Since I was expelled from school, sometimes I walked alone on the road, lonely and aimless. Perceiving the familiar and unfamiliar surroundings around me, where should I go? When I lost my soul, I remembered my old home, and I should go to that home. Slowly I came to the door and knocked on the door. A voice came from inside the door: "Who?" "I, the sea." "Is there anything wrong with you?" "It's okay, I just wanted to come and have a look." "Go back, your mother is not at home, no one cooks." I was silent for a long time and left silently. Where to go, go back to grandma's house, the road is very far, more than ten kilometers, I didn't take the bus, just walk slowly.

After walking all morning, I came to my grandmother's house, and my grandmother didn't know about my expulsion, so she asked, "Why did you come back today if it's not Saturday?" I lowered my head and didn't speak, and walked into the small dark room of only a few square meters. I haven't been back for a long time and the house is full of dust. I wasn't in the mood to clean and lay on a dusty bed. When it was time to eat, my grandmother didn't call me, and I slept until the next morning. Get up listlessly and have breakfast. Grandma still repeated that sentence, don't chirp when you eat, you will be poor. You see you haven't studied well, bend your arms. When I heard these words, I didn't get angry for some reason, and my heart was calm. After eating, I gave it to my grandmother, who said, "I don't want to go to school anymore, I want to go out to work." "Where are you going to work?" asked Grandpa. "Go to the hotel, my dad's brother. Grandpa said, "If you go to school, we will provide for you to go to school, we don't care, everything is up to you." ”

Working in a hotel is my first time going out into society, and I cherish it very much, and I am determined to work hard, use my own actions to make achievements, and be recognized by others. I don't want to give up on myself, I want to live like normal people, rest at sunset, do it at sunrise, I want to alienate Dahao from my heart, thinking that it is not the life of ordinary people.

When I first entered the hotel, I was a little timid, sometimes I kept my head down and didn't speak, just working silently. I try to complete anyone's instructions. Xiao Wang, you help me clean up this table of leftovers. Xiao Wang, you help me mop the floor. As long as I enter the door of the hotel, I will not be idle. One day I was sick and was in the hospital playing a bottle, when the phone rang. Xiao Wang, help me take care of the tables downstairs in the afternoon. I refused, the first time I've been on the job. I told him I was sick and hanged in the hospital. He scolded over there and said, "You promised me yesterday, today you have to do this work for me no matter what, you don't do it, you find someone to do it for me." "Well, I'm full of promises. Then I called all my colleagues, and none of them would help. I usually help them with their work, but then I realized that my interactions with them are not equal, and they are not in contact with each other. In the evening, when I returned to the dormitory after beating the hanging bottle, I met the colleague, who grabbed me by the neck and pressed me to the bed to beat me, glaring and saying that I promised to do a good job but did not do a good job for him. He was scolded by the boss, and I argued with him, and none of the more than a dozen people in the dormitory spoke to me, even the one I thought was my best friend scolded me and didn't talk to me, and I usually helped them. Since then, when people ask me for help, I mostly refuse. Every time they refused, they cursed. Maybe it's because of my personality, or maybe it's because I'm younger, and I became the target of their isolation and bullying. Maybe I like solitude by nature, and in the three years I worked in a hotel, I didn't talk to anyone in my dorm for two years, and the people in my dorm were surprisingly unanimous in their opinions about me, and then I enjoyed that loneliness.

Until one day, the newcomer joined the dormitory to break the original balance, and the newcomer saw that you were honest and alone, and they began to speak ill of each other, asking you to do this, doing that, and even more annoying that he asked you to bring him water to wash his feet, and after serving, he went to kneel outside. I was at the time, and I fought him desperately, and all the people in the dormitory unanimously treated me and knocked me to the ground. Since then, I have not been reserved, and every day when I go back to the dormitory, I will fight when I see that person, and I will fight with gritted teeth and fight desperately. After the fight, I shouted loudly, I'm still alive, as long as I'm alive, I'll beat you when I see you. They put me in the hospital, and I was fired from the hotel. After I was discharged from the hospital, I went to look for them again, and they all quit their jobs and were nowhere to be found.

I was unemployed, during which I thought of Dahao again, so I went to him, and I heard my eldest brother say that Dahao was imprisoned for stealing, and I went to prison again, and I saw Dahao in prison, he described him as thin, his face was yellow, and he saw me crying non-stop, saying that he didn't have a long life, and he had a bad disease. I kept comforting him. He advised me to be kind, find a good job, persevere no matter how hard or tired I am, and learn to bow my head. About two or three years later, Dahao died in prison, and I heard that he died of AIDS.

After listening to Dahao's persuasion, I found another job, working as a repairman in the property, I felt that there was really no future after a while, you can never finish the task of the leader, and the promise of the leader has never been fulfilled, it turned out that I found myself a chess piece, a chess piece at the mercy of others, no matter how hard I walked, I could not reach the height of people, I was always a chess piece, working in the property for two years, conscientious. I went to resign, and the manager gladly accepted because there weren't so many people needed now.

No, I couldn't just live like that, so I found my eldest brother again, and he is now doing normal business, opening Internet cafes, bars, and dance halls. I'm 1.8 meters tall, long and energetic, leading dances in bars, sometimes singing, and learning foot massage. I met a girlfriend in the dance hall, who was a rich woman who ran a company and had no partner. She was rich, I was young, and we walked together. I became a soft eater, though I didn't want to.