p. 200.

"I don't know if I made the right choice, I don't know if my choice means that there will be a big deviation in my life, I don't know if one of my decisions today will have a big impact on my future, but I know that I can't make more choices now, I know that I can't avoid too many now

I know that my mother needs my mother, he has raised me for so many years, he needs me to do more things, I know that I can't be too selfish at this time, because my selfishness may lead to any problems that arise in my mother, then I can't forgive myself like this, I know that I really do this kind of thing, I have done everything I can to do it, I should have made more choices at this time.

I'm sorry, the decision I made today, I know that all my things have reached a point where it is impossible to reconcile, I know that I have reached the point where anyone may feel that my behavior is unacceptable, because I am going to take the college entrance examination soon, but now I have to give a job to support my mother.

So I'm sorry Fei Yan I know that my choice may be very selfish, I'm sorry, my choice may make you feel that you can't accept this matter, but I know that I can't help but do this......

Alas, tell me what to do, I know I don't know how to deal with it, I know that my life has won an important level, I know that no matter what I do, you can't understand me, but I must you understand, what kind of choice I make, what kind of judgment I make, I really don't need to, I know now that I have to grit my teeth and keep moving forward, this is the most important thing for me. ”

p. 300.

"I know I need to say goodbye at this time, and I know that my farewell at this time will be very difficult.

I know that I should have too much of this attachment with you at this time, I am very nostalgic for campus life, I am very nostalgic.

I've changed dramatically in my life, but there's no way for me to continue with this thing.

I know that there are too many unpredictable futures in my life, I am overdrawing my life, I know that I can't do anything about this thing, I feel that a lot of things in this future are lost.

But I really have more options for this kind of thing, no.

Today I told Fei Yan for the first time I refused to do so, and I told him these things for the first time, I knew that he was going to take me abroad, and I knew that he had arranged all these things for me.

But I really can't leave my mother at this time, and my mother really needs me, so I will hesitate to refuse, and I see that his face is that kind of disappointment that I can't put into words.

I really had a sense of guilt that I couldn't go to, maybe my thing really deserved to make such a choice?

I don't know, maybe one day I might revisit one of the choices I have today

But I still tell myself that I have no regrets, because at this time the wheel of fate has moved against me that I will not reverse. ”

The last page.

"I'm leaving, my contract for today is all settled, there is no way to change these things, if you choose to tear it up in this contract.

Then I mean that I can compensate a huge amount of money, I know this thing is not something I can afford, but I actually don't have too many regrets, maybe I don't regret it because I really love this acting career.

I believe that we will be able to do what we like to do in this acting career, and we will definitely be able to show the kind of love we want to show.

No matter what happens to me in this thing, I'm going to interpret the best situation in this way.

I know this thing can be difficult, but I'm going to stick to it, I don't know what the road ahead will be, I don't know what kind of options the future will have for me.

I know this thing, I don't have this thing at all, I don't know this thing, no matter what kind of situation I choose, what kind of one I choose, I believe that these things are beautiful.

I'm sure this kind of stuff won't be too me, maybe it's actually very difficult for me.

But I will definitely persevere, come on Ou Ruoxi!

Goodbye is logistics, I know this time can be cruel for you, I don't know if you can hear my heart calling now, maybe you are already in a sun.

Maybe you've flown over, maybe you've come to a country you like, maybe you're free to enjoy the sunshine you deserve, maybe you can enjoy all the beauty of your life.

But I know this thing, I have no way to accompany you, I just want everyone to have their own life choices for themselves, your life choices, I hope you are all right.

I want you to be happy with your lifestyle, and I know this must be one of your favorite studies.

I know that you will definitely know what you want at this time, but I'm sorry I can't be with you anymore at this time, I can't be the scenery in your life at this time,

We have missed a lot of the good things in life, just like we just miss out forever, there is no need to dwell too much on things.

After the New Year, we will look back and think about it, maybe all of this is a very simple and beautiful thing, and I hope that all these things will become a very common and beautiful memory for us.

I want our friendship to last forever, and of course I wouldn't want anything like that, because things really don't exist.

I know that when all this happens, all the situations will not exist, and it will be the most beautiful thing, because this thing does not have a simple ending.

Maybe one of our existences is originally for the better expectation of the future, I believe that on a good day in the future, we may be able to meet, or maybe we can't believe it, everyone knows this.

God doesn't know why I bother with this thing, the process of struggling, I don't care what happens to this thing

But I know that I will definitely work hard in this process, and I am very quietly pursuing the best and best expectations in this life!

Fei Yan, I believe that everyone does not have their own lives, and I will not think about this again for today.

Because I have my own new life to think about, I have my own things I want to do to do, and I have more responsibilities and obligations to work hard.

I can't disturb my emotions now because of this thing, I know this thing is cruel to me.

But I know there could be more of a situation with this thing, but I guess this thing is whatever it is.

Then it's a very important thing for all of us. ”

This passage is all the people, and they themselves record all the bits and pieces of life in themselves.

This is all the good memories of Ou Ruoxi, of course, for herself, these things have become the past.

This thing, no matter what happens, this thing no longer exists, and this thing has become a thing of the past.

It doesn't make much sense for you to be doubting that thing right now, because this thing doesn't matter what happens to you.

It's all in the past.

Ou Ruoxi closed the notebook clearly, its big and small things in the past may be just a recorded moment in his life for him.

But in this kind of life, he should not only be his own kind of thing, but also become that kind of beautiful thing, no matter how you think about it, you may really be addicted to the past.

In fact, it was a good start between him and Fei Yan, but such a deplorable ending is really regrettable.

And after this incident, he really felt that sometimes he was really too wishful thinking.

Or they don't understand the essence of life at all, they don't understand a character of human nature at all, and they don't understand that life is so unkind.

At this time, Ou Ruoxi looked at all the rooms in these rooms, and all the things really remained the same for a lifetime.

Mother cleaned up all these things, it seems that the mother is really very melancholy about her departure, her own departure,

Or that the mother really still treats herself as a child, so there is no need to interfere in all her lives.

She didn't touch all the things in her room, and she kept them the same, which shows that her mother misses herself a kind of time, and how deep she misses herself.

I've been working hard for so many years in this world, and a lot of things just don't come to naught.

didn't achieve what he wanted, and it could be regarded as going around in circles, and for so many years, he didn't have an idea of his mother at all.

So after so many years of hard work, it is actually just a long sky.

He saw every part of the room by default, and every place carried with it a very fond memory, and these fond memories carried with him the happiest time of his childhood.

And this kind of happy life is accompanied by the mother, such a place for some of the mother's life, and in the process of being there, there is really no way to miss it, because the mother has paid too much to herself.

And with our mother's dedication and persistence to herself, then there is no way for me to become my true self at all, so although I haven't achieved too much success today.

But all this is inseparable from the mother's care and companionship for her own growth.

What do you say in your heart, they really can come to these in the past, it is really a kind of companionship for their mother, it is indeed too little, if they can accompany their mother more over the years.

In fact, the mother's condition may recover faster, but because of her own reasons, her mother's body has not been fully recovered.

So I feel really guilty, if it weren't for the fact that my mother would have been able to recover so normally in the past two years.

So he Ou Ruoxi's heart is still so painful, maybe this thing can be wrong, maybe there can be a chance to turn back.

Then I should accompany my mother more in the future to my mother's body, and I really can't have any delay.

Ou Ruoxi sat on his own stool, he looked at the books, those books seemed to be the secretary of the high school college entrance examination, it seemed that his mother didn't even throw away this kind of thing.

Mother, probably how much nostalgia for the past is a deep memory.

His mind went back to the past, then the good things that had been, if the relationship between the time and the affairs, if not, that step, maybe everything was very beautiful.

But there are some things that you don't care how big an accident you have in the past, how big an idea you have in the past, for example, or how big an idea you have, but things really happen, and he thinks that sometimes the relationship with Fei Yan.

He doesn't want to have too much discussion, he doesn't want to have too many drawbacks, since something has happened, what kind of thing do you want to do, it's not that you imagine I don't want to end it.

There are many things that he has always existed in the past, and he already has an indescribable kind of unforgettable existence in your life, and it is impossible for you to veto it with what kind of thing at this time.

It's there in itself, and if you feel like there's more to doing anything, you're going to feel a lot of things.

It's just a joke.

Ou Ruoxi's mother cooked the meal, and he remembered to follow Ou Ruoxi directly to the group leader and said happily.

"Good daughter, I'll make the meal now, hurry up and eat, don't wait for half an hour to be cold, the current meal is just right, the most suitable for you to grind, this is your favorite thing, hurry up, this thing is your favorite thing, these are sweet and sour pork ribs and a lot of spicy tang, some mash sugar water, some beef, some shredded potatoes, and potato rice, these are what you like to eat, but the mother who came up with it in your heart made a bunch of delicious things for you at this time, you just make this thing delicious, and then we may be very happy and eat this thing." This is my best safety, and then we talk together, watch TV together, we go for a walk together, swim to a lot of places to have fun, and you just stay with her mother for a few days. ”

A kind mother is very happy, she is really about her daughter coming back, she doesn't know why.

She felt very happy, she saw her daughter now, of course she was very happy, because the mother will always care about your child the most, and the mother will always be the most tenacious and good protection in the child's heart.

If I don't have a mother, I really don't know how to go, how to persevere, and I really don't know how to stick to things, because of my development in the entertainment industry.

Everything has to be very apprehensive in the process, and if it weren't for the fact that you've brought yourself to work now, how could you have made so many things, because of the way you did.

Assurance is looking at one more situation.

"I'll sit down with my mother to eat, you see you have made so many dishes today, you are the hardest, I want to live a good life with my mother, I want to learn from my mother the way my mother cooks, do you know my mother? I miss you every day, cooking, if I don't get your food, I won't be able to eat at all, I'm very happy today, I finally went to dinner with my mother, great, I'm still to my mother, we'll go to a movie together later, we can also go and chat, our black ones aren't as good as before, okay?"

Ou Ruoxi's mother is happy, she is happy with her eyes, she really feels that this kind of can't give you a happy feeling.

She feels as if she is full of happiness in all her current situation, and her daughter is happy now.

His daughter is happy now, and this is the best one.

"Okay, okay, let's have dinner and go chat, do you want to have a glass of wine today, then your mother bought you a bottle of wine, I know you may not usually like to drink, but what, today's good day, why does my daughter have to drink a glass of wine with her mother when she comes back, and we celebrate and celebrate, what do you think?"

"I've been drinking, I haven't been drinking with my mother for many years, my mother may be better than me, if we can get drunk today, I can go to dinner with my mother today......"

Both of them sat down and ate these meals in a hearty manner, which was very valuable for one of their teams.

Because Ou Ruoxi has been working hard outside, and sometimes there are some scripts that he can't leave at all, although he is just a tricky character.

It may be a female with two women with three women, but some things are not what you imagine you can leave, because she really feels a little lacking after all, and she chooses such a life.

It's not a 9-to-5 life, and some things are not up to me at all, although I don't want to make this thing at all.

But there are some things that you don't care how you choose and how to do them, of course, it is impossible to choose and cooperate by yourself and give up.

There are some things that you have to do according to this understanding, and there are things that you don't have the means to make more choices.

But you have to go up step by step.

"You tell me if you're busy during this time? Do you have any other good friends, do you have any other good friends, do you have to think about a boyfriend, at this time you should be able to have more choices, you see a child next to you and a classmate, they all have boyfriends, they are all married, you can think about your life last semester, sometimes not necessarily a job in life, in fact, there are many things that can be done in addition to work, you don't manage yourself too strictly, and don't let yourself really have too much life in the process, and there is still a lot of life in life?"

Ou Ruoxi's mother is still worried about this Ou Ruoxi's emotional problems, she thinks this thing is no matter what.

It seems that there should be more choices for this matter, or more situations have arisen.

"Mother, you don't have to worry too much, these things won't be considered, but now you haven't reached fate. ”