"It's possible that it was the same when we were young, I was very bad at studying, especially mathematics, I couldn't do anything, those engineer teachers said I was stupid, but my sister always encouraged me, saying that I could ask the bird to fly first, so that I could study hard. ”

"Later, I really studied hard, I really worked hard, and in the end I really got 100 points, but when the teacher sent the test paper, he said that I copied the classmates next door to get it, and this score is only known to me, I didn't copy it!"

As I spoke, my tears were falling slowly for some reason, and it was very bitter when they fell into my mouth.

"You know what, but no one wants to believe it, I always say that I copied the answers, until in the end I don't even believe myself, I can really get 100 points on the test, even I doubt myself. ”

"When I was very young, only when we sisters depended on each other, my sister was the best in the world to me. When I was a child, I especially liked the stars in the sky, as long as I saw the stars in the sky, I grinned happily, one night when the clouds were thick, I couldn't see the stars in the sky, I cried, I cried, I said I must smash the stars out, and finally the day after tomorrow was very annoying to me, he directly slapped me, I don't want the stars in the sky anymore. ”

"Then I knew what? My sister whispered to me that there were stars in the sky, that I only went out to play occasionally, that I might not be able to see, but that I was hiding behind the moon, playing hide and seek, and told me that it would be good if I knew that there must be stars in the sky. ”

"At that time, I was very stupid, I was very vague, my sister was really good to me, she would coax me, and let me cry and make a fuss in a willful way, what kind of reason could I get, my sister would do everything to tell me. ”

"But I don't have a sister anymore. ”

"I liked Luo Jin, and I still am, but I don't dare to make such a mistake again. ”

I still look at the sky without blinking, my world has long been blurred, maybe tears have blurred my eyes, but I don't know why, I always have this time too expensive and sad, this is completely different from my personality, the girl who used to be smug and loved to fight, has gradually drifted away.

I sniffed.

"Luo Jin is the 100 points in my mind, the brightest star in my sky, no matter how I cry and make trouble, how I want to fight for it, maybe there really will be, maybe it really is behind the moon, but it will never appear again, because I cry and make many people feel bored, because many people don't believe me, and even hate it even more because of my son, I will give me a slap. ”

"From that time I knew I wasn't the kind of girl that everyone liked, I didn't like everyone, so I always showed myself to be strong and fierce, to disguise my armor. Since I don't like you anyway, I sometimes make people feel really scared, and my sister once told me that the stars in the sky are really hiding there. ”

"But why can't I see that star in the sky all the time? Sometimes I often fantasize about whether he is really hiding hide and seek, or is it really not there? Could it be that he is gone away because it is dawn, or that he does not want to be there because of me. ”

My vision blurred again.

I can't even put into words how sad I am.

Lu Liuliu didn't say anything anymore, he just stretched out his hand and held my right hand tightly, I cried very tired and haggard, I snuggled up to his shoulder, I was really tired, I needed a dependence.

"Lu Liuliu really, I just want to get out of here at this time, I really want to find a strange place, I want to survive in a strange place, I can't support it anymore for so long, I feel that I have been supporting it strongly, but I don't have the strength anymore. Can you let me go?"

Lu Liuliu really wasn't trying to persuade me.

There was a kind of gentle comfort like a sister comforting me and the full moon, like comforting a child crying that I couldn't eat marshmallows.

When I was very young, I really knew and understood very well, because my mother left us very early, I should be more like an adult, I should shoulder some bravery, I should learn to take some responsibility and some courage, to take care of myself.

I also know that I can't be like a wayward child, worrying too much and being sad.

I also know that if I want to leave my sister's umbrella, I must learn to survive independently, face independently, and survive independently.

And no one is allowed to look down on me.

I know this is the biggest expectation in my heart so far.

I know that I already have the cutest tadpole, but I can't be cowardly at this time because of this situation, because the tadpole in my stomach will definitely encourage me.

The gears of fate have been nailed to me without hesitation, and I may really give up on the tadpole before I have a chance to survive.

But I don't want to.

I really don't want to, because this is my child, it is the permission of one of my lives, it is my most beautiful gift, it is the last gift that God has given me.

I don't care what others think, I don't care if others have any pity or any recognition for me, but I have to rely on my own courage to support it.

It's like a lonely traveler, walking on this desert, for a long, long time, very tired, very tired, no one to share the responsibility for me, I can't see the oasis in front of me.

Long ago.

I once read a romance novel, and I don't know which little author wrote a passage on the street, but that sentence is still fresh in my memory.

"In my life, I have always encountered different landscapes, and during this trip, I want to be collected by others, and I don't want others to be like a treasure, to put me in a good place, to let me be free from interruptions, to let me be free. ”

Yes, how I want to have that life, how I want to be free from such confusion, how I want to be free from displacement, I just want to have a dependency to be attached to.

But now I finally understand that I'm a lone ranger, I'm a loner, I'm a one-man show, I've always known.

He will never come again.

This passage was once written on paper by me with a bookmark and placed in my book.

In fact, I don't know, in a certain year, a certain month, a certain summer, I have been remembering this passage, over and over again, just like those fonts engraved on my heart, I know that I will never get it, and deep down in my heart I already know the answer.

This answer has been known for a long time, but it is just a matter of consciously letting go.

This is a single choice, no multiple choice is unique.

I was the one who was deleted.

Later, I don't know what I'm for, everyone thinks I'm suddenly like a crazy person, I locked myself in this house all month long, I studied hard, I buried my head in brushing the questions, I kept studying.

Finally, I was admitted to graduate school.

For outsiders, this is simply a breakthrough, count me hitting shit luck. Even so, the people in the family still didn't have a smile on me, and later I used all my means to marry Luo Jin.

I got my wish.

But I am not the white moonlight in his mind. Alas.

No matter how hard I fight, how much I use the power of the wilderness, all this is a meaningless thing, no matter how I fight and plead, I know that the god of fate will never open a window for me.

All of this.

It's just holding on, and it can't hold on after all.

Lu Liuliu finally spoke.

"Okay, if you go out on vacation to help him get his mood down, this will always be your home. He paused for a moment and then said, "No matter where you are, remember that I will always be your friend, and your family must call me." ”

In this life, I have a good friend like Lu Liuliu, really, I think I am very lucky.

I didn't have time to think too much, I broke up with Liuliu and threw a taxi and went straight to the train station.

Thankfully, I finally booked a car and a ticket, and I'm going to stand on the platform and leave here in an hour, but deep down I was still very nervous and scared, because I didn't know me, and I forgot what I wanted to go to, because I didn't know what to do, and what I was thinking about now, I just got out of here.

I don't even know what to do anymore, I don't even want to let the tadpoles and me face them, and in the face of all this, I want to be an ostrich now.

So I had to run.

But I always knew very well that there was a reason why a small tumor in my mind could kill me anytime and anywhere.

The ancients said very well, the big is hidden in the city, and the small is hidden in the well.

Since this is the case, simply choose a place with a large population flow area and a complex population, I don't believe that they can find me, even if Xue Luchuan has the means to reach the sky, it is impossible to find me so quickly in this population flow metropolis.

Nonsense, I went straight to the bustling city.

I bought the ticket for this sleeper car, so there shouldn't be any big problems, because I bought it an hour ago, so I can only buy the upper berth.

According to my habit before, I could rush up like a monkey, but now I have to worry a lot, because after having a tadpole in my belly, all my actions now will be dominated by him.

I'm a little pessimistic now, I don't dare to have too many mood swings, and I don't dare to move too much, so I'm hesitant for a while, how can I climb up is the best plan.

The middle-aged woman who lived in my bunk looked at me as she stood there, so he came over and asked me.

"What's wrong with this friend, can't the situation go up?"

I was a little shy and said, "Well, no, I just think I'm thinking about how to climb up to the safest, I have a baby in my belly." ”

"Oh my God, you still dare to climb up, this is terrible, if there is any kind of dangerous action, it can't be a joke!" The middle-aged woman looked kind.

"This friend, don't be so stressed, let me tell you, now your belly has not yet appeared, it should be less than the first three months, these three months are the most important, stability is the most important, come and I will change the position with you, you will sleep directly in my position, I climb up, I am simple I have no problem." ”

I was really thick-skinned, and I actually nodded in agreement and thanked her.

"Okay, you guys hurry up and sleep together, it just so happens that the two lower bunks are the mothers of your two pregnant women, and it just so happens that the two of them can discuss with each other and take care of each other, ah!"

The middle woman's movements are very sensitive, and she can climb up at once.

Sleeping across from me was a pregnant woman, who looked like she was about to be cold, with a big belly, and she was lying there looking at me with that very gentle look, and I smiled back with a gentle smile.

I was particularly touched to see the great glow on this mother's face, and I felt really comfortable sitting here, and I felt very warm on this train today.

Because it's an afternoon train, you can get to the terminal tomorrow, and as long as you sleep, everything can start a new world.

The train was pretty good, and the tiredness of the journey made me fall asleep quickly.

Unconsciously, in the middle of the night I heard a murmuring sound, which seemed to be very ugly, haggard, and painful.

I opened my eyes in a daze, and the middle-aged woman who slept on the top bunk was also woken up, and looked down from above to ask me.

"What's wrong? Did something happen to either of you?"

The pregnant woman who slept opposite was very painful, with a frowning face, sweating profusely, and looking strong and airless.

"I don't know why, but I felt very early in my stomach, and it hurt, as if I was about to give birth. ”

I was shocked when I heard this, this thing really seemed like a big thing, I didn't even feel like I was sleeping at all, and I used to see those sports in the media, on some special occasions, to produce such a thing? I never dreamed that I would encounter such a sudden situation.

Really, if this thing really happens, it will make me feel like I am facing a great enemy, and I can't help but gently hold my lower abdomen, and I am comforting the little tadpole in my stomach with a silent sound.

The middle-aged woman immediately flipped off from it, looked at the pregnant woman, and shouted loudly: "Alas, it's too bad, it's a little serious." ”

I stood up all of a sudden, and I said to them anxiously, "Don't worry, I'll call the flight attendant right now." ”

I immediately put on my clothes and went to the rest room to call the attendant, and by the time I called the conductor, the middle-aged woman at this time had already begun to feed the pregnant woman slowly with warm boiled water.

Because the user goes out alone, there are basically no relatives around, and they can only rely on the mutual support of people outside.

At this time, it seemed that he was already sweating profusely, and the person was already very weak to lean directly there, and the whole spirit was extremely haggard, and he couldn't even drink water, because of the pain, his brows were furrowed very tightly, and his hands were tightly dragged as if he was restrained.

The middle-aged woman has also given birth to a child after all, so when she looks at this situation, she frowns a little.

"Now the situation may be a little critical, and now the amniotic water has broken, it should probably be soon, this is about to give birth, what should I do about this matter? Is there a doctor who will deal with it immediately, otherwise it will be too late, and you won't be able to wait until the next stop." ”

The flight attendant was actually very panicked when he saw this situation, maybe this thing may not have happened much in his career, the flight attendant was relatively young and panicked, and directly turned on all the lights in our carriage first.

Then the conductor also came to him.

The conductor was also very anxious: "This situation is a bit critical, we are not allowed to stop in the middle of the express car, if the temporary dispatch needs to be applied for 5 hours in advance, it is too late to apply at this time now, if it is temporarily stopped, it will be rushed by the car behind at high speed and cause a car accident, which is not allowed." ”

This is actually understandable, after all, this high-speed express train is not a small car that stops when it says it stops.

Now immediately go to the radio, find the doctor of the train to come, everyone was also woken up by such an action, and experienced people rushed over one after another, to provide some experience, are very enthusiastic, and even some people also provided some blankets for preparing to have children, and even prepared some things wrapped by children.

Through the radio, we were able to find possible doctors during the journey, and the doctors on the train cooperated strongly.

The radio was broadcast several times but no one came, so it seems that the luck is not very good, and it is possible that the right doctor was not found.

After about 10 minutes, there was one, and then we all breathed a sigh of relief because we were doctors, but I didn't expect the other party to say a little shyly.

"I'm sorry, I'm not a full-time hospital doctor, I'm a veterinarian in a pet hospital, and I've also delivered puppies and kittens. ”

The conductor was so anxious that his eyes widened.

The man said: "I have opened a pet shop myself, and I also specialize in helping customers deliver pets, and I have received a lot of them, and I should have never missed, but I have never given people, and I am not sure if I can do it, I can just give some advice." ”

I didn't think that the owner of this pet shop, if he could really deliver people, would this be considered a medical miracle?

But I always feel that something is wrong, after all, it is a pet person who should appear more scientific and rigorous, I frowned very tightly, I think it is a little too hasty to do this?

But so far, there really hasn't been a suitable doctor, so his appearance is tantamount to a send-off.

"There's no way, now the time can't be delayed, we don't have a suitable doctor now, so since we can see the pet, it will have a certain same principle, I think we are all animals in nature, anyway, we all belong to the same kind, should have the same root." ”

I watched the conductor say these things in a bit of a panic, and I even admired his wonder.