Today, I suddenly didn't know how to start before I felt abrupt. I don't know what your situation is, sometimes I wake up laughing at myself, but if you ask me why I laugh, I can't answer, because I forget what kind of dreams I had in my dreams.

I didn't wake up laughing this morning, I felt like I couldn't wake up if I wanted to, and I had too many dreams. I feel like there are a lot of them, but I only vaguely remember a little bit.

I dreamed that I was pregnant, and it seemed like I was living well in the dream. When I woke up, I was stunned, I have been single for so many years, and I don't have a boyfriend, and I am pregnant, so I am also great.

Later, I looked it up on the Internet, what does it mean for a single girl to dream that she is pregnant? Of course, in today's 21st century, it is still unreliable to talk about superstition or something, but there are some things that you can't explain with scientific methods.

Although I didn't believe it before, after going through some experiences, I still feel that these things left by my ancestors are sometimes really useful.

I went to check, and the answer it gave said that girls who are not in love yet, do their dreams of pregnancy, and the dream is happy, which means that you really want to get happy love, and while you usually envy others, you have it subconsciously

The idea of "it would be nice if I did the same" will be reflected in the dream. How much I want to settle down?

Actually, I also want to stabilize, get married, have children, and someone will give me advice, but no one will stop for me.

Everyone is running for their own future, and they just feel that it is a lot better to pull others down. My high school classmate, a boy, was the president of his student council and my vice president in high school.

Although I later went to university in different cities, I have always been connected. When I went back to Xinjiang last year, I passed by Nanjing, and he invited me and my friends to dinner.

I still have a lot of ideas about the palm treasure he made. The last time I borrowed money from me, I thought that he was not a big spender, so I asked him, why, is he going to buy a house?

He said, yes. Buy in Nanjing. Later, we talked a lot, the house price in Nanjing is more than 20,000, and the housing provident fund + commercial loan combination is bought.

Others are very down-to-earth, and they may not have a good time in the past few years, but they may be better after the loan is repaid in a few years.

Sometimes I still admire him. I've always wanted to buy a house, but due to family reasons, I want to buy a small apartment, and I've never been optimistic.

So it kept dragging. Looks like I'm not decisive enough. A little friend said to me, you may still be dizzy about your life, you don't know what you want to do, so you are not qualified to succeed now, and when you think clearly about what you want to do, you will not be far from success.

There are so many things I want to do, but I just don't dare. Sometimes I wonder if this is the original me, or if it's just a skin like me, but the inner shell has already flown into the clouds and is accompanied by the clouds.

Last time, I wanted to change jobs, and I was afraid that I wouldn't find a better job, so I kept dragging it here, and my little girlfriend said, you are very suitable for sales, why don't you go, I said I'm afraid of failure.

She said that I was scared by society. Actually, no, my familiar friends think I'm very hardworking, only I know that I was forced to do nothing.

Because I have no one to drag me behind my back and give me a cushion, only myself. I was scared sometimes, but I only dared to cry secretly under the covers.

Because no one will relate to you. When I first contacted my college girlfriend, she said what are you doing so hard, although I don't have much money for part-time jobs in college, but it is enough for my own usual expenses, such as signing up for the certificate, I don't need to ask my family for money, I can take out more than 1,000 myself.

I told my brother when I got the license, and my brother teased me and said, you can still get a driver's license like you, I put the driver's license book in front of him, and he was speechless.

I said I was basically a one-time pass, and he never said anything about his driver's license in front of me since.

When I first met my college girlfriend, I was a freshman selling English newspapers in our building, and I remember very well that I bought a copy for 200 yuan and a commission of 30 yuan, which was enough for me to charge the phone bill once.

I actively crawled around in our building, they all thought I was a senior sister, I said that we were a classmate, I lived on this floor, we were classmates or something, just there and talking, I thought I could sell it, but I forgot, their parents are there, you said that the sky, those parents are vegetarian?

People eat more food than you do. Later, I went to find a person who didn't have a parent to recommend, and I found my little friend, as for what the process was like, I don't remember, because I went to every dormitory at that time, and I couldn't remember it if I wasn't familiar with it.

Later, after getting acquainted with her, she said, you were annoying at that time, just selling me newspapers, and I said I wouldn't buy you back.

I said yes? I probably don't remember exactly. She got to know my family later, and she said, it's okay, take your time.

I know her character, she is the kind of person who has a tall person who is not impatient when the sky falls anyway.

In the past few years of staying with her, I have slowly changed my previous temper, and I am really grateful to her.

But she's not me, she hasn't experienced what I've been through, she can't know how unhappy I am, how unhappy I am, she can't empathize.

After that, I just smiled and didn't speak. Later, she broke up with her boyfriend, and every night she hugged me to sleep and was still talking about him, so I comforted her and said it didn't matter, she said, you don't understand, have you ever fallen out of love, how can you understand my feelings.

And then she said, I can finally understand why you said I didn't understand how hard it was for you to say at the time, because I haven't experienced it myself, so I don't understand, just like you don't understand how I feel now.

Yes, I really don't understand what it's like to be out of love, because I don't want to experience it until now.

Maybe the topic is far away, sometimes my idea is actually really simple, have my own home, not too big the kind of home layout according to what I like, maybe there will be photos of the Eiffel Tower everywhere, there are models of the Eiffel Tower at home, puzzles.

The fridge was plastered with pictures of various places we went. There is a large bookshelf at home, which is full of books, and there may be a flower shelf full of flowers and plants.

In my spare time, how nice it is to sit there, bask in the sun, listen to music, read books, and smell the faint fragrance of flowers.

Maybe it's too late in my dreams here, it's already 23:06. It's not early, let's rest early.