Because of the reason for the inexplicable child who went home with her, she finally clearly felt everyone's rejection and accusations.

Because in their hometown, they inexplicably brought someone at home, still a child, but did not have a nominal husband, that is, they always knew that this person was single, but suddenly came home a few years later and had a child.

Sometimes it seems as if it is more difficult for people from the outside world to accept the situation than it is for them to accept it in their own homes.

The kind of "concern" that everyone seems to be pervasive makes her feel that she can't answer several times, and she can't calm down, so she laughs.

It's hard for her not to answer.

And the family originally said that this was a relative and friend who helped take care of it.

In the short term, it was good to be confused, but as the days went by, there were a few people chatting with a stool, chatting there, and looking at the situation of their family.

The seemingly ordinary conversation and the inadvertent look at the past seemed to make Zhuang Ya and them feel like they were being watched and watched.

And all this has not yet expressed his dissatisfaction, but the father of the family, but he spoke, he said relaxed words: "You raise it like this, we can raise it if you have nothing to do, but the child will always grow older day by day, so what do others think of it, and how can they explain it?"

Zhuang Ya finally understood that we, who originally thought that we were little people, would also need to report like this at a certain time, as if we needed to give others an explanation, a "truth" that could be seen.

Zhuang Ya said, "Whatever, live your own life!"

Originally, this was actually persuaded by Zhuang Ya's parents when she went home, but now her heart has not been appeased yet, but she suddenly wants to do something to appease others.

Hesitate about a victim, when did it become the perpetrator.

In this way, you need to explain to others, but not to your own family first.

"You can stay and leave, forget it, but, when you leave, we still have to live, we still have to eat and drink, what do others think of it?"

It didn't matter if it wasn't all, even if her mother helped persuade her, but she didn't think it was a long-term solution, so she broke the bold words she said when she came back, and expressed peace of mind.

I really can't feel at ease right now.

It's just that the mother said more simply, "Since it is his (Ying Hanchu) child, go to their house and ask how to solve it, so it is far from a matter in the mother's house, the child has grown up, how to say, there is always a big day, how to explain the father to the child, the child asks the father, how to answer?"

Even in the end, even the mother wondered if it was because she was pregnant, that is, the child in front of her, was not Ying Hanchu's, so he treated her badly, not because of the girl, or because of each other's contradictions.

After all, Ying Hanchu has never had a phone, and he just came back two days ago and had a phone call to ask, but after Zhuang Ya never ignored it, there was not a single phone message or text message.

Zhuang Ya's mother always felt that no one treated her children like this, as well as the children's mothers, naturally in her simple concept, as well as the situation encountered, it was the kind of thinking that marrying a chicken and marrying a dog and a dog, even if the man was not very good, if he had a child, or marriage, he should live together.

Then the two of them said that they would either live together and let Zhuang Ya change her temper or something, there is nothing that can't go on, and their older generation has stumbled through their lives like this.

It doesn't seem to be the so-called on the surface, no matter how difficult it is, the kind of divorce that doesn't seem to exist and divorce is not a last resort, it's hard to see.

It is a question of whether there is a single household in a hundred households.

is also like this, Zhuang Ya said that the child should be cold, but they said that they should go back, and if it is not his, they should apologize even more.

Zhuang Ya had the idea that she couldn't stay and could only go.

And the mother hesitated and said, "I'll look at this, I'll see it later, don't worry, don't worry!"

Although she said this, Zhuang Ya actually felt that her mother actually did not support her staying at home.

It's just different from usual, Zhuang Ya that day lost her temper a little and shouted, "Then where should I go, where should I go?"

But Zhuang Ya was very quiet after that, maybe she figured out something, or Zhuang Ya communicated something with Ying Hanchu.

Within two days, Zhuang Ya said, talked to Ying Hanchu, picked herself up, and packed her things, and her parents asked something.

She replied calmly.

The mother was still a little worried, but Zhuang Ya said, "He was embarrassed to come, so he made an appointment to wait for him at the door of the car!"

In response to his mother's words, "Why don't you just come and pick it up!"

Zhuang Ya said something, and then smiled and packed her things, the situation that day was a little inexplicably discordant.

I don't know what my mother feels, or if she is not at ease, she insists on letting Zhuang Ya have lunch before leaving.

During the meal, I asked Zhuang Ya a few times if she had such words.

But Zhuang Ya smiled and said, "Definitely, otherwise why should I pack my things...... It's not early, I'm going to hurry, I'm urging it!"

"I told him, pick you up here, there's nothing to be embarrassed about, in fact, ......"

"No, no, and say yes, say yes" Zhuang Ya quickly pulled the rice.

The mother was about to say something, but the father said, "It's a family, so it's not good to be separated like this!"

The implication is obvious, he is in favor of leaving, and he agrees with Zhuang Ya's decision.

Saying this, the mother was about to say something, but she didn't say much.

After the meal, my mother wanted to help carry things to the place, "That's also a little distance, wait there together, otherwise you will be tired and tired all the way!"

Zhuang Ya insisted, saying, "It's too late, it's too late, that's it, that's it!"

The mother said, "Wouldn't it be faster to help carry it?"

But I don't know how to refuse like this, Zhuang Ya lost his temper, "I said no, no, not much, how many times do I have to say it, no, no!"

Seeing that the child lost his temper, the mother was like a child who made a mistake: "I just want to help!"

The mother's timid appearance made Zhuang Ya feel retreated, but she had come to this point, and there was no reason to retreat.

So, Zhuang Ya bit her lip hard, trying to calm her emotions, "No, really don't!"

"This ......," the mother wanted to say.

But then the father said, "People who are so big are not children, just let her, follow her!"

Zhuang Ya's mood at that moment was a little complicated, I don't know whether to thank her father for this "relief", or feel ruthless, or indifferent, Zhuang Ya's mood is a little complicated.

But still gone......

I don't know how to leave this place, and the imaginary scenes such as the reluctance of the parents and the tearful farewell are completely different from "It's good, it's good!"

Along the way, Zhuang Ya carried a big bag and a suitcase, which was very heavy, very heavy.

But I tried to go fast, very fast, but the trip was still not fast.

In my impression, it seems that Zhuang Ya walked for a few minutes, and there was something from her mother behind her, but she was overwhelmed by Zhuang Ya's inner feelings.

No one knows how Zhuang Ya finally arrived, the so-called car door.

But standing in the doorway of the car.

She suddenly felt a kind of wonder, I don't know if it's the ease of leaving, or the confusion of where to go?

She felt that she was leaving, that her home was not for her to stay, but where to go?

Touching the phone, looking at the text messages from the contact Ying Hanchu on it, still stuck in the conversation of the day or two before he left, the quarrel, and the words that he didn't want her to care.

Somehow, she realized that there was a child next to her, her daughter.

She didn't know how, in fact, she had forgotten it, at that moment, really, when she was leaving and preparing to leave, she forgot that she was actually a mother, and she should think more about everything, she could walk around casually, where to go, but what about her, what should she do?

At that time, like her later, she held her daughter's hand, but there was more helplessness, and a little more decadence about the child and herself.

"I'm no longer the one I used to say go, I can run down anything, no matter what, no, no......"

Zhuang Ya didn't know how many times she had such feelings.

But in my heart, I still forget that I have the identity of a child, and I still will, more "impulsive".

Seeking perfection has never been the key to managing relationships, but Zhuang Ya has thought more than once that this is the most important point in maintaining enthusiasm in the relationship, or not being separated and separated.

So you can imagine how tired and hard Zhuang Ya is.

Zhuang Ya remembered that she was holding her daughter's hand and walked out of a daze, she cried again, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, my mother doesn't know what to do, how to do it?"

She was confused.

Looking at the text message, Ying Hanchu broke up from that chat, and after those few text messages, Zhuang Ya has been at home for almost a month, and there is still no text message or phone call from Ying Hanchu.

Yes, the text message and phone call I just said are fake.

Zhuang Ya actually didn't communicate with Ying Hanchu, and naturally there was no so-called thing to pick herself up and take herself away.

Looking at this emptiness, there is no text message behind it, Zhuang Ya's heart is also so empty, empty, there seems to be an endless black hole in her heart, expectations are filled, but no matter how you can't fill it.

She felt a sense of nothingness in her heart.

A little stubborn in her heart, and poor self-esteem, she didn't want to do this, and went back in disgrace, so she went to the city where there was no cold beginning.

But after staying for less than a week, looking at the decreasing money, Zhuang Ya didn't know how fortunate she found a stack of money in her bag, and she estimated that her mother was stuffed, or sighed, did she find something, afraid that she would not have a good time.

At that moment, Zhuang Ya cried like a dog.

She thought about her conversation with her mother, and others, and she knew that she was actually still loved, not abandoned.

(1. Memories)

But some, I feel that I am very useless, I live with Ying Hanchu, I started first, but I was pregnant, I was worried that at that time, my mother gave me money, because I was afraid that I would not have a good time, and then my daughter was born, and my mother pinched her days, and she still came to take care of Zhuang Ya Yuezi.

It's just that Zhuang Ya doesn't want her mother to stay for too long, mainly because she is afraid of seeing her humility and not wanting her mother to be sad.

Zhuang Ya insisted and made an excuse to let her mother leave.

If it weren't for Ying Hanchu's behavior, in addition to Zhuang Ya's mother, she occasionally helped take care of the children, after her mother left, and Ying Hanchu gradually annoyed Zhuang Ya always said that he didn't take care of it right, how much milk powder was, and what kind of temperature was a small problem.

So after arguing a few times, there was gradually no joy of the child's arrival, and then I don't know when Ying Hanchu simply didn't care about anything, Zhuang Ya stubbornly lasted like this for more than half a month, because originally, she was confined, her heart knot was not untied, she was depressed, and it was always this busy work not long after, Zhuang Ya didn't know how to have a migraine.

Zhuang Ya didn't know if it was because she didn't listen to her mother, during the confinement period, she couldn't blow the wind, and she inadvertently blew the wind.

Whenever she was unwell and had a headache, Zhuang Ya was easily irritable and yelled at Ying Hanchu, "If you hadn't clamped the window, would I have been like this?

"You don't think it's right what I do, what else do I do, what do I do, you can do it, you can do it yourself, don't disturb me playing games!" came the sound of playing games from another room in the room.

Because I was afraid of the child's crying, as well as the breastfeeding movement in the middle of the night, etc., I was sleepy, and I went to another room at the beginning of the cold class, and I still played games and played.

And he is so busy with the hard work before and after, a strong sense of contrast, Zhuang Ya is very angry again and again, especially how angry she is, she is still laughing and playing games, chatting with her partners in the game, chatting with headsets, Zhuang Ya broke out again and again and said, "You don't know, get better, how many times you have said milk powder, you want to get warm water, warm water, just this, I don't know how many times I said it, I can't listen to it......"

Zhuang Ya said a lot of things, and the response was often silence, or ignoring the game.

That time, Zhuang Ya couldn't bear it, because she had a little cold and was afraid of infecting the child, so she asked Ying Hanchu to help take care of it and stay away from the child.

Even if he wore a mask, Zhuang Ya was still worried, but Ying Hanchu didn't understand these concerns, he even felt why he had a cold, whether he didn't want to take care of the child, and said, since he didn't want to take care of it, he would leave his hometown to his *mother*.

Zhuang Ya didn't disagree, but she didn't actually get the certificate yet, she didn't want to go to his house like this, she wanted to get the certificate, and she was also entangled in the fact that she hadn't done the wine yet, she felt that she didn't have a name to go back, and she felt that his family didn't welcome her.

And Ying Hanchu always said, "It's not that I don't get it with you, isn't this even old?"

Annoying to drink to death, and, it's okay to come and take care of your mother!

But Ying Hanchu always has various reasons, and it is these reasons that don't seem worth scrutinizing, such as what, motion sickness, and not being used to eating here.

But it was still like a wall between them.

In between quarrels, the more noisy they are, the more fierce they become.

In fact, I wanted to leave, so I called my mother to come and pick me up, but I had no choice but to do it.

It was the reason for the haste to speak, and it was also a fluke in my heart, thinking that Ying Hanchu would refuse and be reluctant, but Ying Hanchu said, "It's up to you! Anyway...... Whatever you want, just don't bother me with the game, do whatever you like!"

That Ying Hanchu's wave of his hand made Zhuang Ya feel inexplicably broken......

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