Wei Wencang is very easy to like a girl, as long as there is a girl who is willing to treat him, and he is moved by his self-suggestion, that girl will have her own halo in his eyes, and he will smile and feel happy when he looks at her, maybe it's too lonely, right?

Yes, he fell in love with Qiu Ruoya, the girl who wore a bell bracelet and bumped into him on the playground. Thanks to Qiu Ruoya's blessing, Yan Shuhui, who haunted him, seemed to disappear from his dream.

But this is actually the beginning of another tragedy.

Since the first half of his freshman year, Wei Wencang has been chatting with Qiu Ruoya on QQ for 366 days, saying good morning in the morning and good night in the evening, every time he takes the initiative to find a topic to communicate with her, but Qiu Ruoya's reply is less than one-tenth of what he said to himself.

Wei Wencang almost talked about everything, but Qiu Ruoya rarely chatted with him, and many times he was bored, for example, he liked to walk with his head down because of his personality and environmental influence, but because of Qiu Ruoya's questioning attitude, he forced himself to raise his head and look ahead.

Wei Wencang said that he took a bath once or twice a week in the winter school, which could save time and water bills, Qiu Ruoya was very surprised, she felt very disgusting, when she saw the word disgusting, Wei Wencang's heart instantly thundered, he was sad for a while, and silently forced himself to get rid of this habit.

Wei Wencang has written a lot of poems for Qiu Ruoya, including two Tibetan poems, which are read together as "I love Qiu Ruoya and other spring, summer, autumn and winter", but Qiu Ruoya's reaction was very flat, and she did not praise or say that she would collect it.

Wei Wencang's voice is not good and he is easy to be dumb, but during the holidays, he secretly practiced songs for Qiu Ruoya for many days, and recorded a few of the best songs in the room, saying that she could listen to them when she was in a bad mood......

The earlier process was very bitter, but Wei Wencang was also painful and happy, thinking that as long as the relationship between him and her could develop gradually, everything would be worth it.

However, one day, his roommate in his class said something to him: "I see that you have a close relationship with Qiu Ruoya, but do you know that she has a boyfriend?"

Wei Wencang was a little confused, but he heard his roommate continue to say that she saw Qiu Ruoya hugging a boy after high math class yesterday, and the boy helped her carry her schoolbag, and Qiu Ruoya kissed him.

Wei Wencang didn't know how he got to the classroom, and seemed to rely on his instinct to follow his roommate's footsteps.

During the high math class, he asked Qiu Ruoya on QQ, praying in his heart that this was not true.

As a result, he despaired, and Qiu Ruoya confessed, saying that she didn't tell him because she didn't want him to be unhappy.

Wei Wencang heard the sound of his heart breaking, as if something important had been taken out of his life in an instant.

He randomly stuffed his mobile phone into a drawer, tears poured out uncontrollably, in order not to let the people next to him see the abnormality, he used his arms to cover himself, looking like he was dozing off with his head, but in fact he was constantly wiping his tears.

The order of appearance in life is so important, he just hugged you first, and I gave you my whole heart later, I thought I had successfully planted a mark on you, I thought you would accept it into your heart, I thought you would slowly like me.

It turns out that everything is my own passion, I was just pitied by you, tied behind by you, and became your vassal.

Wei Wencang still didn't break off his friendship with her, and continued to chat with her with sadness. Because he knows that this is all his own doing, and he can't blame others.

November 13, 2017, mood: rainy. Wei Wencang recorded in the circle of friends.

In the Solomon Islands, when the aborigines want to cut down a tree, they don't just cut down the tree, they just gather around the tree and curse loudly, curse the tree, and after a few days, the tree will die and it will die alone.

Wei Wencang felt that he was worse than that tree, no one cursed him, and he felt like he was going to die every day.

Qiu Ruoya's high math has never been very good, and she often asks Wei Wencang for high math questions, and once, he made an appointment with her to meet in the library.

Not long after, Qiu Ruoya's boyfriend came over and said that her aunt should go to the doctor because of the pain, so she took Qiu Ruoya to the infirmary, Wei Wencang silently watched her leave, and received a warning look from her boyfriend.

December 6, 2017, mood: thunderstorm.

Each of us came from this earth and wanted to go to heaven, but some of us were not very lucky and stepped into hell.

Among men, you are the third most important person to me, the first is my dad, the second is my boyfriend, and the third is you. Qiu Ruoya said.

December 13, 2017, mood: thunderstorm.

13 is a very interesting number, 1 means alone, 3 means a superfluous third person, which together form a B word, which means stupid.

Towards the end of the semester, the library was overcrowded. Wei Wencang and Qiu Ruoya agreed to study together, and he helped her occupy a seat in the morning. Yes, for the sake of Qiu Ruoya, he can force himself to do immoral things.

At 7:30 in the morning, Wei Wencang was the first to walk into the library, occupied a seat with a schoolbag on the second floor, and sent a message to Qiu Ruoya, for an hour, I didn't see her reply, two hours, I didn't see her person, three hours, it didn't matter, he was still patient, and waited until 11:30 noon, Qiu Ruoya still didn't show up.

He held back his sadness and asked Qiu Ruoya on WeChat if she was here, and Qiu Ruoya finally replied that she was still sleeping in bed, and she would come over to study with her roommate, so she didn't have to wait for her.

December 21, 2017, mood: blizzard.

Snow is a very abominable thing, it comes from heaven, beautiful and holy, and falls into the palm of your hand. You try to hold it, it turns into a puddle of water, you want to give it warmth, but it gives you a biting coldness in return.

Later, perhaps it was Wei Wencang's true feelings that moved Shangcang, Qiu Ruoya and her boyfriend broke up and broke up, but Qiu Ruoya still said that she and he will always be good friends.

Wei Wencang was not discouraged, and said that we haven't eaten together after being friends for so long, right? Make an appointment another day? But Qiu Ruoya always pushes back, either she is not available, or she ignores his words, and finally agrees, and when the appointed time comes, she refuses on the grounds of trivial matters.

March 9, 2018, mood: rainy.

People who are born with the sun do not receive the sun's rays. Many things are like sunshine between your fingers, warm and beautiful, but you can never catch them.

The following is a conversation between Wei Wencang and Qiu Ruoya.

Wei: Is it impossible between us?

JA: Why do you ask this?

Wei: I want to know.

JJ: I think it's better to be friends for life.

Wei: I see.

JJ: Couples break up all the time.

Wei: What if we don't break up?

JJ: It's unlikely.

Wei: But there are any, right?

JA: yes.

Wei: If Ruoya gets married in the future, and we are just friends, even if we have contact at that time, it will be almost the same as no contact, and I think it is better to suddenly despair than to be disappointed slowly.

Wei: So I asked Ruoya this question, and although I could have guessed it a long time ago, it's still a bit ...... Indescribable emotions, speechless and choking, I knew a long time ago that my friends could not be relied on, and I could only rely on myself and my family.

JA: I can be relied on.

Wei: Of course I believe in Ruoya, but I won't trouble my friends, except for my partner who can help me, I won't rely on anyone else, that is to say, once I have a girlfriend, if that person is not Ruoya, Ruoya and I will be about the same, unless I don't have a wife for the rest of my life, I have thought about this question for a long time.

JA: No.

Wei: At that time, even if I had a wife, I didn't have the strength to like it, but now I like Ruoya, and I'm very tired......

JA: Are you tired?

Wei: Occasionally, I can feel that I like a girl who can't see the results, isn't it tiring?

Ya: Tired.

Wei: At that time, I had a wife, and my puberty had passed, so even if I wasn't tired, I didn't have a strong so-called liking.

A: I'm sorry.

Wei: You're not sorry, isn't my reaction a little wooden? Maybe it will be more wooden in the future.

JA: No.

Wei: Don't say it, Ruoya should be happy, with girlfriends and friends to accompany me, I don't worry that Ruoya will be sad.

And I'm different...... I'm satisfied, haven't I? I at least know your name, your phone, I've heard your voice, I've seen your eyes.

At least you know I like you, at least you know I like you no matter what. As sad as I am, I'm going to like you.

Wei Wencang did not add this passage. Qiu Ruoya's original intention of being friends with Wei Wencang was to make him happy, but the truth is that Wei Wencang's sad days are far greater than the happy time.

A month later, Qiu Ruoya found a new boyfriend.

April 13, 2018

There's a scarecrow on the horizon at dusk, and it's gone with a little spark, leaving a pile of grass and ashes, just like me.

Wei Wencang was ruthless in deleting Qiu Ruoya's friend, but he couldn't ignore Qiu Ruoya's many "good friend nature" additions, and he couldn't stand her sorry.

The pain of unrequited love is unimaginable if you don't experience it, and while you are willing to be a tool man, you sometimes change your attitude suddenly because of psychological torture, and sometimes you feel guilty because your sudden change of attitude hurts the other party, which is simply a fine scene.

There is a lyric, how to sing it? The most disdainful is lovesickness, guarding love, afraid of laughing, and afraid of people seeing clearly.

Sometimes Wei Wencang even brain-pumped Qiu Ruoya to send goodnight, but what he got was a male voice: Good night.

Qiu Ruoya's explanation is that her boyfriend is playing with her phone, and he may have done it on purpose, but she didn't mean it. There were several times such unintentional "hints", which caused him great irritation and pain.

May 13, 2018

I suddenly wanted to cry, but the funny thing was that I couldn't cry. I suddenly wanted to laugh three times, but sadly I couldn't laugh.

Wei Wencang felt that his heart had completely failed and was declared useless, and he truly realized what it means to live without love, so he wrote a modern poem called "From Now On" in space.

From now on, the sunset will reflect you in the afterglow and make you even more beautiful.

The Great River goes east, and it will carry you to farther and more romantic places.

Please pour out your past tears and pain on the river,

That ballad of love can erase all your sorrows.

From now on, the rainbow after the rain will bless you with your body, and may your life be rich and colorful.

The stars are shining, and it will look at you, hoping that you will go to a better and happier place.

Please pin your past joys and ideals to the clouds,

The gradually fading starry sky can engrave all your voices and smiles.

From now on, the tree is no longer a tree,

The protection of silence for thousands of years will finally be broken by the prince riding a white horse.

From now on, poetry is no longer poetry,

The rhetoric of the gorgeous I will eventually be crushed by the new life and pale and powerless.

From now on, the strings that have been broken by you will slowly be reforged,

Although it can no longer make a gut-wrenching sound.

From now on, the sea of ice that melts because of you will slowly condense,

Although it can no longer make soft waves.

From now on, I will still be me, and you will no longer be you,

From now on, love is still love, and you are still you.

From now on, that imaginary mirage collapsed,

From now on, that sleeping paradise will fall apart.

There is one less ridiculous self-inflicted affection in the years of the world,

In the vicissitudes of the world, there is a soul that accompanies you to old age.

I hope that the last youth is dedicated to you, love and pain overlap,

Only you cherish it, from now on.