I don't know what to say, I don't know how to express my love to him, but his love is too extravagant, I can't afford my love, it will make him burdened I am afraid that my pale love is different, and his showbiz is hindered.

I am a very realistic person, and I don't want to see him fall from heaven to hell after so many years of struggle.

He stood up suddenly, picked up a cup and slammed it against the wall. He was stunned for a moment, looking at the fragment of a teacup, and it contained dripping tea, I also looked at him in a daze, maybe this is a kind of last between us, maybe we are like this glass tea, what else can we do? Do we have to show our selflessness in the process?

He looked very distressed, maybe because I couldn't afford what I just said, and he said that I had caused him to cause a misunderstanding, so he made such a quick move.

He said a moment later.

"I guess I misunderstood your thoughts before, maybe I was amorous, I'm sorry, I will never have such a misunderstanding in the future. ”

After saying this, he picked up his clothes, hats, and scarf, and without saying goodbye at all, they all left, and I looked at his departing hurried back, and there was a kind of desolation in my heart, a kind of apprehension in my heart, and a feeling of overgrown weeds in my heart.

Am I wrong? Am I just too distressed about what I can do? I can't do anything, the only thing I can do is to be a good agent for you, the only thing I can do is to be by your side to protect you.

However, I can't do anything, because I can't do anything, I can't give you better resources, I can't give you more platforms, what I can't do is not to pull you back, I look at you with a posture of looking up, just like the bright stars in the sky.

The sound of him closing the door was very soft, as if he was closing a door, and he used such a resolute gesture that I even asked him to slam the door and close it, maybe I would feel better.

But the more slight its movements, the more it tore at my wound like a knife, and I couldn't help but be slightly stunned, and shrunk back from a dream.

Did I really say that refusal just now? Did I really say it? Yes, if we did, how could he leave me like this? The whole box was quiet, that is, I lived there alone, and I had no appetite for this plate of delicacies, and his dishes and chopsticks were still there.

People walk away and the building is empty.

I still seem to have a feeling, I seem to feel like I'm just sitting across from me, I've finally lost him.

Did I really lose him? I was scared, I was angry and wanted to cry, I hurriedly opened the cigarette in my bag and lit it indiscriminately.

Maybe the lighter ran out of gas, so I lit it several times before I lit it tremblingly, and took a deep breath to let myself know if I could get a moment of peace at this time.

But it doesn't seem to make any sense at all, and with my heart it's completely barren.

Maybe we really had each other, maybe we were so beautiful, maybe we had memories that made life feel so rich, but losing that moment was as painful as an unforgettable knife chase.

I silently shed tears, I was sacrificing my love.

Zhao Chuan once had the lyrics of a song: Ahhh

I don't know what to do, I stood there like a rock, my phone was on the desktop, because it was turned on the vibration, so the words kept flashing on the screen, I looked at the call of that phone, it showed that it was Luo Jin's call, I didn't believe that this was because I didn't want to say a word to anyone, I didn't even want to say a word to him, because I was betraying Fei Yan.

I can only defend it in a very naïve, very stubborn way, I have lost this love, although I have no way to have Fei Yan's anymore, I can really only use such a final position.

Luo Jin was still very persistent and kept calling that number.

I still haven't answered the call.

I remember that I once read a novel by Jin Yong when I was young, I don't know which novel it was, and I have long forgotten the details of the story, but there is a sentence I remember very deeply, I remember that the heroine said a word lightly to the supporting actor in the world.

"Those are very nice people, but I don't like them. ”

At that time, when I read this Jin Yong novel in junior high school, I couldn't understand the love and hatred on the rivers and lakes of Jin Yong's novel, and I felt that this was a very profound discourse, but now I think about this sentence again, and I feel an understanding.

Maybe Jiangnan makes people feel very loved, maybe there is a person in this desert who doesn't love him, but so what? So how to choose?

There are many, many things in the world that you can't ignore at all, if he doesn't love me and changes someone, will he really love me?

No, because of a thing of love, it will become a towering tree like a sapling in your mind, not that you can transfer this love with another person.

Unless you don't love a man.

Yes, love is a very mysterious thing, it will not be affected by your time and place, people and events and your family background and education all aspects of a kind of connection, love it is not a matter of what people want, can use a toggle key, can change their own position and their own wishes.

When you love someone, love is love, not love is not love, these things are not ambiguous at all, only in the dead of night, when you are alone, you will ask yourself with your heart, is this the love you want?

There is only one answer to this one, and there is no ambiguity.

If you lie to him, your heart will be cut because you love.

For example, at this moment, I love Fei Yan, so I lied to him, and my heart is like a person who died suddenly at zero hour.

But there are many realities in life, one of many is unwilling, there is one choice among many, and sometimes many of these have nothing to do with love, such as me and Luo Jin.

His phone is still very tenacious, it keeps ringing, I really can't help it, I have to do it when I go back to real life, after all, he is a very good man, and after all, he has helped me.

I often sighed and finally answered his call.

I'm really scared that I'm going to be stupid if I keep doing it, or I'm going to do something terrible.

Luo Jin is definitely a good new man, he will not make you feel very stressed, but will slowly invade your life.

"Have you eaten dinner?"

I snorted.

He lowered his head and smiled, still as gentle as water, without any waves.

"I just came out of the company, if you didn't have dinner, let's go have dinner together, okay? ”

How could I refuse a man to be so gentle as water at me, even if he didn't have any guilt, how could I be so ruthless I don't know, or that I should give myself a space to escape, that opportunity, to escape from Fei Yan.

I gently wiped away my tears, with a somewhat nasal voice: "Okay, I want to eat spicy hot pot, the spicy and spicy kind." ”

"What's wrong? Who made my baby cry again, how did you cry?"

I involuntarily wiped away my tears, I was very upset, but I tried to give him a smile, even though he couldn't see it.

"Ah, no, I was watching a Korean drama just now, then you also know that the finale of the Korean drama is too miserable, I can't stand it when I see the heroine's last leukemia die, so I can't help crying, this drama is really too abusive. ”

"Why do you have to cry when you watch a Korean drama so childishly, don't you know that these are all scripted things, okay, go have a cup of coffee, I'll drive over and pick you up right away, and you'll be downstairs in your company, okay?"

"Okay, I'll clean it up right away, I'm going to eat that super spicy and spicy kind, and it ends up being numb and spicy. ”

"Ok, baby, I'll be waiting for you downstairs in about 20 minutes. ”

I called the waiter to come in and pay for it, and repainted a light makeup in the bathroom, I don't know why, I don't know what I should do, as if it was all like a step-by-step, every step and every footprint, as if the book didn't have to be chosen.

I looked at the mirror in the bathroom, at my red and swollen eyes, no matter how much I smiled, I seemed to have a sadness in my eyes, and I smiled at myself in the mirror, laughing.

He pinched his cheek and put a rosy smile on my face.

I looked at myself with the sadness of autumn, and I didn't know why I didn't want to think about it, so I painted myself a very heavy eye.

Paint your lips a rosé to bring your whole person to life and hide the sadness.

Luo Jin was really punctual, and arrived downstairs in the office after 20 minutes.

I thought he should take me to a very authentic spicy soup pot, the kind that is numb and spicy, but I didn't expect him to drive directly to the Carrefour supermarket and buy me a bunch of hot pot bases.

"Please, we didn't say we were going to eat spicy soup pot tonight, it's numb and spicy, why did you buy me this kind of thing?"

"Didn't I say that my cooking skills are also good, I don't have to eat outside, don't worry, my cooking skills will be numb and spicy. ”

I was stunned for a moment, I didn't expect this elite man to cook this dish, isn't this kind of man how precious time is to them? They have a very efficient cost of time, or to some extent time is money for him, if you spend time on this one cooking and cooking, is it a bit too expensive and extravagant to waste.

"No, you really know how to make a spicy soup pot, you're really fake, you won't try to make me an experiment for the first time, right?"

He looked up and laughed, holding my waist, as if he was not at all curious about my jokes, and seemed slightly proud, like a proud little rooster.

"Of course I can cook, I've been abroad for so long, and I've been in China for a while, if I don't know how to cook, and eat these Western foods every day, that person will be stupid soon, and I'm a native, Chinese food is my favorite, and spicy hot pot is one of my favorites, if I can't even do this, then wouldn't I not meet your requirements at all? ”

So we drove directly to his house, and the first time I came to his house, I didn't expect that this place was a big flat building in a prime location in the center.

The lot is very precious, the area is still very large, it is a standard rich lot, and the price of a large flat is more expensive than the villas in the suburbs.

It seems that this man is really an eye-hurt, not only that, but it should probably be higher than this level, and he should be regarded as a hidden rich man.

It seems that my preliminary judgment of this man is wrong, this man should have a more obvious background, otherwise it is generally impossible, as a business gene, even if you are speculating in stocks, it is impossible to have so much money at once, then this man's wealth and power may be beyond my more obvious imagination.

He brought me a glass of mineral water.

"My girlfriend casually visits this place is my kennel, welcome to come at any time in the future, if you come over on the weekend and stay for a few days, it will be an honor for me. ”

I laughed a little and ignored him, just went to his room and took a look, and he naturally went straight into one of his very high-end kitchens to make his so-called spicy soup pot.

Of course, I don't belong to the kind of master who specializes in eating and drinking for nothing, and I'm embarrassed to stay here for too long, because after all, although there is such a layer of relationship between us, but when it comes to really determining the relationship between boyfriend and girlfriend, it is not completely determined, it is just a verbal fight.

I walked into the kitchen, leaned against the kitchen door, looked at him, and asked him directly.

"Do you need my help, you know, I'm also very good at stir-frying, and I can do it for washing vegetables and dishes. ”

"Okay, women don't need it, I'll clean up this place, I've seen your ability to cook in your home, to be honest, I really think you're quietly responsible for sitting there watching TV and browsing browsers, these will be better, I'll be in charge of being your chef, you just live there and enjoy all this your boyfriend does for you." ”

He chops vegetables really delicately, every action is very sexy, and it is completely a very standard knowledge strength elf will not make you think that he is really a person who can't cook, look at the bamboo shoots he cut out are fast, good and delicate, and the action of plating is very in place, and the speed is also very fast.

While he was cooking, I sat at his bar and drank water and chatted with him.

He asked me with some pride.

"Do you know what is the most important test of a chef in making this Sichuan cuisine, this spicy hot pot?

"I don't know to tell me, I know it looks delicious and good. ”

"In fact, the most important thing about making a spicy soup pot is not that you go to the supermarket and buy a seasoning, just put it in the pot and cook it, it has to pay attention to some big ingredients, and you have to put some butter, and more importantly, it is very important to have a side dish, and its chopping vegetables are a very important thing, you can wait for you to eat, a sugar is not shaken. You can also eat a must-have ghee in Sichuan hot pot. ”

I listened to him say this sentence freely, and after it came out, I really couldn't believe it, this man is too perfect, not only a business elite, but also a licensed lawyer, more importantly, an investor, and a more important identity, actually a perfect chef.

I looked at him undeniably, and was a little suspicious of his situation, jokingly.

"I even doubt that you really have a Cambridge lawyer's license? I even suspect that you are a chef and chef who graduated from New Oriental. ”

"The woman hurried to the living room and went to the second one under the drawer, and the white one went to get the album and told you that there was a certificate of my graduation, and there were many graduation photos, wearing a doctor's clothes, and it was also stamped with a red head, if you don't believe it, you can go directly to the Internet to scan it and search for the number inside. ”

I went directly to him to take away his photo album, and sure enough, there were several electronic photo albums in it, and I didn't know why, looking at what he was doing, I was a little happy, because I saw that one of the photo albums in it was really a foreign one.

"No, the background of your photo album is obviously a background of an ivy League, isn't this building one of his libraries?"

"Take a closer look at how this background can be an Ivy League, this is a swimming pool in Cambridge, okay? Could it be that this Ivy League has also seen such a background? Go to the Internet and search for it. ”

"Big brother, I haven't been anywhere anyway, in fact, it doesn't matter if you lie to me, I'm just talking casually, but looking at you like this, did you go to Nanqiao Technical School to learn to be a chef? This is completely professional. ”

"What's wrong with you? Why aren't you happy today? When I called me this morning, I was still so elated, and my eyebrows fluttered to tell me about this entertainment industry, I was drunk last night, and I said so many words today, I thought that the peak moment of your life today became so haggard at night, like a cripple in a double, seeing that film is so sad, how can even the mood be bleak, tell me what happened to me, I have to comfort you. ”