Hanging up the phone, Xu Jiannan stared at the ceiling blankly, and lost his mind for a moment. I have to say that the big bucket of cold water from my mother really poured her from love into the ice hole. The uneasiness and fear when he first rejected Lu Yan were like wings, eager to fly back.

Holding the mobile phone, he glanced at Lu Yan's name and resisted the urge to broadcast the call. What should I say? I can't just say that my mother just poured cold water on me, and I urgently need some affirmation and comfort from you now, right? Xu Jiannan has always disliked such women, and she doesn't want to become such a woman one day.

It's just that if you really like someone, there will always be some gains and losses. Because I like it too much, I'm afraid of losing. Since when did he start liking Lu Yan like this, Xu Jiannan was vague. I just feel that for a long time, when I was tired, he was the one who survived it. When there was no way back in front of everyone, he came forward to take her away. The lightning and thunder, the heavy rain of the night, it was he who made her feel no longer cold and scared. Xu Jiannan has always been a little lonely, and her cold temperament seems to be destined not to make too many friends. It was Lu Yan who gave birth to a warm sustenance from the depths of her heart. As long as I think of him, it seems that the world is warm.

With such thoughts, Xu Jiannan was not doused with his mother's cold water and fell asleep with peace of mind.

The next day at work, Xu Jiannan did not see Lin Weizhou. I wanted to discuss with him but I had to postpone it, but I heard that I was going to a meeting in another place, and I didn't know how many days I would be able to come back.

But Xu Jianan's work has not decreased at all, and the patient who suddenly came to her today is a patient she treated a year ago. I had recovered a few months ago, but I attempted suicide a few days ago...... So I didn't make an appointment today, and I was brought by my family.

The patient's name is Zhou Chen, male, 25 years old. When Xu Jianan treated him a year ago, he had just been discharged from the hospital for self-harm and suicide attempts. At that time, Zhou Chen's psychological condition made Xu Jiannan very worried, because he almost accounted for most of the typical personality disorders and psychological disorders. Fortunately, after half a year of psychological treatment, he has gotten a lot better. For a period of time after he stopped being diagnosed, he also called Xu Jiannan and said that he was fine. Unexpectedly, in a few months, he began to repeat the same mistakes again.

So when Xu Jiannan knew that today's patient was Zhou Chen, she felt frustrated and sad from the bottom of her heart. Is it because of his own incompetence that he did not heal him that he will embark on this path again?

But self-doubt and denial are clearly worthless. Xu Jiannan was ready, so he asked Zhou Chen to come in.

When they met again, the moment they looked at each other, the expressions in Xu Jianan and Zhou Chen's eyes were very complicated. Xu Jiannan felt guilty that he hadn't really healed him, and Zhou Chen was also ashamed of himself for seeing Xu Jiannan in such a state again.

In order not to make the atmosphere too embarrassing, Xu Jiannan took the lead in breaking this atmosphere, and pretended to be relaxed and said: "Long time no see, come, sit down." As before, let's talk. ”

Zhou Chen smiled a little embarrassedly, walked over, and sat opposite Xu Jianan.

When he met Zhou Chen for the first time, Xu Jianan's impression was that such a young man should not take the extreme road.

Zhou Chen is the kind of person who makes people feel that he is very sunny and energetic at a glance. 188 tall, well-proportioned, with a high nose bridge, and a pair of European-style double eyelids that girls envy. When he laughed, his cheeks were slightly dimpleed, and his hair was slightly curly. Such a boy should be the object of most girls on campus, right? But the reality is that this is not the case.

Speaking of Zhou Chen's condition, it is a little difficult to explain. His suicidal behavior was preceded by self-harm. However, at the root of all these extreme behaviors is personality disorders. Judging from Xu Jianan's test results more than a year ago, Zhou Chen is a typical paranoid personality disorder. This condition is more common in men and occurs in early adulthood. It manifests itself in overly sensitive to frustration and rejection, deeply humiliated by the neglect or rejection of oneself by others, full of resentment, over-reacting in interpersonal relationships, and sometimes implicating oneself. Long-term grudge, refusal to forgive the insults, hurts and contempt he has suffered, resentment of what he thinks is contempt and harm, and a strong sense of hostility and revenge. Suspicious and deliberately misrepresenting one's own experience, misinterpreting unintentional or friendly behavior of others as hostility and contempt. Always suspicious of the good intentions of others and the true purpose of what others do to him. These typical traits have been with Zhou Chen's life almost since he was a teenager. But the family is not taken seriously, also because teenagers seem to be very rebellious and "do everything normally".

Not only that, Zhou Chen is also a person with schizotypal personality disorder. This psychological disorder is still more common in men than in women. However, this schizotypal personality disorder is not a split personality, but is characterized by emotional apathy and obvious deficits in interpersonal relationships. He has few pleasurable activities, and his mood is cold, and his estranged, flat emotions make him indifferent to anyone and lacks enthusiasm. Limited ability to show warmth or consideration to others, indifference to criticism or praise, indifference to what others think of him. Without close friends, it is impossible to build trusting relationships with people, and it is not desirable to have such relationships, and it is a clear disregard for socially accepted conventions. As a result, this dignified teenager can no longer continue to be in school if he only goes to secondary school.

In Zhou Chen's two most prominent personality disorders, maybe the situation will be better if there is only one of them. If it is a simple schizotypic disorder, at least he should be indifferent to everything, unsociable, like to be alone, and does not care about other people's evaluations. However, Zhou Chen is still a paranoid personality, which leads to his indifference and ruthlessness, and he is more sensitive and suspicious, revenge and revenge. In this way, his final direction will inevitably be self-harm and suicide. If he does not stop committing suicide, then he is very likely to become an aggressive personality and cause harm to others.

But as far as Zhou Chen was concerned, he was still the tall and handsome young man, except for his face being a little pale, even his smile was still so good-looking and friendly.

Perennial contact with psychology

Sick patients, Xu Jiannan can't be sure if the smile he showed is genuine, or if it is a clever means to target psychologists. So Xu Jiannan would not take such a friendly smile lightly, she looked at Zhou Chen, frowned, and asked with a somewhat embarrassed smile, "Why is this happening?"

Zhou Chen lowered his head and smiled self-deprecatingly: "Because I saw her...... The moment I saw her, I remembered everything. I can't control my own impulses, and if I don't kill myself, then I'm going to kill her......"

In this case, Xu Jiannan will definitely not take it as crazy talk. Not only that, Xu Jiannan thinks that most normal people may say something like this because of impulse, but only a patient like this in front of him can say it as an expression of "sincerity".

The "she" in Zhou Chen's mouth is the root cause of all these psychological disorders. His girlfriend, his first love, Qianling.

Before talking about his girlfriend, I have to talk about Zhou Chen's family situation. Because of his childhood experience, it directly caused the foundation of the psychological disorder that is almost irreversible.

When Zhou Chen was born, his father was sentenced for sexual assault. In his words, his mother is a typical woman who "has a heart higher than the sky and a life thinner than paper", her face is greater than everything, and even if she is poor, she does not forget to buy herself two flower dresses.

Such a family led to Zhou Chen's inability to get the warmth of his parents' family normally when he was a child, and his mother also chose to smuggle abroad to work because she wanted to make money and live better than others. Even though she was sent back home twice, she went out again and went out again...... It can be said that Zhou Chen's mother already belongs to a paranoid personality. has lived with his aunt for a long time, and although his mother is working abroad, she loves him like life. He was the kind of boy who would bathe him until he was eighteen years old, and his mother would bathe him when he returned home.

The conditions are not good, but he is morbidly "spoiled", and his mother often says that he is her life. So much so that Zhou Chen has always regarded himself very high as an adult, even if the conditions are very ordinary, he always has an inexplicable sense of pride. Unbridled profligacy, craving material pursuits beyond his means, and a series of inappropriate behaviors, all developed normally under his mother's pampering. He is disobedient, behaves perversely, has difficulty getting along with others, and is sensitive to grudges. Therefore, just one year after the technical secondary school, he dropped out.

Fortunately, at that time, Zhou Chen had not fully developed into social disordered personality disorder, which is often heard of as an antisocial personality. At the most confused age, he knew his girlfriend Qianling.

Qianling is a girl two years younger than him, and they used to attend the same school, but they didn't know each other. Later, he met Qianling by chance, and he began to pursue it frantically, Zhou Chen said, Qianling was like a shining light in his eyes, and he had to get her.

In the process of pursuing his girlfriend, he became lowly and gentle, and his temperament changed greatly. At that time, when Xu Jiannan listened to him talk about the past, he felt that he was really "healed" by love at that time. If things can really develop as expected, then Zhou Chen's personality disorder is likely to gradually heal.