Chapter 25: After the Storm
Xu Jiannan said: "I'm the same, don't say that I blushed as soon as I met him, even if there is no such hostility, I won't accept someone like him." His dazzling, flamboyant and high-profile, I don't need a man in the spotlight, that kind of exhaustion, I can't afford. ”
Chen Fei nodded with some understanding, but shook his head with some regret: "Jia Nan, sometimes I have to say that it is not a good thing to live too thoroughly, such as you." In the process of work, you must have heard and seen too many tragedies, and you are also very rational to analyze and understand all human behaviors. In this way, you say how boring life should be. ”
Xu Jianan smiled: "Ha, not necessarily." Knowing how to do it and being able to do it are two different things. Even a psychiatrist can't control his feelings and subconscious. Fifi, I resist because I shy away from risk and trouble. And you resist because you are afraid. I really hope that you can think about whether it is really worth it. ”
Chen Fei closed his eyes a little tired and said, "Is it okay for me to stay with you today?" ”
"Of course! What a fool's errand. Xu Jianan helped Chen Fei find clothes, and took care of her to lie down on the bed, until he watched her fall asleep, and then he was relieved.
When he was cleaning up the wine bottle, Xu Jiannan was still thinking that under different circumstances, it was undeniable that wine was indeed a good way to relieve and escape the pain, if it weren't for those few sips of wine just now, it would have been difficult for Chen Fei to fall asleep so quickly.
Sometimes, when things are certain that there will be no more progress for a while, it can only be done tomorrow and tomorrow. Chen Fei's injuries were not formed in a day, and it was certainly not possible to heal her in a day. Xu Jiannan was imagining various ways for Chen Fei to let go of the past, and gradually fell asleep.
Because Xu Jianan had to go to work early in the morning, when she got up, Chen Fei hadn't woken up yet. Xu Jiannan carefully cleaned himself up, for fear of waking up Chen Fei, and left a note at the bedside, writing: Fei Fei, look out the window, after the wind and rain, even if it is not a rainbow, it is a clean and sunny day. There's food in the fridge, and if you're not busy, you're waiting for me to get home.
After everything was settled, Xu Jiannan quietly went out.
As soon as she came downstairs, she caught a glimpse of a person squatting in front of the building. The clothes looked familiar, and they were all wet and cool, curled up there, like a gatekeeper...... Lost dogs.
Xu Jiannan walked over in disbelief and shouted with a little doubt: "Cheng Tao?"
The poor shadow that was squatting turned around and startled Xu Jianan. People, it's Cheng Tao, that's right. But the face that has always been hippie and smiling, sunny to a little flamboyant, is like an eggplant beaten by frost at the moment...... How ugly it is, how ugly it is. You don't have to ask to know that he's probably been squatting here all night......
Xu Jiannan hurriedly stepped forward in a little anxious: "It's raining all night, are you crazy? Yesterday's rainstorm was so big, you stayed like this all night? You came here to find Chen Fei, so why don't you go up and knock on the door?"
Cheng Tao looked up at Xu Jianan pitifully and said, "I'...... I'm here for you. ”
"Looking for me?"
"I know that Chen Fei definitely doesn't want to see me now, and I don't want to persecute her. I came to you to find out why Chen Fei rejected me...... Death is also a death understand. Cheng Tao's thick dark circles under his eyes matched his aggrieved and pitiful appearance, and he lived like a thin panda.
Xu Jianan sighed and said, "You get up first, go back and rest well." I have to go to work, Chen Fei is still sleeping. What's the matter, can you go back and talk about it?"
Cheng Tao lowered his head again in some disappointment.
Xu Jianan can't stand this way very much, her heart is very soft, and she can't see others like this.
"Oh, can't you get up first? Even if you want to listen to me, you have to wait for me to get off work! You go home and sleep first, and then I'll talk about it when I get off work. Xu Jiannan stared anxiously at the shadow squatting in front of him.
Cheng Tao lowered his head like that for a while, and just when Xu Jiannan thought that he might be crying, and hesitated to consider whether to comfort a few words, he suddenly raised his head and said aggrievedly: "Stand ...... Can't stand up......"
"......" Xu Jiannan was stunned for a moment, and then he was so angry that he couldn't wait to turn around and leave immediately!
Xu Jiannan endured the urge to beat people, she found that she seemed to be unusually irritable recently, and she was going to have a powder keg state every three days.
"Slow down, I'll go to work. Xu Jiannan threw down a sentence, turned around and left, completely ignoring Cheng Tao's "wailing" in the back. Such a person, she thought, really did not deserve sympathy.
However, when he arrived at the company and sat in his office, Xu Jiannan couldn't help but think of Cheng Tao's appearance as a "lost dog" guarding the door. Although she felt that Cheng Tao was also quite hateful, it could be regarded as a friendship that had eaten together, plus he was good to Chen Fei, and after hesitation, Xu Jianan decided to send a message to Lu Yan and asked him to pick Cheng Tao back.
Since he knew Lu Yan's mobile phone number, Xu Jiannan hadn't looked at it seriously. Because she felt that she would never call him unless it was time for the rent to fall.
The message was sent, and Xu Jiannan felt that he had done his duty. Putting these things aside, it's time for her to get back to work.
Looking at today's appointment patient, there is not much work, only a 17-year-old girl. The specific psychological problems are not described in detail, only that the situation seems to be quite serious.
Xu Jiannan glanced at his watch, and it was very close to the girl's appointment time. So she began to prepare for work, to make her surroundings as relaxed and natural as possible, to put away all the work papers on the desk, and to avoid giving people a feeling of oppression in the office or hospital. The reason for this is to give the young girl a good foundation for relaxation when she walks in for the first time.
Because Xu Jianan knows very well that between the ages of fifteen and nineteen, it is relatively easy to have psychological conditions. Patients in this age group are unique in that they are moving from childhood to a critical moment of maturation. And if you have psychological problems at this age, most of them will be accompanied by social anxiety disorder. This is also the reason why Xu Jiannan will prepare a little in advance for this.
The girl arrived on time and alone. When she timidly walked into the office, Xu Jiannan knew that she was preparing right. Her uneasy look was not the fear of strangers in an unfamiliar environment that her peers should have.
Xu Jiannan showed a kind smile: "Hello, I'm Xu Jianan, and today I am your psychological counselor." You may be seated. ”
"My name is Chen Xiaoya...... I ......" still standing in place, she didn't seem to know how to introduce herself generously.
Xu Jiannan said understandingly: "Xiaoya, come, sit down and talk, okay?"
Chen Xiaoya sat opposite Xu Jianan. However, Xu Jiannan noticed that she did not sit on the chair completely, but only sat on a small part, and such a posture was inevitably tense all over her body.
Although Chen Xiaoya has been as calm as possible on the surface, this sitting posture has fully demonstrated her fear and resistance to the unfamiliar environment. From the perspective of behavioral psychology, her sitting posture expresses the subconscious urge to escape. She did not sit down peacefully, but was mentally ready to run away. And this posture generally also represents a reluctance to stay too long.
But today, she took the initiative to see a doctor, so Xu Jiannan was not very worried that she would really put the psychological escape into action.
Xu Jiannan slowed down his voice even more, and said softly: "Xiaoya, we're just chatting, can you relax a little?"
Chen Xiaoya listened to Xu Jianan's words, then took a deep breath, sat back as relaxed as possible, and at the same time relaxed her arms slightly.
Seeing her relax a little, Xu Jiannan asked, "Xiaoya, when you made an appointment, you didn't make it clear what you were here for, can you tell me now, what is the problem that bothered you?"
Chen Xiaoya's hands twisted repeatedly, and she was stunned for a while, and then she whispered, "I...... I'm scared. ”
"What scares you?" asked Xu Jianan.
Chen Xiaoya raised her head slightly, met Xu Jianan's gaze for the first time, and said a little timidly: "I...... There will be a lot of things that are scary. ”
"For example?"
"For example...... On the road, in the square, in a crowded place...... Bells, and strangers. Speaking of this, Chen Xiaoya subconsciously looked at Xu Jianan, obviously, she was naturally the object of Chen Xiaoya's fear.
But the fears that Chen Xiaoya said made Xu Jiannan a little puzzled. Because if you say that an open and crowded place, including strangers, can be understood as social anxiety, but ...... What's the matter with the bell......s? It's too specific, and there must be a reason. But if you want to know the reason, you have to deeply understand Chen Xiaoya's past. This is not easy for a man who sees doctors as a source of fear.
Preliminarily, Chen Xiaoya's condition should be classified as a phobia. A phobia is a phobia neurosis, a manifestation of an excessive and irrational fear of an objective object in the outside world. In particular, patients know that this excessive fear is unreasonable, but it still recurs and is difficult to control. Just like Chen Xiaoya, she knows very well that her fear is abnormal, so she will take the initiative to come to the psychological counseling center and ask for treatment.
Although this kind of sanity sounds good, the more sober you are, the more painful it becomes, and it is equally tormenting.