After waiting for the little doll to happily take the things in the basket away, Bai Liefeng's whole person's expression suddenly became lonely, but in a somewhat helpless tone, he sorted out the hair that had slipped out of Jiang Wan's forehead, and said softly and gently.

"Wan'er, how can I say hello to you? The doctor just said that your body is fine at all, but it is your worry that will cause this kind of disease to form a heart knot, why do you bother to think so much?

We are living here now, although it is bland, but we have a pair of children under our knees and live such a good fairy life, isn't this very much in line with our original expectations?"

Seeing her husband's gentle expression, she felt a shock in her heart, she hid it well, but she was still seen through by her husband, who had been in bed with her for nearly ten years.

In the past ten years, he didn't feel anything at first, but the more the days passed, he regretted it in his heart, feeling that his husband should have soared on this continent, and now it is only because of him that he will be trapped in this mountain and wilderness, being a hunter, or this ordinary and poor life.

And his daughter and son should have lived a good life of fine clothes and food and a group of slaves since they were young, but because of her, they can only live like tomboys in this countryside every day with rough bows and arrows.

The daughter should have carried out a high-level education since she was a child, piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, female red, riding and shooting, and the places in and out, including the banquets she attended, should be full of flowers, but now because of herself, she has a good-looking flower dress, and she is happy to follow the most precious thing.

And his son should have learned Wen and Wu, with a good gentleman to teach, from the Four Books and Five Classics to the Yellow Emperor's Neijing, he should learn well, Wen Tao and Wu Luo should know how to become the best man in the world and have the most ambitious future.

But because of her identity, her husband, daughter, and son did not live the life they should have.

This is not at all what I imagined, and this is very different from what I thought at the beginning.

But at that time, as long as the two people were together, whether they wanted to live a mediocre life in the future, be poor, or coarse cloth tea and rice, they would be together forever and forever.

But now that we have a daughter and a son, why is it still very fearful and uneasy?

Could it be the nightmare that has been lingering for so long?

The beautiful peace in front of you, will life be chased by those people one day?

These things are really too precious, but one day he hinted to himself in his heart that one day these things will be destroyed, they will be chased by those people, and then crushed in front of his eyes little by little.

So inexplicably, he had this confusion in his heart, and then he had such unwillingness, and after having such doubts, he slowly became sick in his heart, so it was not good for his whole body and bones.

"Awan, what are you thinking in your heart? People say that we have been husband and wife for more than ten years.

We've known each other for twenty years, what else do you want to hide from me, or do you think I don't deserve your trust?"

Seeing that although her husband was puzzled, he was still full of dependence and trust, and the guilt in his heart doubled, and the whole person felt like he was about to be swallowed up by these sad emotions all of a sudden.

"Husband, I'm ...... , I don't know what to say, it's been so many years that we've been together, so I know all your thoughts, and you understand all your thoughts.

But I still can't get over that hurdle in my heart, and I still feel that the reason for all this is because of me, so you should have stood on a higher place and lived a better life.

But because of me, you can only be a hunter in this poor country, in this country.

Your previous identity was so noble, the identity you stood behind you, such a high status, and the environment you were in were the best.

You have been familiar with the books of 100 soldiers since you were a child, you went to the battlefield very early to make military achievements, and you became famous all over the world before the age of 16, you are the best man in the world, but because of me, you gave up your ideals, gave up your ambitions, and I lived in this countryside for ten years, a whole ten years of life!

I don't even know how you've been doing it for so many years, you must be suffering every day!

It's all my fault, it's all my sake, if I hadn't shown up in front of you, and the two of us hadn't met, how nice it would be.

In this case, you will not live in such a place for me, live like an ordinary mediocre person, and you used to live a life of fine clothes and food, but now you live a life of poverty, I really don't know, sometimes how do you endure it?

I really don't know why I let you live so wronged, obviously I love you so much, but I am so selfish, for the sake of our love, since I trapped you here for ten years......

And our children, our two children, should have grown up carefree and very happy like the happiest children in the world.

Now, in order to make a living, I go hunting in the woods with you, and in the autumn, I go out early and return late every day, and the dangerous hunting is just to have a good year in winter.

And Wen'er should learn more at her age, piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, participate in more banquets, and then go to see more of the world and expand her horizons.

And Wu'er, as your child, at this age, you should ask a master to teach him well, the principles of life, teach him the Four Books and Five Classics, or follow you to learn martial arts. Then go out to see more of the world, hone it, or travel all over the world to see this great river and mountain.

But it's all because of me. So he has no chance to study now, and he doesn't have any choice, and he can only live a life that can only work in this rural mountain village in order to make a living.

I can't read, I can't learn to read, I can't do business, I can only live a mediocre life here, there is no second choice in life, I think about it, I feel sorry for these children, they could have lived a better life, it's all because of me, I'm too selfish.

cough cough cough ...... , husband, we have been husband and wife for so many years, have you ever blamed me?"

"Wan'er, don't talk first, drink saliva first, moisten your throat, you listen to me, it wasn't just you who chose this kind of life at that time, but I was me who chose this kind of life, not because of you.

It's because I also want to live a peaceful and stable life, and I don't want to fight to the death with those people in that deceitful environment. ”