"The obstacle to survival is not ignorance, but arrogance, or arrogance, or not knowing how to be grateful and self-disciplined, deliberately hiding the truth of the facts, so as to confuse right and wrong, reverse black and white, and do whatever you want. You know, whenever the gun goes off, there may really be no winner?!"

"Like a starling?"

Xia Xiaoxue didn't know why she had such feelings in her heart, prophet, or enlightenment.

Especially she felt that the ghost master was ruthless, his crime was extremely evil, and he deserved death.

“......”

And Ma Lili thought: In fact, my sister Xiaoxue has been very bitter over the years, it can be said that there are hardships, most of the other models practice yoga, but she is so strong, what kind of taekwondo do do she learns? Obviously, it's not all about hiding, hiding your privacy or pain?

Sneaking a glance at her sister, everything was fine, and she then thought: In those years, she often wandered around in Jinan's major "erotic trading places". It is not said that with his own posture, charm and charm, he is a bit like a dog in the circle, but he has indeed suffered a lot of knives from the rivers and lakes?

In fact, Ma Lili has never figured out how she survived since she was a child, and she really doesn't know who her biological parents are.

When she was six or seven years old, she only knew that her surname was Ma and that her name was Ma Lili, and she didn't seem to know anything about the rest. Therefore, she has always been a little confused about her fate and life experience. Of course, since the fire in the Zhou family's compound, she followed the Xia family, and began to wonder how she grew up?

As a result, she often asked and worried about herself, where did she come from and where should she go? Especially the few wrong choices in this life doomed her fate to be miserable and confused.

Therefore, she has always felt that there are too many things in her heart that cannot be let go of and are forever expanding.

Especially when she grew up and suffered a lot of knives from the rivers and lakes, she felt that she was too naïve and ignorant, she was really big-chested and brainless, with a pig's head and a big pig's trotters. A beautiful pig. More and more pigs.

At this moment, she remembered that it was a night when the lights were on, and the autumn night in Jinan was beautiful, but the street was very cold.

Perhaps, at that time, it was Ma Lili's own heart that was even colder. She remembered that she was thinly dressed, alone in the bar with the cold glass, and the thoughts and sorrows in her heart melted away as quickly as the liquid in the glass.

At that time, she was glassing one after another, the past became a trend, and she used wine to eliminate her sorrows, but her tears were hazy and drunk, but she became more sad and depressed; At that time, she borrowed wine to eliminate her sorrows and sorrows, Ma Lili kept muttering and recalling, "To say that there is true love and true love in the world, it's all nonsense......

However, the anesthesia of alcohol made her face redder and her eyes redder. It's almost like elves and monsters, and they all want to eat people.

At that time, she felt that the beautiful dream she fantasized about should have woken up, she should have woken up a long time ago, and she also said, "The most beautiful love in the world shouldn't belong to people like us in the first place?"

In fact, at that time, she was just a graphic model who had just debuted, in other words, she was even a lady who often walked in the "erotic place".

That night, the man and woman who fell in love with a room in the bar room were smiling, singing, getting drunk, and crazy. Suddenly, a man handed over a cigarette, and she shook her head in refusal. At the same time, she saw the man's dark face, tall and thin figure, a little silly but handsome, not friendly, and he also said arrogantly, "This young lady, is it a person? If you are really lonely, Lao Tzu will go out with you to play." ”

At that time, Ma Lili "snorted", very dumbfounded, and very teasing.

"Damn, oh my god it's so fucking unfair! Why do these stinky men just bully people like us? It's not fair, it's not fair, it's so fucking unfair?!" she slammed the glass in her hand as she muttered to herself, and the wine in the glass splashed on her hand and the bar.

Fortunately, fortunately, the cup in her hand at that time really stood up to tossing and beating, and it didn't break.

Otherwise, you will hurt yourself.

At that moment, the man also left boredly in her disdainful eyes.

So at that time, Ma Lili didn't put him on the table, and as soon as she raised her head, she poured the remaining liquid in the utensils into her mouth. At that moment, she wanted to drink all the hatred and all the love of the past. All of them turned into helplessness.

And she knows deeply: in fact, this kind of helplessness is really called a last resort.

Although the liquid can be drunk in one go, can she forget such love and such hatred after being anesthetized? Can she really be herself, can she live her own wonderful life?

Actually, she didn't know.

How can such a woman make it easier for her to hold happiness firmly in her own hands......

No one can even know.

Therefore, at that time, many people around her put a big question mark on her life.

"One more drink, waiter!"

Her eyes began to be blurred or playful, and her facial features were also distorted and no longer refined, so it made people feel surprised and pity or pity, and it was even more distressing. Because at that time, she was pregnant with someone else's child without knowing what she was in her belly. It's been more than five months. Buying drunk like this is actually a sin, and there is remorse.

But she couldn't regret it.

She also felt that it was just because she was big-minded and lacked wisdom.

Especially the handsome waiter Ah Niu, he already seemed to understand something, he wiped the wine splashed on the bar, and at the same time wanted to snatch the cup from Ma Lili's hand, "You, you can't drink anymore, Sister Lili! Drinking it again will not only hurt your body, but also the child in your belly?"

"Child, what child, who child?"

"Uh-huh, why are you still drinking?"

Ma Lili seemed to be a little awake but still nervous, she raised her head and looked at Ah Niu blankly, and when she saw that Ah Niu was about to grab her cup, she hurriedly retracted the hand that raised the cup. Since then, he has looked at this buddy who has a good relationship with his sister and brother on weekdays. At that moment, how could she resist Ah Niu's concern, so she was moved to cry all of a sudden, and shed tears sadly.

She instantly remorseed, crying so sadly.

“......”

But that's all in the past, almost four years.

At this time, Ma Lili looked at the scenery outside the car window, "This memory is so heart-wrenching, really heart-wrenching!"

Before she knew it, she was in tears again.

“......”

"The Chinese often say that 'the tree is thousands of feet high, and the fallen leaves return to the roots', which is actually very reasonable. Home really is a safe haven. Especially when a person is poor or depressed, home will give you warmth, give you hope, give you comfort, and family affection will really make you want to continue to live. ”

Thinking like this, Cher also burst into tears.