Chapter 113: Sweet Dreams
Because Xu Jiannan was distracted for a moment, Bai Ling slowly opened his eyes. She looked at Xu Jianan with a smile on her eyebrows, and asked with some doubts: "Doctor Xu, what's wrong, why are you looking at me like this and not talking?"
Xu Jianan came back to her senses and asked Bai Ling softly, "You said that you often have some dreams about your husband, and besides, there are many sweet husband and wife affairs, right?"
Bai Ling blushed slightly and said, "Well, yes......"
"It's so real, so real that your body can feel it clearly, right?" Xu Jiannan continued.
Bai Ling was a little embarrassed, but her smile was even sweeter, and she whispered, "Yes...... I feel like I'm half-asleep, my consciousness is awake, so everything I do, my body feels it. ”
Xu Jianan lowered her head, and for the first time, she felt that communicating with the patient and letting her understand the condition was a cruel and courageous thing. She sighed quietly and said, "That's because you hypnotized yourself, and you entered a hypnotic state." Not entirely conscious, but not entirely asleep. Dreams generally appear in the light sleep period, nightmares generally appear in the deep sleep period, and this kind of sentient dream of yours is in the ...... Hypnotism. ”
"Hypnosis?" Bai Ling said in disbelief, "Can I actually hypnotize myself?" Ha, Dr. Xu, don't tease me. I don't know hypnosis and I don't understand psychology. And...... It's just normal sleep, so why should I let myself fall into hypnosis?"
Xu Jianan looked at Bai Ling and said with some difficulty: "Actually, you are not confused at all, you understand everything clearly...... Isn't it?"
Bai Ling's eyes flashed with panic, and the uneasiness flashed for a moment, and then he looked at Xu Jianan calmly and asked, "I...... Understand what?"
“...... Understand that what you love is not human at all. Xu Jiannan said this fact with some difficulty.
Bai Ling's eyes widened suddenly, but she was not angry or angry, nor was she in a hurry to deny it. Instead, after looking at Xu Jiannan for a while, he asked, "Doctor Xu, what are you...... Where do these come from?"
Everyone thinks that when a psychiatrist treats a patient, he mainly comforts, encourages and advises the patient. But this is a complete misunderstanding. This is only necessary for underage or immature patients. Under normal circumstances, a psychologist would not play the role of a patient's life coach. The most important thing they should do is to enable the patient to face the problem clearly and independently.
For example, a patient like Bai Ling, she is smart and knowledgeable, sober and rational enough. At this time, if you want to play her life coach, you may be taught a lesson by her. The point is that there is no benefit to her condition. Then, what Xu Jiannan has to do now is to let her face her illusion independently. Even, whether she wants to choose independently, live in a dream or in reality. No one is qualified to decide whose life it is, and neither is a psychiatrist.
Therefore, Xu Jiannan calmly explained to Bai Ling: "I'm sorry that I have to use such rude words to explain the facts, but the person you love, your husband, is indeed not human." First of all, your family environment and childhood experiences have caused you a lot of trauma, and this trauma is persistent and hidden deep in the subconscious. You may feel that you are plain and indestructible to grow up, but in fact, those deep scars in your subconscious have never healed. To put it bluntly, those wounds will not heal at all until the end of our lives. But we have the right to choose to reconcile with our past experiences, so that those injuries can be subconsciously separated, and they will not hurt when we think about them, and they will hurt when we touch them, so that they will affect our real life and future life. But obviously, Bai Ling, you didn't choose to reconcile with the past. Your choice is to completely close yourself off. You don't like strangers, you don't like to deal with people, I don't think you like familiar people very much, and the reason why you feel that writing is the only job you can do is because it allows you to isolate yourself and let yourself live in your own fantasies and creations. Judging from what we said, the only person you have a crush on from the bottom of your heart is your grandfather, who has passed away. Other than that, there is no one who makes you feel warm psychologically. In such a situation, as a psychiatrist, I have a hard time believing that you can fall in love with a man. Secondly, it is your words that have more than once stated that "I have lived alone for a long time", "I have forgotten my fears", "He was with me in the most difficult years", "I think about him, I feel that I can bear all the pain". Bai Ling, you see, every word of your word is revealing a message, that is, you are alone. You also said that you have nothing behind you, how dare you not be strong? So, if you really have such a perfect husband by your side, how can you have the feeling that there is nothing behind you? Moreover, all your expressions are to say, he accompanies you, he looks at you, he gives you, and so on. I can understand that all the painful experiences, all the sorrows and fears, are experienced by you alone, and your lover is a bystander, and his role is to accompany you to carry the past. This does not exist in real life. When two people live together or manage a marriage, it must be a state of symbiosis in many aspects, and it is impossible for one party to be completely alone, to cherish you, care for you, and accompany you from the perspective of God. That's why I say, the person you love is not a living person at all. I don't know what he is, but there must be such a carrier substitute so that you can imagine this love, so that you can feel that he is all your sustenance and support. Speaking of your dreams, why do you fall into self-hypnosis to achieve your dreams, your dreams of conjugal affairs with him? ”
Xu Jianan bluntly told the story, because of a patient like Bai Ling, it would be the most effective way to directly break the condition. The smart and thorough Bai Ling seems to have been her own psychiatrist from beginning to end, she grew up in grief and trauma, and in the process of gradually distorting her psychology, in order not to let herself 'go crazy', she found one empathy method after another for herself, so as to make herself "strong and happy" to live. Those deep wounds in the subconscious were replaced by empathy by her. In layman's terms, it is to replace a certain subconscious mind corresponding to the patient with a certain consciousness. The subconscious is activated and becomes conscious, the effect of repression disappears, and the relative painful state of mind disappears.
Bai Ling used such a false husband as an empathic effect, in order to soothe her subconscious hatred and disgust for marriage, love, childhood, and the past. This is a real kind of therapy in psychology, and it must be admitted that Bai Ling has done a very good job. At least, she looks beautiful and healthy now, and her happiness comes from the heart. Lovers are fake, but happiness is real.
Relatively speaking, if it were not for the empathy of that dream husband, then Bai Ling today would probably be depressed, dark, and even misanthropic. This is why Xu Jiannan always feels hesitant and uneasy in terms of breaking her dreams. Although her current love is illusory and distorted, once the empathy disappears, Bai Ling's state may not be better than now. It could be even worse out of control.
After listening to Xu Jianan, Bai Ling exhaled deeply, she didn't fantasize about being punctured, on the contrary, she felt a sense of relief. This surprised Xu Jianan, but at the same time, it was a lot more reassuring.
Bai Ling smiled at Xu Jianan beautifully and said, "I didn't expect to be recognized by you so quickly." Dr. Xu is really amazing, I thought what I said was seamless! It turns out that to you, it is simply full of loopholes. Nightmares are frightening in the bottomless pit, and sweet dreams are intoxicating. It's just that this dream, with you, wakes up too quickly. ”
Xu Jianan smiled apologetically, she didn't feel that she deserved praise at the moment. In her opinion, at least today, she broke Bai Ling's dream, and at the same time broke her happiness.
Bai Ling smiled generously and said, "Don't look at me with eyes that seem to be sorry for me." Dr. Xu, the fact that I can take the initiative to come here proves that I am mentally prepared for this. Actually, I willingly lived like this until I died. The Buddha said that there is a person in the heart, and only when he is alive can he have the spirit. A person can't be a hollow person, he must always have some concern and sustenance. I have found the perfect care and sustenance, and I am willing to stay like this. But...... It wasn't until I began to blur reality and dreams that I realized that my illness seemed to be getting worse. I thought I had found the best medicine for myself, my beloved, but it would not be a good thing to be too obsessed with anything. That's why I came to you for treatment. Dr. Xu, what I want is very simple, I can restore the cognition and memory of a normal person, I don't need you to make me how cheerful and uplifted, to become a promising young man, haha, as long as I don't go more crazy. ”
Bai Ling talked and laughed freely, saying this "appeal" like a quirky little girl, where can you see that she is a little abnormal? Xu Jiannan felt that Bai Ling was definitely the kind of girl who was rare to see, and it was also a rare psychological case for her in recent years. The patient is sober, like a doctor. The doctor listened to her story like a patient.
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