At this time, my nose was a little sour, thinking that Zheng Xinguang had fulfilled his promise now, and just wanted to speak, but Zheng Xinguang suddenly interrupted me.

He said a lot with some emotion, it was the first time he had said so much in front of me.

He said, "Juanzi, I really like you. During the time I was separated from you, I—I have been thinking about you. I want to go on with you, I want to be nice to you, and I want to meet all your needs. Really, I don't have the power right now, but I'm going to do my best to achieve it. ”

When I heard this, there were already stars flashing in my eyes, and I listened quietly to Zheng Xinguang.

At this time, Zheng Xinguang said to me again: "I like to be jealous, I don't coax people, and I am macho, you are really wronged when you are with me." But I think I can change it, and I will try to make myself less unacceptable, and try to become what you like, and slowly get closer to you. As long as you don't dislike me, as long as I can still see you......"

He said all kinds of thoughtful things, lowered his head as he spoke, and whispered, "I hate myself as much as I like you." ”

I heard it clearly, I was very moved at first, and slowly there were tears, and when I heard his words, I didn't dare to ask why.

I'm afraid that if I say it, everything between us will disappear like this.

And I'm really sad, I wonder how I tortured such a proud and confident person to the way I am now.

I have a lot of affection in my heart, but I don't dare to say anything to Zheng Xinguang, for fear that once some words are clarified, I will not be able to continue to get along.

At this time, the waiter brought the food over, and after he served the food, he did not say any polite words, and left directly, but only a little further away from us.

He kept staring at us, as if he wanted to see from our actions whether we could afford the meal, and as if he was guarding us from eating the overlord meal.

I was a little surprised by this kind of colored eyes, and then Zheng Xinguang regained his smile, looked at me expectantly and said, "Juanzi, you can taste it." ”

I was subjected to that strange gaze and Zheng Xinguang's expectations, and I felt a little panicked, feeling that I really shouldn't come to this kind of place, and I had the idea of running away.

Taking a deep breath, I clumsily picked up the knife and fork, but luckily I still remember holding the fork in my left hand and the knife in my right hand.

In the way it appears in the book, I put my fork against the steak and cut it with the knife in my other hand.

But I couldn't cut it for a long time, and I was a little anxious.

At this time, I saw a cold light in the eyes of the waiter next to me, and let out a mockery, and suddenly all the emotions in my heart were amplified for no reason. Zheng Xinguang still looked at me expectantly, and in the end, I couldn't bear to give up, and gently put the knife and fork on the dinner plate, bumping against the dinner plate to make a crisp sound.

I said to Zheng Xinguang: "If you have anything, just say it, I have no appetite." ”

At this point, I already had a gut feeling that Zheng Xinguang had come here at great lengths not just to fulfill his promise to me.

Zheng Xinguang only said the true purpose of this trip at this time. His eyes dimmed, and he kept saying, "I'm sorry, Juanzi, I'm really sorry for you." ”

When I heard this, I felt a pang in my heart, and the music knew what he was going to say, and I suddenly felt infinitely bitter.

I'd rather not have the opportunity to eat such a meal, not to eat, and not to hear such a thing.

At this time, Zheng Xinguang said to me: "I know what Zheng Huaimin did, and I'm sorry to cause harm to you and your mother." ”

I lowered my head and didn't speak.

Zheng Xinguang blamed himself and said with chagrin: "I made a lot of determination to dare to come to see you, and I have made all the preparations, but I still have a glimmer of hope." ”

I know that he has buried a lot of meanings in this sentence, Zheng Huaimin is not as good as a beast after all, he can't do anything to him, but he wants to ask for my forgiveness, and he doesn't want our relationship to end here.

Inviting me to eat Western food should have cost him a lot of money. I couldn't help but wonder if he had toiled day and night at the car wash to afford the meal—just to treat me to a Western steak.

It's just that everything is wrong, the time, the place, the cause, the effect, everything is wrong.

I couldn't enjoy this meal anymore, it wasn't meant for people like me.

I suddenly picked up the knife and fork that had just been placed on the dining table and gestured, "I just figured out a truth." I used to want to eat Western food and prove that I could become a human being, but now that I have come, I realize how out of place I am in this environment. The way I cut the steak with a knife and fork was like a clown, it was ridiculous. ”

Zheng Xinguang saw a trace of bitterness flash on my face, and said "I'm sorry" again.

"I'm sorry, I really don't want to hurt you. ”

I smiled self-deprecatingly and said, "You didn't do anything wrong, you just fulfilled my wish." It's just that sometimes the gap between reality and ideal is unimaginable. ”

I put down my knife and fork, and even put down my knife and fork in a posture that had the air of a prince and nobleman, but it was only for a moment, and the miserably cut steak on my table knocked me back to its original shape, which was really funny.

Eventually, I didn't know how to continue the conversation, so I got up, said "I'm sorry," and left.

I noticed that Zheng Xinguang's gaze kept glued to me, as if he was in a posture.

He didn't catch up with me and said something to save me, and I knew that was all there was to our relationship.

Everything is wrong, since I moved to this house, the time Zheng Huaimin came in when I took a shower, Zheng Xinguang and I were destined not to have a good result.

There was his father and some villains separated from me.

I didn't know what I could do to change the impasse, and I didn't expect so much to happen.

I didn't dare to imagine that I would move to the town, and I would be inextricably linked with Zheng Xinguang, nor did I expect that I would be defiled by a beast, or even coerced by taking a video......

Everything stems from the involvement between me and Zheng Xinguang, I am tired and want to let go. But I can't let go of him in my heart, and I don't know what the outcome of our relationship will end up in.

Thinking about it, tears flowed silently again, this should not have been an easy meal.

The high-priced steak salad was exchanged for tears and sadness.

Zheng Xinguang, I'm sorry.

I'm sorry, I will never be able to forgive your father, Zheng Huaimin, and I can't forgive myself.

Between us, it seems that this is all there is to stop.