Chapter 30: Unsatisfactory
In the following days, everything was normal, and after returning to being single, he was really comfortable at first. Watch TV if you want, go out and indulge if you want, do whatever you want, no one cares about him. I don't have to spend time with my children anymore, and I have a lot of time for myself.
But after a week of such days, they are boring. A month later, he found that he had no home, his heart was always empty, and he was like duckweed, without roots. He suddenly missed the past, missing the days when Huan Shaojun and Dudu were together, but he couldn't go back.
Fortunately, there is Tianshu who knows that Lu Xifei is a single man who doesn't know how to take care of himself, so he often comes over to accompany him on weekends. Lu Xifei also knew Tianshu's intentions, but he had just divorced, and he was not in the mood to think about these children's affections.
However, he was also a little reluctant in his heart, and said: "Every time I come over, you are busy helping me clean up, cooking for me, and washing clothes for me, I am embarrassed." ”
Tianshu said: "It's nothing, I don't have anything to do at home, and it's more fulfilling to come and accompany you." ”
She seemed to regard herself as Lu Xifei's girlfriend, and Lu Xifei was helpless, so she went with her.
After the divorce, Huan Shaojun languished for a while and began to recover gradually. She fits, studies, and makes herself full. She worked harder and her work performance got better and better. But deep down in her heart, there has always been a deep sense of inferiority, she is inferior to herself as a divorced woman, an abandoned woman. She has to make herself stronger and more confident in order to face the future strongly.
Yu Dongming's appointment with Huan Shaojun is getting higher and higher. Of course, she understood his mind and deliberately avoided him. He is a married person, and he has been harmed by Xiao San, how can he harm others? She doesn't want to misunderstand others and cause the same harm.
Huan Shaojun had no other thoughts about Yu Dongming at all, and was already disappointed in marriage. Thinking that the relationship between himself and Lu Xifei was so good, the two finally divorced. Is it certain that she will be happy if she remarries? She no longer believes in marriage and does not want to marry again. Besides, men are all big pigs' trotters, and even Lu Xifei can cheat on such an honest person, not to mention Yu Dongming, who has a successful career.
Yu Dongming realized Huan Shaojun's intentional estrangement, and he also understood Huan Shaojun's scruples, but he didn't want to give up.
On this day, Yu Dongming called Huan Shaojun again, and she excused herself to say that she couldn't go to the appointment because of something. Yu Dongming said angrily that if he didn't come this time, he wouldn't see him in the future. Under pressure, Huan Shaojun didn't want to lose this friend, so he agreed to go to the appointment.
Yu Dongming was very happy to see that Huan Shaojun finally agreed to the appointment. On this day, he specially booked a high-end restaurant, the restaurant is on the edge of the Bund, and you can see the scenery of the Bund outside the window, and the neon lights flickering outside the window, constantly teasing the hearts of men and women in Sex and the City.
Huan Shaojun went to the appointment as scheduled, Yu Dongming opened the chair for her very gentlemanly, and after she sat down, the dinner officially began.
Yu Dongming said: "I am very happy that you can come today. I've known that you've been deliberately distancing yourself from me lately. I understand your feelings, and I will give you some time, but please don't ignore me, I will be sad. ”
Huan Shaojun didn't expect Yu Dongming to tell himself his inner feelings as soon as he came up, and she could feel his sincerity. But in the current situation, she really can't face the enthusiastic Yu Dongming.
"I'm sorry, but you also know that I just got divorced, so I'm not in the mood to think about it. ”
"I know, I know everything about you. You don't have to be mentally burdened. We still interact as before, don't worry, I'm a very measured person, and I won't let you feel pressured. ”
"Well, I know that Brother Yu is good to me, and I am very grateful to Brother Yu for taking care of me all the time. ”
"My family doesn't say kind words. Today I just want to tell you two things. The first thing was that I got divorced. My marriage to her is in name only, and I have long wanted to take a step forward, and your divorce has given me some inspiration. You can't hurt others and hurt yourself for the sake of your children. Make your own decisions about your own life, otherwise you will be irresponsible to your children, irresponsible to her, and even more irresponsible to yourself. So, I opened up with her and had a good talk, and finally reached an agreement to divorce. ”
Hearing Yu Dongming tell him the fact that he was divorced, his thoughts and motives became more and more obvious, and Sima Zhao's heart was known to everyone. Huan Shaojun was suddenly a little nervous, he was married before, and he had reason to keep his distance from him, but after the divorce, how could he refuse?
"Also, I have good news for you, I was successfully elected as the dean under the recommendation of the former dean. ”
"Congratulations to Dean Yu!" Huan Shaojun was also happy for him.
"Shouldn't you give me a celebration?" said Yu Dongming with a smile.
"Well, it should be. Celebrate with some red wine. I'll please, I said yes last time. ”
"No, I arranged it this time, I'm the host, so I'm here to invite. You can't dominate the crowd. Next time you arrange it, you please. ”
Huan Shaojun saw that he couldn't talk about him, so he could only say, "Okay, you invite me this time, and I'll come next time." ”
Yu Dongming asked people to open a bottle of red wine, and the two of them tasted the red wine, looking at the beautiful scenery outside the window, and they were in a good mood.
"By the way, the hospital has not held a bidding meeting and a pharmaceutical meeting before, so your periosteal product has not yet entered the hospital. Now that I'm the dean, I'm going to put this matter in order, and I'm going to hold a meeting in the near future. There is no problem with your product. I'll talk to the experts then. ”
When it comes to periosteal products coming into the hospital, she is not as excited as she used to be. At that time, he tried every possible way to bring the product into the hospital, just to make more money and reduce Lu Xifei's burden. But now that he is not around, even if the product goes in, who can be happy for her? Thinking of this, she is a little sad.
"Thank you. Don't be too embarrassed. Huan Shaojun said.
"Well, I will definitely do what I promised you!" Yu Dongming said firmly.
The two later chatted about some family matters. Yu Dongming asked her, "Did you have any contact with Lu Xifei later?"
Huan Shaojun told him that Lu Xifei would occasionally come over to see the child, and he heard that he was with Tianshu.
Speaking of Tianshu, Yu Dongming told Huan Shaojun some information. He said that the last time he had a dinner, he found that the two of them were wrong and had an ambiguous relationship, and it was obvious from Tianshu's eyes that she seemed to like Lu Xifei very much. At that time, he was not familiar with Huan Shaojun, so he didn't remind her. Later, when I wanted to tell her, I saw that she was not in a good state, and I didn't dare to mention it.
Yu Dongming said, it's all your fault, you should have reminded you to pay attention to Tianshu a long time ago.
Hearing this, Huan Shaojun's mood was even lower, it turned out that the two of them had already had a leg, if they had found out earlier, maybe the current situation would not have occurred. But now that the two have divorced, what's the point of talking about it?
Due to her poor mood, she unconsciously drank a lot again, and after a while, she became a little drunk. Yu Dongming saw that Huan Shaojun was drunk, so he said to take her to the hotel to rest. Although Huan Shaojun was a little drunk, she was not confused, she knew Yu Dongming's thoughts, so she said that there was no need to bother, she could go home, Dudu was still waiting for her, otherwise there would be trouble again in the middle of the night.
Yu Dongming knew that Huan Shaojun was not ready, so he had to give up. I helped her call a substitute driver to take her home.
Zhao Rulan, who was rated as a Confucian and Mencian scholar, was proud of the spring breeze, and there were flowers and applause everywhere. The title of "Confucius and Mencius Scholar" is too dazzling, people everywhere invite her to give lectures, and there are many major review projects that invite her to be a judge, she was not qualified to participate in the past, and now the units that invite her abound. She felt a sense of accomplishment that she had never felt before.
If you stay on the same platform, you will never know what the scenery above is like, let alone how beautiful the scenery above is.
When people are proud, they are easy to get carried away. Zhao Rulan's temper is getting bigger and bigger, and no one pays attention to it, and there are often chickens and dogs in the office. She scolds people whenever things don't go her way, and her colleagues are especially afraid to report to her. Not only in the institute, but also in some major review meetings, she feels that she is an authority and does not allow others to hold opposing opinions. Everyone has a lot of opinions about her, but they are helpless, who calls people "Confucius and Mencius scholars", this signboard is placed there, and the words are weighty.
Recently, the school organized an associate professor review. This year, only Lu Xifei and Jia Yizhen are eligible to participate in the evaluation. Lu Xifei felt that he had a chance to win. First, his working years are longer than Jia Yizhen's, he has worked for 7 years, while Jia Yizhen has only worked for 2 years. The reason why Jia Yizhen was able to participate in the evaluation after working for a short time was that he graduated from a doctoral degree and could participate in the evaluation after working for 2 years. Lu Xifei is a master's degree graduate and must be lectured for 5 years before he can participate in the evaluation. Therefore, the time for the two to participate in the evaluation is the same. Second, he felt that he had made a great contribution to Zhao Rulan's successful election as a "Confucius and Mencius Scholar", and she had promised to help him become an associate professor. Based on the above two reasons, Lu Xifei is still very confident in the selection of associate professors.
Lu Xifei actually didn't want to compete with Jia Yizhen, since the wedding farce, Lu Xifei still felt a little guilty about Jia Yizhen. But fate is always so coincidental, and the reality is even more cruel, since God has to compete with the two on the same stage, they can only obey their fate.
Lu Xifei and Jia Yizhen both said on the surface that it didn't matter, and promised that no matter who was rated as an associate professor, it would not affect the friendship between the two. But they all knew in their hearts that both of them were secretly competing.
Here I have to say that there is an indisputable fact in the institute. At present, the number of places above the deputy high school level in the institute is close to full, and there is only one place left. Each unit has a proportion limit on high, medium and low professional titles, and after the proportion is exceeded, it will not be evaluated, unless one place is withdrawn and another place is entered. That is to say, after the end of this year's evaluation, the deputy senior will be full, and in the future, they can only wait for the vacancies of other professors to retire. The deputy high school in the institute is relatively young, and it is estimated that the next time they will participate in the evaluation is far away. So both of them were extremely nervous and didn't want to miss this opportunity.
Lu Xifei went to find Zhao Rulan, relying on his own merit to Zhao Rulan, so he asked her openly and honestly, hoping that Zhao Rulan could help him be rated as an associate professor this time. But with Zhao Rulan's current status, how could she listen to the people below pointing fingers, her attitude and tone towards Lu Xifei were very uncomfortable. She felt that since Lu Xifei helped her to be rated as a "Confucius and Mencian Scholar", Lu Xifei's whole person had changed and became arrogant and conceited. Some colleagues also reported to her that Lu Xifei has been late for work and left early from time to time recently, and his work attitude is also very poor. Zhao Rulan turned a blind eye to his previous contributions.
Therefore, this time she promised to help on the surface, but she had other ideas in her heart.
The title review was held as scheduled. As a result, Jia Yizhen was successfully rated as an associate professor, and Lu Xifei was unsuccessful.
Lu Xifei couldn't figure out why he was eliminated, so he was very angry and went directly to Zhao Rulan for a theory.
"Director, why is it Jia Yizhen who is on the evaluation this time, not me. Didn't you promise to help me get an associate professor?"
Zhao Rulan is such a smart person, she has already prepared in her heart. She said that the evaluation of professional titles is not something that a certain expert can control, but has to go through more than a dozen expert reviews, and although she is a "Confucian and Mencian scholar", she cannot completely control the results of the review.
Lu Xifei thought in his heart that she was quibbling. Can he not understand? As long as she, Zhao Rulan, is willing to say hello, can those experts not give her face? She is a "Confucian and Mencian scholar," and wherever she serves as a review expert, she is the chairman of the judges, and she has a decisive vote, so others will not give her face. It must have been that she didn't say hello to the reviewers.
Zhao Rulan also said: "Judging from the results of the two of you, Jia Yizhen is better than you. He has published several SCI papers, one of which was co-authored in
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e", very high quality. In addition, he has received an achievement award and has presented at international conferences. Your results are slightly weaker than his. ”
These are all facts, but he feels that the gap between himself and Jia Yizhen is not as obvious as the gap she said. He felt that he had also published a lot of papers and books, and in terms of quantity, he was clearly more advantageous. The two obviously have their own strengths and weaknesses, and they are equal.
"In addition, you also know that Jia Yizhen's wedding was canceled, the fund-raising house was not obtained, and his work status has been very poor recently. This time he was able to be rated as an associate professor, which was also a comfort to him. I heard that you have a good relationship, so I have the right to take care of him. This time he goes up first, and next time you go up. Wait, young people, don't be in too much of a hurry. ”
Lu Xifei didn't listen to what she said, but felt that Zhao Rulan didn't want to help her, and she held back the fire in her heart. He thought about it for a long time and suddenly understood that the reason why Zhao Rulan helped Jia Yizhen must be because Jia Yizhen was her student, but not herself. The student has made progress, and her face has a light as a mentor, reflecting her level as a mentor. And she is not her student, whether she is rated as an associate professor or not has no value to her. Therefore, in this review, she will definitely give priority to helping her students.
He was paranoid that this was the real reason for his failure.
The matter has come to this point, and no matter how much you question Zhao Rulan, it will not help. Now Zhao Rulan is already a "Confucian and Mencian scholar", and no one pays attention to it.
Jia Yizhen also comforted Lu Xifei, he didn't expect that he could be evaluated, and he thought that Lu Xifei's chances of winning were greater. Jia Yizhen expressed regret over Lu Xifei's defeat and encouraged him not to be discouraged. The next review will definitely help him with advice.
Lu Xifei expressed his congratulations and gratitude to Jia Yizhen on the surface, promising that the friendship between the two would not be affected because of this review, but in fact, he was even more jealous of him in his heart.
He asked Cang Tian, why did he only favor Jia Yizhen, and why was he so unfair to himself?
How can he understand that if God loves a person, he will strain his muscles and bones, starve his body and skin, empty his body, and act chaotically, just to let him grow better, gain more experience, and take on greater responsibility.
Many people don't understand this truth, and even less so those who are carried away by anger.
At this time, Lu Xifei no longer had the trust in Zhao Rulan in the past, and planted a seed of resentment in his heart, which was constantly nourished in the soil of negative emotions, took root and sprouted, and was about to break out of the ground!