Xu Jiannan never thought that Wang Le would be sober to this point. He was able to analyze everything that he saw with his eyes very clearly. This is completely different from the situation in the case, because it is recorded in the medical record that Wang Le did not even recognize his mother, and he was attacked several times. But just now, he clearly remembered everything, and could even think of Lu Yan's mother's character and possible behavior.

"Wang Le, if it weren't for your diagnosis report and your abnormal emotional lack of thinking, I would really suspect that you are a normal person. Since we have said this, why don't we talk about your childhood? Before meeting you, I heard Lu Yan say that when you were a child, you were the focus wherever you went. After meeting you, I felt that what he said was not an exaggeration. Now, if you are willing to get out of the mental hospital, I think you are still the focus. Xu Jiannan said this very sincerely, wanting to give Wang Le the confidence to live a normal life step by step.

Wang Le dragged his head with one hand, thought for a while, and said: "The focus of what you said is this face, right? Sometimes, if you pretend to be an identity for a long time, you will feel that you may be that person. ”

Obviously, Wang Le doesn't care much about his "advantage", and probably won't be confident in this advantage. So Xu Jianan changed direction and said: "When you met Lu Yan when you were a child, you must not be what you are now. At that time, you wouldn't have thought of you today, and he probably wouldn't know who he is today. This is the impermanence of life. But don't you think that making the right choice in impermanence is the right direction for a person?"

Wang Le nodded, and followed Xu Jianan's words: "Yes, you are right. But who should judge whether this is right or wrong? We all make decisions that we think are right, and we will have our own results. My mom thought it was right to cheat on her neighbor, so she got into the man's bed. My dad felt that it was right not to divorce and drink to relieve his sorrows, so he drank himself to death. Those so-called good people who will help me and care about me will do something to me because they think it is not wrong to molest a teenager. My stepfather probably thought that boys didn't taste the same as middle-aged women, so he attacked me and threatened me with my mother. My mom probably didn't know about these things, so she thought it was right for her to remarry, so she would keep following that brute. In order to get rid of this trouble, I felt that it was right to find a girlfriend, so I found a scammer. Later, she persuaded me to leave here and fly away, which I thought was right, so I ended up with nothing. Dr. Xu, we have never made a decision that we thought was wrong. It's like you think it's right to work hard to save me for Lu Yan's sake now, so you sit opposite me regardless of the danger. Until the moment I pounce and kill you, neither you nor Lu Yan will feel that there is a problem with your choice, am I right?"

Xu Jiannan listened to Wang Le's calm expression with some surprise, but his heart had already begun to surge. Because in the medical records and the general situation that Lu Yan knew, Xu Jiannan didn't know that Wang Le had suffered such humiliation and torture. No wonder he was not only confident in his appearance, but also a little disgusted.

originally thought that his experience was already very sympathetic, but I didn't expect that there would be such an unknown inside story, so it is not difficult to understand Wang Le's schizophrenia. He tries to survive in the predicament of no choice, but in the end it seems that no matter how he chooses, it is desperate and wrong.

When it comes to such an unbearable past, the emotions of normal people should be anger, sadness, and pain. But Wang Le's expression was calm, as if he was talking about what he ate yesterday, what he ate the day before yesterday, and what he ate today......

It couldn't be more bland.

Such an abnormal emotional indifference is not only directed at others, but also at himself. Although it is impossible to verify it now, Xu Jiannan is almost certain that Wang Le's tolerance for pain must be amazing. He didn't care how his body was hurt and tortured, and he couldn't scream at the pain. It is the numbness caused by the unbearable pain and torture that has been suppressed for a long time.

For such patients, the biggest difficulty is that it is difficult to influence them with empathy. Because no matter what Xu Jianan says, Wang Le will not feel like he has been poked in his heart. If you can't touch his heart, you can't untie his heart knot.

Xu Jiannan lowered his head and said in a soft voice: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry for what you've experienced." Yes, none of us can empathize. ”

Wang Le, who was indifferent after saying so much, suddenly changed at this moment. His uninhibited smile condensed on his face, and his eyes changed when he looked at Xu Jianan.

Xu Jiannan also made a lot of determination when she said this, because she was not sure whether her choice was right or not. The moment she realized that Wang Le had changed, she was actually ready to defend herself. She didn't know if Wang Le was enraged or if she felt something else. So I can only stay calm and carefully observe the changes in him.

It's just that Wang Le didn't make any other moves except for the evil smile that he had worn all the time disappeared. He looked at Xu Jiannan expressionlessly, his eyes were a little hollow.

Xu Jiannan had a little bottom in her heart, she slowly suppressed her tone, looked directly at Wang Le and said, "You don't laugh, is it because you found out, in fact, there is nothing funny at all." You have suffered so much, so much pain and torture that ordinary people cannot understand, but no one has ever said sorry to you......"

"Heh......" Wang Le sneered indifferently, did not speak, did not refute. As if this laughter didn't make any sense.

Xu Jianan silenced the atmosphere for a moment, giving himself and Wang Le time to think a little, and then continued: "Actually, your heart has never wanted to hurt anyone. You may not even really blame the person who caused you harm. What you can't understand is why there is so much injustice in this world, and it is brought to you by the people closest to you. Mother's betrayal, father's alcoholic violence, stepfather's obscene insults, girlfriend's deception hurt. These should be the people closest to you, but without exception, they have brought you the deepest harm. However, no one said sorry to you and made you suffer. ”

Judging from the huge change that Wang Le no longer laughs, Xu Jiannan feels that he is really the right one to invest in medicine this time. She thinks that Wang Le's schizophrenia is very special, but it is also very peculiar. He can clearly remember that Lu Yan's mother cared for him when he was a child, remembered Lu Yan's appearance when he was a child, and remembered the interpersonal relationships of adults at that time.

This means that Wang Le has been an emotionally delicate child since he was a child. Then, a person with delicate emotions, needless to say, has many advantages. But the shortcomings are very fatal to themselves. That is, the more delicate, the more sensitive.

For example, for the same injury or shadow, the person with thicker nerves will be angry for a while, and may even feel that it is not a matter at all, let alone extend to themselves more other pain through the pain itself.

But people who are too delicate and sensitive are different, they think more and are more sad. is like Wang Le's mother cheating and betraying his father, which led to the breakdown of the family. People with rough minds will blame their mothers, they will get angry, and they may feel that they have nothing to do with themselves. But a delicate and sensitive child like Wang Le will begin to doubt humanity and marriage because of his mother's infidelity and betrayal. They will begin to question that if their parents are like this, other people's marriages must be so bad. The mother was supposed to be the most holy, noble and inviolable image in the eyes of a child, but the image of infidelity pulled the mother down from the altar. Wang Lehui subconsciously believes that all women are unfaithful. The more he got used to seeing his mother's disguise on weekdays, the more he would suddenly realize after the truth was revealed: Oh, that's just it. It turns out that this is the truth.

This also led to why he later sympathized more with his father, even if his father, who was addicted to alcohol and had a changed temperament, beat and scolded him, but his heart was definitely still biased towards his father.

According to Lu Yan's previous understanding, he said that Wang Le's father would say sorry to his son over and over again in a moment of soberness. This process probably also laid the foundation for Wang Le's compensation for pain during that special period. The more pain he experienced, the more he felt that the world was unfair.

Perhaps, all he wanted was a "sorry" at first.

Of course, Xu Jiannan also knows very well that he is sorry to him now, and it doesn't play a big role. It's been too long, and some of the scars, although deep, have become numb. It is impossible for Wang Le to become a normal person because of Xu Jianan's apology, and it will take a complicated and long process to make him fully recover. But being able to impress him, even if it was only for a moment, was a very successful start.

Wang Le's current appearance is like this, in Xu Jianan's opinion, he is a severe depressed patient. Most people with schizophrenia experience significant feelings of depression and anxiety over the course of the disease, especially in the early and later stages of the disease. Such emotions are often ignored among clinicians and family members, resulting in a growing condition. Depression in people with schizophrenia is part of the disease, but also because of the effects of the disease itself, as well as the side effects of some medications. The medicine for the treatment of this disease, Wang Le naturally did not take less. Persistent inhibition of dopamine, although it did not make him mentally diminished, may have made his depression worse.