Day after day, sunrise and sunset, the ebb and flow of the tide, everything is under the control of the laws of nature, and my bad mood is the same.

I have lost control of my emotions, pessimism, depression, negativity, despair have filled my heart, in this state of mind I have lost the ability to think properly, and the only thought in my mind is to leave this island.

Because my heart was full of fear of loneliness and death at this time, I couldn't calmly deal with what was happening, let alone judge whether what I was doing was right.

Because I've broken down,,,,,,,,,

Now there's only one thing I know to do, and that's to build a raft and get out of this damn island.

In the days that followed, I tried my best to build the ideal raft in my heart, and I was completely lost in myself, almost crazy.

I quickly built a raft under my work day and night, and I couldn't wait to test it in the water, and I could tell the result with my toes, and the raft fell apart after a few waves after being launched.

This made me even more depressed and crazy, and then I went into the water again on the second raft, but it turned out not much better than the first.

Two, three, four, and one after another rafts failed, one was that the raft was not tied up firmly and fell apart as soon as the waves were struck, and the other was that the raft was too small and easy to roll over.

When I built the fifth raft, it was arguably my last hope, because there were almost no resources left on the island that could be used, and I really didn't know what to do if I failed.

This time I made a relatively large raft and tied it with ropes twisted from bamboo wire and tree bark, and I was very confident looking at this raft that was big enough and sturdy enough.

This time it will definitely be ,,,,,,

I gathered some coconuts and a pitiful amount of food, took my only two hooks, and got on a raft to leave the island.

It was tantamount to suicide for me to sail on the seas with such a simple raft and a little food, but at this time I had completely lost my normal calm mind.

Death is already looming over me,,,,

I was very satisfied with the raft this time, and it was smooth after entering the water, and I paddled the raft slowly towards the deep sea.

I can finally leave this small island, and I can't help but be happy when I look at the island that is gradually moving away, but I can't help but feel a little scared when I look at the vast sea.

At this moment, I suddenly felt a trace of remorse in my heart, and I felt that it was a little impulsive, and it seemed impossible to just rely on a raft and a few dried fish to cross the ocean.

But thinking back to the years I lived on the island was a time when there were no people and no ghosts, it really broke me, and I would rather disappear into this deep sea than return to the island to endure all this rather than endure the unspeakable loneliness day and night, and the longing for my relatives in my heart.

I'm ready, and I'll leave what happens next to fate.

I'm open to it,,,,,,

But I was thinking too much, and just as I was fully accepting whatever happened next, and confronting life and death, fate began to play tricks on me again.

Suddenly a huge wave rolled in, more than four meters high wave lifted the raft, the raft was very strong and withstood the huge waves, but standing on the raft I could not control the balance at all, under the huge waves the raft almost vertically I fell into the sea at once, with the waves rolling in the sea.

When I swam out of the whirlpool, I found that the raft was already dozens of meters away from me, drifting towards the deep sea.

I swam to catch up with the raft, but no matter how hard I swam, I couldn't catch up with the raft and got farther and farther.

I knew that I would not be able to catch up with the drifting raft and that it would be futile to try, so I decided to swim back to the island.

But I was too far away from the island to swim ashore with my physical strength, so I wandered in the water and looked at the island that was out of reach and the raft that was moving away.

Originally, he wanted to rely on a raft to take me away from this desperate island, but I didn't expect that the raft would lead me into another place of despair, is this the will of God, I Guan Wang died here today.

Since it was providential, why should I be struggling uselessly, so I gave up swimming and slowly sank into the water.

The sound of the waves disappeared, and there was a dead silence all around, and I could feel it. I could clearly hear my heartbeat as the sea was cold and stressful, and I opened my eyes to see the sunlight slowly sinking from the sea, and I didn't feel the pain of death, but I felt very calm.

Gradually, the light dimmed, and my consciousness began to blur, and I couldn't feel anything.

Is this death? Everything is nothing,,,,,,

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An unknown sound began to appear, from far and near from blurred to clear, the sound of ocean waves,,,,,

I suddenly became conscious and felt, I could hear the sound of the waves clearly, I could feel myself lying on the beach, and I could feel the cold water.

A question arose in my mind, how could I still be conscious when I should be dead, is this another world?

I struggled to open my eyes, and suddenly the light was unusually blinding, and a blurry object appeared in front of me.

He seems to be moving,,,,,,

Slowly, the blurred vision became clearer, and I saw a large turtle lying in front of me, so frightened that I instinctively rolled backwards, but I got up and was shocked to see that it was indeed a large turtle in front of me.

My mind was full of doubts, I said to myself that I should be dead, but I could clearly feel my presence, I could feel the bright sunshine, the gentle sea breeze, the sound of the waves, the cool water splashing on me, and I woke up from my amazement.

Everything in front of me seemed very familiar, and I looked around and realized that this was the island where I lived.

I suddenly understood,,,,,

I

Didn't die,,,,,,