Then Fan Dong, he was paralyzed almost all over his body. This situation, of course, is a bit more complicated. However, the paralysis of mental illness is almost always not an organ defect, and most people with paralysis have a fixed concept and shadow in their psyche, and they believe, or are willing to let a part of their body function. What the psychiatrist has to do is to break the knot in his heart, break the concept of his inner consolidation, and the paralysis will naturally disappear.

However, until now, most of Fan Dong's accounts have been about the horror of the earthquake and the difficulty of rescue, and there is no real mention of the shadow part of his heart.

Xu Jiannan is like taking Fan Dong for a walk on the edge of a cliff, they go around and around, and they never see the real point, but there are many crises around them, and there is a possibility of being buried in the abyss at any time.

But despite this, what Xu Jiannan has to do now is to listen patiently. She must not interrupt that memory, nor can she urge Fan Dong to go straight to the topic and the point. Because for Fan Dong, he didn't realize what the point was at all. Instinctive memories, instinctive expressions, that's all. Once he breaks his current natural state, it is easy for him to selectively forget, and there is nothing more to say about it.

The content of the conversation is dominated by Fan Dong, and when he will seize the dominance, the most appropriate opportunity is needed.

Fan Dong looked at Xu Jianan, then sighed and said, "We all hate to save more and more people, but manpower is limited, and life and death are irresistible." The rubble has buried so many lives that only some of them can be saved. In the end, the number of people saved by my team was still 34. ”

Xu Jiannan grasped a key point, Fan Dong said that the number of people rescued by their team in the end was still thirty-four, but he was not injured at that time. He must have gone to save people again, so he broke his leg. However, since the number of people rescued has not changed, it proves ...... The last man he saved, without success.

Exploring the secrets of the depths of the human psyche is the unique charm of this profession. The truth has loomed, and the cause of Fan Dong's illness is becoming clearer and clearer, and Xu Jianan's heart can't help but be a little excited and excited. She didn't miss the opportunity and asked, "At that time, you weren't injured. So, where did you go?"

This question made Fan Dong's whole body tremble slightly. His pupils changed, and the heaving of his chest became violent again. Xu Jiannan knows that all these phenomena prove that she has asked the key.

Fan Dong opened his mouth, but didn't say anything.

Xu Jiannan tried to lure and said, "There must be something special that happened, so you didn't leave with everyone at that time, and you were seriously injured because of it, right?" Xu Jiannan used psychological hints to lead Fan Dong back to the scene at that time. She asked softly, "What's the matter? Is there another police dog barking in the distance? Or is there a life detector responding? What caught your attention in the apocalyptic ruins?"

Fan Dong's eyes kept turning left and right, as if he was hypnotized, he was brought back to the scene by Xu Jianan, his eyes wandered left and right, as if he was afraid of something, and as if he was looking for something.

Xu Jiannan carefully observed his every move, until Fan Dong's voice trembled and said, "Yes...... It's the cry of a child. ”

"Did you hear that?" Xu Jiannan looked at the distracted Fan Dong deliberately repeating the question, she knew that the time had come to regain the dominance, it was now!

"I hear you!"

"Did you hear it alone?"

"Yes, I didn't have any comrades around at the time, I'm sure it was a child's cry!"

"And then, what did you do?" Xu Jianan's questions became faster and faster, not giving Fan Dong a chance to think about it at all. She was as aggressive as she was, asking Fan Dong to directly tell the true experience buried in her heart, rather than being tampered with by consciousness.

Fan Dong was a little panicked, he clenched his fists tightly and replied, "I...... I searched for the voice. ”

"You've found it. ”

"Yes!"

"In the rubble, a child, buried underneath?"

Fan Dong began to feel a little painful, he held his head and pulled his hair and said, "That's right! That damn piece of cement pressed him hard, it was buried too deep! That child was covered in blood, and his voice was already very weak!"

"yes, it had been four days since the earthquake struck. He should be running out of power. Xu Jiannan was very skillful to stimulate Fan Dong's mood at that time.

Fan Dong suddenly raised his head and said, "But I didn't give up on him, I didn't give up on him!" I went down the gap, but my size could only get into half of it, and I couldn't reach him, so I could barely let him see me and hear me. ”

"You're going to wait for help. ”

"Yes, I have to wait for rescue! Because I can't get into it, my lower body is stuck in the rubble, I can't save him!"

"Did he see you?"

"I saw ......" Fan Dong's voice suddenly changed from excitement to low, full of self-blame, self-evident.

"I think you must have insisted on talking to him at that time and letting him hold on, right?" Xu Jiannan grasped the rhythm of the inquiry with a degree of relaxation.

Fan Dong rubbed his eyes and said, "That's right, when he saw me, he suddenly cried." He was so scared to be trapped in the dark ruins for four days, and the dead parents around him had begun to decay and change...... I'm so scared that I can't cry. Judging by his age, he is only about ten years old, and I think in such an immobile environment, he probably doesn't know how to call it a death. That's really the fear of not being able to die......"

I have to say that that picture also shocked Xu Jianan. A ten-year-old child, his home suddenly collapsed, he was crushed by the ruins and ruins, he couldn't move, there was no food, no water, even less air, and the only thing left around him was the corpses of his parents and family members who were gradually changing......

Sensing Xu Jianan's pause, Fan Dong looked at her desperately seeking approval and asked: "It's scary, isn't it? We all think it's scary, right? Not to mention a child......

As a doctor's reason, he brought back Xu Jianan's trance for a moment in time. She nodded to show her agreement with Fan Dong, and what he needs most at the moment is to "empathize". Because if the listener can't empathize, he will feel that everything he says is superfluous.

Sure enough, after getting Xu Jianan's emotional approval, Fan Dong calmed down, he leaned back into the wheelchair, and said a little tiredly: "I told him that I would definitely save him out, and I would always accompany him and let him not be afraid." At that time, it is possible that the child was too frightened and buried for four days, and was already speechless. He had his mouth open, the corners of his mouth were bloody, and although there was no sound, I could hear it in my heart, he was saying, 'Help me.' ”

"You're half stuck in the ruins, with that poor buried child, dark and until death, you are his only light and hope. Xu Jiannan continued to affirm Fan Dong.

Fan Dong shook his head painfully and said: "When the rescue team came, I also told him that there were many uncles who came to rescue him, so he must persevere, be brave and strong." But the ruins were all large expanses of reinforced concrete, and there were even huge rocks that had fallen from nowhere. It's too hard to clear that place, and if you make a big move or dig it wrong, the space below will be completely buried. There is no way, everything has to be done cautiously and slowly. But just when it was about to be better......" Fan Dong suddenly couldn't go on.

Xu Jiannan seized the opportunity and continued: "Just when the rescue operation was about to succeed, the aftershocks began. ”

Fan Dong was brought in too deeply, he probably forgot that he was still a sane person when he first came in, and he also forgot that he was now in a wheelchair receiving psychological treatment. He broke down and smashed his legs with both hands, screaming in pain: "I can't move! I can't grab his hand and drag him out!" The aftershocks only shook a few times, and the space that had just been cleared collapsed again. And this time, more and heavier ruins were all smashed down. I was hit in the leg and back, and that's when I felt the heaviness and pain of not being able to breathe. And that kid was right in front of me...... He was stoned to death. ”

When he finished speaking, Fan Dong hugged his head and cried with his hands, supporting his legs. His hands were no longer shaking, and his legs were strong enough to support him. His back was still straight, and he didn't have the sickly powerlessness of a paralyzed patient. Without him really standing up, Xu Jiannan has already seen the power of a normal adult from this man. The stiffness and weakness of paralysis have begun to fade away.

However, Fan Dong was still immersed in that terrible memory, and did not notice the changes in his body. He still buried his head deeply, and said in a very nasal voice: "I found him early tomorrow, I could have rescued him!! I will never forget the child's frightened and helpless eyes, he has always persevered as I said, bravely! He believed that I would take him out of that hell, he believed in me! But in the end, ...... I betrayed that trust, and I lied to him...... I couldn't take him away. ”

At this point, the cause of Fan Dong has been completely clear. Although he was rescued and escaped. However, after his physical recovery, he was recuperating at home, but his mind and consciousness remained in the earthquake-stricken area. It was filled with death and despair, with pain and helplessness, but also with his guilt, self-blame, and powerless anger. His paralysis was not so much because he didn't want to be rescued, but because he was willing to experience the pain of the child who was buried. to empathize with him to compensate for his guilt and regret that he did not save the child.