In the past two days, I feel a little unhappy, unhappy at the place of work, I didn't find the next job, and I quit naked.

Actually, I wasn't very happy when I first stayed there, the personnel relationship was complicated, it wasn't complicated, it wasn't complicated, it was a bit messy.

I've always felt like I'm not a shrewd person, and I'm stupid when I look shrewd. Sometimes I can't carry my head clearly.

There was no one to guide me, so I was left to my own slow groping. Last night I went to interview for a job and talked to him for a long time, but I always couldn't grasp his point, and I always felt that I had no spirituality, as if I didn't open my mind.

After chatting, I still couldn't figure it out, so I rode my bicycle casually, aimlessly walked around for more than an hour, this season is still very cold to ride, not to mention that it rains, but even then I still don't have any clue.

What the hell do I want to do? I'm confused? I feel like I'm a loser. It is said that a boy should do four things well in his life: the ground under his feet, his parents at home, the woman in his arms, and his brothers by his side.

And now that men and women are equal, do they have the same requirements for girls: parents at home, stable jobs, friends around them, harmonious circles.

But now, I don't have anything. I really find it difficult to break my current circle and move up to the next level.

It's really not easy to have a job that you really like. I like to read, write, and write, so I've been looking for a similar job as an editor recently, but when I searched for editors on the Internet, I found something else, not what I thought.

I dismissed that thought. It's really hard to turn a hobby into a job. My sister asked me what I wanted to do the most.

I said open a bookstore. She asked why, and I said, don't you feel safe lying in a book all day long.

Maybe I've really become a nerd. And I'm still the kind of nerd who doesn't get into the stream, and sometimes I don't know what I'm thinking.

Today, my parents came here for a review, and they knew that I had resigned, and they called yesterday and said what was wrong.

I didn't say a word today. They know that I have made a decision and that I can't change it. So I didn't say anything, I kept talking about family life on the way, talking about buying more fruits and vegetables.

I didn't say anything when I sent them to the train station, and looking at their backs as they entered the station, I suddenly felt that they were a little hunched over no matter how they walked, and when did they start.

There is also my mother's illness, more than a year, if it weren't for the fact that she couldn't stand it and went to the hospital for examination this time, I didn't know that I was so sick so badly.

Every time I am reluctant to eat and drink. I really feel sorry for them, I have broken my heart for my children all my life, and in the end I still work at such an old age.

When I came, I also brought dumplings that were freshly wrapped last night. Being their daughter, sometimes it's really ashamed.

My sister always said that I put too much pressure on myself, but in our family, my brother was a loser, and my parents could only rely on me.

There is a word called empathy, but you have not experienced what has happened to me, even if I break the sky, you will not feel it.

So there's no empathy at all, it's just self-deception. My mother always said that if I got married, she wouldn't make money and go home to support her retirement.

I kept telling her to go back when she was tired. But she's very stubborn, and I can't screw her. I sometimes want to get married, but what about the things that will be married for a lifetime, start hastily and then end?

I don't want it like this. I have a small girlfriend who has introduced me to a lot, and I also want to develop with others, but I feel too inferior.

I can't give anything to others, and I have to drag others down with a large family, so why bother. My mother always said that we should talk first, talk about two years and get married if we think it is suitable, and break up if it is not suitable.

Mom, isn't your daughter's two years someone else's, you knew it was inappropriate from the beginning, dragging others, and finally not marrying others, you are wasting other people's time, you can't be so selfish.

Seeing that my dad's car was about to leave, I called and asked my dad if he was in the car, and my dad began to talk over there about not to rush to find a job, to tell him that he had no money and not to let himself be tired.

Recently, no matter when I go home or when they come over, they want to give me money, but I don't ask for it. And my dad is always afraid of bothering me, every time he comes, he always leaves in a hurry, and my dad is reluctant to spend money to have a meal outside with them.

Although it is not easy for them to make money, they are usually reluctant to do this, but they are always very generous to me, and I hope they can be generous to themselves and careful with me.

I was reluctant to spend their money, I was afraid that I would feel distressed if I used it. Sometimes I feel depressed when I look at what I've written, and I have several journals that record things after high school and still write about them.

Sometimes when I look at it and think back to the situation at that time, I think it's also a taste. Maybe when I look at this in the future, I may feel that it doesn't matter.

After all, it's already over. The past will eventually pass, and it will always be okay to keep moving forward. Even if it's not good, it can't get worse than that.

Maybe we're not growing, but we're putting down roots. May we all go deeper and deeper.