Looking at the scenery outside the locomotive window and the dozens of pedestrians hurrying on the road, Xia Xiaoxue was still thinking with tears in her eyes: Maybe everyone's life is busy, but no one can say what is the meaning of living?

"Especially myself, why is it that every time my heart is beaten, it is blank, and excitement is often accompanied by sadness?"

"Is it just because I'm a stone girl?"

"If not, what else?"

"So, since God created women, why didn't he give me the reproductive organs that women should have?"

"So that I lose the right to have love, I don't dare to love, and sometimes I don't even dare to think about it?"

"And my little Nange, is he still alive now?"

"And in the past three years in Shanghai, Sister Lili and I are both pigs, half a brain, not enough head, and we are fooled and tricked?"

After an incredible imagination, Cher burst into tears again......

“……”

Ma Lili is not like this.

Looking back on the past, although Ma Lili also burst into tears and wanted to forget the past, she couldn't forget it, but those memories of the past still hit her heart. Everything from the past seems to be reflected again.

The scene, still four years ago, is still the same person who fell in love with the bar.

"Don't drink it, Sister Lili! ”

"Don't drink, pay attention to your body!"

In the luxurious bar, Ah Niu at that time was very concerned about Ma Lili's appearance. Snatch a cup for her and comfort her.

"What's the matter? Little Niu, don't you feel sorry for your sister? If you really feel sorry for your sister, then hurry up and marry your sister, my sister doesn't want to drift anymore!"

"I really don't want to drift anymore-"

At that time, Ma Lili was very serious and blinked her eyelashes and said this to Ah Niu. But Ah Niu seemed to be suddenly confused, didn't answer, and didn't know how to answer, so Ma Lili was stunned, and she cried again and said: "Sister has been deceived again, Ah Niu! You men, you don't have a good thing! Sister, I'm really unhappy today, hurry, quickly pour ...... for my sister."

"If you don't want to fall on it, then you can marry me......"

"Marry me......"

At that time, Ma Lili had already drunk a lot, and her words seemed to be nine points dizzy, although she was talking about wine, a little unreliable, and confused, but that also scared Ah Niu so much that she was stunned and uncomfortable, "If you want, if you want me to marry you, how is it possible?"

"How is this possible?"

"Completely impossible?"

In the dark thoughts, Ah Niu was very helpless. Also slightly disgusted. Secretly kill with a smile.

But I had to do it openly, patted her on the shoulder, and said to Ma Lili, "Don't drink, sister, you're already drunk." Otherwise, you lie on the stage and rest for a while, and when you are busy for a while, the little brother will send you home. Ah Niu looked concerned about Ma Lili, and secretly waved his hand to the unscrupulous goods who often came to the bar to "pick up corpses", "Get out of here". It also hints at the gesture cut, and if the consciousness provokes him to do something really special, no one will have good fruit to eat at that time.

Hehe, don't say it really works, it seems that those goods have suffered from him, and they are really a little afraid of him, so they all quickly slipped away. But they were all unhappy, and secretly laughed at Ah Niu.

and even secretly abused.

Ah Niu suddenly encountered a small favor and bartended to greet the guests.

In fact, these Ma Lili can still understand in their eyes and hearts that the girl who has been cared about like Ah Niu has been more than once, N many times.

Especially for Ah Niu's special profession, it is obvious that he has long been accustomed to the bits and pieces of these guests.

After a little busyness, Ah Niu saw that Ma Lili was really difficult to take care of, and she was still very worried, especially when she was still holding a glass and asking for wine.

So he turned around and said, "Don't drink, Sister Lili, you're drunk!"

"I'm so drunk, let's go, I'll take you home!" Ah Niu reiterated.

"I'm not drunk, brother, it's almost full, help me fill up, which puppy is drunk?" looked at each other for a moment, "Hehehe, send me home, don't, don't, no, no, in fact, my sister doesn't have a home at all." ”

"There's really no home—"

Ma Lili was drunk, scarlet and vulture, Tao Tao was talking, holding a goblet and asking Ah Niu to mix some wine.

Obviously, the waiter at that time, Ah Niu, still didn't beat Ma Lili. However, when Ma Lili just put down her glass on the bar, it seemed that she hadn't drunk the glass of wine she had just blended, so she immediately lay on the bar and didn't wake up.

At that time, despite the loud crowd in the bar, she was unconscious, and there were still tears in the corners of her eyes, and the tears and dancing lights were also shining inexplicably.

And the kind-hearted Ah Niu smiled kindly and shook his head, "Hehehe, it's still blowing, sister, can't it?!" Then he went to greet other guests.

“……”

It turned out that Ma Lili borrowed alcohol to kill her sorrows at that time, because at noon that day, she went to the doctor and knew that she was pregnant, and it had been more than five months.

But she was reluctant to knock it out.

Four years ago, she felt that she was really in love with the man in the personable suit and leather shoes, and I heard that the man also boasted that he was the chief director of a well-known show. Still a married man.

But she still loves him and is willing to be his junior, without hesitation.

But she never expected that in the end, people would ruthlessly abandon her.

Of course, at that time, Ma Lili faced that love without morality, she really had no way out, and there was no way back.

So at that time, she still mustered up the courage to dial the man's phone and tell the man the news of her pregnancy, but the man once again ruthlessly scolded her on the other end of the phone, and laughed at poor Ma Lili, "Damn, a chicken, you still want to be a phoenix? Die, fool dog!" Then, the phone stopped inexplicably in a burst of very arrogant laughter.

Since then, there has been no news, and she has gone to the place where the man said to look for him many times, but it is nothing.

In this way, Ma Lili at that time seemed to enjoy the special treatment and material dependence of such a man, and all that was left to her was only deep hurt and pain.

Perhaps, at that time, she was not qualified to scold that man for his deception or lack of responsibility. The main reason is that, professionally speaking, the biggest liar at all is herself.

Obviously, the result of that kind of tragedy is that her vanity has deceived her love again.

Therefore, it seems that in this world, no matter who you brew, you can only drink the "bitter wine" you brew painfully.

After that, there are still words of suffering.

Of course, at that time, Ma Lili also deeply knew that she was once again facing the dream of her director, and the love she was immersed in encountered was an irresponsible "bedbug".

Helpless, so that day she had to come to the bar where they met for the first time again, what she was anxiously looking forward to, what was she looking forward to, why didn't she want to, and met love around the corner.

However, after waiting for so long, there was nothing she hoped for, and there was nothing she hoped for, and she was so sad that she was drunk and unconscious that day at the bar.

At that time, I don't know what time it was, no one noticed, not even Ah Niu noticed, Ma Lili was taken out of the bar by a fancy man. It seems that no one knows what kind of tricks the fancy man used, so that Ma Lili obediently followed him to the deserted street market, and the two of them were hugging each other tightly and anxiously waiting for the appearance of TAXI.