Xu Jiannan saw that everything was developing in a good direction for Chen Fei, and she also hoped that Chen Fei could get better and better and truly get out of her inner shadow. However, Cheng Tao's sudden confession and confession of his background may have made Chen Fei fall into the predicament of inferiority complex and even self-loathing.

Xu Jiannan tried to persuade Chen Fei: "Feifei, Cheng Tao is Cheng Tao, he is just himself." You just have to think about whether you like him or not, and there is no need to deny yourself in your heart. ”

Chen Fei shook his head and said, "This person really made me feel more relaxed than I had before. In the past, I only felt relaxed and stress-free when I was with you. I often deal with Cheng Tao these days, and his kind of sunshine that looks a little heartless makes me a little carried away, forgetting my dirty past, and I haven't thought about what kind of person he is. ”

"I know he has a good family environment, does that remind you of the ...... I was also deceived by young people? But Feifei, I don't think Cheng Tao should be that kind of person. Xu Jiannan said very rationally.

Chen Fei smiled dismally: "Jia Nan, I have always believed in your eyes, and I don't think he will be a heinous person." Merely...... I can't accept such a pursuit. The better he is, the more I feel inferior. Looking at him again, it can only make me feel ashamed. Jia Nan, sometimes I often wonder, should I ask you to help me hypnotize, forget that past, and become back to the self I used to be confident and proud, flying and happy. My best friend, but a very good psychiatrist......! I've never really asked you to do that. Because, there is some pain that I don't want to forget. I want me to remember for the rest of my life what I paid for the so-called love. ”

"Fei Fei, why torture yourself like this, you are torturing your own future with the mistakes of the wicked. Xu Jiannan gently patted Chen Fei's hand.

"These days, I just feel like I've had a genuine happiness that I haven't seen in a long time. But when he confessed and confessed himself to me, reality suddenly beat me to my senses. Do I deserve to be happy?" Chen Fei looked to the side with cold eyes, his face full of disdain and self-deprecation.

After thinking about it again and again, Xu Jiannan finally spoke: "Feifei, not being able to get out of the shadows is our own problem. You're all right, you've been a victim, there's nothing you don't deserve, you deserve to be truly happy. If you want, I am willing to be your psychiatrist, with girlfriends, family members, and professional identity, to take you out of the haze of your heart. ”

Chen Fei looked at Xu Jianan, hesitated a little and said, "Between us, it may be difficult for you to remain objective." And it's been so long, I don't want to go back to being the same person I used to be for this matter. ”

"......"

"Jia Nan, do you have wine here?" Chen Fei interrupted Xu Jianan.

Xu Jiannan was slightly stunned, thought for a while and said, "When I was cleaning up that day, I saw two or three bottles of wine in a cupboard, probably ...... It's Lu Yan's. ”

"Give me a drink, I just want to get drunk now, get some sleep, and when I wake up, maybe everything will be fine. Chen Fei escaped with paralysis, but Xu Jiannan did not agree.

"Feifei, this won't solve the problem. Why bother drinking and hurting your body?"

Chen Fei didn't say much, stood up and walked to the cabinet that Xu Jianan said. After all, when she moved, Chen Fei was the first to clean up the house. So, she still knows a lot about what was placed, but she didn't open it at the time.

A bottle of spirits was found from the cabinet, and Chen Fei poured a few large sips as if he were drinking water. Seeing this, Xu Jianan hurriedly went over and grabbed the wine bottle: "Are you crazy?!Do you want to get alcohol poisoning?"

Chen Fei protected the wine bottle and pleaded with Xu Jiannan with pleading eyes: "Jianan... Please, let me take a few sips of the bar, it's so sober that I can't help but remember the past clearly. ”

couldn't stand Chen Fei's pleading eyes, Xu Jiannan reluctantly compromised: "I can only drink a few sips, not too much." ”

"Good. ”

The two sat back on the carpet, and Chen Fei was drinking and a little drunk to describe to Xu Jiannan the scene when he threw down Cheng Tao and left. She knew that it was very hurtful, and she also knew that with such a sudden change of attitude, it was likely that she and Cheng Tao would not even be able to continue to be friends.

Of all the heartache she has at the moment, at least a little bit is because of Cheng Tao.

Xu Jiannan kept listening to Chen Fei's drunken wine talk, until she suddenly changed the topic, approached Xu Jiannan and said, "Jianan, do you like that Lu Yan?"

"What are you talking about!" Xu Jiannan didn't expect that Chen Fei's topic would suddenly fall on him.

Chen Fei smiled and said: "I have experienced the most terrible devil, and I have trained my instinct to protect myself and the people closest to me. At the beginning, I told you that Zhang Ke was not a good person, you see, it turns out that I was right, right? Now, I want to tell you that Lu Yan should be a good man. You have to make good use of your opportunities, even if I see your share of happiness with me, I am content. ”

Xu Jiannan took the opportunity to snatch the wine bottle and said angrily: "You, let's think about Cheng Tao." I don't think that fool with a heart or lungs but a clear goal will not completely sink because of your sudden passing today. On the contrary, he will probably become more and more courageous. ”

"I won't see him again. Chen Fei's answer was very resolute.

"This won't solve the problem, even if you reject this Cheng Tao, there will be the next Cheng Tao in the future. Are you ready to shrink into your own shadow for the rest of your life?" asked Xu Jianan.

Chen Fei raised her eyebrows and looked at her, and asked with a good-looking smile: "Then why don't you refuse to accept new people and feelings? That Zhang Ke, you and him can't talk about deep feelings, right? Because of his betrayal, you also began to be afraid of others?"

Xu Jiannan avoided Chen Fei's smiling eyes with a little weakness, and said a little awkwardly: "This thing can't be compared, you can't get out of your own pain, you can't extricate yourself from the most painful experience, and you can recreate that pain repeatedly to punish yourself." But I didn't...... I feel that my broken love may have been sad for a night, and I can't even talk about the pain, maybe I was kicked out by the landlord before I had time to experience the pain. ”

These words amused Chen Fei, she covered her mouth and smiled, and asked again: "That...... What about the boss you mentioned to me? We don't have any secrets, I know everything. ”

mentioned Lin Weizhou, Xu Jiannan remembered the unpleasant thing. She didn't want to talk to Chen Fei, because it wasn't worth mentioning. But looking at Chen Fei like that, it seems that it is also a good way to divert the topic and attention.

So, Xu Jiannan told Chen Fei the truth about what happened when he got off work. also explained how Lu Yan walked with her.

After hearing this, Chen Fei immediately turned from a leaky balloon into a powder keg in an instant, she suddenly sat up straight and said angrily: "That Yu Le'er has targeted you three times and twice, is it tolerable or unbearable! Jia Nan, being kind to the enemy is cruel to yourself, and this world can't tolerate you being weak and kind at all! You must fight back, otherwise you will be able to get it in the future?!'

Of course, Xu Jiannan knew that his best friend was protective, and he couldn't stand her being wronged by others. At the same time, he just wanted to say a few words of comfort, but he saw that Chen Fei's face suddenly changed, from righteous indignation to the thief's evil smile, and he rolled his eyes like a ghost and said, "Hehe... But...... If it weren't for that Yu Le'er who went to your office at the right time to die, then Lu Yan wouldn't have had a chance to save the beauty heroically! I always heard Cheng Tao say that in his eyes, Lu Yan was a monster who was not close to women. Think about it, such a rare monster would come forward to protect you and take you away......! Tut-tut......"

Xu Jiannan was so angry that she couldn't laugh or cry: "Hey, why did you change your face so quickly! I was caught off guard! I wanted to persuade you to dissipate your anger, but who knew that in a blink of an eye, you would praise Yu Le Er for doing a beautiful job? Lu Yan just happened to catch up with this incident, probably ...... Out of the embarrassment at the beginning, he was embarrassed to go directly by himself...... "Xu Jiannan didn't know what suitable reason to find.

Chen Fei looked like a person who had come over, raised the corners of his mouth, waved his index finger and said, "No, no, Lu Yan is not the kind of person you said." I've seen a lot of news reports about him, he can force the other party to death in the courtroom, and he is simply a master who doesn't see blood and doesn't withdraw soldiers. Someone like him would feel that he couldn't get by without helping because of a farce? Don't be kidding, it's good if he didn't coldly sarcastically mock the three of you at the time!"

"You...... Not to mention, I think that's his nature. Just that person, talking to him can explode every minute, and it's delusional to keep a good attitude. Xu Jianan rolled his eyes and complained.

Chen Fei smiled again: "Look, the two of you are still very strange, right? Then why did I chat with him all night and we were very pleasant? Not only that, if it wasn't for your market instilling it in me, Lu Yan would definitely give me the impression of being personable." Then why is there such a 'differential treatment' between us?"

"He's targeting me!" Xu Jianan snorted.

"It's also a special one. Jia Nan, I think you can think about it. Chen Fei was interested in holding the red line that was braving sparks.

Xu Jiannan sighed and asked, "Fei Fei, why did you reject Cheng Tao? In addition to the fact that you still can't get out of the shadow of pain, do you feel that even if the reality gap between you will not make you feel inferior, you will always feel unstable." ”

Chen Fei didn't deny it, she just looked at Xu Jiannan and waited for her to continue.