The mother and daughter walked happily in the direction of the house, and they were chatting all the way.

It's as if there are endless topics to talk about along the way. Of course this is the case, my daughter is also coming back, this is the happiest thing, Zheng Dong is happy for nothing more than anything.

When Ou Ruoxi hadn't walked to the door of the room at home, she smelled a very strong smell of vegetables, my God, it was really inextricably linked, it was really the smell that I imagined.

It tastes really good.

It was the same feeling as when she was a child, and at this time she couldn't help but rush straight in.

Ou Ruoxi's mother gently patted Ou Ruoxi's shoulder and said with very kind eyes.

"What's the matter? Why is my little gluttonous cat still here? All the things for today are basically prepared, what's wrong? It's so big and big, don't you know what's going on in your house? Come into the room quickly, follow me at the door like asking the greedy cat to smell a cat, hurry in and come in, our little baby is coming back, this smell must have been prepared by our little baby." ”

When Ou Ruoxi smiled brightly, she saw her mother's loving look, and she was really moved in her heart.

It turns out that it feels so good to go home, and it is because after returning home that I feel a kind of pause of a prodigal son after wandering around outside, and let myself feel this kind of unparalleled feeling of happiness.

It's because of such things that I can get more of a kind of happiness in this kind of thing, no matter what kind of thing happens.

Whatever the situation may be with this kind of thing.

However, what this kind of thing really is a kind of happy pleasure that you feel in your heart.

Ou Ruoxi smiled brightly, and put her arm around her mother's shoulders and gave her a very happy and hearty smile, and this kind of thing was really a happy pleasure that she had never had.

"I know that my mother is the best mother to me, everything given to me is the best, these things are things I can't think of, okay, mother, I really want to eat a lot of things today, I must let go of my belly, what to eat to lose weight or not to lose weight, what to hell with what to keep in shape, I want to eat these things well today, eat as much as you want, don't turn yourself into a big fat!"

As soon as she entered the room in the house, her mother immediately put on her apron and began to get busy.

And my mother is very good at cooking a lot of dishes in this area, although my mother is not very good and rarely cooks.

But why do you have to cook when your own woman comes back, right?

This is a matter of course, if you can't even do this kind of thing, then how can you be a good example of a mother.

Ou Ruoxi stopped her mother at this time, as if she wanted to have a competitive relationship with her mother.

"Mother has a hard tomorrow, can I cook this day? I can cook a lot of delicious food, you know I cook a lot of that kind of Thai food outside, I'm very good at making steak now, I like the taste of curry very much, if I like to cook every day, if I like to eat it, I can make it." ”

Her mother smiled, she really appreciated the feeling of her daughter growing up.

"Okay, okay, you can do this thing, but it's not today, it's your mother who will do it, tomorrow you will do it, I also want to eat Thai food, I have never eaten Thai food, and I have never tried any curry taste, will I go tomorrow, it used to be my daughter back, my baby daughter came back, it may be to eat a home-cooked meal comfortably, that is the real thing quickly, you know that work is very tiring, you are so tired of wandering outside now, finally come back to eat a meal made by your mother, your mother will quickly cook a meal for you, hurry up and wash your hands like a child." ！”

Ou Ruoxi's mother didn't give Ou Ruoxi any helpers in the kitchen at all, in fact, in her opinion, everything her daughter had was everything she thought was the best.

How could she be willing to let her daughter come into the kitchen and work on things?

Fortunately, my daughter is wandering outside and working hard for a lot of things, and she pays a lot of money on time every month.

Only then did this family support it, and there weren't too many people in this family who could make money.

Because of his own health, there is no way to earn more money, and he has relied on women for so many years.

Being able to work hard outside, in fact, the most tired person is there and thinks it's my daughter.

Ou Ruoxi put her luggage in the room, and she saw that everything in this room seemed to have not begun to happen, and every time she changed, everything was the same as when she left.

Everything is exactly the same, even the covers, even the books, even the flowers and plants are exactly the same there.

It's a bit like I suddenly go back to the old days, and I don't change myself, as if I'm still the same student I was back then.

It seems that I can't go to school to participate in a self-study and then come back.

But there are some things, so after all, they have been ruthlessly replaced, and some things are things that can no longer be changed, these things have happened, no matter how much it has used the beautiful past.

It's a kind of great change that has happened in the past, and such things have really become the past and will always be restored.

But there is only one thing that can never be changed, and that is family affection, so for you to go to family affection.

That's the kind of attachment you have for your home, and these things can never be changed.

And this thing is something that my mother gave me.

She touched her notebook, as if it was in that drawer, as if no one had touched it forever, not really, just a faint layer of dust.

That's a sign of respect that my mother gave herself.

Because my mother never touched this notebook, this is her own diary of coming true, and this diary records a lot of memories of her growth.

A lot of troubles encountered in the process, annoyed that the mother would never touch her, so she stayed there quietly.

She even felt that the existence of these things was a kind of sacrifice of her own.

She gently let go of this notebook, this kind of refill is straight like a magic spell, and gently activates the dust of memories of the past.

The first chapter reads:

"But I was very happy one day, I don't know why I was so worried in my heart, I don't know why I suddenly fell in love with a boy, just like that he sat in front of me, why did he often poke my back with a pen Why did he often make me angry, I don't know why, but I was very angry, but he gave me a lot of delicious food on the second day, should I be angry or not, but I know that many girls in our class like him, but what should I do？”

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"I didn't do well in the exam today, I'm very depressed, my math has always been a subject that I have been very difficult to grasp, you know I've tried all my best to do these things, I know these things are important to me, but I don't know how I can master this method of learning math, I used to be a top student when I was in junior high school, why came here, I have such an ugly grasp of the difficulty of mathematics, and then this boy he helped me, he is called Fei Yan. ”

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"I'm really sad today, because I don't know why my classmates launched such an attack on me, I don't know that their comments will cause me a lot of trouble, these things are really not what they imagined, my mother is not such a person, my mother is a very great person, but they use such a confusion to slander my mother, slander my life, I know, I feel that I am very lonely in this school, I don't know how to deal with me, although I want to fight hard, I want to express my emotions, but they are simply my enemyThey don't give my poor children a chance at all......"

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"Today is a new day, today is another exam day, I don't know why, I'm very disappointed today, I'm sad, but why has this boy been paying attention to me, I don't know why, when I suddenly looked back at him, I could meet his eyes, as if he had been silently paying attention to me, in fact, why didn't I pay attention to him silently, was it because I had watched him for too much time, and the splash was captured by him such an emotion? I saw a certain cunning in his eyes, and I knew that I had been caught by this hunter at this time,

It's really hard for me to know these things, and I know that I shouldn't believe them, and I shouldn't deal with them, because they aren't real, and how could he like a girl like me, and I'm not from the same class as them.

They are all rich people here, they are all children of rich people, they don't bother about money at all, all of them may be bothered because they have too much money, people like me will be bothered because they don't have money, I know that I can't squander the nurturing education that my mother gave me, I should believe that my mother is now in the process of raising me to do those things.

But why does this boy keep paying attention to me, in fact, I don't know how I should face him, I know I can't face it, because I have an indescribable feeling of joy in my heart, but I am afraid that I am afraid of being hurt, I am afraid that others will laugh at me, I am afraid that I will become someone else's bet, I am afraid that I am a bargaining chip for them, and I am even more afraid that they will treat me as a monster. It is. So if you come back。 ”

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"Finally he asked me out, he finally told me those inexplicable things, he said he liked to play with me, he said he liked to talk to my sister, but I don't know why all this happened today, when I suddenly ran to the rooftop, I felt that the sky was about to fall, he actually came up with me, what was he doing in the process? Why did he say the same, why did he do this so well to me, I don't know, did he have an intention?

If he hadn't been jealous of why he had treated me the way he had done to me, would I have become the object of their mockery? But was it true that he told me he liked me? No I didn't believe it, I don't think it was possible for me to have such a good boy like me in my life, he was so good, so good that it was impossible for me to accept such a Cinderella.

I even have a little bit of prayer, even a little bit of extravagance, I even feel that mine can move him, I even feel that if he can see me, he can tell me that he likes me, I feel that this is the happiest and brightest moment in my life, I know that this kind of thing is really important to me, without him, I feel that my life must not be perfect, I feel that my life must be a very painful darkness......

Come on, Ou Ruoxi, I believe that you will definitely be able to get a good score in the exam, as long as you do well in the exam and can be admitted to a good university, your life will change a lot!

Come on Ou Ruoxi, believe in yourself!"

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Today he was waiting for me downstairs at the door of my house, he said that he wanted to ask me to go to a movie, I felt as if I didn't know why, I felt very lonely and difficult to excrete, but when I went down the stairs, I actually saw a familiar back.

God, have you finally touched you? God, have you finally given me this feeling? I finally saw Fei YanYes, he was standing under the plane tree waiting for me, and when I looked at him forever at the moment when he stood under the plane tree, it was as if God gave me a New Year's gift!

It's like he's one of the people in my life, and it's impossible to ignore an important human right, and he told me that he really liked me, and we started I was really scared, I don't know if this kind of thing should be like this, but I love his Kiss very much......

It's really beautiful and sweet, really, I don't know if I'm really in love, he really won't treat me as a toy to treat him, he will treat me as a very simple person, why did I give him such an important kiss, this is my first love kiss

Regardless of it, those things are gone, the most important thing now is that I love him, I love him deeply, this is the most important thing, I finally know that my life is so perfect, I finally feel that there is so much sunshine and splendor in my life, because his presence makes me feel a very indescribable feeling of happiness Yes, I love him, I love him, he is a poison in my life that I cannot overcome......"

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"What should I do? How do I choose the future of my life, this thing I can't choose, one is my mother, my mother is sick, she is in poor health now, and the family does not have much income, and now I am facing the situation of studying in a noble school, I know that I should not delay my mother, but my mother's current body can not be delayed again, in fact, the most important thing for my mother is to maintain nutrition, if what I do now I should protect my mother, now that I have grown up, isn't it time for me to really protect my mother？

Today I met a so-called person in the entertainment industry, and he told me that if I can perform well, I can sign a contract, and then I can earn a salary, and then I can bring some nutrition to my mother, and then my mother can get a physical recovery.

But I'm entangled, I'm scared, I don't know what to do, I'm not even 18 years old, I know I like acting, I like acting, I like dancing, I like this beautiful thing, I love Fei Yan even more.

But God, I really can't be too selfish, if I'm selfish at this time, I'll be more selfish to my mother, and my mother really hopes that I need a real life, what I can do now is to have to sign this work, what I'm doing now is that I have to enter the showbiz, and I can get a penny at this time, maybe I can balance my relationship with my family.

I'm sorry, Fei Yan, I'm sorry, I can't help but make such a choice, my choice is cruel, this choice is cruel, but I'm sorry, I really can only choose like this, because there are too many decisions in my life that I can't make, I have too many responsibilities and obligations in my life, my life is not only because of your love, my life contains inseparable family affection......

God, tell me what to do, how am I going to deal with this stuff......"

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"Today I have a lot of trouble, I have a big entanglement, I really shouldn't deal with it, today fifteen or sixteen told me that he was going abroad, he said that he could help my sister get a visa when he went abroad, he said to go abroad with me, he will help me deal with some things, will take me to study abroad, after three years we can go back to China, we can rebuild our own small family, we can use our own life, I sounded how happy I was, how excited I was, but can I tell him that I really may not be able to do it, because I really can't do something, because I can't ignore me, and my mother, my mother needs me。

But I can't tell him all this I'm sorry, I really can't tell Fei Yan, because I can't affect his future development because of my family, I know that he loves me, he is sincere to me, and I also believe that he has no regrets about these things for me, I know, but we are both too young, I am not sure if his decision is the right one?

At that time, I wasn't sure if my decision was the right one, but there was no way, because our lives are really different lives, we choose different paths in life, maybe this is that we can't have more of a balance, maybe we are really like two parallel lines, never to intersect again?

Goodbye, Fei Yan, goodbye, you are my eternal lover, you will always be my lover in my mind, and you will always occupy a position in my mind that cannot be made public.

I love you, Fei Yan...... May you be well. ”