Since when?

Xu Nanyu can't remember clearly.

In her distant memory, she used to be a fluent girl, but since she was in kindergarten, when she performed in public in class, fear has been with her like a nightmare.

"Nan Yu, don't be nervous, you see you're stammering. The teacher said from the side.

In the audience was a group of children as old as her, who were laughing harshly and pointing their fingers at her: "Stammering! Haha! Xu Nanyu is stammering!"

Xu Nanyi's face was pale, her little hand was held very tightly, she lowered her head, bit her mouth tightly, and tears flowed down her little face and fell on the podium.

"Xu Nanyu is still crying!"

"The little stutterer can't speak and cry his nose!"

"I ...... I...... Also...... No...... Yes...... Yes...... Say...... Hahaha!"

The nasty imps start to heckle and bully a girl of the same age who is at a loss, making them feel very proud.

Human nature is inherently evil.

Since then, Xu Nanyu has been afraid of going to school, and the children in the kindergarten often jump in front of her and laugh at her for stammering, holding hands and surrounding her in circles, giggling and learning to speak.

Xu Nanyu has no friends, and every time she walks into the crowd, she feels that someone is talking about her behind her.

"Look! it's a little stammer!"

"Still a crybaby!"

"She can't speak!"

Xu Nanyu is very aggrieved, she usually doesn't stutter, and she is very fluent when she talks to her parents, but as long as she is nervous, she becomes incoherent.

The ridicule of her classmates added to her nervousness, and once she noticed her, she would subconsciously feel that the other party was here to laugh at her.

Xu Nanyu was afraid of being talked about by her classmates, she didn't dare to raise her head, she didn't dare to look at people, she felt embarrassed, and she couldn't wait to escape the school and hide at home.

"Mom, I don't want to go to school anymore......" Xu Nanyu said with red eyes.

"What's the matter, did your classmates bully you?" Bai Yan hurriedly asked.

So Xu Nanyu told her mother about the school, Bai Yan was very angry, so she called the kindergarten teacher at that time, Xu Nanyu had never seen her mother scold people so out of shape.

"Gardenia is fine, you don't stutter, your classmates and teachers are blind, and when class is going to class tomorrow, I'll go with you, and I'll ask them to apologize to you." Bai Yan wiped her daughter's tears distressedly.

Xu Nanyu nodded, like a helpless kitten who had been hurt, and one look from others was enough to make her panic.

The next day, Bai Yan went to school with Xu Nanyu.

The teacher apologized to Xu Nanyu along with the classmates who laughed at her.

thought that the matter would end here, but what Xu Nanyu didn't expect was that from then on, she was completely isolated by her classmates.

No one talked to her, everyone never called her when they played games, and the teacher didn't have a good face when she looked at her......

Sometimes Xu Nanyu hides in the corner, and she can also hear the whispers of some classmates, they say that she is a little slut, not only stuttering, but also complaining to her parents, and the teacher tells them to ignore her......

Ordinary people can't imagine how much this isolation can hurt a five-year-old girl.

Xu Nanyu really wants to play with other children and play games together, instead of being forgotten in the corner and disliked like now.

She didn't know whether to tell her mother about it, and she was afraid that if she did, her classmates would isolate her even more.

"Mom, my classmates don't play with me......"

"You have to take the initiative to play with others, bring your toys over, invite them to play with you, how can you make friends if you don't take the initiative." ”

So Xu Nanyu took her beloved toys to the kindergarten, she tried her best to show her flattery and initiative, but it backfired, and the reality hit her hard again, and no one played with her.

......

Xu Nanyu transferred to another school.

A new environment, new classmates, and a new beginning.

It's just that the previous encounter seems to have become her heart disease, as long as she contacts and talks to people, she starts to get nervous, and then the stuttering problem is committed again.

She could see the ridicule, pity, incomprehension, and surprise in the eyes of others......

Sometimes when I meet really good classmates, they don't care that she will be nervous and stutter when she speaks, Xu Nanyu cherishes them very much and longs to be friends with them all the time.

Every time she says a word or makes an action, she can't help but subconsciously think: will my performance just now disgust her, is what I just said wrong, and I didn't respond to the incident she just told me, how to remedy it......

Nervousness and anxiety come and go, constantly tormenting her.

In such a state of mind, Xu Nanyu spent her elementary and junior high school.

Later, Xu Nanyu gradually discovered that maybe hiding was the best choice, not to be seen, not to be noticed, and not to talk to others......

As long as she doesn't touch people, she won't be nervous and she won't be anxious.

But once exposed to others, fear overwhelmed her like a tide......

......

When she was a freshman in high school, she was admitted to the No. 1 Middle School in the city and became the most inconspicuous corner girl in the class.

Wearing a black and white wide tracksuit, her hands can be retracted into her sleeves, with bangs and shoulder-length short hair, she sat silently in the most corner position, with her head down, not looking at her classmates around her, her bangs covered her face, and no classmates looked at her.

Everyone was getting to know each other, chatting about their previous junior high school years, or fantasizing about their future high school life.

New students came to the classroom one after another, and the seats gradually filled up, and everyone seemed to be able to perceive the female student's own barrier, but no one sat next to her, which made her breathe a sigh of relief.

"Hello, is there anyone sitting in this position? It seems that there is no place for it......"

A question came from beside her, waking Xu Nanyu from her own little world.

Her heart beat faster involuntarily, she didn't raise her head, she didn't look at who it was, but her character couldn't say the word "refusal" at all.

As if hearing an inaudible 'um' sound in the girl's throat, the boy pulled out his seat and sat down.

"Do you have tissues?"

The boy seemed to be running in a hurry, his forehead was sweaty, and he was almost late for the first day of school.

Xu Nanyu was stunned......

Still didn't speak, just took out a pack of tissues from his school bag and gently placed it on the table.

"Thank you. ”

The young man took the tissue and wiped his sweat, Xu Nanyu could feel the hot breath on his body, and his heart beat faster.

"My name is Yuan Jia, Yuan of Lantern Festival, Jia of Commendation, what is your name in the previous four?"

Yuan Jia asked as he returned the tissue to her.

"Xu Nan Yu ......"

Her voice was very small, like a little mosquito talking, and Yuan Jia didn't hear it clearly.

Probably thinking that the girl is a super introverted person, Yuanjia was very sensible and didn't ask any more questions, anyway, sooner or later he would know in the future.

"Oh, your name is nice. Yuan Jia smiled.

Xu Nanyu looked back at him for the first time, just glanced at him in a hurry, and only felt that the sun was warm.

Soon the head teacher also came, and after he counted the number of people, he talked about the rules and regulations, and then it was time for Xu Nanyu to introduce himself the most.

Yuan Jia came to power, he was very handsome, tall and thin, and he was the kind that girls liked the most.

Xu Nanyu could feel that as soon as Yuan Jia came to power, he immediately attracted everyone's attention, and his self-introduction was humorous, which made people immediately remember his name and his person.

Xu Nanyu looked at him secretly, he was indeed a very heartwarming teenager, his manners, speech, and demeanor ...... All of them reveal a strong sense of confidence and sunshine.

is so dazzling that Xu Nanyu feels that he is like the sun in the sky, and he is just a little bug who is humble to the dust and doesn't even dare to talk to people......

Yuan Jia came down and whispered to Xu Nanyu: "It's your turn, don't be in a daze." ”

Xu Nanyu came back to her senses at this time, and felt that the classmates around her were looking at her, and her eyes made her feel like pins and needles.

Xu Nanyu's hands and feet were cold, his palms were sweaty, and his heart was beating so much that he was about to jump out of his throat.

She didn't dare to speak, because she knew that she would stutter when she spoke, and she couldn't even say a word.

On the way to the podium, Xu Nanyu felt that he was on the execution ground and was about to face a public execution.

"Big ...... Everyone...... Good ......"

Xu Nanyu stumbled and said three words, like Yuanjia, wrote his name on the podium, and then ran back as if he was running away.

Yuanjia stood up and gave way for her to enter, and when she was seated, he sat down again and locked her in his place.

Xu Nanyu didn't feel aggrieved, but this small square lattice space that belonged to her made her feel safe.

"Xu Nanyu. ”

Yuan Jia looked at her and said.

Xu Nan looked at him blankly, waiting for him to speak, what did he want to say, laughing at my embarrassment just now......

It's just that Yuan Jia's words were something Xu Nanyu didn't expect.

He looked at her very sincerely and praised: "Your name is really good, Xu Yi is old, a beautiful woman in the south, and the gardenia is blooming, it is so poetic." ”

Xu Nanyu looked at him in a daze, repeating what he said over and over again in his mind.

"Thank you......"

She whispered, as before, as small as a mosquito.

High school life began.

......

Xu Nanyu is a dormitory student, and in order to avoid her classmates from talking to her, she is always the first to come to the classroom and then the last to leave.

Yuanjia is also a dormitory student like her, but almost every time he is pressed, his grades are also very good, he is at the top of the class, and the head teacher can't criticize him, after all, this guy is always pressed very accurately, and he won't be a minute early, but he will never be late.

After two months of getting along, Xu Nanyu and Yuan Jia have said no more than five sentences, and many times he is saying it himself, and Xu Nanyu listens quietly.

Yuan Jia is different from others, he seems to understand her difficulties, and never forces Xu Nanyu to speak, but he does not alienate herself from her because of this, but intentionally or unintentionally helps her protect her little grid.

It's just the right degree that neither closeness makes her feel uneasy, but also alienation that makes her feel cold.

The girl's mind touched him rarely......

It's just that the word 'like' can't be said anyway......

If she can continue to do this, she will actually be very satisfied.

Sometimes during recess, Yuan Jia left her seat and didn't have him to help block the outside, Xu Nanyu would feel very unaccustomed to being empty, she silently shrunk her little hands into her sleeves, lowered her head, and prayed that he would come back soon.

"This is for you. ”

Yuanjia came back and secretly picked up a white gardenia from the flower garden.

He put the gardenia on Xu Nanyu's table, took the water cup, and also took Xu Nanyu's water cup, went to the podium to fill two glasses of water, and then as usual, came back and opened the seat and sat down, firmly protecting her in the small grid.

Xu Nanyu felt very relieved, took the gardenia, gently sniffed the faint fragrance of the flowers, and his thoughts drifted away......

After school, when everyone left, Xu Nanyu took out the gardenia from the drawer.

She carefully tore off the petals one by one, clipped them into her notebook, picked up the pen, and wrote a sentence on the page.

“It will take a lot of courage to tell the truth。 ”

It takes a lot of courage to tell the truth. ）

She held the notebook in her arms, and when she raised her head, she had never seen a face that no one else had ever seen, exuding a soft atmosphere from the inside out, and painting a beautiful picture with the scenery outside the window.

......

There is a half-hour lunch meeting time at noon every day, and if there is usually nothing to do, a classmate will be discharged from the class to perform talents for everyone, singing, talking cross talk, and reciting pi...... Anything goes, just to dispel the fatigue after a nap.

Because of this, Xu Nanyu has been unable to sleep and eat for a whole week, and it will be her turn to come to power today.

She was scared, really scared......

Even last night, when I thought that I was going to go on stage at noon today, I cried until more than two o'clock in the morning, and my eyes were red and swollen when I got up.

If other classmates knew about her, they would think she was crazy.

"Are you alright, are you feeling well?"

Yuanjia noticed that something was wrong with her and had already asked her three times, but she didn't speak each time, just shook her head.

When the luncheon time came, the squad leader stepped up to the podium.

"It's Xu Nanyu's turn to take the stage today, Xu Nanyu, what show are you going to perform for everyone?"

As the words fell, the eyes of the whole class fell on the girl in the corner.

Even many people in the class have not seen Xu Nanyu's appearance head-on, because she always keeps her head down, and no one has heard her speak except for Yuan Jia.

Everyone waited curiously, some of the boys began to coax, and the class burst into applause.

"Hurry up! Half an hour has passed in one fell swoop!"

"Hurry up, let's sing a song. ”

"You can also learn the pi of the front back...... Ha ha. ”

Xu Nanyi's face was pale, her lips were bloodless, she was trembling, her eyes were red and swollen, and she felt like the world was spinning, and the scene of her childhood talent performance on stage surrounded her mind like a nightmare.

She really can't do it......

Not to mention being on stage, just now, everyone's eyes are like a knife, cutting her to the ground......

Just when Xu Nanyu didn't know what to do and was about to collapse emotionally, Yuan Jia patted her shoulder comfortingly.

"It's okay, I'll go up for you. ”

Yuan Jia stood up and stepped onto the podium.

Everyone's eyes were attracted by him, and the heavy pressure on Xu Nanyu's body dissipated, and she looked at Yuan Jia on the stage in a daze.

"Yuanjia, why are you up?"

"Xu Nanyu is uncomfortable, I'll just help her perform. ”

"That's not going to work, it's your turn tomorrow. ”

"It's okay for me to perform twice, right? Don't make a fool of yourself, Xu Nanyu is really uncomfortable. ”

"It feels like you two have a leg. ”

"Don't spread the word, you still don't listen?"

"Hurry up, it's going to be class in a minute......"

......

What everyone said in the classroom, Xu Nanyi couldn't hear it, and she didn't know how Yuan Jia was singing.

She only remembered the temperature from her palm when Yuan Jia patted her on the shoulder.

[It's okay, I'll go up for you]

At that moment, Xu Nanyu felt like a saved drowning man.

She survived.

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(Secretly add a 4,400-word chapter, and the new book issue should be recommended, which is really not too much...... Today's recommendation is on the spot.,Everyone's follow-up and voting are super important.,Thank you!)

(Tonight, I corrected the typos and some bug values in the previous chapters, which did not affect the reading~)

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