly: "Sleep on you!"

The woman smiled, put her hand on him, and said, "Little brother, why are you so afraid to talk to others about your heart? Aren't you spending money to have fun? It's not a state secret, it's okay to be comfortable after chatting, isn't it worth spending money?"

"I'm scared? I just don't want to talk to you! You people are running trains, just making deals on the spot, talking about what's on your mind? Is it meaningful to talk to you?" Tank doesn't like to be called timid, which is an attribute that he rejects and hates very much.

"What's the point? You said it, someone listened, it's more comfortable, don't you just do it. We meet guests who can chat well also like, what guests want to listen to we talk about, some guests are willing to listen, we can talk about things that are in a bad mood, and the mood is much better. The woman asked, "Seeing that you are not very old, do you often spend money to play?"

Tank sat up, lit his cigarette, smoked, remembered the big flower of last week, glanced at the woman next to him and said, "If you like to talk so much, let you listen to the story of a fool and a slut." ”

After chatting like this for a long time, the woman listened to it, and scolded the big flower slut, and finally said to the tank: "You are so stupid! She owes you, you should pay it back! She said that twenty-one times is twenty-one times! If you need it, you will go to her to solve it, when will it be enough and when will it be over? Why are you still embarrassed? Or can't you bear it?"

"It's disgusting for her to stand on the street!" Tank remembers the day when a group of people lined up to go to the toilet.

"That's not easy, play on it and ask her how much. People who stand on the street don't play on it, they have to add a lot of money, those people don't have much money and are not willing to give up, many people have never heard of being able to play like that, they haven't thought about it, it must be clean. The woman actively came up with ideas, she felt that Dahua was too much, and she felt that it was her, and she couldn't do such an outrageous thing.

“...... What a solution!" Tank moved in his heart and adopted this suggestion, he already had hatred and anger in his heart, so it was indeed a good way to relieve his anger.

"You're in a good mood, aren't you?, go to sleep, remember to ask that slut more for debts, don't be cheap!" The woman was indignant, Tank did feel much better, although, not to mention completely solving the knot......

After this day, the tank really went over every day after dinner to find Dahua to collect debts, and said that the price was calculated at two hundred, and the tank tossed in the shadow under the tree for a long time, and when he couldn't say anything disgusting and uncomfortable, he was particularly relieved.

At the end of the day, during the day, Tank couldn't help but share with the people he had good friends with at school, and invited those friends who had good relationships to go with him.

On this day, Tank went to school early in the morning, and saw Casual and Xiaoji at the school gate, as if he was waiting for him on purpose.

"What time are you two doing, it's time to enter the school soon, and you're still here with affection?" Tank greeted with a smile, but said casually, "I want to talk to you." ”

"What's wrong?" "The tank is a little strange, it's been quiet recently, Xiao Ji is excluded and he can't help it, that's a girl's domain, he just doesn't maliciously bully Xiao Ji when he speaks, it's impossible to play with her because of this, he's just a big brother, not an emperor, and there's no way to force others too much.

"I heard you've been going to play every day lately, is it true?" With a casual look of concern, Xiao Ji bit his lower lip, hoping it was a rumor.

"......" Tank had a short silence, and still felt unspeakable in the face of the little guitar, but after hesitating, the tank still turned his heart sideways, and there was a big look that he was so dirty, he didn't care about hiding it, and let Xiao Ji know the mentality of getting rid early, so he said: "Yes, don't you want to go too? I don't think you're this kind of person! And you have Xiao Ji, I won't take you!"

"It's not safe. And I have a lot of contact with that kind of woman, it's not good for you, my dad loves tickets, a group of ticket friends make an appointment with each other, and the money earned is put in, no matter at home, and often tries to force my mother's money, he has no ability to love people normally, and he can't control himself again and again to covet temporary pleasure, and he also treats this kind of thing as a circle culture, and if he doesn't participate in his friends, it's like being isolated, as if he has no face......" Before he finished speaking, Tank interrupted and said: "Why are you telling me this?"

"I'm worried about you!" casually, there is really no way not to worry, he has a father like that, and he knows what kind of virtue the man next to his father is. If you say that you are a very rich person, it may be better, but an ordinary person, addicted to this, will inevitably affect normal life, it is like working for a special professional woman, trying his best to raise money to go out for prostitution.

"Don't worry about me, I'm just playing, and I'm collecting debts. Besides, you don't know, how can I have spare money to find a woman? It's all invited by Wang Shuai, and I don't have to worry about this with him, and this money is nothing to him. Okay, okay, don't worry. Tank put his hand on his casual shoulder and walked towards the school with a smile.

"Tank, we're all worried about you, can you stop this?" Xiao Ji didn't want to speak, after all, she was the one who was most sorry for the tank, but she really couldn't bear to see the once good tank degenerate like this.

"I'm fine now!" Tank said with a grin, "But I think that next time I can take you to a long time, especially Xiaoji, you can learn skills, so that you can make casual more comfortable, and you are not afraid of other women relying on these skills to seduce him!"

"Tank!" Xiao Ji felt as if he had been humiliated, and he only felt that he was equated with those women, and he immediately became angry.

Tank looked at her, smiled and said, "Why are you unhappy if you say a few words? I'm also for your good! I'm losing my temper? I didn't say that I asked you to do that, it's for you to learn skills! It's not for your good? You're angry like this? Then if you say it's good for me, am I angry? You're worried about me, I believe it, I understand, so I'm grateful." But do I need to have the ability to love others? Do I need to love people I love? Am I uncomfortable listening to them? Did I get angry just now?"

Xiao Ji was speechless, but he couldn't help but say angrily: "Okay!

Tank glanced casually, and saw that he lowered his head and face slightly, and looked speechless with guilt, so he also adjusted his emotions, put his hands on their shoulders and said, "Okay, we all know that everyone has no malicious intentions." I understand your intentions, but I feel in a good mood now, you just cherish each other, don't worry about me, I will take care of myself. Don't even say anything about persuasion in the future, okay?"

"Okay. Casually agreed, his eyes noticed the hand of the tank on Xiao Ji's shoulder, if it was another man, he would have taken it away, but the tank, as long as Xiao Ji allowed it, he would accept it.

Xiao Ji didn't speak, but she also nodded slightly, she felt that the tank would become like this, and there must be her responsibility.

Thinking back to the events of that day, Xiao Ji also felt that she was too crazy at the time...... Maybe it was too sad at that time, maybe it was together, after surviving the most difficult period, her feelings became softer and softer, anyway, the more she thought about it recently, the more she felt sorry, so I especially hoped that the tank could change back to the way it was before.

Now, however, it seems impossible.

Tank smiled and said, "Then it's decided! Go quickly, I'll be late for a while, I don't care, Xiao Ji is afraid of being late." ”

When I returned to the classroom, I felt very good on the tank leg stand on the desk, looking at the bright sky outside......

He suddenly felt that it was really good to be like this now, but he felt that his past self was so stupid, so stupid......

Actually, what does he like about Xiao Ji?

Tank recalled...... I don't seem to know, but now when I see Xiao Ji and think of Xiao Ji, I still feel warm in my heart, and my mood will be happier, but there is no longer the kind of past, my mind is full of her obsession, and there is no such thing, I can be sure that I love her very much at any time, and there is no madness in this life that she can't do.

'That's good, that's good......,' thought Tank, and the boy in the front row turned his head and asked, "Tank, can you take me there once in the evening?"

"It's okay to play below, but not above, it's too expensive, I'm collecting debts, and I'm paying for it. "The tank did not refuse, because he sat close to each other and often chatted and talked, and the relationship was still good.

"Can I make up the money?" the man handed over the sketchbook, and when the tank opened it, he couldn't help but laugh when he saw that it was one hundred and eighty dollars. "Where did you get the money? You didn't steal from your family, did you?"

"My dad forgot when he was drunk, I didn't admit it, he must have thought he was drunk and was taken by a thief, he tried it several times, it's okay!" the man didn't deny it.

"Okay, you've made up the difference, of course I don't have a reason to refuse. If you play the following, you can be invited again. Tank thought that this seemed to be a way to monetize, and he could charge half the price!

However, after thinking about it carefully, the tank was still embarrassed to do this, and he took the initiative to make up the price difference, not to mention, he took the initiative to collect money, saying that it was too unrighteous to go out, too calculating, and had a bad reputation, so the tank still gave up.