One night a week ago. After dinner, Lu Xifei sat on the rocking chair on the balcony, looking out the window, and the cars on the street were flowing endlessly, coming and going. He is in a feeling of loss, and once people are emotionally lost, it is easy to deny themselves. He felt that he was a failure, that he was still inactive in his thirties and that he could not see the future.

Lu Xifei's unit is a university research institute that ranks high among universities in the country. There are regular and hired personnel in the personnel of universities. But Lu Xi is not a formal employee of the unit, but an hired person. This is despite the fact that regular and hired staff are paid at the same level. But not being a formal person means being marginalized.

Lu Xifei is a master's student from a well-known university ranked in the top 20 in Tianyuan City, but now his identity is so embarrassing after work. He is a top student of a prestigious university, knowing that he is not a formal employee, why did he choose to work in this unit?

When Lu Xifei graduated, he had several offers in his hand, which could be chosen by the world's top 500 foreign companies and state-owned enterprises, but due to the family environment, he had a soft spot for working in state organs and institutions. When he first came in, although he was hired, the leader of the unit intentionally or unintentionally mentioned that the hired personnel could also be converted into regular personnel in the future, so he chose this unit with such a belief. However, the number of formal personnel in the unit is already small, coupled with the national control, no new formal personnel will be added, the current scale will be maintained, and one place will be withdrawn and another place will be added.

Over the years, Lu Xifei has been waiting for the opportunity to become a regular employee, but it is far away. Lu Xifei was extremely aggrieved and complained about his bad luck. But then he thought, after so many years, let's wait, maybe one day the opportunity will come.

His friend couldn't understand that he was holding on to a college job, where the salary was not high, the benefits were average, and the average monthly income was basically the same as the average salary in Tianyuan City. With his ability, he can do a better job. So a friend asked him why he had to stick to this job? Lu Xifei told him a story.

When he was 8 years old, his mother had no regular job and made a living by setting up a stall in front of a company. The stall business was not bad, my mother made some money, and the living conditions of the family were barely good at that time. However, one day, the company raided and wanted to take away the mother's stall, and reprimanded the mother for setting up a stall to affect the company's environment.

With tears in her eyes, her mother pleaded with them to let her go. The mother told them that she had never gone to school, could not find a serious job, had two children to raise and had to study, so there was really no way to come here to set up a stall.

They didn't pay attention to their mother's pleas, and savagely took their mother away with the stall, and Xiao Lu Xifei saw her mother being taken away with her own eyes, and she was so frightened that she cried. Passers-by talked about it, saying that this family was so pitiful, and they would have to be driven away if they set up a stall, and if it wasn't for their livelihood, who would want to set up a stall. To this day, Lu Xifei still remembers the arrogance and savagery of the security personnel at that time.

This incident planted a seed in Xiao Lu Xifei's heart, and when looking for a job in the future, he must find a decent job like wearing a uniform, so that he will not be bullied or driven away at will.

Lu Xifei said to his friends, you don't understand, work can also give people a sense of security. My mother was making some money from her stall, but she was very insecure and worried about being evicted. Therefore, if I don't work in a unit within the system, I am also insecure, and I am always worried that one day I will be fired, just like my mother will be kicked out.

Although my friend didn't understand it very well, he also respected Lu Xifei's choice.

Lu Xifei also tried to take the civil service exam, but the competition for civil servants was too fierce, hundreds of people competed for a position, took the exam several times, and some passed the preliminary examination, but they were always eliminated in the re-examination. The experience of several failures made Lu Xifei completely discouraged, and finally had no choice but to give up the road of civil servants.

By chance, he came to this unit, and although he was hired, at least he worked within the system, which allowed him to find some security. But because of his identity, he still has a deep sense of inferiority.

Fortunately, Lu Xifei's leadership is still a pity, and two years ago, the former person in charge, Zhu Zhengyi, had a conflict with the leader and resigned angrily. After Zhu Zhengyi resigned, he directly appointed the young Lu Xifei as the head of the hospital evaluation studio.

The hospital evaluation studio is a third-party academic evaluation agency in this university research institute, but because the evaluation results released by them are very well recognized by the society, many hospitals use this evaluation results as the basis for hospital brand promotion. Therefore, the person in charge of the hospital evaluation studio also has some power, and the manipulation of the indicator system can directly affect the ranking of the hospital, and then affect the reputation of the hospital. Therefore, this job is somewhat comforting to Lu Xifei, at least recognized by society.

But Lu Xifei knew very well that as a hired person, this was the highest position he could hold, and it was impossible to develop further.

Therefore, Lu Xifei felt dissatisfied, thinking that he had reached the ceiling of his career and had no future for development, and he was very distressed. Although Lu Xifei has served as a small leader, in the workplace, due to the difference in identity, Lu Xifei still feels that it is difficult for him to integrate, and the sense of superiority of the formal staff has caused a lot of psychological pressure on Lu Xifei, and even made him a little depressed. Lu Xifei has never thought about leaving, but there is no better place to go at present. Besides, although the status within the unit is not very good, the social status of this job is still good. Outside, others will call him Director Lu because of his identity, which more or less satisfies his vanity.

He has always regarded this job as chicken ribs, and it is a pity to abandon it if it is tasteless.

"Dad, can you come and play with me? I'm so bored." The sound of a beep broke Lu Xifei's contemplation.

Dudu is Lu Xifei's child, known as Lu Zhuohuan. Dudu is now 3 and a half years old, has just entered kindergarten, and has his own thoughts and consciousness.

Lu Xifei likes children very much, and always accompanies him when he comes home from work. This is another reason why Lu Xifei insists on working in this unit, where he rarely works overtime at night, and also takes weekends off, so he has a lot of time to spend with his children and family.

"Okay, what do you want Dad to play with you?"

"Dad, let's play Super Wings. I'm Radi, can you be Coolthunder?"

Super Wings is one of the few cartoons that allows Dudu to watch. In order to protect Dudu's concentration and eyesight, Lu Xifei and Dudu once made an agreement that Dudu was only allowed to watch on Saturdays and Sundays for no more than an hour, and Dudu has always been very compliant with the agreement.

"Okay, I'm Cool Thunder". Dudu and Lu Xifei pick up the models of Radius and Cool Thunder and play a role-playing game.

"Radius needs help, come and save me... ”

"Cool thunder is coming... ”

"Fly, fly. Come and chase me." Lu Xifei chased behind, and Dudu ran in front.

With his father by his side, Dudu had a lot of fun. But after playing for a while, due to the single entertainment, Dudu soon got a little tired and impatient.

"Dad, I want to watch Super Wings. Is it okay?" Dudu looked at Lu Xifei with begging eyes.

Lu Xifei has always been more serious about education. He felt that the rules set for the child could not be broken at will, otherwise it would be difficult to discipline him in the future, so he resolutely disagreed with Dudu's request.

"No, you can only watch it on Saturday and Sunday."

Seeing that the father did not agree, the willfulness of the little child came.

"No, I want to see it, I want to see it!!"

"No way!"

Not satisfied, the child turned his face when he said it, and simply splashed and rolled on the ground.

Lu Xifei was in a bad mood, but when he saw the child splashing, he didn't control his emotions all of a sudden, and yelled at the child:

"You get up for me, you want to be beaten, don't you?!"

I don't know when it started, Lu Xifei no longer has the patience for the child.

was yelled at by my father like this, and when I saw my father's angry and fierce eyes, I cried with a sigh of relief. Huan Shaojun heard the crying, hurriedly came over to pick up the child, and asked Lu Xifei: "It was fine just now, why did you make Dudu cry?"

Lu Xifei told her the reason. Huan Shaojun said to let him watch an episode in order to coax the child. After saying that, I went to the living room to turn on the TV.

"Huan Shaojun, what are you doing?! If you say you won't let you see it, you won't let you see it. You show him today, what will I do in the future?!"

"Just let him watch an episode", said and turned on the TV.

Seeing Huan Shaojun's actions, Lu Xifei felt that the prestige he had established in front of the child had collapsed a little bit, he had always said the same thing at home, and today Huan Shaojun completely ignored his face, he was very angry.

"Don't turn it on!" Lu Xifei roared angrily and turned off the TV angrily.

Hearing Dad's roar, coupled with Dad's hideous expression, Dudu's barely stopped crying began to cry again. Lu Xifei and Huan Shaojun have always been very affectionate, and they rarely quarrel so much in front of their children. The child couldn't accept such a family atmosphere for a while, and he felt very insecure and cried even more.

Seeing the child crying, Huan Shaojun was very distressed, and out of the mother's instinct to protect the child, she also had some anger.

"Just watch an episode of TV, that's it!" he hugged Dudu into the room.

"Huan Shaojun, let me tell you, this is not a problem of one episode of TV, this is a matter of principle. The rules set for children cannot be easily broken, otherwise, if Dudu doesn't take the rules seriously in the future, how can he discipline the children!"

"Dudu is so small, what's wrong with watching an episode of TV? It is necessary to go online, and it is both principle and rule. He's a child, not an adult!"

"A child will grow up when he is young, and you can't indulge him just because he is young. I'm for his good. How can you spoil a child like this, the child will be buried in your hands sooner or later. Loving mothers are so defeated!" Lu Xifei got angry and spoke openly.

"Lu Xifei, you make it clear, who buried the child?!"

"You! It's you! The child will be destroyed in your hands in the future!" Lu Xifei was even more open-mouthed, angry, he never recklessly thought of what to say.

"Lu Xifei is too much!"

After speaking, Huan Shaojun angrily closed the door of the room and ignored Lu Xifei. This is Huan Shaojun's usual trick, in order to prevent the quarrel from escalating, she consciously avoided a head-on conflict with Lu Xifei.

Lu Xifei and Huan Shaojun ended the quarrel like this. Lu Xifei sat alone in the living room and ate melon seeds. Eating melon seeds is Lu Xi's unique way of decompressing. Sometimes there are no melon seeds at home, and Lu Xifei will also eat sugar to relieve anxiety. He always had a few pieces of candy in his pocket.

Lu Xifei was sipping melon seeds on his mouth, but he deeply blamed himself in his heart that he shouldn't bring bad emotions home. In fact, tonight's emotional loss of control is due to the after-effects of the troubles encountered during the day.

It all starts with the daytime.