Zhuang Ya couldn't figure out why this was the result.

Why did it suddenly change?

She couldn't figure it out and kept asking herself.

I also think back to the inner sadness of my wandering that day, and the feeling of being empty in my heart, and the feeling of loss.

And after that, she was thinking about how Ying Hanchu would come over and how she would respond, what to say, and how to punish Ying Hanchu.

But Ying Hanchu didn't come over for a few days, and finally went to find her by herself, and then she was like that, as if she was a scoundrel, and she looked even more hanging.

Completely forgetting what happened?

"What, what's the matter? I'm still busy, let go of a fart!" that was the opening remark.

The opening statement that Zhuang Ya didn't expect.

She went to the dormitory, but found Ying Hanchu coming out, Ying Hanchu's slanted waist, looking scoundrel and casual.

It's about the same as when Zhuang Ya saw Ying Hanchu, but it was a confession at that time, but now it is, but it's ......

She didn't know what it was, but she just felt as if love was unconsciously far away, so far away, so strange, so strange.

"How do you ...... That's it!?...... What's wrong with us, how are you ......" Zhuang Ya still remembered her jaw-dropping look.

I was very puzzled and looked at Ying Hanchu.

"Alas...... It's okay, I'm in!" Ying Hanchu turned around and walked as he spoke.

"Eh, I'm not done yet!" A similar scene reappeared, Zhuang Ya pulled Ying Hanchu's arm.

At that time, it was an inexplicable cold war, but this time it was as if they were far away.

"We ...... What's wrong, what's wrong?" Zhuang Ya cried for some reason.

Ying Hanchu shook his arm impatiently, "It's not over!"

Saying that, Ying Hanchu turned to look at Zhuang Ya, "Isn't it...... Are you having fun? This one, the next one?"

"No, no...... I'm just, just ......"

"Just what?" Ying Hanchu looked at Zhuang Ya with a straight face, but there was no trace of love and pity on his face, whether he loved someone or not, his eyes could clearly see it.

"Just what is just...... Three days and two ends, are you very idle? Idle to go and do other things? Aren't you going to graduate? Don't study, come over every day to bother me**what*, you say you're *doing**ah, ah, what's going on!"

"Say, say, what do you want to do? Do you owe CAO, or do you owe ...... Why don't you *open* a room?

Zhuang Ya held back for a while, blushing, and then said, "You...... You don't think I'm missing an explanation?...... Where do you want to go!"

"Hmph, explain, explain what, you want to explain, right? What explanation, who is that woman, what do you like, what do you think!" and then turned his head to look Zhuang Ya up and down.

"What?" Zhuang Ya's train of thought was scrambled, and she didn't know what to say!

"It's nothing, if it's ......" Ying Hanchu raised his eyes and looked at her again, the playful look in his eyes made Zhuang Ya inexplicably afraid, as if he was being seen through.

It's the kind of look at Zhuang Ya like looking at the ketone * body (the appearance of a woman's * body * luo** dew).

Zhuang Ya instinctively covered her xiong part and part of her body, blocked the xiong side with her hand, and said a little woodenly, as if squeezing out the words, "What?"

"It's okay!" Ying Hanchu looked to the side, then whispered a few words in Zhuang Ya's ear, and then left laughing.

Only Zhuang Yamu was left for a long time, and he was sluggish for a long time.

When he reacted again, he realized that Ying Han had left early, and there was a slight ridicule in his ears, as well as the laughter of jokes.

Zhuang Ya forgot how to get back to her dormitory, and forgot what she was thinking.

It's just that after that, Zhuang Ya didn't seem to live like Ying Hanchu, and Ying Hanchu didn't look for her, as if the two of them silently faded in contact, no, Ying said, there was no contact.

Later, when he fell off the list, and when he went home, Zhuang Ya did not meet him or say goodbye.

"We didn't even have a formal goodbye!"

"I didn't expect to go home like this, but it's a different world, I got married, and I seem to follow my wishes, but I can't be happy at all, and I can't care about anything, as if all the things that happen around me are actually someone else's business!"

"How good it would be if people couldn't breathe, they didn't have to breathe, they didn't have to think!"

"I heard that young children are prone to sudden death, if I die, how good it would be, why not die......"

......

Zhuang Ya thought about it a lot, and she was also very self-defeating, and her dreams after returning home were so messy, about Ying Hanchu's life and abandonment, and one day when she went home and saw Ying Hanchu and people *Gou* and!

There is even more of his own bitter begging, and he turns his face and doesn't recognize people!

......

Zhuang Ya didn't know how to have such a dream by herself, it was terrible, but it was also so real, and even, even, Zhuang Ya felt like some kind of omen!

It portends possible misfortune in life in the future, a very likely unfortunate life.

"The dream is the opposite!" Zhuang Ya sometimes persuaded herself, how could it be, they didn't have a future, didn't they......

And the words that Ying Hanchu said in her ears that day were like charms, she didn't dare to move, she didn't dare to contact, and she didn't dare to imagine the future.

That:

Ying Hanchu whispered two words to Zhuang Ya in his ear, which made Zhuang Ya completely blind.

The two sentences were: "You...... If you don't want to pay, I'm good, the last time, it's okay, ready, send me a message, I can't bear me, then accompany me, and I will accompany you well!"

Zhuang Ya remembered that he kissed himself when he was still talking intimately, and then he scraped Zhuang Ya's chin with his index finger!

Laughing before leaving, and the look of waiting for you, the index finger pointed at Zhuang Ya.

This scene has always been unforgettable, do we still have to be like this, only in this way can we be intimate.

That kind of sudden intimacy and words made Zhuang Ya hate herself very much, as if she was a *shame* shame as a woman!

"How could you say that to me? Why didn't I slap you back then!"

"What do you think of me, what you did that night, you said it was love, but in fact I am too...... Forced!"

"I even doubt that you came prepared, or if that's the idea you had in the first place!"

Zhuang Ya didn't dare to continue thinking about it, but when her stomach seemed to move, she felt that she couldn't tell whether it was sad, helpless, or overwhelmed.

She didn't know what to do......

And the truth didn't wait for her to hesitate much, what to think.

Within a few days, maybe Zhuang's mother was said something or what's going on, and she felt very aggrieved when she went home, Zhuang Ya always had nothing to do with herself, and she was in a daze, as if they had a quarrel.

Zhuang's father and Zhuang's mother didn't know how to quarrel.

Then, no, Zhuang's mother seemed to be on the phone.

Later, after shouting Zhuang Ya a few times, Zhuang Ya passed silently.

"What's the matter, call me?" Zhuang Ya walked slowly, pointing to herself, to confirm whether she was calling herself.

"What's the matter, it's like a demon, the devil is stunned!" said Father Zhuang.

"Hey, what's the matter with you, you're always out of state, come and answer the phone!" Zhuang Mu said, pointing to the end of the phone.

When Zhuang Ya came over, she turned on the microphone and talked to the other end.

Zhuang Ya took the phone inexplicably and looked at them.

The mouth shape says, "Who!"

"Tell me for yourself, what's going on with you?" said Zhuang's mother.

"You can do your own thing!" said Father Zhuang was still a little dissatisfied, his face darkened, and he left with his head swinged.

Zhuang Ya seemed to feel something, and said after realizing it, "Stone?"

Because there seems to be no one else in the family except him, there is a need to talk like this, and there are questions.

In the past two days, the family has been talking about the divorce.

The Zhuang mother on the side also said, "You, don't know what to do?

"Family ......" Zhuang Ya is ready to say that money is a little thing, and it is not allowed, and it is unrealistic in terms of economy and other aspects.

As a result, I noticed that the person on the other end of the phone was talking.

"Uh...... What?" Zhuang Ya asked.

"Let my son tell you, right?"

Zhuang Ya hadn't said anything in a daze, and there was already a sound of stones.

“...... Uh...... "I don't know what to say on the other end of the phone."

Then he slowly said, "What you do, you know, don't call anymore, I don't want to listen to you, or what your family says?"

"Hey...... What am I doing, you make it clear, hey ......" Before Zhuang Ya could reply, Ying Hanchu hung up the phone, and only a busy voice remained.

And Zhuang Mu looked at the side, probably because of the closeness, the phone sound insulation is not strong, Zhuang Mother didn't wait for Zhuang Ya to say anything, and asked, "What did you do, why did the stone say the same?

"I don't know, he said don't call anymore, I don't know, ask me *what*?"

Zhuang's mother was obviously a little angry, "Oh, there is no one else here, you *dig* the bottom, tell your mother, what did you do, you are ...... What did you do, or did you say something?"

"I didn't do anything, I didn't say anything, why don't you believe me, believe an outsider, always ask me, I, I don't know what's going on, you ask me who do I ask?"

"You...... You...... Good people say that, I want to believe you, but why are you, you don't fight for anything, why do good people quit the marriage? You don't know how to spread you outside!" Zhuang's mother was obviously very annoyed.

"If you can't retreat, you won't retreat, didn't you say it's okay before? Why are they asking me now, I don't know, they want to retreat, what can I do, do you beg not to retreat?"

"Kid, you've been ...... lately Alas, you ...... Go and go, stay in your room, maybe others just look at our family as poor, forget it, I hope to marry the teacher's family in peace!"

Zhuang Ya walked inexplicably, walked to her room without two steps, and looked back at Zhuang's mother from time to time, always feeling inexplicably strange, and couldn't tell what it was.

Suddenly, when Zhuang Ya looked back at Zhuang Mu, Zhuang Mu said something meaningful, and Zhuang Ya felt strange and inexplicable.

"Yourself...... Anyway, I hope to wait, and everything will go well with the teacher after that, don't make a moth! You have a good rest, don't run around, mom beg you, mom beg, stop a little, let mom save some snacks, okay? Is it okay?

Mother Zhuang's words were very soft, and the last two sentences were almost the same as no strength to say.

But the quiet home still heard it, and even felt the helplessness of Zhuang's mother.

Zhuang Ya was speechless, pointing to herself, about to say something, Zhuang's mother waved her hand, meaning to let her go back to the room.

Zhuang Ya's mother was speechless, Zhuang Ya who returned to her room was inexplicable, tears flowed a lot, and she also felt breathless in her heart, and her stomach was uncomfortable, so she couldn't bear the crying and sobbing, but she felt very uncomfortable.

I didn't feel too sleepy, Zhuang Ya fell asleep.

But when she closed her eyes, Zhuang Ya's heart was still asking herself over and over again:

"Why, why, why do you stop me, why do you stop me, why does it seem like it's all my fault, what I do, what I do should be punished like this? I obviously didn't do anything, I didn't have anything? Why, why did I become the way I am?"

I don't know if it's half asleep, or Zhuang Ya's consciousness is a little sober, she obviously saw that she was walking on an empty road, there was nothing around, and suddenly I don't know how, people and things that came out of nowhere all ran to her, blaming her.

The way the spitting stars flew everywhere, the way they pointed.

Zhuang Ya saw herself squatting in the corner, but still no one gave her a hug or support, all blaming, blaming, criticizing, scolding, and even shoving.

I don't know what Zhuang Ya is doing, she heard the sound of eggshells falling, and the fishy smell that followed, and the illusion that there seemed to be insects crawling on the vegetable leaves, and horror.

Looking up at their eyes, they all looked hideous and terrifying.

"Who are you, who are you, why are you doing this to me, why, why?"

"I didn't do anything, no, I'm a good person, I'm innocent!"

"You're looking for the wrong thing, you're looking for the wrong thing!"

......

No one seemed to hear her voice, but all of a sudden, only her inner voice, shouting, roaring.

And the sound of the heartbeat.

Zhuang Ya could hear herself, as if she was standing next to her, looking at the girl.

"Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up!"

The girl seemed to hear something, or something, and raised her eyes, and her ears opened a little.

Immediately, "Ah, don't!"

Zhuang Ya woke up, only to find out that this just now, don't, it was said by herself.

I felt a little tired as if I had made a dream, and I shouted that I had escaped, so I noticed that there was sweat on my head.

wiped the beads of sweat from his forehead, looked around, and realized that it was a dream, he was injured on the stool next to the cabinet, and fell asleep on the cabinet like that......

I can breathe, I feel smoother, and I am much more relaxed.

Zhuang Ya gasped as if she hadn't breathed well.

The family is quiet, I guess they all went to farming......

Zhuang Ya looked around through the gap in the room, and the house was quiet as usual.

Zhuang Ya seemed to realize it later.

"They're all going to work, should I help?"

Suddenly, this thought was startled by himself, as if he had been very confused when he went home during this time, and he didn't know that the busy work of his family was also hard.

"I ...... What's wrong?" Zhuang Ya asked herself.

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