181 If you know today, why should you have been?
When it was time to eat dinner, the boy Mo only ate a few bites and then stopped looking at Mo Xize, opened his mouth but stopped talking.
Mo Xize saw the movement of the boy Mo, and also put the dishes and chopsticks, "Baby, what's wrong? You don't eat well, you're hungry and thin, and you'll be very unhappy when your mommy comes back." ”
The boy pursed the corners of his mouth, hesitated for a moment, and finally said, "Daddy, if Mommy is by our side, she will definitely agree to let you go to see grandpa." ”
Mo Xize didn't expect the kid Mo to tell him this at all, and he was a little surprised for a while.
"Zimo, I know how kind your mommy is, but I don't want to do anything that your mommy will be unhappy about. As he spoke, Mo Xize took a piece of fish meat and put it in Xiao Zimo's bowl, and the corners of his lips pulled slightly, "Let's eat." ”
"Daddy, do you know, when I was in the Bordeaux vineyard, I once asked Mommy why she chose not to be with you when she loved you so much, and Mommy said because she didn't want to see you and Grandpa fight for her, or even father and son turned against each other. Boy Mo looked at Mo Xize very seriously, and said, "So, since grandpa already knows that he is wrong, I believe that Mommy will also forgive him, and I will very much hope to see you go to see grandpa for the last time." ”
Looking at the boy Mo and listening to her words, Mo Xize's eyes were uncontrollably foggy.
Why is Xia Nian so kind, such a stupid Xia Nian, but God wants to be so unfair to her again and again.
"Then do you want me to see your grandfather one last time?"
Xiao Zimo nodded "um", "As long as Mommy is willing to do anything, I am willing." ”
Yes, as long as Xia Nian is willing to do something, he is willing to do it.
"Good. Mo Xize nodded, his deep voice stuck in his throat, "We'll go see your grandfather after dinner." ”
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In the Mo family's mansion, Mo Yuanqing held his last breath and only hoped that Mo Xize would come back to see him for the last time, and when Xiao Yiling appeared alone in his blurred vision, he was completely desperate and fell into a coma again.
Xiao Yiling stayed by Mo Yuanqing's bedside, holding his hand, except for quietly accompanying Mo Yuanqing, she didn't know what else to do.
Suddenly, Mo Yuanqing opened his eyes, staring at Xiao Yiling with clear eyes, and the corners of his mouth twitched hard, as if he was about to say something.
"Yuan Qing, if you have anything to say, I will listen. ”
"Yiling, I know that I... It's almost gone... I also know that it's not just Hirzer who hates me and won't forgive me, but even you... In fact, he hated me. ”
"No, no, Yuan Qing, I don't hate you, I don't hate you. Xiao Yiling's tears couldn't stop falling again.
In order to facilitate entry and exit, the door was not closed, and Mo Xize, who had just walked outside the door, heard Xiao Yiling's crying voice, and pulled the boy Mo to stop unconsciously, standing outside the door, listening to the sound inside continuing to come.
"You should hate me, for all these years, I... I've never... I've been to you wholeheartedly, and I haven't done one... Everything a good husband should do. ”
"No, I don't blame you, I really don't blame you, although you are not good enough to me, but you have never been the only woman for so many years, I should be content. ”
"It was me who was wrong, and it shouldn't have been for a... Already dead... I'm sorry for the fact that women let the living suffer... Xia Nian, I'm sorry Hizer, if... I can go back to the past, I must... I won't embarrass Xia Nian, I won't make Xia Nian and... Hizer separated, told Hiser, I'm sorry... He and Xia Nian, begging him... Forgive me. ”
"Okay, okay, Yuan Qing, I'll tell Xi Ze, I'll definitely tell them. ”
"Yiling, I... Gone, you're alright... Go on..."
The kid Mo outside the door looked up at Mo Xize, his face was blank.
"Daddy—" Kid Mo shook the arm that Mo Xize was pulling her on.
Hearing his daughter's voice, Mo Xize suddenly came back to his senses.
"Daddy, let's go in and see Grandpa. ”
Mo Xize nodded, and just as they were about to raise their feet and walk into the room, Xiao Yiling's sad cry came from inside.
"Yuan Qing, Yuan Qing, you wake up, you wake up..."
Mo Xize trembled, and pulled the boy Mo into the room.
In the room, Mo Yuanqing was lying on the bed, his eyes were closed, and he couldn't breathe anymore, Xiao Yiling was on the side of the bed, crying bitterly.
Looking at this scene, Mo Xize's brows furrowed, and the tears in his eyes flowed silently.
If you know today, why bother in the first place.
Now that you know that you are wrong, and since you have paid such a heavy price for it, then why should I keep this resentment and hatred in my heart and suffer alone.
Because, no matter how much hatred and resentment, it is impossible to turn back time, choose to start again with Xia Nian, I believe that Xia Nian at this moment will also choose to forgive you.
Dad, it's easy to walk all the way.
Two weeks later, Xia Nian, Ken, Steve and Lisa and several other volunteers went to the world's largest slum in Nairobi, Kenya, the Kibera slum.
The houses made of wood, tin cans, mud, oilcloth and other materials that even Xia Nian had never seen were densely packed in front of him like honeycombs, and on the ground, all kinds of garbage could be seen everywhere, thrown everywhere, and sewage flowed everywhere, the pungent smell filled the air, and the "buzzing" emitted by flies was also clearly audible in the ears.
Whether it is an adult or a child, most of the clothes on their bodies are old and dirty, and many of them are worn when they are torn, which may be the reason why the people in the slums in front of them are dark-skinned, so Xia Nian can't tell whether their faces are stained or just like that, in short, they feel very uncomfortable.
Suddenly, there was a churn in his stomach, and Xia Nian ran to the side and began to cover his chest and vomit violently.
Seeing Xia Nian's reaction, Ken immediately came behind Xia Nian and gently patted her on the back to help Xia Nian make her feel better.
Xia Nian couldn't help but go crazy, and after vomiting all the things in her stomach, she finally felt more comfortable.
Ken took out a bottle of water, unscrewed the lid and handed it to Xia Nian, who smiled gratefully, took the water and rinsed his mouth, and then took a few more sips.
Ken looked at Xia Nian, smiled warmly, and handed his handkerchief to Xia Nian.
Xia Nian smiled, but didn't reach out to take it, "Thank you, I'm fine." ”
As he spoke, Xia Nian raised the back of his hand and wiped the corners of his mouth.
"Believe me, this handkerchief has a special effect on pregnant women. Ken continued to hand the handkerchief in his hand in front of Xia Nian.
Xia Nian was embarrassed to refuse again, so she had to take it, but when she put Ken's handkerchief to her mouth and wanted to wipe the corners of her mouth, she smelled the particularly fresh and good-smelling lemon smell on the handkerchief, and the good smell instantly inhaled into her lungs, making her feel as if her whole body was relaxed.
"Don't be polite to me, if you like it. Ken still smiled gently.
"Smile, are you alright?" Lisa asked with concern.
Xia Nian shook his head, "I'm fine, it's just the first time I've come, and I'm not used to it." ”
"Don't worry, you don't need to get used to it, I won't let you live in a slum. Ken said with a smile.
Xia Nian smiled and nodded, and then everyone left the Kibera slum together.
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