Xu Jiannan walked aimlessly on the street, she wanted to think about what to do next. But suddenly encountering such a big event, it is not an exaggeration to say that it is a bolt from the blue, and she needs time to calm down. In the past, at such moments, she would choose to talk to Chen Fei. But at this moment, Chen Fei is on an island in the Indian Ocean, fulfilling her beautiful McDull dream.

As the best best friend, Xu Jiannan is impossible to spoil her interest at such a time. It is even more impossible to spit out bitterness to her at this time. So, the only person she had ever relied on, she gave up asking for help.

said that he was asking for help, but in fact, he just wanted to have someone by his side when he was most miserable and helpless, even if he spoke, to give himself a little strength. For so many years, Xu Jiannan has always faced all the ups and downs alone. But as long as she thinks about her dreams and work, she feels that there is no limit to power. But now...... Her dreams seemed to be collapsing. She recalled that the whole process of doing that appraisal was blurry. She hated herself for not being more rigorous, hating herself for trusting Lin Weizhou and even Yu Le'er too much. She should have strictly adhered to the bottom line, less than 100% sure, and did not determine the result. But......

Walking home in a trance, Xu Jianan sat down on the carpet in the living room, and the whole person curled up in a ball. She calmed herself down, sobered up, and thought about what had gone wrong. Even if you want to be taken to court, there must be a countermeasure. That case...... It was given by Lin Weizhou, and if he wanted to change it, it would be almost a matter of minutes. The whole process ...... Yu Le'er watched it, but did Yu Le'er really change? If she wanted to be framed, she only had to open her mouth and tell a lie. Those community doctors...... Xu Jiannan couldn't figure out where their unexplained disgust came from, but obviously, the people who framed her the most now were those two doctors. Monitoring & Recording...... Today, the investigator says it doesn't exist. All the records in his hands have been completely handed over to Lin Weizhou, and it is easy for him to change them. So...... Who else can be scared of themselves?

Xu Jianan wanted to cry but couldn't, and when he thought of this, he closed his eyes and smiled bitterly. Because, the only person who can prove the whole process for her is the patient, Wu Yong. The only person who could help her was a mentally ill person with psychological problems...... Not to mention whether he is sane or not, even if he is completely sober and clear, and is willing to be a good person to stand up and speak up...... But his suicide and all the previous cases meant that he was incapable of testifying in court. His testimony is inadmissible.

Xu Jiannan felt very cold, she fell to the ground with herself in her arms, feeling like she had stepped into a bottomless abyss. is a psychological worker in vain, but he is easily framed by others, and it seems that there is no room to fight back.

She has always considered herself strong, brave, and tempered. But it turns out that all her thoroughness comes from her profession and work, and in this mixed world, she is clean and open-minded, and she is a complete weakling. She can't fight those bloody wicked, she can't fight Yu Le'er, and she can't fight Lin Weizhou...... The only thing that can make her feel confident is the truth. But will anyone believe the truth? When everybody says that a lie is true, then that lie becomes true. Xu Jiannan was at a loss for words

I feel very helpless. She didn't want to involve Lu Yan, for fear that her emotions would show and be discovered by him, so she held her mobile phone for a whole day and didn't make a call to Lu Yan. From noon to dark. Xu Jiannan opened his eyes again in a daze, and it was dark in front of him. It was already completely dark, and the room was not lit. She was alone in the darkness. She couldn't help but feel scared for the first time after living alone for so many years.

Glancing at the time on my phone, it was already nine o'clock.

I hadn't eaten all day, and my mood was so depressed, Xu Jiannan turned over a little weakly. Suddenly, she knew why she was feeling a little lost now. It's not entirely because of the twists and turns at work, but it's so late now, and Lu Yan didn't call. According to the usual habits, Lu Yan will pick up Xu Jiannan from work on time. When he came out of Jiamei today, Xu Jiannan was almost in a state of despair, forgetting to tell Lu Yan that he was not there. If Lu Yan can't answer her, he should definitely make a phone call. But...... There wasn't a single missed call.

Xu Jiannan even looked at the phone twice to confirm that it was not a problem with the phone. So...... What happened to Lu Yan?

When something like this happened to him, Xu Jiannan was also more worried about Lu Yan, so he didn't think much about it, and dialed Lu Yan's phone. The phone rang a lot, and no one answered. Just when the system was about to hang up automatically, it turned on. Xu Jianan sat up nervously and shouted, "Lu Yan, what's wrong with you?"

But no one spoke on the other end of the phone, Xu Jiannan was very nervous by this strange situation, and said hurriedly: "Lu Yan, you are talking, has something happened?"

There was still no response on the other end of the phone, Xu Jiannan didn't hang up the phone, and waited stubbornly. She was worried, she was afraid, she was more afraid of Lu Yan's accident than she was afraid of her own crisis.

But...... On the other end of the silent phone, there was a faint sound of a woman's laughter. That feels...... It's as if the phone call was being inadvertently overheard, and the sound is vague, but it's real. It was indeed a woman's flirtatious laughter......

Xu Jiannan was stunned as if he had been struck by lightning, and the whole person seemed to have fallen into an ice cave in the harsh winter, and his whole body was cold. Her brain was blank, her stiff and numb hand was still holding the phone, and after hearing the woman's ambiguous laughter again, Xu Jiannan hung up the phone. She threw her phone away like a monster, she was really afraid, she was afraid that if she didn't hang up again, she would hear even more unbearable sounds......

"Don't be too tired, eat obediently, I'll pick you up. ”

"As long as it's you, it's all worth it. ”

"I love you, I want you, so I want to give you the best of everything this time. ”

"Before I met you, I didn't think about who I loved. After meeting you, you are the last person I love. ”

"I'll wait for you, until you want to ......"

The sentence that was once as deep as a promise was like Ling Chi's torture instrument, scraping Xu Jianan's heart over and over again. Even though she was now feeling the pain in her heart, the fragment of that memory still refused to let her go. Xu Jianan

Close your eyes and tilt your head in despair. She didn't want to be suspicious like a resentful woman, but the laughter just now was frivolous and ambiguous, and she really couldn't convince herself that it was an ordinary friend or a work relationship.

Having dealt with so many patients with heart disease due to love, Xu Jiannan always listened to their pain, and then persuaded them to open their hearts in the most scientific way. Now, she's finally getting the feeling...... The feeling of being in pain.

was once betrayed and derailed by Zhang Ke, and Xu Jianan's crying once passed. Probably because I didn't get into my heart...... But now, she can't even cry. Something choked on her throat, she couldn't breathe, she choked up, her eyes were sore and painful, but she couldn't shed a single tear.

A psychologist herself, she knows that this is the first stage of excessive grief in people, denial. The brain knows the facts, but the body doesn't want to admit it. Without tears, it seems that the body can deceive itself as if nothing had happened......

Xu Jianan's hands trembled a little, and she raised her right hand to cover her heart. There, it was as if they were being tortured. She finally understood that "heartache" is really not just an adjective, but does exist. The whole heart seemed to be crushed by an invisible hand, and I could even feel the pain of my heart dripping blood.

It turns out that really loving someone is such a heartache...... It turns out that if you close your eyes and love someone, the result can only be a catastrophe......

In the dark and helpless night, there was not a single light turned on in the room. Xu Jiannan was lying on the carpet in the living room, curled up, staring at the darkness with empty eyes. In one day, her life seemed turned upside down. Profession is questioned, personality is framed, job, future, dreams...... Everything she was trying to pursue was precarious and crumbling. Now, even her last support and sense of security are slowly losing ......

The past conversations and times kept flashing back to his mind, Xu Jianan frowned and closed his eyes, holding his head hard, wanting to throw Lu Yan out of his mind along with the past. However, it did not turn out to be successful. Lu Yan's domineering and handsome face, sometimes affectionate, sometimes sharp eyes, was in front of her eyes, lingering.

"Lu Yan is a male god! Jia Nan, you can be with him?!"

"Don't blame your mother for pouring cold water on you, you have to remember that the better a man is, the more surprises he brings you, the more disappointments he may have, and the more sadness he may have!"

"You like it, others like it too, maybe you like it more than you! Too good a man, can you guarantee that he can resist a ** crazy bee wave butterfly?"

"A person like Lu Yan, how can he be sincere to you. ”

Xu Jianan's mind felt like it was about to explode, the cold water splashed by her mother, the reminders of friends, and even Lin Weizhou's malicious assertions all appeared in her mind in an instant. The trust she had insisted on, the self-righteousness that she had ignored the reminders of others again and again, had now turned into a resounding slap in the face and a slap in her heart. All the goodness of Lu Yan, all the excellence, and the eyes of other women who she can ignore on weekdays looking at him are particularly clear and dazzling at this moment.