I just remember that we had a good meal that day, and he had a good meal, and then he sent me back to school, and I just remember that I was in a good state.

That's good, of course, in my fierce love history, I really haven't had a man so handsome.

Later, when the school wanted to participate in an internship opportunity, I thought about it for a long time, and finally I couldn't help but call him cheekily and ask him if he could help me arrange an internship.

Of course, I had my own personal ideas at the time.

At that time, I didn't expect him to be able to help me with this, I just wanted to find a certain opportunity, some kind of opportunity to have some kind of contact with him, who knows the result, really, very upright to help me arrange this thing, I feel very moved.

Of course, goose plucking is also a traditional spirit of mine, since the opportunity has come, how can I not take action?

If you don't make a move, then it will definitely not be called Ou Ruoxi!

I take advantage of such an opportunity, I often find all kinds of excuses to thank him, or pay him a salary or something to invite him to dinner, or to coerce him to invite me to dinner, and to be honest, it is a food stall snack at the back of the school, I am really annoyed to eat, I am tired of eating, but this thing doesn't matter, as long as I can eat with him, even if I eat it 1000 times, I am willing.

I have thoroughly exerted this spirit of dog skin plaster, and I am now following him like a shadow.

We were very skillful in this process, and I hoped that he would teach me how to skate.

I really didn't expect the other party to really agree to my request again, I simply felt ecstatic, or flattered, I didn't expect this dish to come to my bowl step by step!

Later, I took my sister with me, because my sister was also busy with work, and I wanted my sister to be as happy and comfortable as possible.

There is no need to repeat the story that is told.

Because then he saw his sister.

Then he fell in love with his sister.

The last offspring was that the two of them became a couple.

It has nothing to do with my hair.

Then we suggested to learn to swim again, I was a landlubber, I wore a swimsuit with a large swimming ring, I was swaying in the water, I was like an ugly duck.

Clumsy and unbearable, and entertaining himself, he seems silly.

But he was very serious when he was picked up by the traffic police, and he was very patient, and how to teach his sister to arouse how to teach his sister to carry out this growth exercise, how to teach his sister to do water skiing, all aspects of the action are very detailed.

Xueba's sister is really a Xueba, she learns everything very quickly, many things can be understood at one point, it doesn't take half a day, my sister quickly mastered the skills, she can let go of his hand, and she can slowly slide 10 meters.

Of course, he gently dragged his sister's little hand with one hand in front, and let his sister follow a movement and slide step by step.

My sister is really a proud sister of our family, she is very beautiful, she is a princess type, and not only that, her scalp skin is particularly fair, and her figure is particularly tall, and when she swims in the pool, she really looks like a very beautiful mermaid.

It's really not my jealousy, it's true, as long as my sister falls into this pool, it's absolutely easy to become the center of attention of the audience.

Luo Jin was really like that kind of prince charming next to him, holding the mermaid's little hand, slowly dancing in the water step by step, which reminded me of the species of hibiscus out of the water or the little mandarin duck that I thought of.

The two of them are very angry and rowed together, which really makes others look really envious and jealous, and they are completely tacit, no matter in terms of appearance and action, and in terms of temperament, they seem to be so well matched, impeccable.

My swimming skills were so clumsy that I had to climb up to the pool and stand there biting on watermelons and looking at them with a smile on my face.

Later, I really didn't go down to the pool again, I didn't go down for a swim.

Because he said I was really lazy, stupid, stupid, untalented, afraid of water, and didn't work hard at all.

All in all, in his words, a man who is completely hopeless in the pool.

At that time, we were married, and I still couldn't swim at the pool club in our community, so I just grabbed the swimming ring with peace of mind, grabbed his arm with one hand, and said it unashamedly.

"Look at what you use to learn this swimming, I don't learn it at all, it's a high-tech era, there is this swimming ring still next to you, what else do I learn to swim, am I really brain-dead? I won't drown anyway." ”

As a result, he was really ruthless!

He threw my swimming ring directly to the shore and dragged me off his hand, and I was completely panicked at this point, like a stone, and sank directly to the bottom of the pool with a bang.

It was so fast that I was completely caught off guard, not even prepared, and when I fell into this pool, I held my breath and grabbed me wildly, watching the water on the top of me go straight to me.

But I can't help it, I am not like those beauties, I can be very light, I can jump into the water with a little foot, I am completely a stone, sinking to the bottom of the water.

The feeling of selfishness and the deathly silence of the sound made me feel a sense of fear, I felt a feeling of suffocation, I even felt that I had suddenly fallen into another world, and although I could see the shaking of many feet in the water, I could not scream.

I couldn't see Luo Jin, but I felt that he shouldn't be very far away from me, but there was no one who could help me, and I felt that I was going to die in the next moment.

The surroundings are quiet, I never expected that in the world of water, it is really as quiet as water, without any sound, I can't grasp anything, everything is nothing.

The deeper you sink, the deeper you go.

kept choking on water, just when I felt that everything was lost, when I felt that Luo Jin was about to give up on me, and when I felt that the whole world was leaving me, suddenly a hand grabbed my shoulder and lifted me desperately to the water.

I thought that this warm and solid shoulder came from Luo Jin, but when I surfaced, I saw this unfamiliar face, and it turned out that the lifeguard saw that I was in this situation and jumped into the water to save me.

When I turned my head to see the shore, I saw Luo Jin looking at me with a frown.

"Why are you so stupid? Don't you know how to breathe and hold your breath? If you don't drink some water, how can you learn to swim, you don't have any strength and courage, where did you go with the courage to fight and fight since you were a child?"

From that time on, I was even more sure that this Luo Jin would not like it at all, I would not at all, not at all, if he was next to him, he could fish me up with just one hand.

But he didn't, he let me fall straight into the water, and I almost choked to death.

I was even fantasizing that if it was my sister, he should jump in quickly to rescue him anyway.

In fact, I am already very calm, I will not be jealous of my sister, I will only feel that the distance between me and my sister is far, far away.

Later, he said that he wanted to teach me to swim, I didn't even learn to swim even if I was killed, I am a person who cherishes life very much, I don't want to choke on water again in the process of swimming, and I don't want to feel the pain of that catastrophe again.

The pain is what scares me, I will never be able to touch and I will never be able to grasp anything, I know that the other party ignores me, but it is only a meter away, that is what I grasp is nothingness.

It's like a flower in a mirror, a moon in the water.

I've completely lost this heart, why do I need to be so persistent in pursuing this kind of thing again, you will find that your attachment will waste a lot of your time, and it will also affect the mood of others.

So every time I passed by the pool, I would inadvertently remember how he had patiently and gently taught my sister to swim.

The two of them are really a pair of mandarin ducks.

If it weren't for my ugly duckling, they would have gone better and happier.

But my ugly duckling did something wrong.

The life of an ugly duckling is an ugly duckling after all, and it is impossible to become a white swan.

Just when I was thinking about those things that had happened in the past and I was feeling heartbroken about it, someone suddenly tapped me on the shoulder from behind, and I was almost stunned, and when I looked back, it turned out that Lu Liuliu had already come.

He sat down next to me around the stool, and then handed me a large envelope in cash, unsurprisingly.

The weight of this cash is probably tens of thousands, so it's okay, let's wait for this period of time.

I put the money bag in my backpack, zipped it up, and said to him seriously.

"Lu Liuliu thank you very much, I can only look for you at this time, I will return you as soon as possible. ”

Lu Liuliu was very righteous, and he didn't ask me where I was going, he was just very overshadowed, and often sighed with a dissuasion.

"Ou Ruoxi, in fact, I think that in life, many things can't be hidden, wouldn't it be better to have me and us to face them in a dignified manner? ”

For a tragic character like him, I can only laugh haha, I don't want to be too sad and sad because of these things, what I need at this moment is to be strong, not to need such a one.

"Hello hello, what do you want to do with such a complicated thing? Let me tell you, the so-called bow to the bridge is naturally straight, and I have to break through one of their encirclements now, right? ”

Lu Liuliu said: "I just tell you, now Luo Jin is now crazy and looking for you everywhere, even where I live, even where my parents are, and where my company is found, I must find out what kind of misunderstanding happened between you, but I think there may be a lot of things that everyone can be honest and public, maybe there is a solution, so that you don't really want to wander the world." ”

What else can I say about this old iron of mine? I can only be moved by him.

yes, there's nothing to say because things have gotten to a very bad point, because if I don't leave, I'm really going to die.

So I couldn't do anything, I made a compromise with this world that I had.

I asked, "What did Luo Jin do when he found your house? What cruel words did he say to feed Lu Liuliu, I found a question, why did you turn against you at a critical time?"

He replied: "Luo Jin didn't say anything specifically, just asked you directly, I always made it clear to the other party that I don't know that you didn't contact me, so I saw his expression with a very disappointed and very uncomfortable expression, this is what I have never seen before." ”

I'm silent, I'm not lying, I'm judging whether Lu Liuliu's words are obviously watery.

Because of his description, I always felt that this water was too much, this is not the Luo Jin I know, and certainly not what he knows, so the two of us maintain the same view on this point of view.

Lu Liuliu was silent for a moment.

I don't know what to say when I look at the moonlight on the lotus pond, in fact, I don't know where I should fly to, but I always know that as long as I have this confidence, there will always be a place for me to settle down.

Lu Liuliu said: "There are some things I don't know whether to say or not, I also once liked someone, so I know how much you can do for the other party when you fall in love with someone, and what kind of degree will you cut your heart for the other party, Ou Ruoxi If I really guess correctly, I feel that Luo Jin is not what you say, he has feelings for you, and this feeling should be buried very deep." ”

I was so emotional that I almost cried when he said that.

Lu Liuliu continued: "Really, I only rely on the way he looked when he was looking for you, his expression can be seen, there is no way to hide these things, when he finds me, his eyes are a little bit focused on the expectation and a little bit into disappointment, that kind of change in his eyes, lingering, like a flame slowly extinguished." ”

I really think he has a big brain about his plot, why doesn't he change the role of a novel author.

I smiled nonchalantly.

"My good Lu Liuliu, what's the matter with you, when did you become so sad, if you say this, I think I feel like this, my goosebumps are popping up, can you say something normal human. ”

Lu Liuliu said: "Then I'll be blunt, I think the two of you can communicate frankly and unfairly, and explain the affairs of both sides clearly, then wouldn't this be good for both sides?

I think he's really brain-dead, what's there to say about this thing?

There's nothing more to say, if he loves me, I know it, he told me it just yesterday, but it's only because he sympathizes with me, has pity on me, has pity on me, because I'm sick.

Because I am as pitiful as my sister, because I have the same disease as my sister.

That's why he said this love for me.

There is an essential difference between such things, which contains too much of a personal emotion in it, which has nothing to do with a sincere love, which is an emotion with a kind of pity.

Lu Liuliu said: "But Ou Ruoxi I know that you can't encounter these things, you can escape without a trace, you are irresponsible to you like this, you can escape to the ends of the earth, you will come back one day, right?"

I can't really say.

Yes, I'm a very cowardly person, I'm very cowardly, I'm very cowardly, I'm very special looking forward to living, I'm really afraid of death, I'm afraid of death, I even dream of living by myself.

In order to survive, I realized that I really didn't hesitate to run away, it was completely an instinct of mine, because I didn't have the courage until now.

That's right, I don't have the courage to face the serious illness, I don't dare to tell the other party, I have too many words in my heart, I still don't dare to look into Luo Jin's eyes, I am afraid to face my unknown future.

No, no!

I can even predict my future, maybe I really because of a black cell in my head, I may have died in this hospital someday, month, and day.

But.

I look forward to the day when I die, when I can give birth to the tadpole safely, and I can wait quietly in a lonely place like an African elephant, watching the sunset alone.

So I smiled again: "Lu Liuliu, I'll tell you later." ”

"Isn't there something I don't know?" Liuliu looked at me sideways, staring at my eyes in a daze, with a kind of anxiety and a kind of sadness and a kind of sadness.

"Ou Ruoxi, we have always been very good friends, right? So friends should support each other, I don't want to retreat into a corner at this crossroads, I hope you can choose your path, step by step towards the sunny place, I don't want you to lose the best sunshine, you obviously love him very much, he is so, since this is the case, shouldn't we work together?"

I was sad, I was sad, I lowered my head, I hugged my backpack tightly, and tried to restrain this emotion in my heart.

It's been a long, long time.

I raised my head, slowly looked at the sky, and said quietly.

"I'm sorry, I'm really cowardly, we have such an ability, we have such bravery, if you know, I'm really a coward, even if he said those words to me, and then you told me these things, until now, I still don't believe it's real, I feel like I'm in a dream. ”

I quietly elaborated on every word and sentence.