Chapter 215: Grace of self-esteem
The two of them sat as if they hadn't spoken much for a long time, and they had a tacit understanding with each other about what had happened in the past, and neither of them said a word.
It seems to be silently experiencing the beating of each other's sincere feelings. Maybe silence is better than sound at this time.
Maybe there are not too many words to enrich each other's inner world, and maybe there is no need for you to use this too many words and complicated language to explain many things.
Sometimes too much language seems more unfamiliar.
"Ou Ruoxi, I don't have anything else, you know, I also develop in the entertainment industry, I have seen a lot of some things, and there are a lot of things with this unspoken rule, so I don't pay special attention to it, or track you, I don't have any intention and such thoughts at all, but I know some things or I feel that I just want to give you some advice on this matter......"
Ou Ruoxi asked him if he really didn't want anything too much about this matter, a possible accident, and of course he didn't want any kind of possibility to appear in this matter.
Because he didn't know what this matter would be like, he didn't want this man to restrain and govern himself in this matter at all, he wanted the two of them to understand it in a clear and indifferent way.
Or cooperate in a very simple way, or be able to go back to the old time, it also depends on fate, if you really can't go back, then you don't need to grow under his protection forever.
And after this half a year, this thing has grown up completely according to my own ideas, is there anything else that can help me?
Can't this be the only thing in the world that depends on oneself, and after so many years of all these troubles and disturbances, isn't it true that the complexity and complexity will continue in this way?
Is there still too much of this to give yourself more shelter in the process?
No, no, really no, so the words are still on their own.
Ou Ruoxi used a kind of carelessness or a very ladylike language.
"Thank you for taking me in, I can only thank you for this, but there are some things I know how I should know this scale and grasp, so I hope you don't get too involved in my business, and it may not be particularly good for you and me, and you also know what kind of role you play in this, which may cause others to have too many misunderstandings, which is not good......"
Fei Yan was really a little angry after hearing this, he felt angry, and he really didn't know why this woman thought like this.
Is it true that you are afraid that you will be involved in it, or that you will be in trouble?
How could he use this way to get more understanding for himself, and in this matter, he should have helped him more.
Care about him, take care of him, how can he have such an accident, or if he appears like this, he may worry that he will have more of an impact on him in this matter.
I don't care at all.
But sometimes a woman really doesn't know what to think, and is very worried and afraid that this kind of thing will happen, what is there to be afraid of, what is there to worry about?
Fei Yan controlled his emotions, suppressed his mood, and said lightly.
"Ou Ruoxi: For this matter, I really don't have any influence, and I don't think there is any kind of possibility caused by this, any misunderstanding, mutual help between friends, shouldn't it be just like this?
Ou Ruoxi was really a little annoyed, he just hurriedly said a word.
"Don't you think that if this thing is really photographed by the paparazzi, you also know what this means, and it will not cause you a lot of trouble, you also know that the identities of the two of us are completely mismatched, and if these paparazzi hype up this matter to you, it may have a great impact on your character or your image, and if you choose to come to this restaurant to meet me in such a high-profile manner, and come here to see me in a café, don't you think this kind of thing may have a big impact on you, and others think that I am hyping this matterWhen the time comes, do you think this aspect will seem like a loss for you, or for me? ”
Fei Yan really smiled and didn't answer, he didn't know why he suddenly remembered so many things about this matter, and he asked him to come to this café to drink coffee.
How can you be so repeated, how can you be so worried, when did you become so cautious, when did you worry about the loss of your appearance in this image.
Is this traffic really important to you?
It really doesn't matter at all, and this entered this entertainment industry because of what, didn't you know what it was for?
So of course he wouldn't say this thing to Ye Shan so clearly, so clearly, maybe this kind of thing doesn't need to be said so clearly, it's good that he knows this thing.
Why bother to say it so clearly, when this thing has happened in the past, including a more expectation of the present and the future, there are some things that you really don't need to say so clearly.
The so-called clear water is no fish.
Fei Yan looked at Ou Ruoxi deeply and said it in a language that left no trace.
"Do you think this matter is important to me? I don't care at all, I just care now that we are drinking a warm cup of coffee at this moment, sitting with each other at this moment, this is the most important thing, in fact, his affairs are really not important to me, and there is no meaning to any of them, nothing that means anything to me, I hope you will not reject me thousands of miles away. ”
Ou Ruoxi blushed unconsciously, he didn't know why Fei Yan was doing what he was doing today, what I said was so bold, and it was completely different from his own.
He was not fully prepared for this acceptance at all, and he felt that there was a gap of one and a half between them.
There are many things that are not quite the same, but when this kind of thing comes out.
In what capacity he said this, and in what capacity she was going to accept it, this thing seemed very embarrassing.
Ou Ruoxi was a little incoherent, a little afraid to face herself, she was really scared, and she was facing her true thoughts.
Sometimes he really doesn't know how to deal with it.
Maybe it's fear, maybe it's worry, some it's fear, some it's because it's really unpredictable or something about the future, and there's more expectation, and it's afraid that these things are real and cruel.
So under the impact of a variety of emotional complex feelings, he blurted out a decision that even he thought was incredible.
"Fei Yan, but I really thank you for your coffee, maybe you don't care, but I think I care a lot, I, I don't want others to point fingers behind my back, if you have a lot of things, I think we have enough time to catch up as friends today, thank you for your coffee, I have to leave now, we still have to remember to start work today......"
Ou Ruoxi felt a little rushed to escape, as if she couldn't really face the panic in her inner world, which was coming like a storm.
He was really scared in the process, he was scared of becoming scarred again, afraid that this kind of thing would make him unable to face it again, if he really accepted the pain of this scarred wound tearing again.
Maybe you really can't choose to say these words in the past.
He hurriedly stood up, picked up the phone on the table, and was about to leave in a hurry.
Fei Yan didn't seem to make any moves, he just made an inviting gesture, and even he couldn't wait to stand up and make a hand and a pulling gesture to Ou Ruoxi.
It was very careless, but it seemed so deliberate.
"Ou Ruoxi, don't refuse, don't let me go, okay? Let's have another cup of coffee today, I want to see you, I really want to see you, if you feel that I am very sad at this time, anyway, there is not much about the whole thing today, we just chat, I just said those words really unintentionally to offend you, I really just feel that I want to know more about your life, maybe I want to participate in your life, I know that this matter may be too much to make any explanation to you, but if you encounter any difficulties in this matter, or encounter any trouble, I may be able to help you, I hope I can do this, can try to be a friend......”
Ou Ruoxi didn't know why at this time, he was annoyed by someone in his heart, or there was some kind of mental activity that was not alarmed, maybe this is really in front of this person, and he will always play a woman who can bear no one who can bear any wind and rain, right?
They're all equal, they're equal, aren't they? And for so many years to come.
Do you have to accept any of his help again and again? I and him should be completely independent of each other.
You can bear these things yourself, why not face and understand yourself in the same equal way.
Why do you have to use this way, you need to write yourself in the process of writing yourself again and again.
I don't want to deal with this kind of passivity.
Ou Ruoxi looked at the willows in a very calm and very peaceful tone, and his tone was really serious and sincere, and there was no excessive emotional fluctuation, it was completely like treating a thing correctly.
"As you know, as you can see, I've not had a good time over the years, I've not had a good time, you can laugh at me now, right? I entered the entertainment industry half a year ago without hesitation, I used to think that I myself was likely to be able to do some things in this circle, and I could precipitate my own things in a bare light, but what you see now I have not succeeded, I am still a trick, and even a passer-by Such a role, do you think such a thing should be worthy of your pity, should it not be your sympathy, should you be able to stretch out your noble hand to help me or pull me to make me a heroine of some kind?”
"I'm sorry, Fei Yan, I can really tell you very seriously, I chose this path at the beginning because of the plan I chose, I already thought very clearly at the time, I am completely different from you, I don't like to be attached to other people's hearts, and I don't want to be attached to you like a silk flower to grow, and you can't help me anything, you can't help me anything"
"So, Fei Yan, let's give up, the past is the same as the good old times in this year, maybe for each other, there can be a nostalgia, this feeling is not better, forget each other in the rivers and lakes, maybe the two of us are really impossible to be together, and we have such a background and personality in all aspects, even the career we are engaged in is inappropriate, I will tell you again word for word today, the two of us are really not suitable, the two of us are people from different worlds, I hope you don't disturb my life anymore, and I won't participate in any part of your lifeWe're just with the same stranger, okay?"
Ou Ruoxi used a very calm tone to explain her inner world to Fei Yan.
He has already spoken his truest thoughts.
Of course, there are a lot of polite emotions in this, maybe this kind of thing should not be revealed, and it should not be shown so simply.
And you're maintaining your poor self-esteem, and you're just a little bit of your own self-esteem, and that's all you can do.
Ou Ruoxi controlled a trace of tears in his heart, he didn't know how to explain this kind of thing, but when this sentence crackled and poured out.
Maybe you will regret it, maybe you will regret it?
I don't know, maybe I will know in the future, but why when this sentence is said, there is some kind of pain in my heart that is easy to perceive, or there is an indescribable feeling of loss......
Fei Yan frowned tightly, he looked at Ou Ruoxi like this, and he shouldn't say anything about Ou Ruoxi's current mood fluctuations.
He knew that both sides needed to calm down, because after all, after 8 years, this 8-year horizontal ditch is not to be solved simply little by little.
And 8 years ago they themselves were a very unpleasant beginning, what they experienced in their youth.
Looking back on it now after maturity, the naivety of the year may have been a kind of naivety, but it has not been opened in the past 8 years.
Eight years later, when it was suddenly opened, the wound was still bloody......
Fei Yan took a deep breath and looked at Ou Ruoxi with a very firm gaze, in that firm gaze, with a kind of persistence, a kind of tenacity and a kind of uncompromise.
"I know you won't believe anything I say or do today, maybe I don't know what kind of thing will happen, but I tell you that I won't give up, I won't give up, then you have to tell me to break up this time what you have to say to me anything, I didn't say to break up 8 years ago, I won't say break up today, in fact, we never broke up, we just separated temporarily, separated for a while, but it doesn't mean anything, this is you saying you don't like me, you don't love me anymore, you can let go of you can be relieved, but why did you still answer my callWhy do you want to come here with me for coffee? Don't you know that this café is our favorite place to come to death? Don't you know what this old time means to us? I don't know what kind of hardships you have, I don't know what kind of thoughts you have, after so many years, I just don't want you to go back and bear it yourself, you don't want to tell me just forget it, I really don't think there is anything about this you are, but please give me a chance to protect you, okay?"
Fei Yan looked at Ou Ruoxi with this kind of affectionate and hard method, he didn't know why so many years had passed.
He really used a very peaceful attitude to face the feelings and feelings between the two parties.
He didn't want to miss the past again, so he said firmly again.
"So Ou Ruoxi, let me tell you, I didn't say that we broke up 8 years ago, I won't say this today, and I won't say this in the future......"
When this sentence was finished, the shock of that painting was like a 10-level tsunami in Ou Ruoxi.
Ou Ruoxi never expected that Four, Five, Six would tell him this kind of thing in this way, he never knew about this kind of thing!
He didn't know what it would mean to say it, but could he not be moved in his heart after hearing these words?
That's not moving, that's fake, his mood is really a huge wave now!
Ou Ruoxi looked at the man in front of him, he really didn't know whether he should refuse or not, there was a devil and an angel in his head who were constantly fighting with each other.
Or rather, it was his poor self-esteem and a proud self-esteem that were replacing each other.
At this time, Fei Yan stretched out his hand and gently took Ou Ruoxi's hand.
"Do you remember when we used to go for a walk by the river? The place where we walked has changed a lot, and the new river house is set up, and there are a lot of our stones in that river house, do you remember that we have our names engraved on it? Maybe there is still a place on it that you want to see with us......
Ou Ruoxi's heart softened and he didn't feel free and autonomous, he gently held his hand, his heart moved, maybe to see what had happened, maybe to see the name carved by a boy and girl when he was young, is it still safe?
Go, go, what's the big deal?
What's there to be afraid of, when this kind of feeling comes, maybe it's just an explanation for yourself, right?