I don't know how long I've been sitting in Lingnan Park, but I feel that my body is getting colder and colder, and the sky is getting darker. The park's street lights are on. Occasionally, two or three people passed by, talking and laughing.

Raising his wrist and glancing at the watch on his wrist, it was already half past six in the evening.

"Oh, so I've been sitting here for 2 hours."

Take out the phone, clean screensaver without a single message a call. He put down his hand gloomily and shook his head, maybe divorce is not terrible, what is terrible is this loneliness and helplessness. Raise your head and look up at the last rays of light in the western sky.

"It's dark. ”

Looking at the last ray of light with a little smile, I was 8 years ago, and I also rushed to this park before the last ray of light ended, took the man's hand, and told him that I wanted to have a home with him.

From the moment he secretly chose to marry him, he was actually doomed to such an ending, but in the past two years, he has lied to himself. I just won't let myself go.

Over the years, I have been used to reporting good news and not bad news, but my father doesn't know. It's not that I don't want to say it, but I don't have the face to say it.

"It turned out that I had forced myself into such a situation. ”

I watched the last rays of light disappear in front of me, and slowly lowered my head. Covering his face with his already frozen troublesome hands, he forced the tears in his eyes back. I've learned to take it on my own. I can't think about the painful things, I have to find a place to sleep. Now I am really tired, as if someone has drained my soul, and I have no ability to think.

He stood up with his chair propped up, and after just two steps, he immediately held on to the trees on the side of the road. It turned out that I had been sitting for too long, and my feet were numb from the cold. Every step I take is a dull ache in my heart. But this pain, that is comparable to the pain of the heart.

The house was given to Xiao Pingnan, and now he has no place to go, so let's find a hotel to live in the annex first, and the days have to pass.

When I picked up my phone, I remembered that I gave all the cash to Xiao Pingnan last night, and I didn't leave a cent for myself, remembering Xiao Pingnan's greedy eyes last night, I smiled helplessly and lowered my head. If I hadn't said yes to his request, I'm sure he would have spent another 8 years with me and tormented me. All he wanted was money.

"Well, now it really seems like there is no way out. ”

Dragging the weak body, across the riverside avenue, to the embankment of the riverside, when the weather is warm, there will always be people here night fishing. Now that it's winter, everyone is no longer willing to come out to blow the cold wind, and the embankment looks extremely deserted.

Tighten your coat and hang your handbag around your wrist. sighed at his palm, rubbed his palm back and forth, and his palm warmed. Gently covering his cheeks, his cheeks were cold, and the tip of his nose was already painful.

The warmth of the palm of the hand quickly passed from the palm to the cheeks, and there was a trace of warmth. Gently patted it. He repeated the breath and covered his cheeks until they were slightly warm. I finally felt a little warmer.

I leaned against the guardrail and took a deep breath. Finally took out his phone and sent a message to Meizi.

"Meizi, I divorced Xiao Pingnan and am penniless now. Can you transfer me 500 dollars? I need to find a place to live."

Umeko is my only sister, half-sister, but now only Umeko Ken helps me. She knows what happened to me here, and I only dare to tell her. Although we were not born to the same mother, our relationship was not affected in any way, on the contrary, we cherished each other's sisterhood even more.

After sending the message, he sighed, put down his phone, and kicked it into his pocket.

Now Meizi is the only one who will take care of me.

"Didididi!" Dididi.

The sound of an incoming phone call swept through the quiet night and picked up the phone.

"Sister, where are you now?"

Meizi's anxious voice came from the other end of the phone, and the anxious voice was full of worry and concern.

"I'm on the embankment, I don't know where to go?"

I pursed my almost numb lips, leaned against the railing, and slowly squatted down.

"What are you doing on the embankment? Don't do anything stupid. ”

Meizi asked me anxiously on the other end of the phone, and slowly Meizi's crying came.

"Sister, don't scare me, sister-sister-please, don't scare me. ”

Meizi thought that I couldn't open it, so she actually started crying.

"Don't worry, I'm fine, I just want to calm myself down. It's over, and I don't have to suffer anymore. In the past two years, I have also been tired. ”

I tried my best to keep my composure, but the thought of the damage I had suffered made me burst into tears like a flood that burst my last line of defense. When I heard Umeko's cry, my heart also collapsed. I held my phone, crouched on the ground and cried hoarsely.

On an off-road vehicle not far away, Xu Zhengchun listened to a hoarse cry not far away. His hands were clenched into fists, and his joints made a clicking sound from the squeezing. And he closed his eyes, and the tears in the corners of his eyes slipped down one by one. At this moment, how much Yingzi hurts, he hurts. Little girl, you suffered.

"Sister, don't cry, I'll transfer the money to you immediately, you find a hotel to stay, don't go anywhere. I'm here to pick you up, I'll pick you up right away. ”

Meizi knew that her sister was really hurt this time, otherwise she had endured it for 2 years, how could she let go easily.

About 20 seconds later, the phone came back with a ticking sound.

It was Meizi's transfer information, and then Meizi's phone came again.

"Sister, I transferred 5,000 yuan to you first, you go to a hotel to stay first. Whatever happens, I'm going to talk about it when I arrive, and you don't have to think about it. I'll come and pick you up right now, we'll go home, you and me, have Dad, we love you. ”

"Well, I'll go home. ”

I held the phone and nodded heavily, now I, what else can I do but go home?

"Meizi, my heart really hurts, it hurts, I feel like I'm going to die. ”

The typed words were deleted again. I still don't want my family to worry about me. For 30 years, my relationship with my family has always been like this, intimate and distant. Maybe it's time to start over.

My mother made it clear to me six years ago that I could not go back to my home. Since I'm already married, I can't take half a step into the family. Where should I go this time? Dad didn't dare to come to Z City to see me all these years, but he always quietly contacted me and quietly asked Meizi to come to me in the name of tourism.

But my dad is the last person I want to let him know I'm unhappy.

"Don't worry, I adjust, life will go on after all. ”

A new paragraph was made up, reverting to the past.

"Sister, it's right that you can think like this, there are so many good men in the world, not only him, you will meet the person who is really good to you. If our lives go on, I'll take you home, and we'll start all over again."

Meizi only knew that I was not born to the same mother as her, but she didn't know why I couldn't go home, she always thought that it was because I secretly married someone, disobeyed my elders, and was kicked out by my mother. Actually, I was expelled by my mother. Because the only condition for my mother to accept me to return to my family was that I had to leave the family when I was 20 years old. My mother looked at me as a disgrace.

"Don't tell my dad about me just yet, I'll tell him personally. ”

I sent another message to Meizi. Let's hide it from my dad first, and wait for me to adjust myself and face it.

Collected his tears, stood up slowly, looked at the rolling riverside, he suddenly had an idea of wanting to sit down, and he didn't care about the coldness on his body, he just wanted to sit before leaving, and he had been here for 6 years, and he had never gone down to the flood outlet to see. Let's stay here today and check it out.

"Brother, is she leaving, why can't I hear her voice?"

Xu Zhengchun held his glasses, straightened his neck, looked forward, and tilted his head sideways to hear her voice. The visual distance of these glasses is too short, less than 50 meters, but now the distance from her is a little far, she can't see at all, she can only rely on her ears to hear, fortunately, there are few people here today, and there is not much interference. Otherwise, I won't be able to tell the difference.

"She must be hungry and buying sweet potatoes to eat. ”

Xu Bangguo looked at the thin figure in the distance, she could go to buy food, which showed that she didn't think about it, she just wanted to calm down.

"She can buy food, which means that she doesn't think about it, and I want to get closer to her. ”