I pondered the meaning of her words, and I immediately invited her to sit in the car.

"If you don't mind, let's go to the village and sit for a while, turn on the heating and air conditioning to make yourself relaxed, and let Luo Jin help you with the above things first." ”

The two of us sat in this car together, closed the car, in this narrow space, only the two of us The world is static, but in this car there is still a very strong taste of Luo Jin, which is a unique temperament and a unique charm of Luo Jin.

I was very uneasy in my hand, holding this set of keys here, I directly felt that I didn't know what to do, because I felt as if I was a voyeur, after all, I was a knife wielder, and for this original wife, how did I feel that I was a little lacking in confidence, or I always maintained a sense of distance from this feeling.

Ding Rose seemed to be thinking about how to answer the question, and we both were silent for a moment, and she would say it later.

"Actually, this time I might have gone directly to South Korea, I plan to settle abroad, and I may not have much time to come back here, so I think I have to say goodbye to a lot of things, and I want to do something to make a summary. ”

Ding Qiang Rose gently stroked the stool on the driver's seat, as if she was caressing Luo Jin, as if she was looking for the taste of the past.

Then she whispered a word.

"I'm thinking maybe I don't have a lot of opportunities and time to come here in the future, the two of us shouldn't know each other for a lot of time, and we've only met three times, but I'm really glad to know you, and of course I hope you can be happy, of course I hope you are in a happy state with each other, I don't want everyone to trouble me in this matter, and of course I don't want me to be a problem for others. ”

"I wish you happiness too. ”

Ding Qiang Rose smiled: "I'm sorry, if my appearance makes you feel a little troubled, I really think, uh, I don't know how to explain it to you, but I also understand that sometimes every woman is very sensitive, and there will be some very sad things that happened in the past, which is very normal, but I used to have a very obvious sensitivity to my ex-husband's ex-girlfriend, and even with a sense of distance." Then I figured it out, and I was at ease. ”

"Miss Ding, I didn't mean that, I just felt that I was insensitive to your past, but I didn't say that it would definitely affect me, I just cared a lot about who Luo Jin's feelings would love more?"

I don't know why I blurted it out, I said this matter directly, because this topic also caused a lot of confusion to me, and I also wanted to know who Luo Jin really loved, I didn't have any enemies against her, I just felt that if this love was enough, I could continue, but if this love was too costly, I had to stop it immediately.

But Ding Rose didn't seem to answer my question.

She just kept saying the words.

"When Luo Jin and I went abroad together, do you remember the last time? There was a time when I finally found one abroad, fortunately the place at that time was very poor and remote, very poor and backward, basically the coverage rate of those signals is very low, very often only halfway through, there is no signal on the phone, that day I saw him call you, it happened that the signal suddenly stopped, I saw him very anxious, said that I have never seen him like that for so many years, at that time I was thinking, if it was what kind of girl made her so intersecting, and then I saw that Luo Jin should have loved this woman very much, and there should be no way to hide it once, I can see these actions clearly, he loves you!"

I don't quite understand what this Ding Rose is trying to say, is this what it means to love me? I think this thing is a little reluctant to say, I'm just a girlfriend of his, but to say this kind of care can say a word of love, I at least don't think that such a passion is great, I can't compare to their 5 years of such a youth.

The cither's Rose was touching herself directly, and the ring in the second position we were only on, swirling there as if with a very faint, meaningful feeling.

"In fact, if you really are on this wallpaper, if you meet someone you like very much, it feels very difficult and difficult, these things have to depend on fate. If you don't love someone to the point of unforgettable love, you won't know the power of this love at all, and this Luo Jin is really a particularly good man, I believe that he will treat you as a very precious treasure, you should have enough confidence in him, you should believe in your own charm, you completely love each other, but sometimes because of some flaws may be a little sensitive. ”

I hummed for a moment, and I remained silent all the time, because I always felt that this topic was too long, and my mind was very confused now, and I couldn't sort it out now.

She let out a long sigh.

"I'm sorry, actually, I told Luo Jin, I came down to breathe fresh air, I hope you don't think that a situation like mine will make you feel a little first or a little inexplicable, and do you know? ”

When this Ding Rose said this, she gave me an encouraging smile and opened the car to prepare to leave.

I watched her leave, and I blurted out a question to her.

"Let me ask my sister, can you tell me why you want to cherish this one thing, so why did you abandon Luo Jin in the first place? Why do you have to cut off this relationship, you must go to South Korea, why do you want to marry another man, don't you cherish this vigorous relationship of your five years?"

For this feeling, for this problem, I especially want to know, because I don't know this problem, I will toss and turn, I will not be able to sleep, this is the reason why I want to know things very much, because I don't have a confidence in this relationship at all, and that's why, if I can't find the root cause of this design, I'll always be cranky, so I will say whatever I think.

When Leng hung out of this crack in the door, I saw that Ding Qiang's face was flushed, and I even regretted saying those words a little, did my words hurt her feelings.

Ding Qiangrose sighed, closed the door directly, and sat back on the car, she looked with a very calm temperament, without any meaning, and her attitude fluctuated.

She said: "Yes, in fact, for this matter, I have asked myself countless times, why did I leave directly under such a vigorous relationship, why did I have to leave at that time?"

Her description is very calm, and she no longer chooses a very difficult choice, and I see that her gaze seems to be immersed in a very past event, with a very deep and uncomfortable thought.

"You know what? Later, I really asked this question, and after asking for a long, long time, I finally understood why I suddenly gave up Luo Jin at that time, in fact, many things come down to the reason from myself, I think Luo Jin is really good, I am a balanced girl, I don't think I am worthy of Luo Jin, I think my existence will make Luo Jin what is not good enough, especially when the people in the family have too much pressure on me, I really feel that I am not good enough, I am always looking at myself, and then I understand that I really feel that I am quite inferior。 “

"Actually, you are also a very good girl, how can you be inferior?"

Ding Rose smiled.

"Actually, I really don't want to hide it from you, I was really inferior at the time, you know? The conditions in our family are very poor, I was born in a poor ravine, and because of the one in the family, my diet is very abnormal, and I am very thin, and very short and dark, you know? My only biggest hobby, I like to paint, and there are other things that I can't do at all, and even my studies I can't prove my loss. I grew up like a very ordinary Cinderella, I was used to such an ordinary life, I like such a simple life, I am used to my future life is 9 to 5. ”

"Later, I really felt that I should be an ordinary life, I should find a man who was equal to me, in the future, we can have an ordinary child after we live an ordinary life, we can live a simple life, in this way, this is a very satisfying thing for me, I really don't think there is any accident in this kind of life, so I never dare to do the dream of those domineering presidents and princesses, I don't dare to think about it in my heart. ”

"But Luo Jin was really good to me, I don't know what he loves about me, I only know that maybe it's my ordinary, maybe it's some kind of trait in me, maybe it's that he has eaten all the delicacies of the mountains and seas, and suddenly has an interest in my kind of grass, so I'm suddenly scared, I will really let it lose a feeling one day, and then I will change dramatically in my life, I can predict this, I'm afraid of this. ”

"Think about what kind of person Luo Jin is, he is a famous college graduate, and he is a student committee of the school, the most important thing is that he is still the son of a high-ranking cadre who came back from the school of studying abroad, and the family is such a rich consortium, and he is so handsome, and he also thinks that such a person is completely the kind of domineering president in the novel, but his personality is very good, and he is very romantic, such a man is something that no woman can refuse, of course, I can't refuse me, I completely think I'm dreaming。 ”

"Later, he did a doctoral study, then I continued to work, I did everything, I was willing to do anything for Luo Jin to make money, I had to do the lowest activities, for example, I could be a salesperson, I could be a Meituan takeaway, I could even distribute leaflets on the street, I wanted to do these things, it was really simple at that time, what kind of big dream do you have, I just want to stay with him every day, I look forward to him graduating from school early every day, I make a lot of delicious things for him every day, I even think that we can get married as soon as we graduate, we can have these childrenI think this is the best experience of my life and I feel like I've had enough of life. ”

"Later I realized then that I was missing out on something precious, but I didn't know how I was going to grasp these happinesss?"

"Because I'm so young, I don't believe that these are a story of a prince or a princess at all, and then I became more and more worried, I became more and more afraid, and I became more and more afraid that I didn't know how to deal with these things, although I didn't dare to say, I really didn't dare to cause any psychological pressure on Luo Jin, I just silently endured it, and when I was under pressure on myself day by day, I always felt that I would inadvertently use a balloon one day, and it would explode if it was slammed."

"Maybe you heard later, in fact, I didn't expect this Luo Jin's family to be especially against our affairs at first, but you should know that Luo Jin was really cut off from the family for my business at that time, for a few years, at the time of the full strategy, we really didn't ask the family to take a penny, and Luo Jin suffered a lot for a stable life for me, while completing my studies, I started to work at night, sang in the bar, and even sometimes went to carry this mineral water when I was in a hurry, and even went to the first pier at night to carry those supplies。 ”

"I know all this is the reason why I am because we have a good background, we have a right door, when the door is talking nonsense, I have caused pressure on adults, I really feel sad about him, the more I feel sad, the more I feel myself, the more I feel powerless, I feel very self-reproachful, I even slowly began to doubt myself, I feel that the two of us together should be able to help each other, we should be happy and equal, but we are full of respect in life a kind of tribulation。 ”

"I am very sad, because of the voice of the education I received, it is rare for me to seek a happy career, at this time the whole pressure is easily transferred to Luo Jin, so that he has suffered a lot, suffered a lot, and even gave up a lot of ideals. I know that Luo Jin has always loved the people in his family, everyone is happy, but there are several times every year when he doesn't go home, in fact, I know in my heart that Luo Jin is actually very bitter whenever he celebrates the New Year."

"Uh, such a situation makes my pain and self-blame even worse, I feel that this strong inferiority complex has been tormenting me deeply, I have been with Luo Jin for more and more time, I feel that I will cause trouble to him in this regard, it will get bigger and bigger, I am really, really uncomfortable, I can't even find an excuse, I can't even find a way to solve this matter, I love him, I really love him, but I don't want to be like that. ”

"I remember once I went to a reunion with Luo Jin, I saw that his classmates were very, in this society, Sister Ge was very high-spirited, in fact, when it was for Luo Jin, in fact, it just needed a chance, Luo Jin could give it a go, he could show his strength, but it was because of my things that affected him, I had no way to think about it, when the water was there, I always felt my humble existence, how much I loved him, how shocked I was powerless。 ”

This kind of emotion makes me feel a sense of melancholy in my heart, I actually began to be depressed, I really never told them this, I even sometimes secretly look at Luo Jin's mobile phone, I even think that he will contact others, I even think that Luo Jin will definitely regret it, my sister Sometimes when I see myself through the mirror, I really feel that I am really a very humble woman, why did I hurt such a good person After I began to be suspicious, I began to suspect that I began to make a big noise for no reason, sometimes even when Luo Jin was very busy with work, I kept crying at home, I don't know why I keep crying, I'm sick in my heart, I know that when he comes back, I'm loyal to a very happy, very happy look, and this contradiction in my heart has been haunting me!"

Ding Qiangrose sighed, as if she was expounding the past, every sentence and every sentence was elaborated, with a very strong emotion expressed, I could see that her mood was so sad and angry, so happy, and so confused.

Ding Rose said softly.

"In fact, it is very easy for people who really love each other, to hurt each other's feelings in this kind of torture of each other, some people say that the poor life is easier for a couple to see each other, and the spirit is very firm, I know that Luo Jin has paid a lot of things for me, I know that my departure at this time must be very hateful, I can't even forgive myself, but I think I shouldn't restrain him anymore, it's time to let go. ”

"So, it was at this time that I met my husband and I felt that it was a relief for me. ”