Luo Jin smiled.

"Ou Ruoxi really can't see it, in fact, you are very persistent in feelings. ”

"Actually, I don't know what is going on with others, but I know very well how they walked between Xue Luchuan and Bingbing, this part of the road they walked was indeed a bit bumpy, withstood a lot of pressure, I really feel very lucky for them, I am because they have such a persistent feeling. ”

"Why envy?"

I took a deep breath of air, I closed my eyes and my hands opened, I felt the confusion of this night, I let my whole body and mind be fully relaxed, just like the Lucy of the Titanic.

"Yes, I think I hate them very much. I said this and turned my head to look at it, and Luo Jin said with a very positive statement.

"Really, I can't explain this kind of feeling, this is a very complicated and inexplicable thing, maybe I have always respected such loyalty. Under such pressure, they still maintain each other's loyalty and a kind of love for each other, and I have been watching them for so many years, and finally I am very envious and jealous of this feeling. ”

There was a plane that crossed over our heads, like fireflies in the distance, and I was reminded of a verse that he had only said about whether a bird had left no trace when it crossed the sky.

Luo Jin also looked at me: "Actually, I also think that the strangest thing between people is whether they can endure that sense of loneliness, sometimes whether it is one person or two people, following the inner feeling is the most important." ”

I smiled faintly and said with some self-deprecation.

"Nonsense, I'm also a very complicated matter, on the one hand, I am envious and jealous of them, on the other hand, I do my best to protect their fate, on the other hand, I actually feel very lonely, after being able to walk alone in this trip, sometimes I will long to say hello to you alone in your journey. ”

"If that's the case, don't I think I've made the right decision, I didn't do what a decent gentleman should do that night, so I got an accident, so I said hello to you on the trip. ”

When I heard this, I had a pounding feeling in my heart, I don't know why, I suddenly had this inexplicable emotion.

I said jokingly.

"From this point of view, you must always have to choose these things effectively in a place like yours, so are you accustomed to choosing this kind of thing?"

When I asked this question, I was still a little curious, of course, I was also a little expectant, and at the same time, I was a little worried, and there was a little strangeness inexplicably.

Luo Jin was a little frank, did he cover me up too much, and smiled frankly.

"All I can say is that before I met you, I was actually very tired of such things, and I didn't want to be lonely because I was lonely, and I didn't want to sit back and be alone because I was lonely. ”

I listened a little sourly, after all, it seemed that I was not unique, there should have been someone before me, and it made me feel as if your existence was not a treasure.

"Then why did you do this that night?" I tentatively reprimanded.

Luo Jin took out a pack of cigarettes from his coat pocket and asked me, "Is it convenient?"

I nodded, only to see him take a cigar lighter out of it and take a long puff of his cigarette.

"Because when I met you that day, something very bad happened to me, because I received a bad news at noon that day, and I was extremely tired at the end. ”

"Yours a good friend, right?"

"Yes, a very, very good friend of mine, a freelance, a traveler, a part-time photographer full-time photographer for world geography, and because of his love for this profession, he will go all over the world, especially those poor non-Asian countries, and see that kind of situation with his own lens to capture those forgotten backward places in the world, those places that are not particularly developed, but those people maintain a very optimistic upward, maintain an open-minded mentality, and the happiness index, very high places。 ”

"My friend has a certain talent, and the saxophone is very good as me, and he is also very good at painting and melodica, and I still go to learn many things from him, but I never expected that a person in this open-minded and carefree life would have this serious depression. ”

"Actually, we think it's amazing that such people have depression, because my friend used to make one of the best documentaries in a refugee area in Africa. It records how those people who are plagued by hunger fight on the road of hunger and how they keep themselves alive. ”

"Maybe you can't imagine that in today's developed society, there are still people who feed a grain of rice to compete for such resources, this is the world now, my friend used this lens to record this real and cruel world. ”

"But my friend called me that night after winning an Oscar for Best Cinematography, and asked me to go to the country to accompany me, and then have tea and chat and drink, I thought that we could really joke, we could talk all over the world, we could talk about all kinds of worlds freely, but I never thought that in such a situation, it was actually our last conversation. ”

"Later I really realized that this was our only last goodbye, and he was making the last goodbye for himself in a calm way, waving his hand to say goodbye, because he found out that he was in the refugee camp, took 100 sleeping pills, and had no time to save himself. ”

"When the medical team arrived, they found 1 kilogram of sleeping pills in his backpack, which means that my friend, when he was doing this job, had already stored this key to death, he was just waiting for the opportunity, he could follow the world to confess anytime and anywhere. ”

"Sometimes I wonder if my friend is planning his departure, and he's carefully preparing and carelessly carrying out the acter. ”

When Luo Jin finished saying this, he was very calm, as if he was telling a story, eloquent, without any waves, but when I listened to the feeling of him marrying people, I had a deep and controlled suppressed emotion.

I felt my whole body tremble, and such a story carried with it the torture of a dead soul.

"Then I decided to go with our best friends who grew up together to bring his body back to China, but there was no way to get too south, because there happened to be a small riot in that place, and many people were hiding in their homes, and with a lot of mutual attacks, if you go in now, it will be difficult for you to live?"

"And even if we pass, you don't mind if we go in again, because it's very risky inside, and even if we can really borrow a car to go in, it's very likely that we won't even be able to find his body, and in this chaotic society, these things have long been cleaned. ”

"Who made you feel bad at night, I was very sad, I only used the saxophone in my bar to honor my best friend, I hope his soul is well, I hope he can be safe in his homeland, let his soul return to China, I just hope, I may live strong with a smile from him, I even think he is a person who wears too sensuality, but sometimes this sensuality will bring you an endless soul shock. ”

"Later, until that day I met at the bar, but you got drunk again, and you gave me a hug, and I suddenly remembered my friend, because when he committed suicide, I wasn't even around him, I couldn't even dissuade him, and it made me feel sad and sad, and I even felt a sense of guilt that I couldn't put into words. ”

"My friend is the kind of person who is very simple, and he didn't expect that these things he shot would win an award like the Oscar for Cinematography and Short Film, which is extremely ironic for him, he originally wanted to use the lens to capture a lot of things in the world, not really to win awards, so he felt that he could not forgive himself for getting a prize like this, he thought that he was also dirty, and he didn't have a pure soul. ”

"So he was very sad that day, he was very sad, he wanted me to fly over to accompany him, but I happened to have some problems at work that had to be delayed for a day or two, and I even booked a ticket, but it was two days later that I could take off, but I never expected that he was not waiting at all, I didn't even give me two days to end that night. ”

"I even think that I am the culprit, if I flew over to accompany me on the same day, maybe this kind of tragedy would not have happened, so that a person in the most lonely and helpless, the most need for help from others, if not next to you to cause psychological impact and impact on you, in fact, it is extremely powerful. ”

"I always felt like I was the last straw thread that overwhelmed him. ”

"Later, when you threw yourself in my arms and cried, I could have been a very cynical person, in fact, I was really scared that night, I had to get myself drunk, if I wasn't drunk, I wouldn't have been able to sleep, and when I woke up, it was a nightmare, and I couldn't forgive myself, so I didn't have the courage to accompany me. ”

"Thank you, thank you for that day you are who I am, if it weren't for you, I would have been worse off than dead that day. ”

Luo Jin looked into the distance with this expression sad, serious and sad, a great hurt, I know that every word he just said, every story carries his own deep and deep attachment, a kind of emotion that can't forgive himself.

I have even seen his tearful eyes, and the man does not flick his tears, but he has not reached the sad place.

I stretched out my fingers and held him tightly, I went to gently open his eyes, I felt that at this moment he needs to be stronger than me, more courage than me, like this example, when a person with feelings faces such a thing, the trauma is always difficult to describe in words.

I don't know why, but I think I should give him courage at this point.

So I had an urge in my heart, I approached him tightly and slowly, I tightened my hands to his waist, I put my face on his heart, I felt his strong and powerful heart thumping.

Really, I've never done this to any guy, and if I did, I could only do it to my boyfriend, and if he used to be my character, then I could only target him.

Actually, my limbs are very stiff, I don't know what to do, I can only learn the action on TV, not from my heart, I hugged her tightly, I have a kind of pity in my heart, a kind of love in my heart.

In fact, in the journey of life, there are really so many intersections in the past, with a direction in the south, east, west, and northwest, how we should go, which direction will change a lot of endings. Walking with such a journey, who will miss something, who will not meet something, and then what they will wait for, no one knows, and no one can figure out what will happen in the future.

Maybe there is only one time to look back, maybe there is only one scene, maybe in the sudden retrospective, you will find that there is one from afar like you on the journey.

Some people may not be able to find an exit when they go around and around all their lives, and sometimes they are still trudging hard and lonely in the process of traveling.

When you meet someone who is as familiar as you are at a certain intersection in the process, why should you miss it? Why do you want to leave silently? You should not hesitate, you should bravely stretch out your hands and hold them tightly.

Really don't live up to this glorious time.

I don't know what he thinks, maybe it may be a self-inflicted sentiment of mine, maybe it is a personal will of mine, I was a little apprehensive in my heart, and at this moment I suddenly felt him suddenly hug me tightly, that is, for a moment, my body stiffened.

Tightly hugged.

It's a good feeling.

I can finally fall in love.

The preparatory activities for the new company have been basically completed, and we are about to carry out the construction of a factory and mine, and it is expected that our entire sales plan will be completed within a quarter, so now the construction of a new factory and mine includes investment in the private sector, and we have begun to carry out large-scale human advertising investment and human training as a human resources department.

Because our company is taking a high-end route, which is a luxury positioning of the pyramid, we hope that all our employees have extremely high requirements in both production skills and sales skills, and carry out the necessary 4 months of training when entering this sales space.

As a department manager of the company's human resources department, in addition to not only recruiting personnel, I must also make an overall plan for a course of this training, including some details of these trainings and assessment plans for me to make a firm choice, including an interview for personnel.

It is a huge project for me, and of course it is also a great challenge for me, because for a foreign-funded enterprise like ours, we have a salary and salary, and I didn't expect that there would be a lot of fresh graduates who came to apply, and there were many professional famous schools.

So as one of the chief examiners, I have to conduct an effective assessment, so I am conducting an assessment every day, which takes me a lot of time and has no way, because this is a requirement of the company, and it must be done.

After I got all these things done, I started to go through rounds of interviews, and even the assistants next to me were so tired that I had to persevere.

I followed the assistants.

"This job is really too competitive, and now fresh graduates have to compete for the same job with people who have been working for 5 years, so the pressure can be imagined, we must ensure high-quality human resources, and at the same time create a reasonable space for them to train. We must do a good job, from the beginning of this way to train many college students, it is difficult to start from the lowest level. ”

"Ou Ruoxi, you are really sure that this is the case," the assistant also smiled at me next to him, "Yes, you look at this scene is really very crowded, I didn't expect our company to be able to recruit such high-quality resources here, it is really very valuable, we should encourage them to stay more." ”

I smiled hecklessly.

"So it's really stressful for college students to find a job after graduation, and the competition is too fierce. ”

After a casual chat, we are planning the next job fair again, we choose this Saturday morning, hello, I just have nothing special, so try to give me a morning to get these important work done.

After our office took care of all these things, I got off work and went home with Xue Luchuan, and we drove directly to the supermarket to buy a lot of snacks and went back.

I like to stay at home so much, so my home is basically oil, salt, sauce and vinegar, rice, coffee, milk tea, bread, apples, potatoes, fresh vegetables, these things must not be broken.

Of course, most of the money paid for these is from Xue Luchuan, as a decent boyfriend of mine, he still does this very conscientiously, of course, not because of him, because of the food I cooked, the two of them often come over to rub the rice.

Xue Luchuan sighed and said: "Ou Ruoxi, I found that you are also a high-quality resource in our company, if I hadn't forcibly occupied this resource, you might have been pursued by many people long ago." ”