However, his personality flaws are destined to not be able to keep a relationship for a long time. He dotes on his girlfriend like he loves his own sweetheart. But he was still sensitive and irritable, and the two of them lived together after a year together, and life was inevitably trivial and stumbling, and they were not too burdened for the immature eighteen-year-old. As a result, Zhou Chen began to expose some personality flaws. For example, during the quarrel, in order to avoid hurting Qianling, he chose to smash the glass window with his fist in a rage, smash a glass with one punch, smash the door, and smash the wall with his fist until it was bloodstained.

Qian Ling is a girl with a mature mind, although she was frightened several times, she gradually understood Zhou Chen's character flaws. Fortunately, she loves him, although she is poor, although Zhou Chen is occasionally angry, but because of Zhou Chen's sincerity to her, the girl in the flower season always has an impulse to do anything for love. Therefore, Qian Ling has always been inseparable from Zhou Chen, and Zhou Chen still uses his somewhat abnormal love to maintain the young love between them.

Until Qianling's 21st birthday, she said to Zhou Chen for a night bubble, hoping that Zhou Chen could grow up, like a mature man, find a job, and think about the future. Zhou Chen, who had been doing nothing and disobeying discipline, agreed, but when he really worked, he was bored.

He looked for a job again and again, resigned and was dismissed again and again. Not having a job lasts two months, which is a typical personality disorder. Although Qian Ling did not dislike him, she still worked hard to make ends meet, but in her heart, she should occasionally question whether her choice was correct.

This kind of questioning cannot escape Zhou Chen's sensitive nerves. He became moody and even drank a lot. Going to work was obviously the most painful thing for him, so he found a way to alleviate the pain and have an affair.

That time, Qianling's mobile phone ran out of battery, and he used Zhou Chen's phone to make a call, and accidentally found some ambiguous text messages. Qian Ling couldn't believe it, she tried everything she could, she didn't want anything, as long as the love of love, it turned out to be so ridiculous. She was a resolute girl who could give up everything for love, but she also demanded absolute loyalty. She couldn't accept such a betrayal, not to mention that Zhou Chen's ambiguous woman was still a married woman in a work place.

After the incident in the east window, Zhou Chen knelt on the ground and kowtowed, grabbing Qianling to prevent her from leaving. Admit that you were wrong over and over again, and promise never to happen again. Seeing that Qian Ling still refused to forgive, he began to harm himself, until Qian Ling couldn't stand it anymore and promised to forgive him. Xu Jiannan asked Zhou Chen what it was like at that time, and Zhou Chen said that the smell of his blood was all over the house, and the blood was splashed everywhere, and he couldn't wipe it clean the next day. That feeling...... Like release.

In fact, in such a state, he should have done psychotherapy in time a long time ago. But the popularization of mental health in China is still not enough, and most people will think about this kind of thing, and few will think of taking him to see a psychiatrist. In this way, Zhou Chen and Qian Ling maintained it again.

But the characteristics of that bad temperament and antisocial personality are bred in the pleasure of self-harm and moodiness

If you change jobs, you will be found out by Qianling that he is having an affair with a female colleague. The girl, who was sad and disappointed at first, finally got chilled. She found that her so-called love couldn't save Zhou Chen at all, and she couldn't save herself. She was fed up with the kind of life where she had nothing and had to suffer betrayal, and she didn't make noise or noise with Zhou Chen, and began to treat her coldly.

What Zhou Chen didn't expect was that at that moment, a man appeared. The man was mature and steady, and gave her the greatest warmth and care when Qianling was most painful and sad. Moreover, that man is also very good and successful, driving the car that Zhou Chen dreams of, and he is generous.

When Qianling and Zhou Chen said that they would break up, he refused again and again, and even locked Qianling in the house and did not allow her to go out. But this kind of behavior obviously can't be done for a long time, and after being rejected several times to break up, Qianling suddenly disappeared one day.

At that moment, Zhou Chen almost went crazy. He stayed downstairs at Qianling's house for eight days and eight nights, but Qianling didn't seem to be at home at all, and finally they called the police and took him away. This incident alarmed his mother, who thought that everything was caused by his lack of money, and his psychological extremes became more and more intense, and finally borrowed a lot of money to buy a small house. Because for so many years, Qianling has been renting a house with him, and the two of them always say that it would be good to have a home of their own one day, and Zhou Chen also said that if you have a house, you will get married. He remembered the words, but forgot all the wrong things he had done in the past few years.

Now that he has a house, the girl who is willing to eat bran and marry him will never return to him.

When he couldn't find Qianling, he committed suicide. Because of repeated suicides, his mother collapsed and turned to the police, neighborhood committees and other institutions, just asking the girl she used to look down on to come to see her son.

In short, in the end, Qian Ling still saw him. But when I saw him again, Qianling was no longer what she used to be. With him before, poor, sad, desperate, betrayed, deceived, and had to endure his moodiness and self-harm violence, Qianling at that time was like a resentful woman in her thirties, making it hard to believe that she was a twenty-year-old girl. But the time Zhou Chen saw her, she was as bright as a flower, with the dazzling beauty of the first meeting, and stood in front of him with an indifferent expression.

Zhou Chen, who was on the hospital bed, knew that Qianling already had someone else, and she couldn't tolerate him anymore in her heart. It was obvious that he betrayed first, but Zhou Chen had a deep feeling of being betrayed and abandoned. He said that he would never forget, Qian Ling stood in front of the hospital bed, looked at him with pity but indifference, and then said: When will you grow up?

After that, Qianling also said to Zhou Chen's mother: Don't look for me for this kind of thing in the future, it's not that I'm ruthless. Seven years of affection, I am worthy of him. It's just that he can find me by committing suicide, so that he will kill himself often in the future. For his sake, stop looking for me and go to a psychiatrist.

These were the last words that Zhou Chen heard Qian Ling say. Watching Qian Ling leave, he completely collapsed. All of its personality disorders and psychological disorders have exploded. No one can stop him, he wants to kill himself again and again,

Hate everyone. thinks that Qianling's departure is all the responsibility of others.

The blows again and again made Zhou Chen almost lose his last sanity and go completely crazy. His mother was helpless, so she really brought him to Jiamei and found a psychiatrist. Xu Jianan, it was in that situation that he took Zhou Chen's case.

It's not hard to imagine how difficult the initial treatment was. Zhou Chen not only wanted to die, but also hated everyone. He hated his mother's incompetence, hated Qianling's strange thoughts, hated the rich man, and even hated his father, whom he had never met very often. The degree of his hatred of society made him almost want to strangle Xu Jianan when he saw her.

But later, Xu Jiannan used many, many methods, including hypnosis, suggestion, drugs, and patient counseling again and again, countless times, to gradually calm Zhou Chen's crazy state.

After the madness, there is endless sadness and remorse. During that time, Zhou Chen needed to come to the clinic almost every day to find Xu Jianan. Even if he cried with Xu Jiannan for an hour, he would feel that he could still live this day.

After more than half a year of treatment, Zhou Chen finally returned to a normal state. At least, at that time, Xu Jiannan felt that he was already a lot more normal. Without suicidal tendencies, without the urge to take revenge, he was able to face loss and regret calmly, and he began to try something that could divert his attention, and even began to look for a job again. Xu Jiannan watched him become more "normal" little by little, and agreed with him to appropriately reduce his medication, reduce psychological treatment, and slowly return to being a normal person.

Make up for the youth that you have failed in those years. This sentence was said by Xu Jiannan when he treated Zhou Chen for the last time.

Facing each other again today, Xu Jiannan couldn't help asking: "You didn't really make up for your past youth, did you?"

Zhou Chen's desperate expression made people feel distressed, he looked at Xu Jianan with blank eyes and said, "Doctor Xu...... I've tried, and I've had a stable job for half a year, and I haven't smashed anything, I haven't hurt anyone. But until that day, I met her...... She and him...... Get out of the car...... She smiled so beautifully, and her smile was like a flower...... It was even a happy smile that I don't even remember...... That damn man doesn't deserve her, right......? But why did she smile so happily? At that moment, I understood...... The youth that lived up to it will never be compensated. What I have lost has been completely lost! Those who have turned their backs on me, those who have abandoned me, and those who used to say that the heavens and the earth are old have left me...... I know, Dr. Xu, I know what you want to say to me, and I have been familiar with your persuasion for half a year. I know everything, I know that I am self-inflicted, and I even know now that I am indeed sick! My whole world was gray from the beginning, and it was she! She gave my world color! And then she stripped me of my color with her own hands! I turned my world from gray to black...... I can't see anything, I can't see the future, I can't see the past, there is only darkness in front of me, a darkness that only death can end......"