The cold wind blew on the river embankment, and I sniffed, and not far away I saw a sweet potato seller, and the faint fragrance of sweet potatoes wafted in the air along the wind.

"Boss, pick me a sweet potato. ”

I haven't eaten for a day, and I didn't feel a little hungry until I smelled the fragrance of sweet potatoes.

"Okay, my sweet potatoes are sweet, you can eat them and want to eat them next time."

The boss is a talkative person, and he talks in his mouth, but he never stops moving.

"Yes, thank you boss".

I took the sweet potato and whispered my thanks. I leaned in and took a deep breath of the sweet potato aroma.

"It's really fragrant".

I took the sweet potato, climbed over the guardrail, and followed the ladder on the bank to the bottom of the embankment. There was no light down there, it was dark. It's a good place for night fishing when the weather is nice, and there's a flood outlet about 20 meters away. I walked along the embankment and over the outlet. Sit down on a pile of rubble not far away.

There was a burst of heat from the sweet potato in my hand, and I put the sweet potato on my lap, rubbing the temperature on my face and covering my ears back and forth. I've been freezing for so long that I can't feel warm for half a day.

Gently peeling off the skin of the sweet potato, the thick aroma spreads out, I was really hungry, and I ate it in a big gulp. After eating, I feel that my body is a little warmer, and when there is something in my stomach, I will naturally be warmer.

Sitting on the rubble, looking at the sparkling river, I picked up the brooch pinned to the collar of my coat, exuding a burst of jasmine, my favorite smell, I miss my father.

Binhe is the mother river of Z City people, Xiao Pingnan said more than once. When the people of Z City mention this river, they are full of pride. It irrigates nearly one million hectares of surrounding mountain forests, orchards and fertile fields. The wind blew on his face in gusts, and the warmth just now quickly dissipated again. My body was so cold that I began to shiver a little, and my teeth trembled involuntarily.

After a while, I saw a man with fishing gear slowly descend from the embankment, sit down at the other end of the outlet, and start fiddling with his fishing gear.

It's true love to come fishing in such cold weather.

I glanced at it, turned my head, and stared blankly at the river. He bowed his head, buried his head in his arms, and hugged himself, and his tears were like a flood, and he couldn't hold back. There aren't many people here, so let yourself cry freely.

Xu Zhengchun has been sitting quietly at the other end of the floodport, pretending to be a night fisherman to guard her. The distance I chose was within the visual range of the glasses, and I could also ensure that if she was in danger, I could quickly appear by her side within ten seconds. He sat across a floodline, keeping an eye on her condition, and her slight sobs could be clearly heard at this distance. can feel that she is crying now. Xu Zhengchun's heart felt like she was being stabbed by a knife, she couldn't stop sobbing like this, and his heart hurt as if it was being stabbed by a knife with her sobbing.

"Little girl, as much pain as you have now, I will hurt as much. ”

Xu Zhengchun watched intently at the situation on the other side of the floodport.

"Di Di Di Di! Di. "

After a while, there was a sound of a cell phone call coming from the other side of the spill.

"What's the hurry, I'm definitely going to catch a fish tonight before I have to come back, you guys rest first."

A rough, low, somewhat hoarse voice rang out on the other side of the spillway.

I listened quietly, in such a cold weather today, there are still people fishing at night. It seems that he really loves fishing. But how do you listen to this voice, a little familiar, as if you have heard it?

"That's it, I won't come back if I can't catch a fish tonight."

Xu Zhengchun hung up the phone, which was Xu Bangguo's phone, and asked him if he needed help.

"Hey, what are you doing here so late? I've been seeing you here for an hour. It is dangerous to be alone at night. ”

Xu Zhengchun endured the torment in his heart, and endured the urge that he might rush forward to hug her at any time.

"Are you talking to me?"

I subconsciously looked around, and there was only one person. Was he talking to me? Although he started speaking the local dialect, it still felt a little familiar. He didn't move, he didn't want to get close to me, so he probably wouldn't have met a bad guy.

"That's right, that's what I'm talking to."

Xu Zhengchun tried his best to make his voice sound ordinary.

"Listen to the accent, you're not from City Z. Where are you from?"

Xu Zhengchun stood up, withdrew his fishing rod, and then watched it throw out, and slowly sat down again. I talked to her in the most corny, stupid way.

"Something happened to you. Otherwise, a girl would come to this place at night to drink the cold wind. ”

Xu Zhengchun put down the fishing rod in his hand and stood up. No, I'll have to go over and see her and make sure she's okay. I miss her too much, I miss her so much, I'm afraid that I won't be able to control my impulses.

"It's okay, I just want to blow the wind, I'm leaving, I want to look at it. ”

My voice trembled a little, and I subconsciously hugged my thighs. Bury your face between your legs. There was no sound coming from the other side of the spill. I looked up at the other end of the spill and there was no one. Sink your face between your legs again to feel a little warmer. It turns out that loneliness is like this.

Xu Zhengchun gently walked behind his beloved little girl, for the first time in so many years, he was so close to her. The scent of jasmine came from her. She has lost a lot of weight, her body was already very thin, and now she looks even thinner, she must have suffered too much in the past two years. Blame yourself, too indulged in your own pain, thinking that it is best for her not to disturb her, but she is wrong. The only thing that can be done now is to make up for the mistakes of the past few years.

Xu Zhengchun stood softly behind her, watching her hold her legs curled up like that, breathing softly. She must be cold to hear her teeth chattering.

"I just remembered that there was a blanket in the car, so I brought it to you and put it on for you so that you wouldn't catch a cold. ”

Suddenly, a voice sounded behind me. I was startled and stood up. As a result, he didn't stand firmly, and his center of gravity was unstable and he fell backwards.

"Ahh

I screamed in fright, but a hand quickly grabbed my body and pulled me to my feet.

"You don't have to worry, I'm not a bad person, I just thought that you have been sitting here alone for so long, it must be cold, I will get you a blanket so that you don't catch a cold." ”

Xu Zhengchun held the blanket in his hand and stretched it out in front of me. I was very cold, but I didn't reach for it. Just looking at the tall man in front of him, the figure is a little familiar, where have you seen it?

In the faint moonlight, the man in front of him was wearing a dark coat and a pair of black thick-rimmed glasses hanging from his head and the bridge of his nose. The glasses looked larger than the usual ones, almost covering half of his face, as if they were trying to hide something. And his right eye is wide open, only the whites of the eye, no eyes, apparently his right eye is not visible. The moonlight was faint, and although I couldn't see the man's appearance clearly, I just felt that this tall man was a little familiar.

When the man saw that I didn't take his blanket, he tore it open and wrapped me up. But his movements really startled him.

"Don't worry, I'm not a bad person, you wear so little, I'm just worried that you're cold. ”

The man's voice was low, but gentle, with a little familiarity. I always feel like I've heard it, but I can't remember it.

Finally standing in front of the person he had been thinking about for a long time, Xu Zhengchun could feel his hands trembling. Beloved little girl, after six years, I can finally stand in front of you, but you don't remember me. It's okay, I'll make you remember me.

"Thank you. ”

I smiled at him and sat down on the stone wrapped in a blanket.

The man didn't leave, but just found a rock behind me and sat down.

Xu Zhengchun looked at the river and lit a cigarette. He looked at her silently like this, and even though the darkness couldn't see her face clearly, he could hear her breathing slightly.

"Girl, what's wrong with you?"

Xu Zhengchun took a deep breath of cigarette and spit out the smoke ring. He has been pretending to be calm, suppressing the desire in his heart.

"I'm not a girl, I'm a half-aged. And give me one, too. ”

I turned my head and looked at the strange man, feeling that I was not afraid of him, so I smiled at him and laughed at myself.

Whether he's a bad guy or not, what is there to think about now, maybe today is the last time he'll accompany me.

That's right, I don't have the courage to want to live anymore, I'm too tired.

"You smoke, look at you, you're 25 or 26 years old. How can it be half-aged".

Xu Zhengchun knows that Yingzi doesn't smoke, but it doesn't matter, she is by her side and can react quickly.

He reached into his trouser pocket and handed me a cigarette, and he took a lighter and lit it for me.

Xu Zhengchun knew that she could get closer to her like this, and she really planned to jump from here today. It's good that I'm here today, otherwise the consequences will be unimaginable?

Little girl, it was you who gave me the courage to live, and it was because I loved you that I supported me to live all these years, how can I let you hurt yourself today?

I took the lit cigarette and took a sharp puff. A choking and spicy smell immediately filled the entire nasal cavity and mouth, and tears were choked out.

"Ahem, ahem!"

I shuddered and coughed.

"You can't smoke!"

The strange man snatched the cigarette from between my fingers and threw it into the river. Gently patted me on the back and let me breathe. The action is very light, very light.

Fool, I feel heartache for you like this.

I was not disgusted by his actions, but felt very relieved, like a familiar person, but I don't remember knowing such a person?

"Woman, what are you smoking. ”

As he spoke, he pulled out an unopened piece of gum from his coat pocket and handed it to me.

"Here you go, you eat this. ”

I have a habit of chewing gum when fishing, and all Andy will always put one in his clothes bag. In the past, I felt bitter in my heart, and I would always chew sweet things, which made me feel better.

I looked at the outstretched hand and instead of reaching for it, I looked at him. The man in front of him gave himself an indescribable sense of familiarity, always feeling that he had seen him, but he couldn't remember where he had seen him.

"Thank you!

I feel more and more that I have seen this person, but where have I seen it?

"Hey, thank you, there are so many people on the street, maybe I've met them by chance. ”

Xu Zhengchun didn't plan to tell him who she was, so that she wouldn't be so defensive about the chance encounter here tonight, so that she could have a chance to really stand in front of her and tell her who she was.

"There will always be some ups and downs in life. Some things pass when you think about it, don't think about it so much. ”

The man grabbed my hand and placed the gum in my palm.

The moment he held her hand, Xu Zhengchun's defense line completely collapsed. Her hands were still so small and slender. The hands were cold, she must be cold. As he spoke, he took off his coat and put it on her, wanting to hug her so much.

"What about you?"

I looked at this strange man in confusion, he actually took off his coat and put it on me, it was so cold here, he would freeze too. This man is wearing a suit and a tie under his coat. Dressed so well, running here to fish at night?

"I'm a man, it's not cold. ”

Xu Zhengchun looked at the suit on her body, and didn't know if she would feel funny when she was dressed like this, so she came over in a suit for fishing. In fact, I just want to have a better appearance in front of her.

"When you're not happy, eat a piece of candy. When the mouth is sweet, the heart is not so bitter. ”

The strange man stepped back, took two small steps away from me, and found a place to sit.

Xu Zhengchun looked at the person in front of him, he didn't dare to say too much, he was afraid that he would accidentally say something, he was afraid that his actions would scare her, and he didn't dare to get too close to her, so she would be afraid. This distance is just right, and she can be there immediately when she needs it.

"If it's sweet in the mouth, it's not so bitter in the heart?"

I unwrapped the gum, put one in my mouth, and chewed gently, a wave of sweetness filling my mouth.

"That's right, isn't it sweet in the mouth, and the heart is not so bitter. ”

Xu Zhengchun pushed down the bulky glasses hanging on the bridge of his nose, he wanted to see her clearly, he wanted to, he wanted to. This is the face that appears again and again in my dreams.

"You're so young, it's not worth it. People will always meet different people at different times, but you have to believe that there is always someone waiting for you in this world, and he will do his best to protect you. ”

Xu Zhengchun lowered his head and inhaled the cigarette violently, and the smoke ring he spit out slowly dissipated in front of him. He didn't know how much impulse he had to endure in order to control himself, and what kind of feeling he had to endure when he couldn't ask for it.

The moon was already very high, and there were a few white clouds around the moon, and in the moonlight, it looked exceptionally deserted, and there was not a single star in the bright sky. The two of them sat in front of each other, not moving.

"Tell me what's going on, I'll be your listener. ”

Xu Zhengchun sat behind her, looking at the little girl in front of him who she had longed for for a long time, she was still the same little girl.

"Actually, it's nothing, I just feel that people's hearts are impermanent, and things are not people. I want to say goodbye to the city where I have lived for six years. ”

"You're divorced, aren't you?"

The strange man asked directly.

"Well, this afternoon. ”

I nodded, and didn't hide it, it's not a bad thing, I'm saying that it's a stranger, I saw it today, and I won't see it in the future, it's okay. The gum in his mouth no longer has a sweet taste, spit on the wrapper, wrap it carefully, and put it in his pocket.

"I've been in this city for six years, but after all, my family is still scattered, where I came from and where I should go back. ”

Then I opened another one and chewed it in my mouth, and a sweet sensation immediately filled my entire mouth. When the mouth is sweet, the heart is not so bitter.

"I let him go, and I let myself go. It's best if it all ends like this. ”

I looked at the river, where the moonlight shone on it and disappeared as the waves rolled into the rubble.

Xu Zhengchun didn't answer, just smoked a cigarette and looked at his little girl, at this moment she didn't even feel the courage to live, if I hadn't stayed here tonight, then what kind of stupid thing would she do?

"Life is wonderful, maybe you feel very painful and sad right now. But when you get through this time, you will find that it is just a small episode in life, some people's episodes end soon, and some people end later. But all of us will and will eventually find our true selves, our inner selves. ”

The strange man's voice sounded again, and he flicked the cigarette butt between his fingers, and the spark on the cigarette butt drew a beautiful arc in the air, and quickly fell into the water to extinguish and disappear. Gently standing up, he walked up to me, sat down next to me, and helped me pull my coat that had slipped down.

I wasn't disgusted by his approach, and I didn't shy away from it, just sat there quietly.

"Yes!"

I answered softly, no longer willing to speak. Just staring blankly at the river.

If I had jumped from here, wouldn't I have been in such pain? Everything is still fresh in my mind, but everything has changed. Xiao Pingnan didn't understand why, and I couldn't tell him why, so I had to bear all this myself.

The little girl hugged her legs tightly, curled up and sat there, motionless, and the coat that was draped over her body slipped down.

The strange man gently picked it up and put it on her again. This was repeated 3 times, but the man next to him never wanted to leave. I heard him sniffing all the time, and he was frozen too.